Chapter Twenty-three

These past few days, talagang di ko maintindihan ang sarili ko. Maybe because I'm too paranoid knowing that Jake's plane is arriving later. Knowing that he’d come is better but on the other hand, knowing when I’d see him is also torture.

Parang may nagka-countdown sa utak ko na binibilang pati ang huling segundo kung kailan siya darating.

The more I plead for time to be slower, the faster the dreaded moment comes. I didn't expect it to be this soon. Sa totoo nga lang, I was hoping I would never have to deal with this.

Ivan held my hand while his other hand was driving. Kakahatid lang namin sa mga bata at ngayon, we're on our way to the airport. Jake and I decided that we should talk in person to settle things out. Ayaw ko namang bigla-bigla na lang siyang magpakilala sa anak ko.

This needs to be rehearsed. Kailangan alam ko kung saan at kailan. Pati ang mga salitang lalabas sa bibig niya, alam ko. OA na kung OA, I don't care. I’m putting my son on top of my priority and I need to know