“Mimi, payag ka na please.” He pouted as he pleaded. Naku. Naka-puppy eyes pa. Napailing na lang ako at tumingin sa malayo para hindi niya makitang nagpipigil lang ako ng ngiti.I wiped my hands with the towel pagkatapos maghugas ng plato. “Jeremy, you can't sleepover at Tito Ivan's.” As much as Jeremy enjoys Ivan’s company and vice versa, Ivan is a busy person who also has too much to do.“He’s already my Papa Ivan.”“Jeremy…” saway ko sa kanya. I am thankful for Ivan’s kindness and with Jeremy’s acceptance to that affection, but lately, I can’t help but wonder na baka ginagawa ito ni Jeremy as some kind of reaction to Jacob coming into our lives.Jacob already promised to be all in. Tinanggap ko iyon and along with that acceptance is also a silent promise na tutulungan ko sila ni Jeremy na magka-ayos. Having another father figure when we already established Jacob’s involvement might be too much for the kid. Kahit naman siguro si Ivan ay sasang-ayon.Someone knocked on the door and
"Aba naks ang ngiti, ang lawak ng ngiti."Napahawak ako sa dibdib ko nang makita ko si Ellie sa opisina, sitting like a boss in my swivel chair. "Oh, ba't andito ka, Ellie? Office hours ngayon. You should be in your office now." Naku, tong babaeng to talaga. Naging hobby na ata ang pausukin ang ilong ni Troy."May good news ako." She smiled from an ear to ear, yung halos mapunit na ang labi dahil sa laki ng ngiti."What's the good news lady?""Magre-resign na ako!" She was smiling this wide smile but there was something wrong in her eyes. Hindi ko alam kung totoo bang masaya siya o kung bakit may bakas ng lungkot sa mga mata niya. She was determined to be cheerful and I don't want to ruin the moment. Kung may sasabihin man siya, I know she would tell me."Me too.""Anong me too?" She asked as she raised an eyebrow."I'm trying out something new."Tahimik lang kami sa buong biyahe. Unlike this morning na di kami nauubusan ng topics.I tried to look at the view from the window as the ca
"Are you sure you're okay?""Ivan, stop worrying okay? I will be fine. Simpleng lagnat lang to." I struggled to finish what I had to say while ignoring the urge to cough. Kumakati na ang lalamunan ko and I am really feeling unwell but I didn't want to worry Ivan lalo na ngayon na nasa Russia pa siya. This isn't deadly anyway, alam kong magiging okay na din ako after I rest. "I just need rest kaya to focus on your trip. I'll be fine by the time you get back. Bye.""Take care okay? Yung gamot, the water, don't forget to eat meals even if your tongue doesn't like the taste of it make sure you eat, rest, and don't work--""Bye na nga di ba?" Natatawa kong tanong. Daig pa ata niya ang pinaka-paranoid na magulang pag nag-aalala."Okay. Bye
It was almost a new feeling of relief when I woke up in the morning. Walang pinagbago but I felt so much better. A lot better than yesterday.I remember the feeling of being sick almost to the point of feeling numb and my head was spinning I felt so dizzy. Ni hindi ko na nga maalala kung nakapagpaalam ba ako sa anak ko. My memory was still a bit blurry.I fixed myself in front of the mirror. Ang gulo-gulo ng buhok ko at pati ang mukha kong kahit naka-recover na sa lagnat ay nangangailangan pa rin ng ayos.I freshened up before heading to Jeremy's room, almost a habit. Naalala ko na lang na wala pala siya dito."Good morning po, Ma'am!""Good morning, Rina. Wala pa si Jeremy?"Mukh
“Mimi! Mimi! Mimi, wake up ka na.”Gising na ako but I couldn’t open my eyes. Alam na alam ng katawan ko that it’s the weekend and it’s asking for more sleep. My son, on the other hand, is asking for more playtime.I peeked at his excited face, already full of that young energy. I feel so old most especially when I can’t keep up with his excitement. I smiled, "Yes, sweetie. I know, but can you let your Mom sleep for a little while?" Agad naman siyang ngumuso at mukhang malapit nang magtampo. I touched his cheek, "Then we can do anything you want after. Ipagluluto din kita ng kahit na anong gusto mo."“Okay. I’ll let my Mom sleep but cook a lot of corned beef for me, Mimi.”“See. You can call me Mom naman pala or Mommy. Why do you insist on calling me Mimi?” I laughed.Jeremy shrugged. For him, I’ll always be his Mimi. “I don’t know. I like Mimi more. See you in the kitchen! Love you!”Imbes na matulog ulit ako ay pinilit ko na lang bumangon. Ayan, nahawa na nga yata ako sa energy niya
“May gusto ka bang pasalubong?” Jake sounded a lot more cheerful than his usual tone. In my head, I already called this ‘Jake’s Daddy Voice’. The one he exclusively uses for Jeremy. I was holding my laugh at first dahil never ko pa siyang narinig magsalita that way but as time passed by, I got used to it. In fact, I appreciate everything he does for Jeremy, conscious or not. As long as he's keeping his word, I’m willing to let go of the past for Jeremy’s sake. Babalik kasi si Jake sa abroad, just for a week. Matagal na nga siguro dapat siyang umalis. He’d ask me, “Cass, would it be fine if I leave for work?” It’s for work and I know this arrangement. From day one, alam kong he wouldn’t be around every day for the whole year. I’d tell him, “Yeah, sure. Wala namang problema. You tell me when’s your flight and when you plan to come back and see Jake, you can also tell me. So, we can make an arrangement.” And what? We had that conversation every week hanggang sa napagtanto kong, it wa
“Baby... Baby... Are you okay?" Natatarantang tanong ko. I combed his hair and then cupped his cheeks. His lips parted as he breathed heavily, gasping for air.My hand started shaking so badly that I couldn’t touch him anymore.“Ellie!” Hindi ko na alam kung anong gagawin ko. I searched for something that I can use para paypayan siya. Binigyan naman ako ni Ellie galing sa bag niya at nanginginig na inabot niya sa akin iyon. “Ellie, can you call for an ambulance?”I watched as my son clutched his chest. He closed his eyes and his hand that was holding me tightly lost strength. “Jeremy. Jeremy.” I tapped his cheeks. “Listen to Mommy. Jeremy.”Hinihingal pa rin si Jeremy habang papunta kami sa pinakalapit na hospital. Thakfully, mayroong ten minutes away lang. Hawak-hawak ko ang kamay ni Jeremy. Wala pa rin siyang sinasabi but I could feel his hand holding me. I should be the one calming my son pero parang ako pa tuloy ang kumukuha ng lakas mula sa kanya.Medyo masakitin si Jeremy but it
It was so stupid of me to let my guards down, but I’m really glad I have him here. It was comforting to know that someone who knows my pain is by my side.I brought myself back to reality when my phone started ringing.Ivan’s name popped on the screen. Lumayo ako kay Jake and took a second to breathe.“Hello. Ivan?”“How are you? Is everything all right? I was calling you and Ellie but no one’s answering. May nangyari ba.”I looked at Jake pero na kay Jeremy na ang attention niya. He was combing Jeremy’s hair.“I’m sorry. May nangyari lang. Inaasikaso kasi namin ngayon si Jeremy.”“Why? What happened” He sounded so worried sick. I can imagine Ivan, with a furrow in his forehead and a worried look on his face. “Okay lang ba siya?”I nodded my head, “Yes, he's fine. Medyo nahirapan lang siyang huminga kanina but he's now sleeping…” “What?” He gasped. “Is he okay? What did the doctor say?”“They are still running some tests.”I am so dizzy. Naubos ata lahat ng lakas ko kanina.“How abou