Lahat ng Kabanata ng Late Night Devil: Kabanata 1 - Kabanata 10

 "It is extremely difficult, if not impossible, to find life worth living, and be against rape, if it has led to your existence." The cold breeze of December has always been memorable to me. The lights of the busy city is almost the reflection of the bright stars at the sky above. And even with all the noise and the traffic and the bustle around, I would still look forward to Christmas. A Christmas with my mother, with only the two of us. A Christmas that won't ever happen to me anymore.Even without my father, I lived with happiness and abundance because of my beautiful and loving mother. Ipinagtabuyan man siya at halos isumpa ng mga tao dahil sa pagiging kabit, kailan man ay hindi niya ako itinuring na masamang

"Beauty provokes harassment, the law says, but it looks through men's eyes when deciding what provokes it." - Naomi Wolf, The Beauty Myth  Tumatak sa isip ko ang mga huling sinabi ni Zyline. I should get out of my comfort zone? Sumandal ako sa headboard ng kama at huminga ng malalim.The last time I tried to get out of my comfort zone, I got raped. I don't think I can risk it again.Hindi ko naman talaga habol ang sumikat sa pagiging modelo. I just do it for a living and as pastime as well. I don't think there's a need to level up. Malaki na ang kinikita ko sa pagiging catwalk model at promotional model.For ca

"Sometimes the shame is not the beatings, not the rape.The shaming is in being asked to stand judgment." - Meena Kandasamy  "Saan ka ngayong Christmas?"Sinikop ko ang mahaba kong buhok para i-ponytail. Sinulyapan ko si Coleen na nakamasid sa akin habang nagvavacuum ako sa sala ng condo ko."Like the usual, dito lang." Saka ako nagpatuloy sa ginagawa.I do this when I have free time at dahil isang linggong bakante ay minabuti kong mag-general cleaning ngayon.Noong isang araw ay nagbabad ako sa gym at nakapag-spa rin kasama si Coleen. I haven't

"What made him most attractive was that he was attracted to her. Another's interest can be a powerful stimulant. She could feel his eyes on her as an almost physical pressure." Tracy Chevalier, The Last Runaway  Nagpatuloy kami sa pagkain ng hapunan ngunit hindi na bumalik ang sigla ni Coleen. Hindi malaman ng mommy't daddy niya ang gagawin para makausap ito ng maayos.Hanggang sa pag-akyat namin sa kaniyang kwarto ay hindi siya kumikibo."We'll leave you first hija, kakausapin din namin si Asha. I'm sorry kung nakikita mo ang ganitong mga bagay."Ngumiti ako at tumango. Nang kami nalang dalawa ni Coleen sa kwa

"They may not know each other to say it, but it was never hidden. How much ever they hated each other, fate ties them together." - Parul Wadhwa, The Masquerade  I went home straight after what happened. I was so angry, my hands were trembling while driving.I have been angry with that person because I wasn't thankful of what he did. It was my escape from the bullshits I've been through and he ruined it. I should have been with my mom few years ago but he prolonged my fucking life and I call that bullshit.Iniyak ko ang frustration at galit nang nakauwi. I drank until I was already crawling to my bed. And it's Christmas, the day that reminds me of all the bad mem