All Chapters of Chasing Broken Destinies: Chapter 1 - Chapter 10

It is 11 AM; it is another seven hours to go.Tyler is holding my hand so tight that it is becoming numb. He has dozed off and looks so peaceful as he is sleeping. I do not want to wake him up; he has not had a decent night's rest in what seems to be ages. He stays up every night, every day; he is awake almost every waking moment looking after me. He needs these few moments.I am writing this letter as a token of my love to him, as a keepsake for him to treasure, and as a reminder of my commitment to us and our life together. "To my dear husband,I want you to know that I love you, ALL OF YOU, and I always will. I am committed to our marriage until death does us part. At times, in moments of deep frustration, I may have questioned otherwise, but that was my immature way of seeking love from you when I should have been looking for you to fill the void in my temporarily wandering heart. Beloved, I know I have hurt you countless times with

…Jenna POV...Three hours have passed; we have five to go until they take Tyler away.It is five hours that I dread, it is ticking by slowly, and with each ticking second, it is crushing my heart slowly. I don’t know how much longer I can hold it together. I am putting my best face forward for Tyler, but I think he can see the fear crumbling in my eyes.What has gone from saying that he does not want to leave me, he is not apologizing. Yet I need to remind him, “Baby, this is not your fault.”“But…”“No, but if it is anyone’s fault here, then it is mine. If I did not make such a mess up in my past, then it would not have come back to haunt me, but most of all, then you would not have gotten hurt.”And as he goes silent, I know that he is playing that day over in his head. I cannot even begin to imagine how much it must haunt him. He has not yet spoken to me about what exactly happ

…Jenna POV…"Accept it. At some point, you are going to have to accept that this is not your fault. There is nothing that you can do about it."What else you can do nothing about is that five hours have passed, and the next three is dreaded even more than the hour beforeBut, what I can do, is tell you how I feel about you…you this illness…this thing that is tearing us apartYou infiltrate so many lives; how could you remember the details of Tyler’s? I do not remember you entering our thoughts. You were not in our vision at all. You can come to us in shock, all grades of your aggressiveness. I will give it to you; you totally took us by surprise and caught us out!Tyler has one hell of a fight on his hands against you. It is taking all he has to fight. You tear at his body; you mess with his mind; you make him, at times, doubt his desire to carry on fighting you, but trust me when I say that those doubts are moment

…Jenna POV…In front of me, I have Tyler fast asleep. We have been waiting for seven hours now; this last hour will be absolute tormented torture for us. Our faith and our love have been tested today, and it is not yet near close to being over.Who is more scared at this very moment is left to be seen. But apart from the fear of the unknown, not knowing what to say next, I know that there is only one thing in life that I care about the most.And that is Tyler.So I gently take his hand into mine and whisper to him,"You are the only precious thing in my life.”I hold his hand close to my heart, then I continue to speak in a hushed voice to him, “There's no moment that I don't think about you. I've always wished to experience that kind of love shown in movies, not knowing I was a step closer to experiencing it. It's so great to finally have someone as beautiful as you are to enjoy life with. You're my push, my streng

…Tyler POV…It is with absolute fear in my heart that I am being wheeled into theatre. It feels as if I am falling into an abyss the closer and closer we get. There is a suffocating grip on my heart as each living breath is squeezed from my body. It feels as if a coldness has fallen like a blanket and taken away all the warmth. It feels as if I am slowly fading away.It's true; I am afraid of dying. I am afraid of the world moving forward without me. Everyone is afraid of something. We fear things because we value them. We fear losing people because we love them. We fear dying because we value being alive. Don't you wish you didn't fear anything? All that would mean is that you didn't feel anything.I have not always chosen the safest path. I've made my mistakes, plenty of them. I sometimes jump too soon and fail to appreciate the consequences. But I've learned something important along the way: I've learned to heed the call of my heart. I've learn