All Chapters of Wretched Self: Chapter 21 - Chapter 30

Just like what he said, he fetched me."Hi," he greeted when I stepped out their mansion. I just gave him a forced and awkward smile because the words his father told me did not leave my mind. Mister Adonis made me think about Jinx's feelings towards me. I mean, I have this attitude and personality that I assume some things — that only happens when I often notice that things.He opened the passenger's seat for me and so I entered there,  he then guided me buckle my seat belt before he headed towards the driver's seat. As soon as he settled himself in the seat, he looked at me with his worried expression which made my confusion crept my system."Uh, why?" I asked him but he just responded with a shook of his head. I do not even know why he's not talking or even uttering something except his greet lately. I just shrugged my shoulders at it and leaned on the backrest, he, on the other hand started the engine for us to go home and have our night class.

"Why you seemed avoiding me?"I avoided my look from Jinx and did not bother answering his question. I continued putting the trash paper on the trash can while we were outside the mansion, in the backyard because I have to put the trashes off the office of Mister Adonis."Astra, hey, I am asking you."I sighed and shook my head. I still did not answer, I hope he get what I meant. I already responded by wagging my head."Astra, why are not you talking to me?"I just could not talk and look at him because of shame. I still could not forget my dreams about him courting me. Why did I thought and dreamed about that? It was so embarrassing and I would not tell it to anyone. I do not have the guts to and my mind could not still grasp everything that was happening in the lame dream.And I know, if I would tell him that, he will laugh at me and tease me all the time. And of course, he will damn assume! He was a bit of annoying man."Hey, Astra

"W-wait, what? What the hell are you even saying?" I asked Jinx with my widened eyes because of shock.I could not believe he said that! Like, what the fucking hell?! He likes me and he was slowly falling in love with me? Is he even joking? Well, if he is, it was not funny. And I will never laugh at that if ever."I hate fooling around, you know.." he sighed and lifted his weight, he then stood up in front of me straightly like a soldier in  a training. "I am just fooling myself, and you, Astra.""What do you mean? You are just joking back then? That you do not even care at me and you are just playing around me?"He chuckled and shook his head. "Of course, no. What I mean is, I should not fool myself to deny that I do not have feelings towards you. It was just that, I am afraid of rejection and also, you might not like me, like the feelings are not even mutuals."My heart beats started pacing. So, he was really serious with that? That he likes

Things was fast and I did not expect that I would come this far. I just go with the flow of the world and to what God has planned to my life. "I am happy that there was a development between you and Jinx, Astra," mister Adonis said while we were eating in their kitchen. Do not get me wrong, he invited me to join their dinner especially that Jinx's mother will arrive later.I am afraid and excited at the same time. I know Jinx's mother is an intimidating woman that is why I am nervous, and excited because finally, I will already meet the mother of the man I like.I want to know if she likes me or not, but for sure, she would because Jinx and Mister Adonis told me that Jinx's mother has a sweet side. She was intimidating, however, I adore her. Even if I had not see her yet, I am already amazed by how her family describes her. I love their relationship anyway."Jinx was the first one who confessed," I smiled and looked at Jinx teasingly. He was sitting

Time was really just fast and sometimes, you would not notice it.I did not know when I started avoiding him. I did not count the days, though. Because if ever I do that, I will get bored and became impatient to everything.I want to see him but I did not know how to.Maybe I would just let fate across life and will have faith from Above. I know He will control me and He has a good plan for me. I did not know what was it, but I know it was a good thing and was better than my plans.But still, I could not help but feel sad.It was like I am too drained. I always think about him but then, the words from his mother was stopping me to like him. It was annoying at the same time. My emotions has been mixed. Damn it.I could not understand myself anymore. It was like I came back with my old personality and mindset. Negativities came across and crept my mind.I fucking want to scold myself."Hey."I stopped from what I was doing