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CHAPTER 21
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2021-10-23 17:31:21Just like what he said, he fetched me.
"Hi," he greeted when I stepped out their mansion. I just gave him a forced and awkward smile because the words his father told me did not leave my mind. Mister Adonis made me think about Jinx's feelings towards me. I mean, I have this attitude and personality that I assume some things — that only happens when I often notice that things.
He opened the passenger's seat for me and so I entered there, he then guided me buckle my seat belt before he headed towards the driver's seat. As soon as he settled himself in the seat, he looked at me with his worried expression which made my confusion crept my system.
"Uh, why?" I asked him but he just responded with a shook of his head. I do not even know why he's not talking or even uttering something except his greet lately. I just shrugged my shoulders at it and leaned on the backrest, he, on the other hand started the engine for us to go home and have our night class.
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Funny how Jinx acted like he was courting me.Everything he does for me, he became more sweet and always gives me chocolates and flowers.But I do not know if he really does, maybe I was just imagining things.I am on the verge of hating my thoughts and mind when Jinx whispered something into my ears."Would you let me court you, Astra?"My eyes widened and looked at him with so much shock. I even held my chest. "W-What?"He smiled. "Do not you notice it? I like you so much, Astra. From the first day I saw you, I already like you. I love everything about you and I want us."I pursed my lips. We are just here outside his house in the village because we decided to do jogging. And I want to sun bath. "I do not get you, Jinx. You just told me this this time. You have been acting like you are courting me. Can you tell me what you actually feel? Y-You are confusing me."He sighed and reached for my hands so he can hold me there. "Astra
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"Why you seemed avoiding me?"I avoided my look from Jinx and did not bother answering his question. I continued putting the trash paper on the trash can while we were outside the mansion, in the backyard because I have to put the trashes off the office of Mister Adonis."Astra, hey, I am asking you."I sighed and shook my head. I still did not answer, I hope he get what I meant. I already responded by wagging my head."Astra, why are not you talking to me?"I just could not talk and look at him because of shame. I still could not forget my dreams about him courting me. Why did I thought and dreamed about that? It was so embarrassing and I would not tell it to anyone. I do not have the guts to and my mind could not still grasp everything that was happening in the lame dream.And I know, if I would tell him that, he will laugh at me and tease me all the time. And of course, he will damn assume! He was a bit of annoying man."Hey, Astra
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"Have you two talked to each other?"While slowly chewing the food inside my mouth, Sew asked me that. I looked up at her to ask if who was she referring to. "Who?" II asked, creased brows and confused."Duh, of course, Jinx."Upon hearing his name, I properly sit in my seat. I do not even know why I did that. I felt a bit uncomfortable and awkward. I just did not forget what he said that made me feel annoyed. Like, how can he compare me with a thing? And he was even referring to the food. I and the food were completely different."Ah, yeah. We have talked, of course," I laughed and shook my head."Yeah, it was obvious that you two really talked to each other," she was sarcastic while saying that. I cleared my throat and say nothing, I just stared at my food. I could not move my hands properly because it was like I am frozen."Why do you think we had not talk, anyway?" I asked her and gulped."Nothing, Jinx just texted me and asked if
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"W-wait, what? What the hell are you even saying?" I asked Jinx with my widened eyes because of shock.I could not believe he said that! Like, what the fucking hell?! He likes me and he was slowly falling in love with me? Is he even joking? Well, if he is, it was not funny. And I will never laugh at that if ever."I hate fooling around, you know.." he sighed and lifted his weight, he then stood up in front of me straightly like a soldier in a training. "I am just fooling myself, and you, Astra.""What do you mean? You are just joking back then? That you do not even care at me and you are just playing around me?"He chuckled and shook his head. "Of course, no. What I mean is, I should not fool myself to deny that I do not have feelings towards you. It was just that, I am afraid of rejection and also, you might not like me, like the feelings are not even mutuals."My heart beats started pacing. So, he was really serious with that? That he likes
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"Yes, I do like you too."I am happy that I already expressed my feelings towards him. I am grateful that finally, I have nothing to hide anymore, that my feelings was already expressed and I am proud of myself for having the guts to say that. I could not help but to be proud of myself. My heart now was at peace. Nothing would bother me anymore very night and daw.If I only know that I could find my peace of mind by confessing, I have already done it from he start.I could see his eyes full of strong emotions upon hearing me repeat my words with all my heart. He looks so happy while we were staring at each other direct into the eyes. I could hear my heart beats pumping fast and I think he hears it because silence embraced the whole place. Funny how I could feel his' too."Are you not joking?" he asked slowly, voice were monotone. I nodded my head twice and forced a smile. Gosh, i felt so awkward.""Yes, I am not."The side oof his lips
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Things was fast and I did not expect that I would come this far. I just go with the flow of the world and to what God has planned to my life."I am happy that there was a development between you and Jinx, Astra," mister Adonis said while we were eating in their kitchen. Do not get me wrong, he invited me to join their dinner especially that Jinx's mother will arrive later.I am afraid and excited at the same time. I know Jinx's mother is an intimidating woman that is why I am nervous, and excited because finally, I will already meet the mother of the man I like.I want to know if she likes me or not, but for sure, she would because Jinx and Mister Adonis told me that Jinx's mother has a sweet side. She was intimidating, however, I adore her. Even if I had not see her yet, I am already amazed by how her family describes her. I love their relationship anyway."Jinx was the first one who confessed," I smiled and looked at Jinx teasingly. He was sitting
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I was just that ashame to show myself to Jinx.I did not went to work the next day because I know that Madame Lucia was there. As far as I have remember, they say that she would be at home temporarily. And I am shy and afraid to show myself again. I am too coward, really. And I am being sorry for myself because of that.I thought I am already fine. That I would not feel upset anymore because my anxiety and depression has already leave me, but I am not sure right now even if my doctor said that I am already healed. I just have to control myself.But then, I think my previous problem that I thought that was already gone came back.It was annoying and frustrating. I cannot focus on my class and the thing I should do. I even did not inform Mister Adonis that I will excuse myself too. But maybe he already understands what was the reason why I did not come for work.I have not seen Jinx for one week already and I could not help but be sad. He did n
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Time was really just fast and sometimes, you would not notice it.I did not know when I started avoiding him. I did not count the days, though. Because if ever I do that, I will get bored and became impatient to everything.I want to see him but I did not know how to.Maybe I would just let fate across life and will have faith from Above. I know He will control me and He has a good plan for me. I did not know what was it, but I know it was a good thing and was better than my plans.But still, I could not help but feel sad.It was like I am too drained. I always think about him but then, the words from his mother was stopping me to like him. It was annoying at the same time. My emotions has been mixed. Damn it.I could not understand myself anymore. It was like I came back with my old personality and mindset. Negativities came across and crept my mind.I fucking want to scold myself."Hey."I stopped from what I was doing
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"I am so happy for the both of you!"My lips automatically formed a smile as Jinx's father embraced me. We just had a dinner together. I am beyond grateful to everything. That even after years that we did not talk, nor any connections, we still have the closeness we had before. I am not saying that we're too close that could bond or hangout together, it was just that we were cool since then."Thank you," I whispered to him and let go. Jinx just gave me a sweet smile. All he did in the midst of the dinner is to stare at me. Even if his father asks him, he will answer with his eyes on my face. I really stopped myself from kicking his ass off. He is kind of annoying."Maybe I will now leave the both of you here," Mister Adonis said. I was the one who requested for a dinner, a short dinner. I am thankful that he also want us to bond with his son. But of course, he has a work so he could not stay here long. He excused himself
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"Hey, good thing and you are already awake." I stared at nothingness while I feel nothing. I moved my right hand to see if I am still alive and good thing I still could feel myself. I just feel nothing, really. I do not have to look who was beside me who talked because from the tone of the voice, I knew that it was Jinx. I felt myself lying on a soft mattress, and I am inside a room that is not familiar to me. Where am I? "Here, drink some water," Jinx handed me a glass of water. I tried to get it but my hands were too weak to reach for it. I gulped hard. My throat already needs water because it was getting dry. Jinx, then, stood up to guide me sit on the bed and lean against the headboard. "Here, drink it." Good thing he made me drink it with his right hand holding the glass, while his other hand gently held my chin to guide me. I gulped the water quite fast because I really am getting thirsty as seconds pass by.
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"But you can't marry me," I slowly uttered and looked away from him.He really can't marry me because he was already married. He shouldn't be saying these things to me. I will just feel bad to her wife."How do you say?" he asked in monotone. He tried to hold my chin to make me look at him but I did not let him. I stared still at nothingness, away from his eyes. "How do you say, Astra? Give me a reason.""Because you are already married," I snorted. "How can you marry someone when another woman already owned you? You were cheating?"He stayed silent for a moment not until I heard his chuckles. My brows creased in annoyance and looked at him sharply. Why is he laughing? He is making fun of me? Seriously? This time? This situation?"Married?" he grinned. "You think I am married?"I pursed my lips into a thin line and slowly nodded my head. "You really are marri
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"Do you want to go with me visit mom and dad?"Cine and Val nodded their head to me. My lips then automatically formed a smile. It will be nice if we, sisters, Faye, Cine and Val will go together and visit our parents in the cemetery. It will be a family bond."I will go and guard you guys," Simon interfered and forced a smile. We did not complained at it, though. He wants us safe. He did not want something bad to happen to us. We were thankful that Simon did not leave our side even how hard it is to manage his time for work. He should have already focus himself to the work but he insisted to still guard us. Something bad might happen, he says. But we all hope that there is none."Yeah, I will, too," Jinx appeared all of a sudden. I thought he went off for an important matter? Why is he here?"Alright, we're all done. Let's go?" Faye smiled to us. We all nodded and headed outside the house. We used S
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"Thank you for coming..."Jinx just threw me a glance and say nothing. He kept on driving his car as fast as he could to get away from the place where Fin planed to kill me. From the place of nightmare. The place where I think that was already my last breathe. The place of devil.My hands were shaking so bad because or nervousness and fear at the same time. I do not know how to calm myself. The mere thought of myself fighting for my life is already making my system weak. The thought of Fin planning to murder me was like already killing me. The thoughts were making my heart break into pieces.It hurts.Since I was in the womb of my mother, I was already blamed. Someone is already mad at me even though I was not born yet. That even if I have no knowledge about their anger, my individual has. I did nothing. I was still a very innocent child when they put all of their anger towards me.
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"You have the heart to know everything?"Even if I am afraid, I have to know everything. Even if I know that my heart could not take it, I have to bear with it. It sucks. The thought of not knowing the truth while you on the other hand were the one who is suffering in pain and agony because of the blame that people throw towards you."Yes, I have," I said bravely. I have to show him that I am not afraid at all. That I have the guts to accept everything. To know the truth. I have to know everything. I am in the center of the blame and so I have the rights to fucking know the freaking truth. I am in the midst of blame and I cannot even escape from it. I was stuck and I can only get off after I get through the barrier and challenges.His lips automatically formed a devilish grin. "Waste time to know the truth before you will die?"When I nodded my head with no hesitation, the expression of his face chan
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I didn't know what happened next.I just found myself in a dark room where I see nothing but darkness alone. I didn't know how I get here. I do not know where I am. It was like, I was in my highway to hell. I felt like, this is my last.I tried to move, but I cannot.My hands were freaking tied!Where the hell I am?! How did I fucking get here?!I sighed heavily in anger. I then closed my eyes as the door from nowhere swung open. The bright light hit my eyes and face and so I have to not see it so it wouldn't hurt my eye.The hell. Am I in a horror movie?"You're now awake." A voice lurks in every corner of the room. I gulped as I had goosebumps. The voice is so... creepy. "How is your sleep, Astrallaine?"When I opened my eyes, a man standing amidst the light welcomed my eyesight. His face isn't clear to my view, but
