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2021-03-08 23:50:20Where are you?
Why are you still in my brain?
Do you miss me?
The first place that I can well remember was the crowd. The place where you and I see each other for the first time, we don't even realize that was the first time that we meet. My friend Alaia and I went to the coffee shop and discuss our paperwork. Then I see you again!
“Did you see the woman who sitting alone there, she looks like Lindsey Morgan but with really dark hair" Alaia says as she points her eyes at the woman.
“Can you imagine if you became gay and date someone like her? You guys probably will be a great couple, Morgan and BG" Alaia says as she stares at me.
“Hell No! I'm totally straight! Who's BG?" I say as I highly raise an eyebrow.
“BG is Becky G, stupid!” Alaia chuckles as she points her eyes at the woman.
“Fuck you Alaia! I don't even look like Becky G” I say in whispers as I roll my eyes in disgust.
The last semester was very stressful for me. My classmates and I attend Alaia's boyfriend's party tonight. There are so many people there and one of them is the woman who Alaia and I saw at the coffee shop this afternoon, my boyfriend Ben is here too.
“Hey, babe, you look fucking great tonight, get over here!” He says as he kisses my cheek and grabs my waist. I have no idea why I keep thinking about her while Ben and I had a moment.
Alaia knocks on the door “Knock… Knock… knock” The door sounds. "Guys the party starts. Everyone's coming!” Alaia yells outside as she pounds the door. "Hang on!" I say as I wear my clothes in rush. The party starts, I sit on the couch with my friends as my eyes keep looking at the woman, she is the prettiest girl I've ever seen. She has brown eyes, 5,9ft with medium dark hair, and nice jawlines. My friend and I enjoyed the party and we leave at 3 AM.
The day that we're waiting for is coming. We finally graduated from the university. The new chapter of life begins, day to day I'm looking for a job and don't find any. I sit at the coffee shop in the middle of the night holding my resume and thinking about how fucked up my life is. I didn't notice that woman was here with her couple of friends, sitting at the corner table.
“Hey, Asians not Asian girl, want to sit with us and celebrate how messy our life is?” She says as she chuckles and stares at me from the corner table.
“Sorry? Did you call me Asian?" I say as I point my eyes at her.
“What are you doing?" She says as she stares at me and gets closer to me.
“I'm doing nothing for a moment, who are you?" I say as I ask her curiously and raise an eyebrow.
“I'm Lena..." She says in a low breath as she points her eyes to my lips.
“I'm Maia, so what do you do Lena besides make fun of strangers in the middle of the night?" I say as I stare at her.
“I'm planning to escape from the apocalypse! Wanna join me? I have bunker!” She says as she gets closer to my ear and whispers at me.
We both laugh cause of her joke. I spend the night with her at the coffee shop, talking and laughing... what a good time. Am I crazy? Because I spend the night with a stranger who I pay attention to and she's really attractive. I never meet someone like her before, she was different.
“I saw you at my friend's boyfriend's party that night, do you remember that?" I say as I sip my coffee.
“Too many hot girls there, I don't even remember anything… I’m drunk" She says as she chuckles.
“So, you like girls?” I say as I raise an eyebrow and stare at her in confusion.
“Yeah...I Am” She says as she sips the coffee gently and stares at me.
“Damn, mmm... interesting...” I say as I sip my cold coffee and stare at her.
I sit in silence as she laughs in front of my face, she points her eyes at my lips; I tell nothing and smile, she suddenly kisses me and that causes me to freeze. If I could describe how my feelings tonight, I might end up at the hospital when I wake up in the morning cause of heart attack.
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