Well, I slept peacefully last night thanks to Lena because she’s on my mind, always. On the other hand, I haven’t talked to Ben since Lena and I make out yesterday morning. I’m in a grey area and I have no idea about what happened to my life. I felt bad for Ben because I betrayed him.
Ben is a good guy, I knew but I don’t think that I’m happy with him, I was but now my happiest place is Lena, she’s the person that I’ve dreamt of, I don’t know if this is real or not or it's just my fantasies, it’s complicated.
I don’t know if Lena and I could end up together or not but hopefully. Last year my Abuelita asked me about my plan for marriage and she wants to see Ben in person. I have no plan yet, maybe because I don’t think that Ben is my future. My family is homophobic, I guess but I’m not sure. I don’t know yet, I haven’t talked to them about my gay side but when I was 16 my family and I ever watched a movie together at the family gathering, before I move out, my family and I like to spend time together, especially on special days.
And here’s the interesting thing about the movie we watched that night… there’re lesbo scenes in the movie. I could well remember how my mom reacted that night, my mom stares at me and she pointed my eyes with her fingers as a sign of beware. My Abuelita enjoyed the movie night I guess, I missed my family. I think I’ll visit them this weekend.
Today is the purple magazine's 10 years birthday party and the company will celebrate the 10 years birthday tonight. My phone rings and I reach over my phone at the bedside.
Riley calls me, and I hang up the phone. “Hi, Maia… would you please join me this evening?” Riley says. “Hey, sure…” I say. “I need to buy a new dress for tonight!” Riley says. “Well… I need that too… see you at 1… bye…” I say as I hang up the phone.
Tonight is a special night for everyone in my workplace and I want to be the one who Lena pays attention to and I had plans. Riley picked me up and we were on our way to the store. “Maia, is it just me, or do I think our boss is really into you?” Riley says as she drives the car.
“What?” I say as I raise an eyebrow. “Don’t you think?” Riley says as she stares at me and raises an eyebrow. “I…I don’t know…” I say in stutters as I lean and sigh. “If she likes you, you’re lucky sissy!” Riley says. “What are you talking about?” I chuckle as I highly raise my voice.
“You must be kidding me, Maia… she’s the hottest lesbian I’ve ever seen in town. You know… no one more attractive on the dating apps I used than her… wish I could find one like her” Riley says as she stares at me and raises an eyebrow. “Damn you pervert” I chuckle.
We arrive at the store and we choose the dress. Riley picks the black one and I pick the red one. Riley and I wear the dress in the fitting room. “What do you think Riley?” I say as I spin in my dress. “Wow… perfect!” Riley says. “Well…” I say.
“You know, Maia, this dress is fitted on you. Red cleavage dress in chest and thighs, your back looks good in my sight… Lena’s gonna like it” Riley says as she looks at me. I chuckle and smile in front of the mirror and look at myself. We finish the shopping and Riley takes me home.
I prepare myself for tonight and my phone rings, I pick up the phone and I heard Lena’s voice through the phone “Hey what’s up?” I say. “Hey… Wanna be my dance partner tonight?” Lena says. “What?” I say in confusion. “Should I repeat my question?” Lena says as she chuckles.
“Mmmm… okay I’ll consider that!” I say in a low voice. “What... No… see you tonight lover!” Lena says as she hangs the phone. “What the hell” I mumble as I stare at the phone screen. I’m about to put on my phone but the phone rings once more.
“Jeez…” I mumble as I pick up the phone. “You free tonight babe?” Ben says. “I’m sorry babe, I have a party tonight!” I say. “What party?” Ben says. “Ohh… Purple magazine 10 years party, all employees come…” I say. “Ah jeez… Alright! I miss you so much Maia” Ben says as he highly sighs. “Me too, Ben...” I say and I hang up the phone. I wear my red dress and look at myself in the mirror. I’m so pretty… I say deep inside. Red looks fit on me as Riley says, my Abuelita tells the same too.
I put natural makeup on my face but kinda sexy with brown eye shadow and red lipstick on it. I booked the Uber and arrive at the party. The Uber driver opens the car’s door for me, I look like a Hollywood star on the red carpet. I walk to the ballroom with a red carpet below my feet.
The party starts; I’m standing in the sweet food section and chewing the cupcakes. Riley comes. “Hey did you talk to Lena?” Riley says. “Not yet why?” I say. “I saw her stand near the bar section...” Riley says as she leaves me and walks to the dance floor.
I finished my cupcake and walk to the bar section. I come to Lena and stand next to her. “Bonjour…you came” Lena says. “Well, when a beautiful boss calls. I have no choice but to answer” I say as I raise an eyebrow. “You look beautiful tonight!” Lena says as she looks me up and down.
“I’ve been told” I smile and I look away. Who do you love music playing around the place “Ugghhh I love this song” Lena says as she groans facing the ceiling. “I know what exactly we can do…” Lena says as she pulls me to the dance floor.
We dance together and Lena dances right in front of me. She gently ran her soft hand against my back, slowly down to my ass. She trailed off as her hand gets closer to my ass. Then she hugs me from the back and feels her hands on my waist. I turn around, facing her, and rest my hand on her shoulder.
I look at her brownie eyes and we lock into each other's eyes. A new song is playing and it’s a Hispanic song. “Is that reggaeton?” I say. “Yeap..” Lena says. “My Abuelita and I love reggaeton!” I say as I slowly dance.
“Abuelita?” Lena says as she raises an eyebrow. “Yeah...” I chuckle. “I thought you’re pure White Asians but I wasn't right...” Lena says. “Do I look Asian?” I say. “Nope, you different… Remember the first day we met at the coffee shop? I said...Hi, Asians not Asian girls” Lena says as she lowers her hand to my ass. “Wow…I remembered that day” I chuckle as I move my left hand to her waist. “I really want to see your granny one day...” Lena says as she stares at me and smiles. “Mmm… one day...” I say as we dance follows the music.
Riley comes closer to us and we dance together. The three of us dancing, Lena is behind me and Riley is in front of me. Lena slowly runs her hands over my whole body. I turn around, facing her, and rest my hands on her shoulders.
Lena rests her hands on my waist, she kisses me in front of our colleagues but no one notices. “Lena, this is Riley, my work buddy...” I say. “I know… I paid attention to both of you at work” Lena says as she raises an eyebrow. “Riley helps me a lot!” I say. “It’s good to see you here boss...” Riley says.
“Don’t call me boss, just call me by my name, I’m Lena” Lena says as she shook Riley's hand. “Alright then…” Riley says as she keeps dancing and follows the music. Lena gently runs her fingers through my hair and stares at me.
I could see her beautiful brownie eyes through the colorful lights and I occasionally smile as she looks at me with love in her eyes. I’ve been in the grey area but the way I feel about Lena is crystal clear. We all dance follow the music and enjoy the party until the party is over.
I sleep on my soft bed, covered in a pink blanket; my favorite color, after a tiring night. The sound of birds accompanying my morning and the morning car horns indicate people will start their workday. A soft breeze came in through the window, and the curtain danced. The soft breeze blows all over my body, the breeze seemed to say it's time to wake up. I open my eyes and stretch my body then I woke up. Leaving my bed and walking to the sink, I brush my teeth. I look into the mirror and think about how I felt last night. I wash my face gently and dry my face. I walk downstairs and walk towards the kitchen, heating the water and making a cup of coffee, a latte. I’m a coffee addict; I love coffee, especially latte. I walk to the fridge and take some biscuits then I brought the coffee with me and sit on the couch in the living room. I sip the coffee then I drink it, I eat the biscuits and occasionally dip them in coffee. This is the nicest morning I’ve ever been. No work, no paper, no p
The alarm woke me up and it was 6:30 AM. My eyes slowly start to open, I turn on the light and the light is about to blind me, I rub my eyes and get ready for work. I jump up and quickly get dressed. I stare at the phone screen. “Shit! It’s 7 AM” I mumble. “I'm supposed to be there at 07:15!” I say. I run downstairs and booked the Uber. I walk through my workplace knowing that I’m late and I see Alaia sitting in the lobby. “Hey, Maia..” Alaia says as she waves her hand. I walk through her in rush “Hey…” I say. “Lena asks me to wait here!” Alaia says. “She’s here?” I say. “Yes in hours…I guess” Alaia says. “Fuck…fuck…I’m late!” I mumble as I hug Alaia and run to my workplace. I lean on my seat and turn on the computer. Lena and Alaia walk through the workplace “Attention please…” Lena stands in front of the employees and introduces Alaia as the new employee. “Here’s Ms. Alaia Smith. She’s your work partner, please be cooperative and have a good day” Lena says as she stares at me. “A
The alarm woke me up like usual…the sun is rising. I open my eyes slowly and yawn. I take my phone to the table, turn it on and stare at the phone screen. It’s 6 AM. I lay and move my hand to Lena’s space, moving my hand, looking for her, I pull the blanket and she isn’t there. I walk to the bathroom sink and brush my teeth, stare at the mirror, and wash my face. I walk downstairs and I see Lena holding little Alison, my sister sits on the couch and Lena stood while holding Alison. “Hey, you up” Lena look at me and smile. I’m smiling and walk to the kitchen, I’m making a cup of coffee. “She slept like a baby last night!” Lena says. “I know… I’m with her in her entire life” Rosa chuckles. “Did you guys just tease me?” I yell from the kitchen. They chuckle as I walk to the living room and kiss Alison’s cheek “Hey baby bear, you woke so early” I say. I sit on the couch and hold my hot coffee. “I thought you were leaving...” I say as I stare at Lena and sip the coffee. “No… I woke up
I point my eyes to the tree behind the car’s window occasionally looking at Alison in the back seat. Lena keeps an eye on the road as she drives, little Ali sleeping in the back seat; I unwrap the chocolate cookies, and eat them. I stare at Lena as I chew the cookie “You want it?” I say. “I’m driving honey” Lena chuckles. “Lemme feed you!” I say as I run my hand to Lena’s mouth. “Ngap….” She opens her mouth and eats the cookie. “Mmm...” She chews the cookie and I eat mine. “Mmm… I love the flavor but I usually bought the peanut one” I say as chew the cookie. “I love everything about you...” Lena says in a whisper. “Pardon me? I can’t hear you” I say. “I don’t say anything!” Lena says in denial. “Aahhh...Come on!” I say as I’m begging her. Lena chuckles as she points her eyes at the road. When I look at Lena, I realize this is all I wanted, a beautiful wife, and a cute baby girl. I smile and wonder; how could someone like Lena could take my heart like this, I’m falling in love. Rosa
I walk to my room and lay on my bed. I stare at the ceiling and think. I’m thinking about what happened between me and Lena today, Lena called me her wife. I smile as I’m closing my eyes. Nothing can describe how happy I am right now. Someone’s coming, the bell rings… I walk downstairs and open the door. Ben comes and he suddenly kisses me, I push him away from me “What’s the matter with you?” I say as I highly raise my voice. “What? Am I doing something wrong?” Ben says. I inhale deeply and walk towards the living room as Ben walks behind me. Ben hugs me from the back “Hey…” He says as he put his chin on my shoulder. “I missed you!” Ben says as he runs his hand to my chest. “Gosh… Stop” I say. Ben keeps running his hand to my chest as he hugs me from the back “I haven’t touched you for a month, I miss you so much” Ben says. I push him away in anger and tell him nothing. “What?” Ben says with a slight anger in his voice. “This is not okay!” I say as I lower my voice. Ben heavily sig
Hugging in the parking lot, the cold weather accompanies us. Lena and I back to the car, little Ali still sleeping in the back seat. We are on our way, Lena keeps an eye on the road meanwhile I’m looking at the street view. I occasionally stare at Lena and look away. “Hey… can I move in tomorrow?” Lena says. I didn’t hear Lena because my eyes are focused on the view. “Maia!” Lena says. I gasp and I immediately move my head to Lena “Jeez Christ, you scared me!” I say. Lena laughs as she stares at me “I’m asking you” Lena says. “What? Sorry, I didn't hear anything” I say. “Can I move in tomorrow?” Lena says. “Umm… sure,” I say as I point my eyes to hers. “I’ll pick you up at 7 tomorrow morning!” Lena says as her eyes focus on the road. “Sure, I’ll help you move in tomorrow,” I say. Lena reaches over my hand and holds them “Thanks” Lena says as she points into my eyes. I look at hers and smile. We arrive at my apartment, Rosa is already home. Lena helping me with Ali’s things and I’m c
Sitting at the dining table together as a family, the sun accompanies our morning. I get shivers when the sun hits Lena’s brown eyes. I keep looking at her and smile, I fall over and over again… the way she talks…the way she smiles, stoles my heart. The birds sound accompanying us, the car’s horn; little Ali laughs in the living room watching her favorite cartoon. What a wonderful morning… this is the best Saturday morning I’ve ever had in my life. I walk upstairs and walk to my room, I take my phone on the bed and stare at the phone screen. I open the gallery and I see a picture of me and Ben. I’m smiling because I remember what happened that day when we took the picture together. That was last summer, Ben and I went to the Lake on the edge of the town. We swam and the leeches bite our bodies. I ran from the lake “Jeez Christ” I screamed and ran. “Damn….” Ben ran after me. That was the funniest moment I’ve ever had in my life, I even could feel the leeches till now “Ewwww….” I get
Laying on my bed; listening to music and also thinking of Lena. “Ugh...” I sigh. I’m worried about her, how if something bad happens to her or she does something bad. I can’t stop thinking about her. I reach for my phone on the bedside table and I open the gallery, I'm looking at the old pictures. I’m smiling; I see the old picture of me and Ben. I haven’t removed all of our pictures yet, there are a hundred pictures of us. I turn around and put my phone back on the bedside table. I stare at the ceiling… My phone is ringing, I reach for the phone on the bedside and stare at the phone screen. Ben calls me, what a coincidence. I pick up the phone. I hear Ben’s small breath when I pick up the phone. “Hello?” I say. “Hey, how are you?” Ben says hiding his sadness. “Umm… I’m doing well, you?” I say and sigh. “I’m fine!” Ben says. “I just saw our old pictures and what a coincidence you called me!” I say. “Mmm… I see our old pictures too, my favorite is the picture we took last summer” Ben
Finally, the cup of iced tea I was holding in my hands fell and hit the floor, a tiny drop of tear started soaking my eyes, the moment I learned Lena replied to the girl with a few kisses, from her cheek to her chin, I walked out of the cinema, leaving Z without a word behind.“Maia!”Z called me, she was confused yet I never looked back, I ran off in a wet prison uniform when I left the location, making my way to my cell without locking the door.The pillow that became the safest place for me to complain got wet after a few seconds I landed my face on it and I squeezed the pillow to let out my anger at the time, crying as quietly as I could so no one hear me.I said I was fine, I moved on but it felt hurt when I saw her with someone else, as if a thousand swords were stabbed in my chest, I couldn’t breathe. Do you still wish it was me beside you? When you kiss or hug someone else, do you imagine it was us?Millions of questions started surrounding my brain, at the time I didn’t reali
I’ve been thinking a lot for the last few hours, clearing my head and trying to figure out what I need to say after having Lena in my cell. After leaving the open yard, I went back to my cell and rested my back against the non-comfy bunk which I never thought that I would lay there. My eyes looked up at the ceiling and both my arms became my pillow at the time, the more I thought about Lena, the more pain I got. Then I have no clue why my eyes ran toward her stuff, as the intrusive invaded me, I started leaving my bunk and made my way to her spot. My eyes ran around the place, I made sure no one passed my cell and saw me near my bunkmate spot before I walked even closer. A soft cover became the first thing I touched as I got there; Lena always had this cover with her, why? As I remembered every time she had a nightmare hugging this orange cover would make her feel better, I rubbed the cover and smiled, knowing this was hers and after fighting the urge not to come here yet I can’t.
A raven-haired girl that I hated but also madly in love showed up in front of my face, she frowned and looked unhappy when she noticed I was the one who opened the door for her. Her tousled hair and eyes that looked so exhausted were evident as far as the eye could see when Lena appeared in front of me but that still didn’t take away the beauty she had since she was born. “What the hell did you do here?” I ask as my eyes are looking at her in annoyance. “Ask the guy who brought me here” Lena scoffs as she rolls her eyes, she gets into my cell without my permission like that cell was hers, placing her stuff on the top of my bunk not hers afterward. Lena one hundred percent knows how to piss me off, she always has a way to make me madly mad at her but also in love, I have no idea what her intention was when she placed her stuff on the top of my bunk, not hers but as I know Lena loves to annoy me or she may be here to torture me, paying that male guard so that she can get this room. “
“Hey! Campbell? What are you doing here?”A male guard just came and that freezes us. “Uh, keep your hands clean, inmate!” Cara shouts at me. I raise my eyebrow with an annoyed look on my face and I get back to my cell. I knew she shouted at me because she does not want to get shot in 4K by that male big guard. “I-I’m about to go, I’ll check another room then” Cara states as she facing the male guard which standing in front of my room, awkwardly.“Oh, I thought there’s something wrong happened here” He chuckles. “Ah, no, no… no worries” Cara chuckles in an awkward way. She leaves my room and disappearing into the prison corridor then. I sigh and fold up my pink furry cozy blanket, get ready to greet my new roommate. “Hey, look at you! A friend of mine said that you’ll be in the yoga class this
“So tell me… we haven’t met in millennia” Cara chuckles. “What do you do after college Maia?” She ends. “I’ve traveled with my ex hukkk…” I clear my throat tensely. “Ex-girlfriend…” I whoosh my breath as I look at her. Cara stares at me with a raised brow, I guess she gets more surprised because she found out that I am not straight like she thought. “Wow!” She’s whooshing her breath in surprise. “My ex-girlfriend who ran an illegal shit and now… I found herself is in here too!” I end.“Wow, that’s surprising Maia!” Cara shook her head and chuckles. “I didn’t expect that you can get involved into that kind of thing” She ends. “I mean… yes, I helped her! But I cut myself and leave... Now I’m lamenting myself for leaving
I laugh softly trying to pulling back myself together and smile. “Well, guess we’re done now… I have to meet someone at the library and apply for my job application” I say. “What?! You’re going to work? Like seriously?” Z surprises. “Yeah, you know… I need to stay away from my bed and do some work so I won’t gain you know… more fat” I chuckle. “Hahaha you still look great though!” She chuckles as she looks at me.“Mmmm well, I should go!” I sigh and I up from my bunk. “Oh, o-okay…” She up from my bed too and gets ready to go, but before that she turns around and facing me. I was scanning over the drawer to get some paper and a pen. “H-hey… Maia?” Z calls me and it’s distracted me. “Yeah?” I up from my knee and look at her who stands not
Tears start to fall down from my eyes and soaked my cheeks. I smile in tears but also cry in pain. How could I disappoint my family and not giving them what they wanted. My family gave everything to me and I never had a chance to repay their kindness. Life is not always fair, I had a nice rich family and I disappoint them. Some of us in this world are struggling for living because they’re not born from the affluent family. Same as Lena, she struggled since she was a kid.“I am so grateful that I had you as my sister…” I sob as tears start to fall down and soak my cheeks. “And I thank you for being the sister that you are. You’re amazing, you’re understanding and I know… that if nobody in this damn world loves me, I know you love me… And I never have to look for love” I end as I wipe my tears. “You soaked me huh? Now I ha
“Yes, I’m coming!” I sigh as I open the door. “Maia?” Katty just came to my room and ruined my wonderful bittersweet flashback with Lena. “H-hey… What’s up?” I greet her with a little slight of annoyance on my face. “Hey… You okay?” She asks. “Y-yeah… I’m good. What’s up?” I reply. “Oh, Z asked me to check on you. You haven’t shown up this morning, where have you been?” Katty asks. “Ah, I stayed in my room all day hehe” I chuckle tensely.“I’m about to go now to see Z in her room” I end. “Are you sure you’re okay? You look sweaty, Maia. Are you sick?” Katty punches me with more questions, I lost my mind and don’t know how to punch her back with more answers. “I… hmmm I’m good! Yeah, I’m goo
“Oh, God, damn, Jesus Christ!” I moaned passionately as Lena kept kissing my body passionately. She kissed me so damn good and it left burning desire in my wake. She kissed me sensually right between my breasts. My nipples stand bright and erected following her soft damn sensual kissed as I squeezed the sheets with my hands, it felt so good and relaxed, I would never cheat on her cause I cannot find a girl who done me so good like Lena does.“You wasted so much time babe…” I said under my breath as I saw Lena swirl her tongue against my nipple. My pussy was so wet and it cannot wait any longer, but Lena kept played her game and spins out the time. Lena laughed softly knowing that I cannot wait any longer and wanting her fingers to in, but she played her game and tortured me even more. She off her tongue from my nipple and started licking my chin up to my mou