Waves of Mistakes and Regrets

Sa buhay palaging nasa huli ang pagsisisi. Kahit gusto nating ibalik ang nakaraan na sana hindi na natin ginawa ang isang bagay ay sasampalin tayo ng realidad na hindi na ito puwedeng maibalik. At ang tanging maiisip na lang natin ay ang pagsisisi. Kaya nang napatingin ako sa hawak ko ay gusto kong sumigaw sa inis, lungkot at pagsisisi. I couldn't imagine I would be experiencing something I dreaded all my life.Ang pregnant test na hawak ko ay may dalawang guhit. Looking at it now was a bomb that was killing my system. Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko. Kaya hinawakan ko nang mahigpit ang hawak at pilit na ikinalma ang sarili. Parang gusto ko na lang maglaho na parang bula.Kinuha ko ang bag ko sa gilid saka lumabas ng banyo namin. I framed my face using both of my hands. I sighed heavily then went straight outside. Kailangan kong kausapin si Zach tungkol dito.Dumiretso ako sa office niya at mabilis naman akong nakapasok dahil kilala ako ng secretary niya."What are you doing here?

Wounds that are hurt immediately get healed over the course of time. But does time really heal all these wounds? What if the person whose repeatedly hurt didn't bother healing himself even if time has passed? Do we still claim that time takes over in someone's healing? The answer is no because healing is a choice. It takes courage for someone to get healed from all the pain he went through.At kahit paulit ulit na masaktan, kapag hindi mo pipiliing maghilom ang sugat ay wala pa rin kahit lumipas na ang panahon.Two weeks flew fast and the news about the cancelled wedding between Zachariel and Samantha has been lurking around the campus. Zachariel is one of the sought after bachelors in the country, and there's no doubt that lot of people recognize him.Maging si Geneva na kaharap ko habang kumakain kami sa cafeteria ay pinaulanan ako ng napakaraming tanong tungkol sa kanya."What did really happen? May alam ka ba?"I shrugged. "I don't know." Pinagpatuloy ko ang pagkain ng lasagna. Ma

How far are you willing to go for the sake of love? Back then I thought I would never get the chance to meet him again but destiny prevailed. On one of the charity events I attended, there I saw him again. I was told I had to wear a semi formal dress so I did. I didn't even bother putting on heavy make up, and just settled with my nude lipstick. I never knew he was that famous in the world business owning food chains and restaurants all over the country. Sa loob ng ballroom ng hotel ginanap ang event. Gold and black balloons were seen outside on the corner, and a red carpet for the guests. "Good evening, Ma'am. May I see your invitation?" Untag ng babaeng nakatayo pagpasok sa reception area. I gave the envelope to her."Ma'am sa back stage po kayo," anito."Huh? Why?" Nagtataka kong tanong. Papa just told me to come because our family was one of the investors of the foundation."It's for the date auction, Ma'am."Mas lalo akong naguluhan sa sinabi niya. "What?" Napatingin ako

They say love could be the road to happiness. But, this only applies to real love. If a love that steals your peace leading you hurt, ruined, and damaged, should you still keep it?How far am I going to continue loving a person? In the journey of loving him, I earned a wounded and shattered heart. I did everything to keep the love I for him, but things did not go the way I wanted them to be. Because right from the start, I wasn't someone that was loved. I was just used and tossed away. Zach and I were fine after the days passed. There was no day that we would heat ourselves with our bodies. The last time we did was when we were inside the bathroom of a mall. My heart was racing fast that time, and I never found myself caught in that situation, but love made me do it. We were happy, or so I thought... Zach became so busy that he wouldn't even see me. Kahit pumunta ako sa condo nila ay hindi ko siya naabutan. I knew the weight of his work, but I wanted to be there for him. One time

Humans have been inclined to choices. We choose everything we do. From the moment we wake up until we end our days, we make choices. And, it's our choice to love and hurt. Even if it's something we can't hold off. There are also repurcussions of our choices and decisions. No matter how we try to regret it, it happened because we wanted it to. Marrying him was a choice I did to get even from the pain and damage he brought to me. I knew I shouldn't have played with the fire, but here I was caught with it, but it would not be who'd end up getting hurt. Sisiguraduhin kong siya ang matatalo at iiyak sa dulo. I quickly changed my dress to my usual night attire. Sinuklayan ko lang aking sarili habang nakakatitig sa repleksyon ko sa salamin. I waited for them to finish with whatever they were doing. Nasa kwarto lang ako. Nilibang ko na lang ang sarili ko. Next week, we'd be hiring our helper because I want to drink milk right now but I don't want to go downstairs.Gusto kong palakpakan a