Waves of Mistakes and Regrets

Waves of Mistakes and Regrets

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How come nights of pure bliss becomes her greatest downfall? When Velleria Feah found out that she was pregnant, she didn't want to keep it because she never wanted it in the first place so when she went to Zachariel to tell him about it, he told her to just get rid of the baby and get lost in his life. For him it was just a night of mistake and regret. So when she found out that he's about to get married, living his life to the fullest, she vowed to herself to make him regret throwing her away of his life. Velleria won't stop until she finally gets the what she wants but how would she able to win against her heart when every door of it screams his name? Would she able to succeed making his life miserable or would it be the other way around?

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Chapter 1

Prologue

Sa buhay palaging nasa huli ang pagsisisi. Kahit gusto nating ibalik ang nakaraan na sana hindi na natin ginawa ang isang bagay ay sasampalin tayo ng realidad na hindi na ito puwedeng maibalik. At ang tanging maiisip na lang natin ay ang pagsisisi. Kaya nang napatingin ako sa hawak ko ay gusto kong sumigaw sa inis, lungkot at pagsisisi. I couldn't imagine I would be experiencing something I dreaded all my life.

Ang pregnant test na hawak ko ay may dalawang guhit. Looking at it now was a bomb that was killing my system. Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko. Kaya hinawakan ko nang mahigpit ang hawak at pilit na ikinalma ang sarili. Parang gusto ko na lang maglaho na parang bula.

Kinuha ko ang bag ko sa gilid saka lumabas ng banyo namin. I framed my face using both of my hands. I sighed heavily then went straight outside. Kailangan kong kausapin si Zach tungkol dito.

Dumiretso ako sa office niya at mabilis naman akong nakapasok dahil kilala ako ng secretary niya.

"What are you doing here?" Bungad niya nang makita ako. He rose from his feet then moved near to me.

"I need to tell you something," sabi ko. Nanatili ang kanyang tingin sa akin. Alam kong tapos na kami. He clearly said it the last time we met.

"What?" Walang interes na sabi niya. "I told you to not see me anymore." Pagpapatuloy niya.

I swallowed the huge lump on my throat before I spoke.

"Buntis ako."

He stood there frozen while looking at me intently. Nakaawang ang labi nito na hindi makapaniwala sa salitang dineklara ko.

"What did you say?" Hinawakan niya ang braso ko. "Stop joking, Vell because I don't have time for your bullshits!"

"Hindi kita niloloko!" Kinuha ko ang pregnancy kit at pinakita sa kanya.

He masaaged his temple. "Putangina naman, Vell! I'm about to get married!"

Natulala ako sa narinig.

"Paanong ikakasal? Kay Samantha? I thought both of you were over."

"We're going to marry each other. So if you're doing this to spite me then stop it."

"It's yours, Zach. Alam mo 'yan. You were my first!"

"And so? Will that guarantee that I'm the father of your baby?"

"What? Hindi ako nagpapabuka kung kani kanino!"

"Then abort it! Fuck! I don't care!" He yelled while his chest was heaving.

"A-Ano?!" Hindi makapaniwalang bulalas ko. How could he blatantly say it without feeling any remorse? I looked at him with fury. Napayukom ang aking kamao.

Anak niya ang dinadala ko!

"I'm sure you heard it right. Sinabi ko ng ikakasal ako, hindi ba? Bakit ka pa bumalik? Sinabi ko na rin dati na umalis ka na at huwag magpapakita. Tapos ngayon sasabihin mo sa akin 'yan? Don't make me force you to abort it. Just get rid of it whenever you want to. Wala akong balak panagutan 'yan."

Nangilid ang luha sa mga pisngi ko habang naririnig iyon kaya sa galit ko ay sinampal ko siya.

"How could you?! You should've not fucked me!"

"Damn it! You shouldn't have opened your legs for me!" He frustratedly raked his hair over his hair.

"Walang hiya ka!"

His eyes darkened and his jaw clenched. Napaatras ako nang hawakan niya nang mariin ang braso ko. "If you don't want to get rid of it then it's your choice. Buhayin mo 'yan o ano. Just get out of my life!"

Mahigpit ang kapit ko sa bag ko.

"Fuck you! Do you think you'll get the happy ending you deserve? I won't let that happen!"

Gusto ko siyang murahin muli Mabilis akong lumabas mula roon. Habang naglalakad ay sunod sunod na bumuhos ang luha ko.

I knew he hated me that much because I was one of the reasons why he and Samantha broke up. I just loved him so much to the extent that I offered myself to him. I thought he would love me the same way he did for Samantha but I realized it would never be enough for someone who never wanted me in the first place. Ako ang naghabol sa kanya at unang nagpakita ng motibo. I was fascinated with him so much that it led me to stupidity. Hinayaan ko lang ang sarili ko sa kanya.

Everytime we would meet, hindi iilang beses na ginagalaw niya ako. Hindi ko na masyadong inisip ang maaaring ang posibleng mangyari. Ang mahalaga lang sa akin ay kailangan niya ako.

Humingi ako ng tawad sa kanya dahil alam ko namang pinilit ko ang sarili sa kanya pero hindi ko aakalain na magbubunga ang ilang gabing p********k namin. I was pretty sure we used protection every time we do the deed. But it still turned out this way. I got pregnant.

I'm such a fool for falling in love with a guy who is heartless as him.

While I was walking, I found my way to a nearby clinic. Hindi ko rin naman gusto na buhayin at palakihin ito. Anong alam ko sa pagiging ina? I'm still a college student with nothing to prove in my life. Whatever I have right now is because of my family. I might be someone born and raised with a silver spoon, it still won't be enough reason for me to raise a baby. Paano ko rin sasabihin ito sa mga magulang ko? Sigurado rin akong itatakwil nila ako. I still have many plans and this baby shouldn't hinder me from reaching my dreams. My family has never been proud of me. They would always say how disappointed they were because of my poor choices, and I'm certain that getting pregnant would also be a reason for them to disown me.

"Are you sure about this?" The woman in her lab gown asked me.

"Yes," sagot ko.

"This is something that you cannot undo, hija. I'm going to give you time to think clearly," mahinahon niyang saad. She fixed her eyeglasses while looking at me.

"I said I'm sure of it," I firmly stated.

She looked at me for a while. "Well then, I guess you've decided already."

Huminga ako nang malalim. She made me lay on the bed. Getting rid of this baby is the right thing to do. Kailangan kong gawin ito. I told myself for a hundredth time. But my conscience started eating me up.

Napapikit na lamang ako. The woman was about to inject something on my body when I held her hand.

I would be a killer of my own baby if I did it.

"Stop," I firmly said.

"What? Are you changing your mind?"

Kinagat ko ang aking labi.

"I..." I teared up. "I don't want to get my child killed." I cried hard again. I may have made many mistakes in the past, but I don't want to live a life regretting about me cutting my own child's life.

"I'm sorry po." I stood up then ran away from there. "I don't want to kill my baby."

Ang sama kong ina dahil inisip kong ipalaglag ang anak ko. Ang sama sama ko. I sat down and cried hard again. Hinayaan ko lang ang sariling umiyak.

A little while later, I wiped my tears using my hand. My life might be a mess right now but my baby is innocent.

I've decided to protect my child no matter what. I would do whatever I can to make sure my child would live a life to the fullest.

Hindi ko na inisip ang consequences nito, ang mahalaga ay kasama ko ang baby ko. Ayaw man siya ng ama niya ay kaya ko naman siyang buhayin.

Tumayo ako sa kabila ng panginginig ng tuhod ko. Umiiyak pa rin ako habang binabaybay ang daan. Ang daming pumapasok sa isip ko. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang una kong gagawin, at hindi ko rin alam kung paano sasabihin sa mga magulang ko ito. They would surely notice the changes in my body.

I was suddenly reminded of Zach's face a while ago. How he looked disgusted about the fact that he heard that I was pregnant. How he said those words like they didn't matter. How could he say it right in front of my face?

At ikakasal pa talaga siya, ha. That guy doesn't deserve to be happy. I gritted my teeth in anger. Kinuyom ko ang kamao ko. Hindi siya puwede maging masaya. Hindi puwede habang ako ay miserable! Hindi puwede!

I would do anything to make him regret throwing me away from his life. I would make his life miserable. The rain poured heavily witnessing my misery.

Meeting him is a mistake I would forever regret.

"You will never be happy, Zach. Remember this day."

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20 Chapters
Prologue
Sa buhay palaging nasa huli ang pagsisisi. Kahit gusto nating ibalik ang nakaraan na sana hindi na natin ginawa ang isang bagay ay sasampalin tayo ng realidad na hindi na ito puwedeng maibalik. At ang tanging maiisip na lang natin ay ang pagsisisi. Kaya nang napatingin ako sa hawak ko ay gusto kong sumigaw sa inis, lungkot at pagsisisi. I couldn't imagine I would be experiencing something I dreaded all my life.Ang pregnant test na hawak ko ay may dalawang guhit. Looking at it now was a bomb that was killing my system. Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko. Kaya hinawakan ko nang mahigpit ang hawak at pilit na ikinalma ang sarili. Parang gusto ko na lang maglaho na parang bula.Kinuha ko ang bag ko sa gilid saka lumabas ng banyo namin. I framed my face using both of my hands. I sighed heavily then went straight outside. Kailangan kong kausapin si Zach tungkol dito.Dumiretso ako sa office niya at mabilis naman akong nakapasok dahil kilala ako ng secretary niya."What are you doing here?
last updateLast Updated : 2023-09-24
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Chapter 1
I went home drenched from the rain. Manang Sally was looking at me drilling so many questions when she went to me."Ano nangyari? Saan ka galing?""Diyan lang po. Yaya, paki-timpla po ako ng gatas. Thank you," sabi ko na lamang. Mabilis akong umakyat sa kwarto ko para maligo.I quickly took a bath, and changed my usual PJ. I was drying my hair when Manang Sally was handing me a glass of milk. She placed it on my table."Salamat po."Tumango siya sa akin. "Ayos ka lang ba, hija?""Opo. Don't worry." I faked a smile before I saw her leaving inside my room.Huminga ako nang malalim at pilit na ipinakalma ang sarili. I don't know what to do next. Pero isa lang ang sigurado ako, gusto kong maghiganti. Zachariel don't deserve happiness.The memory a while ago was too painful to remember, but it served me as an inspiration to continue with my plan.A week has passed, and I continued with my life as if nothing happened. Mabuti at hindi pa nakakauwi ang aking magulang mula sa kani kanilang bus
last updateLast Updated : 2023-09-24
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Chapter 2
Wounds that are hurt immediately get healed over the course of time. But does time really heal all these wounds? What if the person whose repeatedly hurt didn't bother healing himself even if time has passed? Do we still claim that time takes over in someone's healing? The answer is no because healing is a choice. It takes courage for someone to get healed from all the pain he went through.At kahit paulit ulit na masaktan, kapag hindi mo pipiliing maghilom ang sugat ay wala pa rin kahit lumipas na ang panahon.Two weeks flew fast and the news about the cancelled wedding between Zachariel and Samantha has been lurking around the campus. Zachariel is one of the sought after bachelors in the country, and there's no doubt that lot of people recognize him.Maging si Geneva na kaharap ko habang kumakain kami sa cafeteria ay pinaulanan ako ng napakaraming tanong tungkol sa kanya."What did really happen? May alam ka ba?"I shrugged. "I don't know." Pinagpatuloy ko ang pagkain ng lasagna. Ma
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Chapter 3
If there's something I regret in my life, it was when I met him on the stool of the bar drinking alone. I was with my classmates celebrating a birthday when he caught my attention. Mukhang malalim ang iniisip ng lalaki. I don't know what has gotten into me as I continue to stare at him. There's something about him that draws me to him. He looked like a mystery, something I wanted to unravel."Who are you staring at?" Michelle asked me. Napalingon ako sa kanya. "Wala," sagot ko na lamang. "Sus. You're looking at the guy oh. I think I know him, eh. Pero not sure, baka mali ako." "What's his name?""See? You're interested."Natawa na lamang ako. "He's so hot! Look at those damn hands. Magpapasakal talaga ako!"Napakunot ako ng noo sa narinig. "What are you talking about?""Nevermind," aniya. "Go on. Approach him. If you want his attention, you have to do something.""O-Okay." I looked back at the guy. Uminom muna ako ng alak sa baso ko saka siya muling pinagmasdan. Lalapitan ko na sa
last updateLast Updated : 2023-10-22
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Chapter 4
How far are you willing to go for the sake of love? Back then I thought I would never get the chance to meet him again but destiny prevailed. On one of the charity events I attended, there I saw him again. I was told I had to wear a semi formal dress so I did. I didn't even bother putting on heavy make up, and just settled with my nude lipstick. I never knew he was that famous in the world business owning food chains and restaurants all over the country. Sa loob ng ballroom ng hotel ginanap ang event. Gold and black balloons were seen outside on the corner, and a red carpet for the guests. "Good evening, Ma'am. May I see your invitation?" Untag ng babaeng nakatayo pagpasok sa reception area. I gave the envelope to her."Ma'am sa back stage po kayo," anito."Huh? Why?" Nagtataka kong tanong. Papa just told me to come because our family was one of the investors of the foundation."It's for the date auction, Ma'am."Mas lalo akong naguluhan sa sinabi niya. "What?" Napatingin ako
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Chapter 5
Love can either make you or break you. True to what they say, if love is nourished it will grow beautifully. But a love that isn't will slowly break us inside. And that's how the love I had for Zach shattered me. Nagpatuloy ng isang buwan ang madalas na pagkikita namin ni Zach. Kung ano ano na lang ang dinadahilan ko sa mga magulang ko para makapunta lang sa condo niya at makasama siya. We were happy but it was short lived. "Ah. Zach... Faster..." I moaned as he continued to rammage me. "Thought you don't like it fast," he whispered which gave me chills. He followed what I said as he continued to rock me with his fast and rough movements. Halos malagutan na ako ng hininga sa bilis ng paggalaw niya sa loob ko. "I'm going to cum," I told him. "Cum for me, baby," aniya. Naging mas marahas ang galaw niya kumpara kanina. Nanghihina ako nang maramdaman kong nilabasan ako. He was stroking my hair when we were lying beside each other. "What are we, Zach?" He stopped what he was doing
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Chapter 6
They say love could be the road to happiness. But, this only applies to real love. If a love that steals your peace leading you hurt, ruined, and damaged, should you still keep it?How far am I going to continue loving a person? In the journey of loving him, I earned a wounded and shattered heart. I did everything to keep the love I for him, but things did not go the way I wanted them to be. Because right from the start, I wasn't someone that was loved. I was just used and tossed away. Zach and I were fine after the days passed. There was no day that we would heat ourselves with our bodies. The last time we did was when we were inside the bathroom of a mall. My heart was racing fast that time, and I never found myself caught in that situation, but love made me do it. We were happy, or so I thought... Zach became so busy that he wouldn't even see me. Kahit pumunta ako sa condo nila ay hindi ko siya naabutan. I knew the weight of his work, but I wanted to be there for him. One time
last updateLast Updated : 2023-10-30
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Chapter 7
I blame the Disney animation works to make us believe that a happy ending exists. This was why I was never a sucker for happy endings because I knew my life won't end up like that. I woke up early as the sunlight touches my skin. It was already six in the morning when I glanced at my phone. I checked my phone, and the messages I received are congratulatory messages about my wedding. I didn't bother replying to it. I got up from my bed. Hindi kami tabi natulog ni Zach. Hindi ko alam kung saan siya ngayon, pero wala akong pakialam. I was surprised to see a fried rice and egg on the table when I went in the kitchen. I wonder what's going on in his mind to do this.I loathed him so much that my heart only thinks of his misery. Alam kong masama ang magtanim ng galit, pero ito na lang ang bumubuhay ng dugo ko. I might have sinned a lot for this, but I don't care anymore. If I'd be in hell, I'd bring him down with me. Tahimik akong kumain hanggang sa bumalik siya mula sa pag-jogging. He w
last updateLast Updated : 2023-11-02
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Chapter 8
Humans have been inclined to choices. We choose everything we do. From the moment we wake up until we end our days, we make choices. And, it's our choice to love and hurt. Even if it's something we can't hold off. There are also repurcussions of our choices and decisions. No matter how we try to regret it, it happened because we wanted it to. Marrying him was a choice I did to get even from the pain and damage he brought to me. I knew I shouldn't have played with the fire, but here I was caught with it, but it would not be who'd end up getting hurt. Sisiguraduhin kong siya ang matatalo at iiyak sa dulo. I quickly changed my dress to my usual night attire. Sinuklayan ko lang aking sarili habang nakakatitig sa repleksyon ko sa salamin. I waited for them to finish with whatever they were doing. Nasa kwarto lang ako. Nilibang ko na lang ang sarili ko. Next week, we'd be hiring our helper because I want to drink milk right now but I don't want to go downstairs.Gusto kong palakpakan a
last updateLast Updated : 2023-11-09
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Chapter 9
When I thought everything is working my way, the world would slap me that life isn't life if it just goes according to what you want. I should've predicted that there will be times that complications and problems will come along but that slipped my mind. In the end, I'm just a fool deciding hastily, and I don't have any chance but to accept every blow. "Are you just admitting your defeat right now?" Hindi makapaniwalang hayag ko. "You said it yourself, I'm just your pawn. So use me instead," he muttered. I frowned. "What? All of this for sex?" His fingers started climbing to my chin, to my lips and to my neck, teasing me. "This isn't about sex. It's you being my property. No one can have you, Vell. Only me can have you. Only me. Your body is mine.""No one owns me, Zachariel." I breathed heavily. His hands started to do wonders. Ipinaikot niya ako kaya ngayon ay nasa likuran niya na ako. He was trailing little kisses on the side of my ears which caused me to shiver. "Stop..."
last updateLast Updated : 2023-11-12
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