Humans have been inclined to choices. We choose everything we do. From the moment we wake up until we end our days, we make choices. And, it's our choice to love and hurt. Even if it's something we can't hold off. There are also repurcussions of our choices and decisions. No matter how we try to regret it, it happened because we wanted it to. Marrying him was a choice I did to get even from the pain and damage he brought to me. I knew I shouldn't have played with the fire, but here I was caught with it, but it would not be who'd end up getting hurt. Sisiguraduhin kong siya ang matatalo at iiyak sa dulo. I quickly changed my dress to my usual night attire. Sinuklayan ko lang aking sarili habang nakakatitig sa repleksyon ko sa salamin. I waited for them to finish with whatever they were doing. Nasa kwarto lang ako. Nilibang ko na lang ang sarili ko. Next week, we'd be hiring our helper because I want to drink milk right now but I don't want to go downstairs.Gusto kong palakpakan a
When I thought everything is working my way, the world would slap me that life isn't life if it just goes according to what you want. I should've predicted that there will be times that complications and problems will come along but that slipped my mind. In the end, I'm just a fool deciding hastily, and I don't have any chance but to accept every blow. "Are you just admitting your defeat right now?" Hindi makapaniwalang hayag ko. "You said it yourself, I'm just your pawn. So use me instead," he muttered. I frowned. "What? All of this for sex?" His fingers started climbing to my chin, to my lips and to my neck, teasing me. "This isn't about sex. It's you being my property. No one can have you, Vell. Only me can have you. Only me. Your body is mine.""No one owns me, Zachariel." I breathed heavily. His hands started to do wonders. Ipinaikot niya ako kaya ngayon ay nasa likuran niya na ako. He was trailing little kisses on the side of my ears which caused me to shiver. "Stop..."
Our little action determines what the future lies ahead. May mga bagay na ginagawa tayo na nagkakaroon ng malaking dulot sa atin. Tulad ngayon ang kanyang ginagawa ay malaking epekto sa akin, alam kong hindi lang sa ngayon, maging sa mga susunod araw. My thoughts were pulled away as I looked up to the man who just stole a kiss from me as if he didn't hurt me, destroyed me and ruined me. It made me burn in anger. If I could just throw him away and hurt him, I have already done it from the moment he denied me and my child's existence.I pulled away from him and slapped him. I knew it stinged based from his reaction. "Fuck. Why do you always slap me?!" He hissed. "You deserve that, jerk!" "I guess I really have to get used to this. Your way of saying thank you is different, huh.""Go away!" Sinundan niya ako hanggang sa maakyat ako sa kwarto ako, pero mabilis kong sinara ang aking pinto. The next day, I tried hard to ignore his presence. Nagpaalam na kami sa pamilya ko na uuwi na k
TW: RapeA man who penetrates her wife without her consent or against her will commits sexual violence upon her, and the Philippines defines and penalizes the act as rape under R.A. No. 8353.-I was terribly crying from what Zach did. He just ditched me all for Samantha! When will I ever learn from this? I thought I had everything planned. I didn't know that his actions were turning me softer for him. My plan in the beginning was to make sure he's miserable; that he won't get the happy ending, but as I stood here I realized that my actions were nowhere in accord in the plan. I was completely wrong expecting that everything's on my way, because it won't and will never be. I called Clyde to drive me home to Ayala. I don't want to talk to Zach, not this time. I was surprised to see how Clyde drove that fast. It hasn't been twenty minutes since I was waiting for him. He was the only person I could think of. My diver is on his paternity leave. He waved his hand when he went out from his
Regrets are the worst things in life. It wishes you for something impossible and brings back the past. The only choice you have for now is to just live by it even if it haunts you from time to time. If I didn't marry Zach, would it make a difference? I'm still miserable. And now that I married him, a fracture of my heart got destroyed over and over again... I should've known better. I brought this to myself. It was all my fault. Where's the brave and confident, Eyah now? I tried hard to function the next few days. Zach continued to prepare me breakfast for two consecutive days. I never talked to him since that night. Kahit nga ay pansin ko ang madalas niyang pagsulyap niya sa akin ay pinabayaan ko na lang. Wala rin akong pakialam kung pinagsisihan niya ba ang ginawa niya sa akin. Alam kong hihingi na naman siya muli ng tawad, at paulit ulit lang iyon. I became busy with my internship even if it was just work from home. I only have two weeks left for my on the job training. Magpap
I couldn't move. I just sat there, crying endlessly. Inabutan ako ng tubig ni Rosie. She looked at me worriedly. I knew how ruthless he was, but not to the extent of hurting me physically. He never did this to me. Not even once. I pity myself for dragging myself into this mess. All for a fucking revenge. "Just get rest," I told her. She helped me stand up. "I'm fine, Rosie." "Mamaya na lang po, Ma'am. Gusto ko po kayong samahan.""Rosie. Please, don't make this hard for me. Matulog ka na," sabi ko sa kanya. It took her a while before she nodded. I couldn't sleep well that night. I even woke up at 10 in the morning. Mabilis lang akong nag-ayos. Nanghihina pa rin ako sa nangyari kahapon. Pagkababa ko ay nagulat na lamang ako nang makita si Zachariel sa kusina, like he was waiting for me.I ignored him the usual like he wasn't around. Narinig ko siyang tumikhim. "Vell, can we talk?" I heard him asked. Napansin ko na may nakahanda ng pagkain sa mesa. Fried rice, hotdog and egg were
I couldn't move. I just sat there, crying endlessly. Inabutan ako ng tubig ni Rosie. She looked at me worriedly.I knew how ruthless he was, but not to the extent of hurting me physically. He never did this to me. Not even once. I pity myself for dragging myself into this mess. All for a fucking revenge."Just get rest," I told her. She helped me stand up. "I'm fine, Rosie.""Mamaya na lang po, Ma'am. Gusto ko po kayong samahan.""Rosie. Please, don't make this hard for me. Matulog ka na," sabi ko sa kanya.It took her a while before she nodded.I couldn't sleep well that night. I even woke up at 10 in the morning. Mabilis lang akong nag-ayos. Nanghihina pa rin ako sa nangyari kahapon. Pagkababa ko ay nagulat na lamang ako nang makita si Zachariel sa kusina, like he was waiting for me.I ignored him the usual like he wasn't around. Narinig ko siyang tumikhim."Vell, can we talk?" I heard him asked. Napansin ko na may nakahanda ng pagkain sa mesa. Fried rice, hotdog and egg were served
What went wrong? Was it when he made me feel he was never mine? Was it when I got pregnant? Or was it when he denied my baby's existence? Everything I've mentioned all put me in this situation.It was already lunch when I woke up. I feel better now than I was earlier. To my surprise, Zachariel was still on the corner of the couch with his phone."You're awake," he said, looking at me."Yeah."Pinilit kong tumayo. Nagulat pa ako nang inalalayan niya ako. Gusto ko Mang itulak ko siya ay pinigil ko na lamang ang sarili."Do you feel better now?"I nodded."Okay. I'll go now since you're okay.""You should've gone home.""Not when you're not okay."I rolled my eyes. "Whatever.""Can you please at least be kind to me? I'm trying, Vell. I'm trying to make this right..." He breathed.I scoffed. "Can't believe you really have the nerve to say that, Zachariel.""Vell...""Umuwi ka na lang, please. Your mere presence gives me a headache."He sighed. "Fine. Just let me know if you need anything