“Why do you say that?”
I waved off my assistant as she popped her head in, and I swiveled the chair around to face the wall of windows. “Most people send a text the next day, two days max. Or they scrub off the ink with no intention of ever calling. But they don’t usually keep the number and wait three weeks to use it.”
“I was moving. That’s why I didn’t phone you sooner.”
I grabbed a stress ball off my desk. I threw it into the air, caught it, and tossed it right back up. “My best friend owns a moving company. I could have had you relocated and unpacked within a few hours.”
“I wouldn’t have accepted your offer, Dylan. My roommates and I are more than capable of handling it.”
I shifted in my seat as the ball went wide to the left, and I threw it high. “It sounds like you have more than one.”
“I have three.”
“Three?” I said, laughing.
I hadn’t lived with that many people since college, and that was ten years ago.
I wasn’t sure how old Alix was. I guessed mid-twenties, which meant she should be well past the sorority stage of her life.
“Two of the guys at the station were looking for roommates. Rose and I were, too, so we moved in with them.”
“Rose is?”
“The girl I was eating dinner with the night I met you.”
Now, I was just intrigued.
“And what station are you referring to?”
“Engine thirty-three, ladder fifteen—the firehouse on Boylston Street.”
Since I hadn’t known her name until a few seconds ago, I hadn’t been able to look Alix up, so I didn’t know anything about her.
Now that I was getting a taste, I wanted more.
“Do you work there?”
“Yes, I’m a paramedic.”
A marketing executive, a real estate agent, the owner of an art gallery, I could picture. But Alix dressed in a uniform, straddling someone on a gurney while performing CPR, I could not.
That didn’t mean I hated the image in my mind.
I liked it.
A hell of a lot.
She was a first responder, and there wasn’t anything more honorable than that.
Especially in a city as challenging as Boston.
“I’m impressed,” I said.
“Thank you.”
“Tell me something, Alix. Why would a woman like yourself have three roommates?”
“Like myself?”
I rolled the ball over the armrest of the chair. “Strong, independent. Fearless.”
She stayed quiet for a few seconds before she said, “My parents feel more comfortable when I live in a building that has a doorman. They’ve spent their whole lives in innocent ole Maine. The thought of me being in this big city terrifies them. And that’s where my place has to be located because it’s one of my job requirements. With those two expensive necessities, I’d be rent poor if I didn’t have roommates.”
I knew what city employees made.
My mother was one.
So, I understood Alix’s situation.
“Where are you?” I asked.
“You mean, right this second?”
“Yes.”
“I’m walking out of the firehouse, heading home.”
I’d lived in Boston my entire life, so I knew the general area of where that firehouse was located. I just didn’t know the cross street. “How far are you from Back Bay Station?”
“Maybe seven blocks or so.”
“When you get there, take the orange line to Downtown Crossing. I’ll be there when you walk outside.”
“Wait. You want me to get on the train to meet you? Now?”
I looked at my computer, clicking on the calendar to bring up my schedule. It showed I had four more meetings today, one that started in fifteen minutes. Two of them were conference calls with the West Coast office, and in an hour, one was with the pilot who had received a one-month suspension for showing up drunk to the airport.
“Do it on a whim, Alix.”
Several seconds passed before she said, “Okay, I’ll see you there.”
Madison’s, the restaurant where I was meeting Peter, was only a few blocks from my townhouse, making it easy to walk there. As I put on my jacket, I wondered what Rose had told him about me and if he’d chosen to eat there because of how close it was to my place.
I had to ask her.
We were overdue for a chat anyway. I was supposed to call her when I got home from work today, but I had been too busy, getting ready.
So, once I shut the front door behind me, carefully walking down the steps, I took out my cell and pressed her name in my Contacts.
She answered after the first ring and said, “Girl, I was giving you five more minutes before I called you and chewed your ass out. You’re going on a date tonight. How can we not talk first?”
“I know. I’m sorry.”
“You’re forgiven.”
I laughed. “I need to clarify something really quick. This is not a date.”
“What is it then?”
I thought about her question, trying to come up with the answer that had caused me to put on several different outfits before I settled on this one and spent a little extra time doing my makeup.
The truth was, “I honestly don’t know.”
“It doesn’t need a label. You’re going out; let’s leave it at that. Tell me what you’re wearing.”
Even though I knew what was covering my body, I looked down as I passed a large group of men. “Skinny jeans, a lightweight sweater, and knee-high boots.”
“Did you have a glass of wine before you left?”
I wondered if I would ever reach a point in my life when she stopped asking that question. “A half of a glass.”
“Good,” she responded. “I hoped you would celebrate even if I wasn’t there to force you to.”
This was another moment.
At least she believed it was one.
I didn’t want to think too much about it, so I changed topics and said, “What are you and Terry doing tonight?”
Terry was Rose’s fiancé. They’d started dating shortly after we all moved in together, which was about the same time I’d met Dylan. When things turned serious between Terry and Rose, they got their own place, and two firemen from a different station moved in with me.
A few months later, I’d left, too.Just as I began to unzip that memory while Rose was telling me what their plans were for tonight, I heard a sound.It was one I couldn’t ignore.One I’d been tuned in to for years.It was the sound of someone who needed help.My feet stopped, and I scanned the area in front of me and on both sides until I found the source. There were two men just steps inside the mouth of the alley up ahead. One was sitting on the ground, hunched forward. The other was hovering over him, trying to evoke a response.It took less than a second to assess the situation.My heart began to race, my hands trembling to the point where I almost dropped the phone.The man kneeling was shaking the unconscious guy’s shoulders.There was still no reaction from him.My experience told me he would only get worse without a medical intervention.He needed an EMT, and then he needed to be brought to the hospital.It was a process I was quite familiar with.But, even if I wanted to hel
“And they’re showing you that he’s …” His voice trailed off, and he lifted his hand from Joe’s neck and ran it through his hair. “Jesus fucking Christ, Joe. Open your eyes and look at me, buddy.” When Joe didn’t respond, Smith put his hand on his friend’s chest and shook it. “Open your goddamn eyes. I know you can hear me right now.”I didn’t stop him because I didn’t think movement would hurt Joe’s condition.“What the fuck did you take?” He got closer to Joe’s face. “You didn’t have to do this. We would have figured it out. I would have helped you; you know that.”Just as Joe’s pulse slowed a little more, I heard the sound of the siren. By how loud it was, it couldn’t have been more than a few blocks away.“They’re almost here,” I said to Smith.My fingers stayed on Joe’s wrist, constantly monitoring his heart rate in case it lowered to where I needed to give him CPR. My eyes were glued to him, taking in the coloring of his skin, the movement in his face, every rise of his chest. An
EightAlixPresent DayWithin thirteen minutes of entering my townhouse, I was in bed. Naked. The blanket pulled up to my neck, a bottle of wine in my hand that I rested on top of the mattress.HGTV was playing on the television.Muted.Both bedside table lamps were on.In the last several seconds, I’d played and processed my encounter with Smith and Joe.I’d celebrated the moment internally.It was another milestone after all.And it had been a big one.Now, it was time to call Rose, whose panicked texts I still hadn’t replied to.I opened my call log, found her name, and pressed it.“Alix, are you okay?”I shouldn’t have waited so long to call.I should have phoned her when I’d gotten inside my townhouse.But I couldn’t have.My return couldn’t have gone in that order.I’d had to unlock the door first, then drop the keys and my bag, grab the wine, get undressed, and climb into bed.“Yes,” I promised. “I’m fine.”She sighed, and I could tell how relieved she was. “What the hell happe
She needed to understand something, and because I was more forward than her, I said, “Listen to me, Alix. You can always say no to me.”“I’m not sure I can.”As I looked into her eyes, the truth behind that statement revealed itself to me.She felt the same way I did.I didn’t know what to call it.I couldn’t even describe it.But it was something.I’d known that from the moment I stood next to her at the restaurant.Even more so when I wrote my number on her hand.And, now, the feeling was even more intense than ever.Enough that I needed to start walking or my fucking hands were going to reach for her.I couldn’t let that happen yet.“Follow me.” My hand went to her shoulder, moving her closer, before I led her toward State Street.Just as I took a step, I heard, “Wait.”I glanced at my side, our eyes locking.“I need to know something first.”“What?”“Is she still in the picture?”She.The girl I had been with that night.It was a fair question.“She’s long gone.” My lids narrowed
She swallowed the fries. “Same—except I’m an only child, neither of my parents are pilots, and I grew up in southern Maine.”“Portland?”“Falmouth.”“Even nicer,” I said. I knew the area well, as I’d flown into Portland many times and checked out the surrounding cities. “There’s a corner store in Falmouth. I can’t remember the name, but it has the best whoopie pies I’ve ever tasted.”“Nina’s Variety, and you’re right; they do.”Her lips parted as she lifted the gyro and took a bite.A mouthful so big, it made me proud of her.Alix was cool.Much more than just a pretty face.This girl had substance.She had a story.It was one I wanted to hear.And one I wanted to be a part of.“I want to do this again,” I said.“Me, too.”Once I got up, I reached down to help her stand. “You ready for dessert?”She showed me her sandwich, which she’d only eaten half of. “I don’t think I can fit in another bite.”“Find the room.” I tossed her gyro into a trash bin along with the rest of mine and the e
The first was a business account with a photo of him dressed in a suit. I clicked on the profile and learned he was a divorce attorney with a law firm in Downtown Crossing.I knew the location well.Dylan’s office was a few buildings over.I backed out and clicked on the second listing, which was Smith’s personal profile. Even though I was a little hazy on what he and Joe looked like, I didn’t remember Smith being so handsome.But he was and extremely easy to stare at.His features were sharp and rich.His smile was inviting.He had a warmth to him where Dylan was so cold.I focused on the pictures, and what I learned within the first several rows were that Smith was active and outdoorsy.He biked.Ran.And he ate.There were photos of food from restaurants all over the city.The more I continued to explore, I saw shots that he’d taken from different spots around the world.Japan.Dubai.Alaska.Peru.I scrolled through more.Two years back.Three.Smith’s life was fascinating.He did
I’d kept my hands off of her while she was eating the gyro and fries.But I didn’t want to wait any longer.Once she swallowed the mouthful, I said, “Alix …”I needed her eyes on me to see the way she would look at me, how she would respond to the sound of my voice.That would determine if I could reach for her right now or if I’d have to wait.Her stare slowly lifted and landed on mine.Shyness was peeking through her expression.Still, every sign was there—the desire in her glare, the increased breathing, the way her tongue was swiping across her lips. It wasn’t frosting she was licking off because there wasn’t any there.I dropped the small box of cake on the ground.She didn’t watch it fall, but when she heard the sound, I saw the hunger in her grow.I took a step.She did, too, in the opposite direction at the same time she dropped her cake.She said nothing as I continued to move toward her, backing her up to the side of the building until her body was pressed against it.As I s
“No, we don’t,” I replied, trying to stop her before she took this any further.“We can’t keep avoiding this subject.”We had to—until I was able to tell her about Dylan coming home.Until I could explain where things stood.But I wasn’t ready for that conversation yet.“I just don’t want to discuss him tonight.”She nodded, telling me she understood and that she wouldn’t push me to chat about him tonight. Then, she glanced down at her menu. When she finally looked back up, there was a huge smile on her face. “Want to skip dinner and go straight to dessert?”“More than anything.”She reached across the table and squeezed my hand. “That means we’re going to need another bottle of wine.”“Yesss ,” I agreed.She laughed.I did, too.This time felt even better.When I saw the brick row of townhouses, mine being on the very end, I hurried down the rest of the sidewalk and up the front steps.I unlocked the door.Once I was inside, my keys were placed in the bowl in the entryway, and I set