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2024-10-29 19:42:56We were about halfway moved into my apartment. I had most of my stuff and James had some of his stuff moved in.
I felt kind of giddy, knowing that I had a place to myself and James was going to stay with me. I looked around at all of the boxes and grinned. I ran a hand over my belly and felt our baby kick and I grinned.She was beginning to be more active and even James was beginning to feel her move around. We still were a week away from her appointment with the heart specialist, so I was still worried about that, but moving got my mind off of it for the most part."Where do you want this box?" Jordan wiped some sweat off of his forehead with his arm and held up a box that simply said my name. I sighed. James had marked all of my stuff with my name and all of my mom's stuff with hers, but I found kitchen stuff in one of my boxes, so I didn't even know anymore."Anywhere will be fine."He went to the small living room and placed that boRelated chapters
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