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When they released me later, I walked slowly, feeling my stomach cramp up as I walked. James wrapped his arm around my waist and walked with me slowly. Marlene had sent one of the other teenagers to the apartment for some extra clothes for me, so I was wearing a pair of James grey sweatpants and a sweatshirt that I had brought with me from school.
I couldn't even remember where I had gotten it, but James said I had been clutching it when the EMTs had wheeled me out.I laid in the backseat of Marlene's van with my head in James' lap as she took us home to the apartment. Jordan or Justice had already driven James' car home, so we didn't have to go back.Once at home, Marlene moved around the apartment, trying to find comfortable blankets and other stuff that was still lost in the mess of boxes we had.James helped me lay down in bed and while she flitted around, I pretended to go to sleep so that I didn't have to talk to anyone. It was during the bRelated chapters
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Unapologetically Me Pharmacy Run
I stepped into the bathroom and took a deep inhale of the steam filled with the scent of James' body wash."I'm taking my mom to the pharmacy. Do you need anything while I'm out?""I'm good. I'll start something for dinner. And..." He poked his head out of the shower and looked me over. "Think about it. I know you think she needs you, but she doesn't. And we don't need to deal with all of the sh*t she's doing."I bit my lip and nodded."Okay, I will. I love you.""Love you too."We left and I drove her to the nearest pharmacy. She took her purse and looked back at me. "I'll be back." I nodded and watched her walk in, then I pulled my phone out and took a deep breath.I dialed Chloe and felt like I needed to get everything off of the chest. When she didn't answer, I sat and stared out of the damn windshield at the store for what felt like an eternity, waiting on her.When, after thirty minutes passed, she didn't come out,
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