Lily

It was still hard going through day to day sh*t without thinking about her. To help us out, we decided to name her, so that we would stop calling her 'the baby'. We went through a lot of names. It was mentally exhausting, because none of them felt right. And I also knew that I didn't want to remember her by giving her a name I would hate later on.

I imagined her looking like James more than myself. I imagined his pale skin and his big, beautiful blue eyes and nothing from me. I just couldn't see it in my mind. And it was only during a trip to the grocery store when we were passing the little bouquets of flowers by the front of the store that I saw a flower that caught my eye.

It was a beautiful swan white color with a tinge of pink on the outer parts of the petals. The petals were long and dropped down, showing a beautiful inside. I picked up the bouquet of lilies and showed James. He looked at the flowers and smiled.

"They're beautiful." He commented. I