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2024-10-29 19:42:56‘Nessa, what do I do?’ I hadn’t made it but a few steps into the forest before I asked her.
‘Let it out Roo. Tell me everything.’
She barely gets the words out before I vomit it all out.
‘How did this happen, Ness? One minute I am so sure of the path I am going to take, refusing to join a pack, and hating Nate. And now I’m calling him Nate and not Nathaniel, and there is another alpha, whom I am also the mate of, who is so different from his brother. And then there is Camilla, and the fact that she is also a white wolf? I mean, what are the chances? Their parents adopt a white wolf, they are mates with a white wolf. Alpha twins, white wolves. I mean this is all so crazy!’
I take a moment to breathe before more word vomit comes out.
‘…and on top of it all I have just over 12 hours until they w
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