Things getting more complicated every day. Each day I woke up feeling empty. Halos araw-araw akong tulala at wala sa sarili. One week after the incident happened in my unit, I've never seen Axel's face again. While Andrei keeps on bugging me and wants me to give him another chance. Sad to say... I can't"What do you think, Sharia?"I heard my name but I didn't say a thing. My mind was busy thinking about Jade's situation right now. After I found out that she was pregnant, I could not help but think about her baby. Paano ang bata kapag natuloy pa rin ang kasal namin ni Andrei? Wala siyang kikilalaning ama. "Earth to Shaira!"I look at the man who's looking at me with what-the-fuck face. I was dumbfounded. Ano nga ba ulit ang sinasabi niya? "S-Sorry, it's just that..." yumuko ako at napabuntong hininga. "...I'm not feeling well."Bakit ba nawala sa isip ko na nasa isang mahalagang meeting nga pala ako ngayon? Na ang mga kasama ko sa loob ng conference meeting na ito ay mga naglalakiha
"I love you, but I need space and time to think about everything, think about myself... to think about us."Linyahan ng mga lalaking nahuli na pero pilit pa ring ikinukubli ang pagkakamaling nagawa nila. Gaano kalaking espasyo ba ang kailangan ng isang lalaki para maisip niya ang kagaguhang nagawa niya sa tulad kong babae? How much time does a man need for him to realize that he shouldn't have done fooling and played with a woman's heart? How much love, effort, and loyalty does a man want to feel, for him to stay and fulfill his promises? Masusukat ba ang 'tagal ng pinagsamahan' sa kung gaano n'yo paligayahin ang isa't isa sa kama? Maibabalik ba ng 'sorry' ang tiwalang winasak ng paulit-ulit dahil lang natukso siya at nadarang sa init ng yakap ng iba? Laruan lang ba talaga kaming mga babae para sa mga lalaking walang ibang hangad kun'di ang matikman kami, tapos iiwan kapag nagbago na ang panlasa nila? Or do they see us as a lottery?"The more entries, the more chances of winning," I
MARRIAGE was supposed to be the legally or formally recognized union of two people as partners. It was when two people wanted to tie the knot and settled- but not for me.I don't do marriage, especially with someone whom I've never met and loved. Kahit na nga ba marami na akong napaluhang babae at nasaktan, naniniwala pa rin ako na love still exists. Na dapat pakasalan mo ang taong mahal mo at handa kang makasama siya sa hirap man o ginhawa. Most of all, I wanted to marry a woman whom I chose to love and hold, not a woman chosen by my family for me for the sake of fucking business."Come on X, the night is still young, and you still have lots of condoms to be used."I look at Mira who's still lying on my bed, naked and wanting for more. Nakilala ko lang siya kanina sa music bar kung saan umorder ako ng alak dahil naubusan na ako.And just like the other women that I bedded, Mira is not different from them. She's willing and easy to know what she wanted from me... pleasure and money.N
"What's your name?"Muli niyang tanong sa akin habang marahang naglalakabay ang palad niya sa likuran ko, pababa sa baywang ko.I can smell the mixture of mint and lime on his breath and I can almost hear my heartbeat, because of the sudden tension that is building between me and him- X."I told you, flirting isn't my style," I answered then lean my head on his shoulder. "But would you mind sending me to my unit?" I asked, feeling a bit shy. Pero hindi ko na rin talaga kaya pa ang pagkahilo na nadarama ko ngayon.Mukha naman siyang mapagkakatiwalaan dahil mabilis ko siyang nakagaanan ng loob. At sa halos ilang minuto na nakayakap ako sa kaniya, tanging haplos lang ang nagiging tugon niya. Ngunit hindi pa rin ako sigurado, kung ang fiance ko nga na halos hindi makabasag pinggan ay nagawa akong lokohin. Si Axel pa kaya na ngayon ko lang naman nakilala at nakausap. But then, I was curious... ano ang kaya niyang gawin?"Hey, I mean... what should I call you then? I don't even know your na
"Are you asking me to-""Take off your clothes, lay down to my bed... and then we'll fuck till our heart's content," baliwalang sambit niya na para bang isa akong bayarang babae at papayag na lang basta-basta sa gusto niyang mangyari. Shame on him! Anong tingin niya sa sarili niya? This man is freakingly insane! Ang lakas ng tiwala niya sa sarili."How'd we do that?! I just met you... last night I guess, I don't know.""That's easy, first I'm going to kiss you." He stared at my lips which made me blush. "Then move down to your... breast. I will ho-""Enough! I'm not interested, at wala akong panahon na makipag landian sa'yo!" Inirapan ko siya, ipinangangalandakan ang inis na nadarama ko sa kaniya. "Puwede mo na siguro akong iwanan para makakain naman ako ng maayos 'no?!" giit ko pa na ikinangisi niya naman. This guy is stressing me out. But I admit, he's handsome as fuck! Mas guwapo pa siya kaysa kay Andrei. And I think... I did forget to think about Andrei because of him. His eyes
"If I play fire with someone... it'll be all night long," he told me while kissing my earlobe down to my jawline causing me to moan silently. "Now tell me, do you still want to play with me? Or leave and acted as if nothing happened?" He asks.I tilted my head, giving him more access to kiss me. "I'm staying," desidido kong sagot kahit na nga ba dama ko ang malakas na kabog ng dibdib ko. Kulang yata ang alak na nainom ko, dahil kung naparami ako... hindi ako kakabahan ng ganitoHe licked the corner of my lips and continued kissing me softly while his hands were busy roaming all over my body. I groan and pulled back a little when I felt him pinch my nipple outside my shirt."Change your mind already?" He asked me again and then take off his shirt.Baliwalang hinagis niya lang ang hinubad niyang damit bago muli akong hinila palapit sa kaniya. Umiling naman ako bilang tugon sa tanong niya na ikinangisi niya. "That's good to know." He kisses my lips again, put his tongue inside my mouth,
Since I feel bored, I decided to go home early. And when I say 'home' it's home then. Hindi ko alam kung bakit sa mansion namin ako dinala ng sasakyan ko, samantalang madalang pa sa eclipse kung umuwi ako rito- meaning limang beses lang sa loob ng isang taon. Minsan nga ay wala pa."Good evening Seniorito," magalang na bati sa akin ng isa sa kasambahay namin.Nginitian ko lang siya at walang pakialam na nilampasan na. Dahil nga sa madalang akong umuwi rito, ni hindi ko na matandaan ang mga pangalan nila."What brought you here?" Bungad naman sa akin ng ama ko na halos kabababa lang ng hagdan. Ngunit kumunot ang noo ko ng mapatingin sa hawak niya."Since when did you use a walking stick Dad?" Kunot noong tanong ko sa kaniya. Ganoon na ba talaga ako katagal na hindi umuuwi para hindi malaman ang mga nagaganap sa kaniya? Sa kanila ni Mama?"Son, guwapo lang ako pero tumatanda rin naman," nakangiting sagot niya. "Kaya nga umaasa kami ng Mama mo na bago man lang sana ako pumunta sa langit
[This part is R-18. Read at your own risk.] "Would you mind if I kiss you down there?" He asked me while kissing my jawline down to my neck.I don't know whether I said yes or a no. I was busy savoring his hot kisses on my neck and down to my shoulder. But when he move down again and give attention to my chest, I pulled his hair unexpectedly."Wala pa tayo sa exciting part, pero kung makasabunot ka parang nakaraming rounds na tayong dalawa," aniya na ikinapula ng pisngi ko.Pakiramdam ko nga ay nag-init din ang tenga ko at may gumapang na kakaibang init at kilabot sa kaibuturan ko."A-axel... I... ohh ghad!" I moan as if I was feeling pain but to be honest, I'm not!Daig ko pa ang nagdidileryo dahil sa init na nararamdaman ko. I was moaning and pulling his hair even harder, but I didn't hear him complaining. Dinig na dinig ko rin ang tunog ng paghalik niya sa dibdib ko. Bawat malapatan ng dila niya, pakiramdam ko'y napapaso."Do you like it? Do you like what I was doing to you?" Sunod