Chapter 7

I was a model.

A lot of brand owners and international fashion directors noticed me and offered big projects. Unfortunately, my sister, who's also pursuing a modeling career, was left behind. That's when mom talked to me.

She said I need to step out of the spotlight for Caitlin to shine. Ibinigay ko 'yon. Isinuko ko kahit mahal na mahal ko ang pagmomodelo. Hindi ko na ipinaglaban ang gusto ko dahil sa atensyon at pagmamahal na nais ko mula sa kanila ni Mom. Ipinagpalit ko ang trabaho na pangarap at mahal ko para sa kanila dahil para sa akin ay mas mahalaga ang pamilya.

Sometimes, they care, sometimes they don't. At tuwang-tuwa na ako sa tuwing mabibigyan nila kahit kaunti ng kanilang atensyon.

I feel sorry for myself because it's like I'm begging for their love. Naisip ko nang baka hindi ako anak ni Mom dahil iba ang turing niya sa akin but that's impossible.

A lot of people saying that we looked a like. Ang Mommy ang kamukha ko, at si Caitlin naman ay ang Dad.

"I am sorry for making