Marriage?!

Well I guess I should start by saying hello! My name is Cici, Let's start at the beginning shall we?

I lived with my dad (The Alpha of our pack) and step mom since I was 6 as my birth mother died. At the age of 8 my wolf made itself known, her name was Maya, it was rare to have your wolf come forward before you were 16, but I just thought I was lucky.

When I heard her in my mind for the first time I was out in the pack meadow and my body swiftly started to brake and snap in a painful but pleasing shift into a stunning white pup. I had never seen a wolf as a pup, all the people in my dads pack didn’t turn until they were adults. After I had shifted back I ran to the kitchen to tell my dad, my chest filled with pride at how powerful I must be to have my wolf find me at such a tender age.

But against my beliefs he was not impressed, his eyes flashed black and I knew he was furious... that’s when it started... the beatings... the starving... the venom filled words making me feel worthless!

That is until my wolf cowered so far back in my mind I eventually couldn’t feel her at all. She was gone... and I was worthless just as my father kept saying.

My body stopped healing with my wolf having left and my dad seemed to enjoy the torture more because when he made me bleed he could watch the crimson drops pool on the floor for even longer. He didn’t have to use silver anymore either, he could cut me with anything and I wouldn’t heal and I would be left with the scars.

Anyway, that’s been the only life I know, now to what is happening to me now… my father came to the basement he referred to as my room.

“GET THE HELL UP YOU PIECE OF SHIT” he screamed in my face. I did as he said, my head pounding and my body swaying from side to side, it didn’t matter though because if I didn’t get up I knew I’d end up in even worse shape.

He said something but the pounding in my head made me believe I wasn’t hearing him right.... “What?” I mumble staring at my father.

“ARE YOU FUCKING DEAF? You have been promised to another pack as a bride!” Tears blur my vision and I tried to hold back a sob.

"Why?" I said, feeling lost and desperate. I never had the chance to leave the pack and find a mate. I suppose that’s if I even have one anymore.

"Its doesn't matter why." My father growls. I lower my head submitting. “You will marry Beta Paul to unify us and The Black Moon Pack." My father growls again.

“What about my mate?" I whimper, damn I didn’t mean to think that out loud.. stupid.

“I DON'T GIVE A DAMN, YOUR WOLF LEFT YOU ANYWAY, YOU PROBABLY DON’T EVEN HAVE A MATE!” My father shouts pounding his fist on the wall above my head. I whimper and cower even more. "You’re a pathetic excuse for an Alpha female! When you leave your brother Jimmy will be a fine addition to the Alpha line." My father yells. I start to cry and dart to the bathroom down the hall. "You leave tonight." He adds yelling after my disappearing form.

Fear and Sadness sweep over me as I later return to my room... well if you could call it that, it wasn’t much but it was my space, except for the beatings I was left alone here.

I still didn’t understand what made him hate me so much. I couldn't figure out if it was because of my gender or the fact that my wolf came forward at a record age, or maybe it was the fact the woman my dad got married to hated me. My stepmother was a dirty slut. My father pretty much married the pack whore when my mother died, nobody wanted her when she had aged and was known to open her legs to anyone, so it didn’t matter that my dad didn’t love her. She did everything for him to make him happy so she would have a position in the pack, except looking after me that is.

Thats how my brother was born. I'm not even sure if he is my brother biogically but I don't really care. They are all as bad as each other, none of them really spoke to me and after the incident with my wolf they all started beating me... none of them cared.

I slowly slide off my floor mat and pack what measly items I have into a back pack. Who knows maybe I’ll get a night in a bed for once, it wasn’t much but considering everything happening right now it was the only positive thought I could bring myself to have.

As I walk down the steps I see my fathers driver is there waiting for me... my dad was next to the gates and for a second I thought he might say goodbye to me, but instead he grabs my shoulders and slams me into a wall. I supress a scream when I hear and feel a rib brake from the force of the wall.

“Listen here girl and listen closely. I don't care if I am marrying you off to the most vicious pack in the world. If Beta Paul ‘takes’ you... you don't resist! It’s your job to be a submissive pup bearing bitch, you hear me? That’s all you’re good for now that your wolf is gone... luckily any pups you have will still be wolf, that and the fact you’re an Alpha’s child was the only way I managed to offer you up!” My dad screams. I nod quickly and lower my gaze to my feet. My father grips me by the shoulder and shoves me into the car. "If I ever see you again I WILL KILL YOU!" He screams. I let out a whine just before the driver closes the door.