Dinner
"The wildflower has been tamed!" Maliah announced humorously.
Tamed.
I want to laugh it off, but it feels like there is some truth to it. And for some reason, I don’t find it amusing. The idea of changing because of a man sounds awful to me; it wasn’t like me at all.
“Hey, what are you thinking, huh?” Maliah snapped me out of my reverie.
“Nothing.”
She looked at me knowingly, like she knew whatever was going on in my mind. “I’m not talking about you, sweetie. No one will be able to tame you. You are like a wildflower, yes, and that is because you grew up without the help of anyone; you raised yourself. And I swear you did great, hon. You are someone who stands up for what she believes in; you know what you want and fights for it. I am proud of you because of that.”
She then took my hand as I smiled at her. “Yes, indeed, you are a wildflower, but it do
Broke “Maliah is planning a baby shower.” Aeza said out of the blue. Nakaharap ako sa laptop at nagbabasa ng reports nang pumasok siya sa kwarto namin. Matagal siyang hindi nagsalita na mukhang pinag-iisipan pa kung ano ang sasabihin sa akin. Kaya naman nang magsalita siya ay agad kong binnitawan ang ginagawa. Ibinaba ko ang laptop at ang ilang mga papeles na hawak. She looks bothered though. So, I asked, “What’s wrong?” Problemado siyang tumingin sa akin. “Naka-oo na ako noon pang nakabalik siya. Ilang beses na ‘kong nagdahilan sa kaniya para ma-reschedule, kaso tignan mo naman, kabuwanan ko na. Nangungulit na siya at nauubusan na ako ng palusot. Kakatawag niya lang kanina, sabi niya settled na daw ang lahat. Pupunta na lang daw tayo. But…” “But what?” I probed. “I don’t know what happens on a baby shower. Do you?” nahihiyang sagot niya. I can’t help but chuckled at her innocence. “Come here.” I tapped the spa
GoneHinawi ko ang ilang hibla ng buhok na tumatabing sa kaniyang mukha. May hilam ng luha sa kanyang mga pilikmata na marahan kong pinunasan, mukhang nananaginip siya. Kitang-kita sa mukha niya ang pagod sa panganganak at sa lahat. Maging sa pagtulog ay mababakas ang mga agam-agam niya.Gumalaw siya ng kaonti kaya agad kong hinaplos-haplos ang kaniyang buhok. Nang masigurado kong nakatulog na siyang muli nang mahimbing ay saka ako bumaling kay Maliah.“It’s the first time I saw her crying.” I told Maliah who was holding Kahel in her arms.I was referring to the way Azalea pour her heart out when she saw our baby. Hindi namin siya mapatigil, at maging si Maliah ay walang nagawa kundi ang sabayan siyang umiyak. Iyak ng kasiyahan, iyon ang akala ko sa pagpalahaw niya. Pero nang magsalita siya sa gitna ng kaniyang pagluha, kasabay non na nabasag ang puso ko.“My baby… My Kahel…” sabi niya ng marahan
IslandNagising ako sa mayuming ihip ng hangin na tumatama sa aking balat. Nang imulat ko ang aking mga mata ay maliwanag na paligid ang bumungad sa akin. Masakit sa mata ang sikat ng araw pero sinikap kong aninagin ang hinihigaan ko.Agad na pumasok sa isip ko ang aking anak kaya napabigla ang bangon ko. Ibinaling ko ang tingin sa kama at nakahinga ng maluwag nang makitang natutulog ang sanggol sa aking tabi. Hindi ako pamilyar sa silid na ito. Sigurado akong wala kami sa hospital o sa bahay.Nasaan kami?Ang huli kong natatandaan ay nagising akong wala si Hue. Ayon kay Maliah ay saglit na umuwi ito sa bahay. Natulog akong muli pagkatapos dumede ni Kahel.Inilibot ko ang tingin sa kabuuan ng may kalakihang silid. Gawa sa kahoy ang mukhang may kalumaang pader, ang sahig nito ay ganoon din. Luma na pero halatang alaga sa linis. Walang kahit anong palamuti sa silid at tanging ang kama, lamesang may lamang mga gamit ng bata at malaki
Kahel Iniwas niya ang tingin sa akin at itinuloy ang kaniyang ginagawa. Mula sa lapag ay binuhat niya ang ilang plastik na dala sa lamesa at inilabas ang llahat ng laman noon. Puro pagkain iyon, napakaraming pagkain. “Tama na ang pag-jo-joke, please. You made it sound like you kidnapped us.” Kahit malakas na ang kutob ko ay kinapitan ko pa rin ang pagtitiwala sa kaniya na hindi niya kami sasaktan. After all, we knew each other. He wouldn’t betray me. He wouldn’t betray his brother. “I did.” “W-what?” I stammered. Malutong siyang napatawa nang makita niyang napaatras ako sa gulat. “I’m not gonna hurt you, I promise. I’ll provide everything you’ll need. Someone will come and check you here every month. But you have to stay here.” “W-why?” Hindi ako sinagot ni Aram. “Kapapanganak ko lang. I don’t know how to take care of my child. I can’t stay here…” wala sa sariling bulong ko. Aram looked at me dumbfounde
Paradise“Ma!! Daddy is here, Ma! Daddy! Daddy!”Para akong naalimpungatan. Sobrang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko at ang init-init ng pakiramdam ko dahil sa narinig. Saglit akong natulala at nang matauhan ay nakapaa akong tumakbo palabas ng bahay.Halos madapa-dapa kong tinungo ang daungan ng bangka nang matanaw na may mga tao doon. Sa pagkakaaninag ko ay isang matipunong lalaki at babae ang nandoon.Hindi kaya… Si Hue at Maliah na ba ‘yon? Natagpuan na ba nila kami?“Ma!!”Binalikan ko ang naiwang si Kahel. Binuhat siya at saka nagpatuloy sa pagsalubong sa kanila. Halos naluluha na ako. Pinipigil ko lamang ang pabagsak na luha dahil ayaw kong makita ako ni Kahel na umiiyak. Simula nang magkamuang siya ay ni minsan ay hindi ako nagpakita ng kahinaan at lungkot sa kaniya. At ngayon ngang malapit na kaming makauwi ay hinding-hindi ko pa rin ipapakita sa kanya ang kalungkutan na dala ng paraisong ito. A
My babyNang makadaong ang bangka ay tinangay ko ang bag ni Doktora at iniwan lamang sa kaniya ang pitaka niyang tanging mga card na lamang ang laman. Maari naman siyang mag-withdraw kaya nilimas ko ang lahat ng cash niya. Kinuha ko rin ang cellphone niya matapos kong ma-unlock iyon gamit ang daliri niya. Hindi ko na nilingon pa ang bangkerong tumatawag sa akin.Agad kong binuksan ang GPS ng cellphone nang makalayo kami para malaman kung anong lugar ito. Maraming tao sa paligid pero hindi ko sinubok na magtanong sa kahit na sino. Natatakot ako na baka mayroong tauhan si Aram dito at ibalik kami sa isla. Mas mabuting solusyunan kong mag-isa kung paano ako uuwi.Bayan ng Tagdan. Iyon ang nakita ko sa isang arkong nalagpasan ko kanina. Mukhang nasa Luzon lang rin kami dahil tagalog din naman ang salita ng mga tao. Nagpatuloy lang ako sa paglalakad at pagmamasid sa paligid.“Mama, hungry.” Saka ko lamang naisipan na kamustahin ang aking a
DealThat night, my mom stayed with me in my room. We couldn’t fall asleep. She just sat beside me as I lay down in the bed. Mom softly brushed my hair with her hand. It was soothing. I almost forgot about Kahel. Thankfully, Manang Maria is taking care of him for the night.“I knew for sure something bad happened to you. But I’m not forcing you to tell me. Take your time, anak. And when you’re ready, we’ll make sure they get punished.” She promised.I can already taste wrath in her words. But I did not speak. I want to but I don’t know where to start. Besides we don’t exactly have that kind of relationship where I can easily tell her things like these.But the way we cried and hugged earlier comforted me a little. It felt as if I have a mom for the first time in years.And we stayed like that until morning....“Anong balak mo?” tanong niya nang bumangon
EyesWith all of my possessions, my freedom is the one that I am most contented with. It was the only thing I’m grateful for to my parents who left me to fend for myself.I was just a kid when my mom chose her modeling career abroad over me. And it was okay because she still sees me during the holidays, and I still have my father who brings me with him whenever he travels.But one night, he said that he needs to leave. He told me that they want me to learn to be independent, and this is the only way I could learn. He left and came back when he was on the verge of dying.And I believed them. They were just teaching me how to be strong, how to never feel afraid of being alone, how to pursue whatever you dream of. They made me realize that it’s only me who can free myself.But when I grew up, I realized how they also taught me to feel. They taught me about anger, sadness, and loneliness. It’s because I was born but wasn&rsqu
Bye Habang pinaliliguan ni Hue si Kahel ay hinila ako ni Maliah sa silid na ginamit niya matapos naming magligpit at maghugas ng pinagkainan. “Spill, babe. How was last night?” Inirapan ko lang siya. “Come on, give me some juicy details.” Hinampas-hampas niya pa ang braso ko. “Huwag ka nang macurious. Alam mo kulang ka lang sa sex. May irereto ako sayo, gwapong abogado. Hunk, mabango, matalino.” Agad namang pumait ang mukha niya. “Ayaw ko sa abogado. Mga abo-gago!” “Ohhh! I can smell bitterness. Who’s the lucky bastard?” pang-aasar ko sa kaniya. “Noone!” “Come on, give me some juicy details!” ginaya ko ang sinabi niya at boses niya. Natawa naman siya sa akin. “Okay, okay. So… I met a really, really pretty man. He’s a lawyer, a really nice guy. We became friends, and you know what happened next. We were having fun, sex galore. But he’s so gago. He’s in love with his best friend. Kaya ayun, I stopped talking to h
NeverHe kidnapped the senator’s son because he wanted my company to fall. He was threatened because I am my father’s biological son. And when he found out that Dad is willing to give everything to my son, he kidnapped him and my love. The pain is twice as it was before, now that I found out that my brother is behind all of this. Betrayal indeed doesn’t come from enemies. I am feeling these different emotions because the person I didn’t expect to do it did it to me.Tulala ako ng ilang saglit matapos ang pakikipag-usap. Dinadamdam ko pa ang mga nalaman.“Hue, I suggest you cooperate with Ms. Guinto regarding this matter. Ikaw na ang bahalang makipag-usap sa kaniya. What we’ve learned today will make an impact to the ongoing case. You can call me anytime if you two need help.” Dahil hindi na rin niya ako makausap ng matino dahil sa mga iniisip ko ay hindi ko na namalayan ang pag-alis ni Attorney Martin.I
BetrayalPagdating namin ni Kahel sa opisina ay pinagtitinginan siya ng mga dumadaan. Ang kaninang madaldal at masaya niyang mood ay napalitan ng hiya. Binuhat ko siya at agad siyang nagtago sa balikat ko dahil sa dami ng tao.“Baby, it’s okay. They are all friends of Daddy.” Kahit ilang beses kong sabi kay Kahel ay hindi pa rin niya inangat ang tingin sa mga nadadaanan.Binilisan ko nalang ang lakad patungo sa silid ko para sana mas maging komportable siya. Ngunit bago pa kami makapasok ay sinalubong kami agad ng sekretarya ko, si Tessa.“Sir, Mr. Silverio is here again.” Bungad niya sa akin. She called me about this yesterday. It is also the reason I came here.“Did you lead him to the meeting room?” When she nodded, I went inside my office. I asked Tessa to follow me.Nang makapasok sa loob ay agad kong ibinaba si Kahel sa sofa. “Baby, this is Ate Tessa, she’s our friend. She&
PromiseAeza was acting cute. She always calls me babe, she kisses me all the time, and she always excites me which leads to you know what I mean. It started the day Maya came, she’s been cuddlier, sweeter, and sexier. I didn’t know that she’s territorial, possessive even more. And I’m enjoying every bit of it.When she said that she wants a date with me, I know that she was jealous. She was marking me in front of Maya. It was funny to act clueless about what she’s doing. Before, it was always me who’s jealous. So, I happily joined her games to experience what’s it’s like to be the receiving end. I know for sure Maya doesn’t mind a little PDA, that’s why whenever Aeza feels needy, I always give in to her.I reminisced our moments on our very first date, and I can’t help but smile.Aeza doesn’t have anything to wear for our date night. She still uses the three pair of shirts a
Game Ang mga sumunod na araw ay mabilis na lumipas. Halos wala kaming ibang ginawa kundi ang magkulong sa bahay. Pero minsan, nilalakad ko ang kaso sa umaga at agad na umuuwi para makasama sa mga kasayahan ng dalawa. Pagkakataon na rin iyon para mas magkaroon ng sariling oras ang mag-ama ng sila lang para na rin mas magkakilala sila. Tulad ng inaasahan, naging madali kay Hue ang mapalapit sa anak. Halos hindi na sila mapaghiwalay. Hanggang sa pagtulog ay gusto niyang katabi ang ama, kaya naman sinasamahan namin sa silid si Kahel hanggang sa makatulog siya. At kapag tagumpay at maaga siyang nagpahinga, sinasamantala namin iyon para bumawi sa mga nawalang oras. Sa madaling salita, ang araw namin ay nakalaan kay Kahel habang ang gabi ay para sa amin. Halos gabi-gabi akong niroromansa ni Hue na parang wala ng bukas. Mabuti rin na umuwi na si Manang Maria kaya naman malaya na kaming nakakakilos sa buong bahay. Kaya ang tatlong taon na pagkatuyot a
Breakfast“Umuwi ka na kaya muna?”Naguguluhan akong lumingon sa nagsalita. It was Maliah.Anong nangyayari? Nilibot ko ang tingin sa paligid. I found Aeza sleeping on the hospital bed just like the way she was before she disappeared. Why am I in the hospital?! What is happening?!“I guess I should go. Babalik ako agad.” Nagulat ako nang magsalita ako. I said the exact words I’ve said that night. Ang mas nakakagulat pa ay hindi ko namalayan na lumapit na pala ako sa natutulog pa rin na si Aeza. Hinalikan ko siya sa noo at ganon din kay Kahel.Everything went fast. The next thing I know, I was already lying on my bed at home. This is the part where I will sleep, and Goddess knows I shouldn’t. I should go back to the hospital to stop Aeza from leaving me, from taking away my son. But I can’t fvcking move. I tried and forced myself, but nothing’s working. It felt like as if I can’t control
PleaseI went out of the room after licking his lips. Surprisingly, he didn’t try to stop me.I was so pissed off at him, but that only fueled my arousal. I know I need to relieve myself of this frustration or else I’m going to come back and beg for him to pleasure me. That sounded not bad at all, it sounded like a good plan, but my pride won’t let me.I value my choices and independence, and even if I’m into him, that will never change. My choice of clothes is something I do for myself, no matter how simple or grand it is. I’m not myself I f I just let him have judge and decide for me.I was about to go to Kahel’s playroom, but I can’t face Manang Maria and Kahel in this state. So, what I did is explore the second floor for a room. Mabuti na lang at sa playroom sila pinapunta ni Hue kanina. Kaya kahit nahihiya ako sa sarili na pumasok sa silid ng anak ko sa ganitong ayos ay malaya akong nakakuha ng pares
Punish“You don’t break a promise with me, woman.”He locked the door behind us.His grip on me loosened, so I got the chance to roam my eyes around the room. It was his home office. Bumungad sa akin ang kulay itim na L-shaped at dalawang single-seat sofa na pinagigitnaan ng maliit na table. Sa magkabilang gilid naman ng silid ay dalawang high-ceiling bookshelves. Habang sa pinakadulo ay ang kaniyang lamesa at office chair.Dumiretso si Hue sa lamesa niya, itinuon niya ang dalawang kamay niya doon. Wala siyang imik pero napansin ko ang pagtaas-baba ng balikat niya hudyat na sinusubukan niyang kontrolin ang kanyang emosyon.He’s mad.I was reluctant at first, but when I got near him, it became hard for me to stop myself from touching his right arm. He flinched at my touch, but his heavy breathing suddenly stopped.“Sorry kung ngayon lang ako.” I sadly said, pertaining to not just about tonig
Promise“Write down any amount. Ako na ang magbabayad ng utang sayo. Hindi ka aalis.”Ah, sh!t. My heart’s racing. Kinailangan ko pang huminga ng malalim para makabawi sa linyang iyon. I don’t know if he knows it, but every little thing he does or says, everything blows my mind. He shakes my heart; he makes it stop beating. Na para bang siya ang nagmamay-ari nito kaya kayang-kaya niyang buoin o gibain sa mga simpleng salita.“I, uh, okay… Kung ayaw mo ‘kong umalis, okay...” Napayuko ako. Para akong napaamong tigre, animo’y matapang pero kinikilig naman.But he scoffed at me. “Ayaw ko? Ang ayaw ko ay ang umiyak na naman si Kahel kakahanap sayo.” ‘Yung puso kong hawak niya na kanina, parang bigla niyang binitawan. “Wala akong pakialam kung saan ka pupunta.” Tapos parang inapak-apakan niya pa.“I know.” Pagsubok kong bumawi sa pagkakapahiya. Tinaa