Naging abala ako sa sumunod na mga araw. Malapit na ang aking kaarawan at abala rin sina Mama para sa aking kaarawan, they said that their unica ija shoud have a wonderful twentieth birthday celebration, though I want it ti be simple but the best, and she said it's okay still I'll be wearing a dress, that is a must.
"Dale," Tawag sa akin ng isa kong classmate, napatingin ako sa kanya at bumalik ulit ang aking mata sa aking ginagawa. "Ano yun?" Tanong ko s akanya at tinigil ang pagtipa sa aking laptop. "Tawag ka ni Lorence," Sabi nito sabay irap. Tumango lang ako at ngumiti. Agad kong inayos ang aking gamit at lumabas na ng classroom, nakita ko si Lorence na nakahilog lang sa gilid ng pinto habang nagtatype sa kanyang telepono at nung napansin niya na nasa gilid niya na ako ay umayos siya ng tayo at ngumiti sa akin, agad niyang kinuha ang bitbit ko na bag at sinukbit iyon sa balikat niya. "Kamusta araw mo? Gutom ka ba?" TanongI got worried because of two reasons. One is Mama never fan of text messages, she would always call lalo na kapag importante and two is what is the problem? I finished doing my project. It's past twelve am when I heard a car engine. Agad kong sinira ang librong binabasa ko at naglakad papuntang bintana, hinawi ko ang kurtina ko at nakita ko sina Mama at Papa na papasok na ng bahay. Agad kong naglakad pababa para salubungin sila. "Ma, Pa," Tawag ko sa kanila ng nasa ibaba na ako. Napaangat ang tingin sa akin ni Mama at Papa. "Hija," Mama said, she smiled at me but it didn't reach her eyes. Agad akong lumapit sa kanya at humalik sa pisngi niya at pagkatapos kay Papa. I noticed how the looks of his face, it's problematic and maybe tired.
I'm still thinking of what happened between Kuya and Ate, it's unbelievable and I know that some people would do crazy things for love.I sigh, it's been days since I talked to Kuya and he won't bother Ate because he doesn't want to stress her more but he's still investigating what happened. I am on my way to Ate's hotel room, nagdala na rin ako ng iba ilang damit at pagkain. Agad akong pumunta sa elevator at pinindot ang floor nila at, tumingala ako at hinintay na bumaba ito narinig kung tumunog ito at bumukas kaya pumasok na ako kaagad.Pumasok na ako sa elevator at hinitay na dumating sa floor ni Ate, agad akong lumabas nung bumukas ito at bumukas. tumingala ako para tignan ang mga hotel room number at nung nakita ko na ay agad akong nagdoorbell, narinig kong tumu
Agad akong bumaba ng sasakyan pagkatapos kong isukbit sa balikat ko ang bag. It's been a rough weekend and Ate Sofia has to be in a total bed rest dahil sensitibo ang kanyang pagbubuntis.Napabuntong hininga ako at naglakad na papuntang classroom, Medyo inaantok ako dahil hindi ako makatulog kakabantay kay Levi, ayaw nitong sumama sa iba at palaging umiiyak kaya naman ako ang nagbantay dito, naghikab ako habang naglalakad papuntang classroom ko.Nakita ko na papunta sa direksyon ko si Solace na papunta sa direksyon ko, masama ang tingin nito nung malapit na ako sa kanya ay hinawakan niya ang aking kamay at dinala ako papuntang ladies restroom."Aray! Ano ba Solace! Bitawan mo nga ako!" Sabi ko dito, dumidiin ang kanyang kuko sa aking pulsuhan kaya masakit ito, agad niya naman akong binitawan ng makapasok na kami sa loob ng comfort room ng mga babae. Tumalikod ito sa akin at pagdaan ng ilan
Naging busy ako sa buong araw ngayong linggo dahil madalas akong wala sa skwelahan, dahil na rin sa problema sa bahay. Naglalakad ako ngayon sa corridor ng school habang abala sa pagtingin sa aking notes ng may nabangga ako, agad akong napatingin dito at nagpaumanhin. "I'm-" Pero nabitin ang sasabihin ko ng makita ko s Lorence, halata sa mukha nito ang pagod. Agad akong napatigil ng ilang sandali bago ako natauhan at inayos ang aking notes na nagkalat sa sahig. Nang matapos ako ay agad akong umayos ng tayo at tinignan si Lorence, nakayuko ito at halata sa mukha na may gusto siyang sabihin pero nag aalangan siya. "I'm sorry, I have to go," Agad kong iwas dito, pero napatigil ako sa paglalakad nung hinawakan niya ang akin kamay. "Let's talk," He whispered, I turn my head to him and look at him. "Later, I need to pass all my missed works, I'm sorry," Sabi ko at
"Please spare me with your bullshit" I am annoyed I hear him groaned."Let me explain, it's not me! I already told you Solene kissed me!" desperately explaining his side, I grinned. Like I care, I tsked."I don't care Jason! Shut up will you? You're annoying, " I said as I rolled my eyes, I look at him his eyes are pleading. This bastard explaining his side makes me wanna puke and he was expecting me to believe him? As if!"The moment you kissed her back is the moment you give me the permission to dumped you stupid" I said and looked at my nails, damn! I should probably go to the spa naiistress na ako sa gagong to!"Anyway I have to go, I have things to do" I said and left him there begging. I sighed as I go to the parking lot and hurriedly go to my car left his condo.As driving I realized that Jason might love me but damn! His love was not that deep not that I loved
Here I am, listening to my mother. Her sermons and advices about me still being single at the age of twenty seven. I want to roll my eyes but heck this will never end if I go bratty on her. She called me after she heard that I rejected Jason.I groaned and look at my Dad he was now busy smiling and rubbing my mother's back trying to calm her down but him looking like that doesn't look convincing to me instead of making her stop it looks like he was encouraging her to talk more!"Mama, " I said and sighed trying to calm down, I wanted to roll my eyes and walk out but not this time. Her being furious and hysterical was not a good combination definitely not a good timing to ignore her sermons."Don't Mama me September! My God! You're already twenty seven years old, still no boyfriend!" she spatted, I glared at Papa who were now chuckling at Mama like he found this entertaining to watched.
Have you ever experienced this kind of feeling? Like something or rather someone is making you feel secured and safe. They say that love is not about the butterflies that you feel in your stomach but rather the feeling of warmth and safe, the feeling of giving something without expecting in return. Agad akong umiling at pinipilit na iwala sa isipan ko ang ideyang 'yun.I keep on asking Mama and Papa how they survived, their love for each other is overflowing but not possessive. The kind of love I want to have someday even after what happened, I sighed and tried to calm myself at that thought. Kinapa ko ang kwentas ko at pumikit.If I could only turn back time.Mama said. "You can't love someone without loving yourself first, without healing all the wounds, and forgiving yourself as well as the people who wronged you, betrayed you." I can't understa
Dinner came and here I am helping my mother prepare for our dinner. "Hija, please call your papa, " Sabi ni mama, tumango ako at agad na nilabas ang cellphone ko sa bulsa ng coat ko. Nakarinig kami ng bosena ng sasakyan at pagbukas ng gate, naglakad ako papunta pinto and from where I standband I saw my father with someone. Agad na napakunot ang noo ko. Namilog ang mata ko, nakita ko itong nakasunod kay Papa at ngumiti sa mga kasambahay na nakahilera papuntang pinto. Tumikhim ako at pinawala ang pagkagulat, sinalubong ni Mama si Papa at hinalikan ito sa pisngi, agad naman akong lumapit kay Papa at humalik narin sa pisngi niya. Napataas ang kilay ko at tinignan siya, nakita ko namang umangat ang gilid ng labi niya may ngiti na pilit na tinatago. I smirked as I look at him and he grinned. Dahan dahan akong naglakad at sumunod na kina Mama at Papa while he were beside me following my lead t