Weekend came and I was still thinking if pupunta ako sa party ni Lorence. Bored, I sat on my bed busy scrolling to ideas of photography I am very much interested on things that concerns photography.
"Hija, " I heard my Mom called me,"Yes Mama?" I answered and I heard the door creaked open.
"Your Papa wants to talk to you," she said and give me a small smile, agad akong tumango at sinabing susunod na ako. Sinarado ko muna ang laptop ko at sumunod na sa study room. Kumatok muna ako para respeto at dahan dahang hinuksan ang pinto.
"Papa?" I asked. Agad itong tumango at sinabing umupo ako.
"Sit Hija," sabi nito at sumandal sa upuan niya. Agad akong umayos ng upo at naghihintay sa sasabihin ni Papa. He sighed.
"Do you want to take a business-related course?" he asked. I look at him and trying to process his question.
"Maybe Papa, but why sudden question?" I asked and waited for his answer.
"I want you to help your brother manage our business Hija," He said. Napatango ako.
"But if it's against your will I will not force you," he said. Agad akong napangiti at tumingin kay Papa.
"I will and I want to help Papa but maybe I still want to pursue my dream, " I said, agad naman siyang tumango at ngumiti. Magco-collage ka ako this year and I know na mas gugustuhin nilang piliin namin kung anong makapapagpasaya samin.
"Okay then, just let me know if what you want to do then, " sabi niya at agad akong tumango. Lumapit ako at humalik sa pisngi niya tsaka nagpasyang umalis na.
Night came and I was still having thoughts in whether I'll go to Lorence's party or not. I sighed and leave my room, decided to give the party a try.
"Mama, I'm going to a party, " Paalam ko. I saw her nodded. I kissed her cheek after telling her and look for Papa. Nagpaalam narin ako at pinayagan naman ako, they are not strict. They allowed us to party and explores the world.
Agad akong nagbihis at nagayos. I wear a knee length black skirt a white loose polo and a heels. Hinayaan ko na nakalugay ang aking buhok at kaubting mascara at lipstick lang ang nilagay ko sa aking mukha at sinuot na ang aking relo at kwentas.
Agad akong nagpaalam kina mama at papa na aalis na ako. Kinuha ko ang sa garahe ang kotse ko at agad na sumakay doon. I bring my own car para hindi na magabala pa sina mama at papa na gisingin ang driver namin. I know how to drive and I'm pretty sure na hindi naman byaheng langit yung driving skills ko.
Nakarating na ako sa bahay nila Lorence. I instantly parked my car and get my car keys out of the ignition. Agad akong lumabas at sinarado ang pinto ng kotse at naglakad na papuntang pinto ng bahay I can hear the loud music making the people crazy. I can see some couples were now making out probably drunk. Agad akong umiling at naglakad na papasok.
"Ah! There you are!" I can watch Lorence who is now walking near me with a wide smile plastered on his face. I smiled and look at him.
"Hi," sabi ko at bahagyang napakamot saking batok. He guided me towards their table and I look around, the people are now wild. I can smell the strong scent of alcohol, I can say that the party started for a while now guessing at the people's unexplainable hype.
"This is September, September this is Cole, " he introduced me to the guy named Cole, he has this curly black hair and adorable set of dimples, a brown hazel set of eyes, and thick brows. Agad naman akong nakipagkamay at ngumiti, kumindat naman ito at umupo ulit.
"This is Kurt, " pakilala ulit ni Lorence, tumayo naman ang lalaki he has this nerd but you don't want to mess with vibe. I can say he's a playboy by the way he smirked. A clean-cut hair, arrogant set of brows, chinky eyes and lips that curls perfectly when he smirked and a dark blue color set of eyes. Definitely good-looking.
"Hello, " sabi ko dito. He smirked and nodded. Agad naman akong umupo, he guided me to sit beside him and handed me a beer which I politely declined.
"I can't, I drive myself, Lorence I can't get drunk, " I said and gazed at him. He nodded and handed me a juice instead. I chatted with them for a while and seems to like them. I scanned my eyes again around and my eyes blinked twice as I saw my best friend, she is making out with Ash, her boyfriend.
Lorence seemed to feel my uneasiness, he turned to me and asked me.
"What's wrong?" he asked. Agad akong umiling.
"You sure?" he asked, I nodded and smiled at him. He excuse his himself and I sat there just listening to the laugh and the crowd.
"So, September, "Cole trailed off. I look at him, he smiled before continuing his statement." You and Lorence?" he asked. Agad akong umiling at hilaw na tumawa.
"No No, we're not together, " I answered him waving my hand saying that no and it's a stupid joke. I like Lorence, yes but that doesn't make me go crazy over him. I know what I deserve and I know what I want.
"He said he's determined to court you though," Dagdag pa ni Kurt. Umiling lang ako at ngumiti. I excused myself and go to the crowd. Hinanap ko ang bestfriend ko, I never think that she was into this kind of party.
Nanliit ang aking mga mata, probably stunned. I saw Ash crying and holding a ring. Nagdadalawang isip ako kung lalapitan ko ba siya, Ash and I are not close. We only met once when Solace introduced me to him.
"Uhm, Did you see Solace?" I asked him. He glanced at me and back to the ring he was holding, anger is visible in his eyes. Agad niyang pinahid ang kanyang pisngi at ngumisi.
"Why don't you ask Lorence huh?" He spatted. I look at him confused. "She broke up with me, " he said as he stare at the ring. Agad akong napatakip ng bibig. They've been together for a year and a half now. I can see how Ash loves my best friend, how he adores her and cares for her.
"Ask Lorence, Dale! " he said and stormed off. Trying to let his word sink in agad akong naglakad pabalik sa table namin kanina, they are now gone. Lalabas na sana ako ng may nabunggo ako. I was about to apologize but before I could say anything, she was running away from me and from the crowd. Her back on me, I called her name but she didn't listen.
I saw her crying, hurt and broken. Agad akong lumabas at dinadasal na maabutan siya but she's not there. I looked at my left side, I saw Lorence standing there. How his hands are on his hair desperately pulling it, he seemed frustrated. Before I can walk near him I saw him run back inside his house. The party is still a blast. I sighed and walk to my car.
Today is not the best timing to ask them.
Days passed like a blur and everything seems fine, like the usual routine I always do after school if not hanging out with friends is going home early and talking with my family and I always admired the way we usually do if all of us are not busy. I sighed as I looked at my phone, I was sitting alone reading some books for the test next week when I heard some footsteps approaching my table. "Hi!" Lorence beamed at me as he sat down on the chair in front of me. I looked at him and saw him carrying books too. He placed the books on the table and stared at me, I awkwardly smiled at him. "Hello?" I said, sounding awkward. I want to slap my face, why did it sound like a question? Ugh!"How are you?" He asked with a smile on his face as he place his hands on his chin and leaned on the table staring at me, it made me flushed. Tumikhim ako at umayos ng upo. "I'm fine, you
Days passed like a blur. Today is Saturday and Lorence texted me that he will fetch me here later. Tinignan ko ang orasan at napabuntong hininga, agad na akong kumilos para matapos agad sa paghahanda. Madami mang tanong sa aking isipan ay pinagpaliban ko muna iyon at hinayaan muna. Agad akong naligo at pumili ng susuotin ko para sa lakad namin ni Lorence, he said it's a date so I tried to look simple yet chic. Agad kong sinuot ang isang itim leggings at isang croptop na puti at sapatos na puti pagkatapos ang isang sapatos na itim. Naglagay lang ako ng kaunting foundation, sunscreen at liptint para hindi magmukhang maputlang tignan. Napangiti ako ng tignan ang aking repleksyon sa salamin, ng kuntento na ako ay agad akong bumaba sa sala namin. Yaya approach me and told me that Lorence is already outside talking to my mother. Agad kong
Naging abala ako sa sumunod na mga araw. Malapit na ang aking kaarawan at abala rin sina Mama para sa aking kaarawan, they said that their unica ija shoud have a wonderful twentieth birthday celebration, though I want it ti be simple but the best, and she said it's okay still I'll be wearing a dress, that is a must."Dale," Tawag sa akin ng isa kong classmate, napatingin ako sa kanya at bumalik ulit ang aking mata sa aking ginagawa. "Ano yun?" Tanong ko s akanya at tinigil ang pagtipa sa aking laptop."Tawag ka ni Lorence," Sabi nito sabay irap. Tumango lang ako at ngumiti. Agad kong inayos ang aking gamit at lumabas na ng classroom, nakita ko si Lorence na nakahilog lang sa gilid ng pinto habang nagtatype sa kanyang telepono at nung napansin niya na nasa gilid niya na ako ay umayos siya ng tayo at ngumiti sa akin, agad niyang kinuha ang bitbit ko na bag at sinukbit iyon sa balikat niya."Kamusta araw mo? Gutom ka ba?" Tanong
I got worried because of two reasons. One is Mama never fan of text messages, she would always call lalo na kapag importante and two is what is the problem? I finished doing my project. It's past twelve am when I heard a car engine. Agad kong sinira ang librong binabasa ko at naglakad papuntang bintana, hinawi ko ang kurtina ko at nakita ko sina Mama at Papa na papasok na ng bahay. Agad kong naglakad pababa para salubungin sila. "Ma, Pa," Tawag ko sa kanila ng nasa ibaba na ako. Napaangat ang tingin sa akin ni Mama at Papa. "Hija," Mama said, she smiled at me but it didn't reach her eyes. Agad akong lumapit sa kanya at humalik sa pisngi niya at pagkatapos kay Papa. I noticed how the looks of his face, it's problematic and maybe tired.
I'm still thinking of what happened between Kuya and Ate, it's unbelievable and I know that some people would do crazy things for love.I sigh, it's been days since I talked to Kuya and he won't bother Ate because he doesn't want to stress her more but he's still investigating what happened. I am on my way to Ate's hotel room, nagdala na rin ako ng iba ilang damit at pagkain. Agad akong pumunta sa elevator at pinindot ang floor nila at, tumingala ako at hinintay na bumaba ito narinig kung tumunog ito at bumukas kaya pumasok na ako kaagad.Pumasok na ako sa elevator at hinitay na dumating sa floor ni Ate, agad akong lumabas nung bumukas ito at bumukas. tumingala ako para tignan ang mga hotel room number at nung nakita ko na ay agad akong nagdoorbell, narinig kong tumu
Agad akong bumaba ng sasakyan pagkatapos kong isukbit sa balikat ko ang bag. It's been a rough weekend and Ate Sofia has to be in a total bed rest dahil sensitibo ang kanyang pagbubuntis.Napabuntong hininga ako at naglakad na papuntang classroom, Medyo inaantok ako dahil hindi ako makatulog kakabantay kay Levi, ayaw nitong sumama sa iba at palaging umiiyak kaya naman ako ang nagbantay dito, naghikab ako habang naglalakad papuntang classroom ko.Nakita ko na papunta sa direksyon ko si Solace na papunta sa direksyon ko, masama ang tingin nito nung malapit na ako sa kanya ay hinawakan niya ang aking kamay at dinala ako papuntang ladies restroom."Aray! Ano ba Solace! Bitawan mo nga ako!" Sabi ko dito, dumidiin ang kanyang kuko sa aking pulsuhan kaya masakit ito, agad niya naman akong binitawan ng makapasok na kami sa loob ng comfort room ng mga babae. Tumalikod ito sa akin at pagdaan ng ilan
Naging busy ako sa buong araw ngayong linggo dahil madalas akong wala sa skwelahan, dahil na rin sa problema sa bahay. Naglalakad ako ngayon sa corridor ng school habang abala sa pagtingin sa aking notes ng may nabangga ako, agad akong napatingin dito at nagpaumanhin. "I'm-" Pero nabitin ang sasabihin ko ng makita ko s Lorence, halata sa mukha nito ang pagod. Agad akong napatigil ng ilang sandali bago ako natauhan at inayos ang aking notes na nagkalat sa sahig. Nang matapos ako ay agad akong umayos ng tayo at tinignan si Lorence, nakayuko ito at halata sa mukha na may gusto siyang sabihin pero nag aalangan siya. "I'm sorry, I have to go," Agad kong iwas dito, pero napatigil ako sa paglalakad nung hinawakan niya ang akin kamay. "Let's talk," He whispered, I turn my head to him and look at him. "Later, I need to pass all my missed works, I'm sorry," Sabi ko at
"Please spare me with your bullshit" I am annoyed I hear him groaned."Let me explain, it's not me! I already told you Solene kissed me!" desperately explaining his side, I grinned. Like I care, I tsked."I don't care Jason! Shut up will you? You're annoying, " I said as I rolled my eyes, I look at him his eyes are pleading. This bastard explaining his side makes me wanna puke and he was expecting me to believe him? As if!"The moment you kissed her back is the moment you give me the permission to dumped you stupid" I said and looked at my nails, damn! I should probably go to the spa naiistress na ako sa gagong to!"Anyway I have to go, I have things to do" I said and left him there begging. I sighed as I go to the parking lot and hurriedly go to my car left his condo.As driving I realized that Jason might love me but damn! His love was not that deep not that I loved