Wala na akong sinabi nang ihatid niya ako kagabi sa bahay. Gladly, it was already midnight kaya wala nang gising pa para pagalitan ako sa ginawa kong pagwa-walk out.
But true to his words, Chester arranged a breakfast meeting for our family. Nagsisisi tuloy ako na nag-inom ako kagabi. Kaya kahit gaano kasakit ang ulo ko, wala akong magawa.
Fuck. He was with me last night. Dapat ginawa man lang niyang dinner ang meeting na ito.
“So, you’re really accepting the marriage, huh?” Fiona asked habang kaming dalawa pa lang ang nasa loob ng van.
I lifted my gaze and stopped putting on my lipstick. I really hate her. Sa bawat pagkakataon, wala akong ibang gustong gawin kung ang sabunutan siya. We barely even talk, and when she strikes a conversation, palaging para mang insulto.
“Paano mo naman nalaman agad? News slaps bitches that fast, huh?” I laughed and closed my compact mirror. Like what I expected, her teeth gritted at namula ang kanyang mukha. Na parang kulang na lang ay may lumabas na usok dahil sa matinding galit.
“What else could be the reason why Chester arranged this and said that the two of you have an announcement to say?! Hindi ka ba nahihiya, Paris? Agreeing to this marriage? Sa iba ayaw mo pero dahil gwapo at mayaman, pumayag ka? Throwing yourself to him like a fucking slu–!”
“Don’t get me started!” I shouted at her. “Why? Gusto mong ikaw ang magpakasal?”
Natawa ako nang nanahimik siya bigla. It’s like she went out of words dahil tama ako! Dahil totoo iyon. She can’t fool me. I know that she likes Chester.
Nang dumating sina Dad sa loob ng van, wala kaming ibang nagawa kundi ang manahimik. Tita Faureen kept showing off her new whatevers for this meeting, but I was too damn lazy to catch up. My head hurts so badly.
Nang makarating kami sa resto, I was actually fascinated by the interior design and relaxing atmosphere. It looks so good, that I'm actually impressed.
“Chester’s good at choosing places, huh?” Tita Faureen said.
Nang igiya kami ng waiter sa may rooftoop, halos hindi ako makapaniwala sa nakikita ko. That part of the resto was obviously exclusive for us. The view was breathtaking, and the designs were almost perfect.
I immediately saw Chester’s family as they stood because of our presence. There was a long table just enough for us pero kakapagtakang… wala pa rin ang kanyang ina.
Bakit kaya?
“Ah, Philip! Faureen!” Tito Chris greeted my parents.
Habang si Chester naman, dumalo sa akin nang may seryosong mga mata. And when he held my waist, I was too stunned to speak.
Akala ko ay igigiya niya ako sa bakanteng upuan na katabi ni Chancellor. But instead, he made me sit right between Tito Chris and him.
Hindi ko alam kung gaano kahaba ang pag-uusap nilang lahat. I'm too sleepy and damn hungry. Malas pang katapat ko si Dad habang nasa gitna naman si Tito Chris. Chester is on my left at katapat niya si Tita Faureen. Dapat sana si Fiona. I like to see the look on her face. Parang mas ginaganahan ako.
The conversation was endless pero pagkain lang ang inintindi ko. And if Dad didn't asked the million dollar question, muntik na akong makatulog.
“So? Para saan nga ba ang breakfast na ito? Chester?” Dad asked.
Hindi sana ako sasagot. Pero nang… hawakan bigla ni Chester ang kamay ko. Parang bigla akong naupos.
My brows furrowed at it at kaagad kong binawi iyon. Mabuti na lang at nasa ilalim iyon ng lamesa! Damn it. This bastard really knows how to get my attention.
“Well, this is to formally ask Paris to…” Nanlaki ang mata ko nang ilabas bigla ni Chester and isang large velvet box. What the hell was that?!
“... to marry me,” Chester continued as he opened the damn box.
Unlike other men with engagement rings, the box contained a stunning pearl necklace that made our jaws drop. Hindi ko sigurado kung paano niya nalaman, but pearls were actually sentimental to me. Just the sight of it made my heart go wild. So wild that it's giving me headaches.
Isa pa… ang kwintas na 'yon. Probably around 300,000 worth. Why is he proposing with that?
Nakita ko ang panlalaki ng mata ni Daddy. Funny how he reacted. Parang hindi inaasahan, ah?
“I realized that what happened yesterday was actually not how it's supposed to be. So I'm giving her my formal proposal now,” Chester said.
What is he? A suitor? A boyfriend? Yesterday was damn fine!
“So… Paris?” Chester asked nang ilang saglit pa akong natulala. Nang mag-angat ako ng tingin sa kanya, his brows were raising, like he was expecting an answer after what we talked about last night.
My lips parted, and it answered automatically.
“Y-Yes. Yes, I will,” I whispered, which made him smirk.
“Paris,” Dad called happily na parang iyon ang pinakamagandang desisyong ginawa ko.
Narinig ko pa ang ilang palakpak. Surely, Tito Chris was one of them. Isa na rin si Tita Faureen at maging si Felix. Chase also clapped with them as well lalo na nang isuot sa akin ni Chester ang kwintas.
“There, perfect,” he whispered before he sat beside me.
“Congratulations! I'm looking forward to your marriage. It's about two weeks, right?” tanong ni Tito Chris sa akin.
I smiled at him and nodded. I actually don't know the details. Si Chester na lang ang tanungin nila. Tutal ay siya naman itong nakakaalam ng mga detalye.
Dad and Tito Chris were very happy with the news. Ilang saglit pa ng pagkukwentuhan bago nagsimulang magpaalam ang lahat dahil sa meetings and agendas.
I was supposed to go to the spa right now, pero dahil sa bilin na sumama muna ako kay Chester, mukhang hindi ko na magagawa iyon. Or maybe I could. Baka nga siya pa ang magbayad, eh.
“Paris… Paris, hey!” Napatigil ako sa paglalakad patungo ng comfort room nang bigla akong hilahin ni Chancellor para iharap sa kanya.
“Ano ba?" I asked in annoyance.
Akala ko nakaalis na sila?
Nagpaalam lang ako kay Chester sandali. I didn't know that Chancellor was still here!
“What do you want?” tanong ko sa kanya nang tuluyan ko siyang harapin.
He breathed heavily and tried to look around parang tinitingnan kung may makakarinig ba sa sasabihin niya. “I-It's about last night. Look, I'm sorry I gave you advances that would make you think that way. I'm sorry I lied. It’s just that–!”
“You don’t have to explain to me anymore, Chancellor. Wala na akong pakialam,” asik ko at akmang aalis na sa harapan niya.
“Come on, Paris, don’t be like this.” Akma niya akong hahawakan pero bago niya pa nagawa iyon, I heard the deep and familiar voice that made me stop walking.
“She said she doesn’t want to talk about it, Chancellor. Hindi ba talaga ‘yan maiproseso ng utak mo?” Chester asked in a dark tone.
I sighed and looked at them dahil mukhang mag-aaway pa yata. I badly want to go to the comfort room right now, pero nang hapitin ako ni Chester sa baywang, alam kong hindi na ako makakaalis pa.
“Chester, I just want to talk to Paris. This is between us, so ‘wag kang makialam–!”
“Makikialam ako, Chancellor,” Chester said. “She already said that she doesn’t want to talk about it, kaya ayokong… nakikita pang nilalapitan o hinahawakan mo siya.”
Chancellor glared at his brother. Alam kong sasagot pa sana siya kung hindi lang dumating si Chase para awatin ang dalawa. Maybe it was instinct, pero kung paano niya man naramdamang nag-aaway ang dalawa, I’m glad that he came to stop them!
“Really? Right in front of a woman? Stop it, you morons. Tara na, Chancellor,” Chase said.
Chancellor sighed. He then looked at me, pero hindi ko na siya pinansin. Of course I want his explanation, pero hindi ngayon. Dahil… sa tuwing nakikita ko siya, para pa rin akong sinasaksak sa puso at nagpupuyos sa galit.
“Let's go,” I whispered to Chester, which he gladly obeyed.
Walang imik at nagmamadali akong lumabas patungo sa sasakyan niya. I really want to go somewhere. But today… my schedule was tied with him.
“Missy, you’re very moody,” he said. “It’s our day today, yet you’re broken hearted because of that asshole.”
I glared at him as I fastened my seatbelt. “Tara na nga lang. Saan ba tayo pupunta?” I asked in an annoyed tone.
“We're going to buy a ring. An engagement, and wedding rings.”
“Right. Why did you give me this, instead of a normal engagement ring in the first place?” tanong ko sa kanya habang pinagmamasdan ang kwintas na ibinigay niya sa akin.
“Pearl suits you. I couldn’t think of a ring dahil… nadidistract ako sa ganda ng leeg mo. I don’t like others seeing that, so I just gave you a pearl necklace
I raised my brows at him pero hindi ko na iyon pinuna dahil mababara ko lang siya.
Nang makarating kami sa mall, I simply followed him towards the jewelry store that he went. True to his words, he’s never good at choosing such things kaya sa halip na makigulo ay pinaupo ko na lang siya sa tabi ng mga baklang clerk at iba pang babaeng mukhang nahuhumaling naman sa kanya.
“I want to help,” he said with damn puppy eyes.
“No you don’t. You just kept on choosing the most expensive ones,” inis kong bulong sa kanya habang ibinababa ko ang bag ko sa tabi niya.
“So what? I can pay for those–!”
“That’s not my point, Mister. Kaya maupo ka lang diyan at…” I looked around and saw different people looking at him. “I don’t know, entertain?”
“What?”
Hindi ko na siya tinanong at nagpatuloy na lang ako sa pamimili ng singsing. I actually never thought I’d ever do this. Choosing a ring with the man I’m going to marry. Except that I… already expected that I’ll soon get married not for love, but for convenience.
Napabuntong hininga ako sa isiping iyon. I tried looking for a ring that would find my taste, pero siguro wala lang talaga ako sa mood. Nothing suits in my hands here.
I tried scanning over and over again, running here and there to their different shelves hanggang sa…
“Gusto niyo po ba siya, ma’am? Mukhang bagay po sa inyo ni sir ‘yan,” the sales lady said when I locked my eyes in a silver ring.
It was a wedding ring that I wished I have never seen. Napakaganda ng dainty twig na wedding rings na iyon. A simple round for the man, and a beautiful twig style for a woman. If this was a real wedding–no, I mean, a wedding between me and the man I love, I would’ve appreciated it even more.
Nang ibigay sa akin iyon ng sales clerk, I can’t help but hold it. Napakaganda talaga na gusto kong maiyak.
“That looks good on your hands,” I heard Chester’s husky voice as he went near me. “Tamang-tama, bagay ‘yan dito.”
When I looked at what he’s holding, nakita ko ang isang twig rin na engagement ring. Unlike what I’m holding, the ring he holds have a diamond. At talaga ngang napakaganda noon.
“Give me your hand,” he whispered, pero kaagad niya ring kinuha ang kaliwa kong kamay.
To my surprise, he slid the ring that fitted my finger perfectly. It looked and felt so damn perfect. It's like I… fell in love with a goddamn ring.
“There. Perfect,” he said after he slid the wedding ring I'm holding into my finger.
I was too stunned to speak. Manghang mangha ako sa ganda ng singsing na parang ayaw ko na iyong hubarin pa. And I guess, Chester saw that look in my eyes.
“I'll buy these. Mukhang gustong gusto mo na, eh,” he said and talked to the cashier.
My eyes widened. “H-Ha?”
“Remove the wedding ring. Babayaran na natin.”
“U-Um… sige.” I really love it. Sayang nga lang at… ngayon ko iyon nakita kung kailan sa kanya ako magpapakasal.
Well, maybe I can still find something more beautiful than that, right?
Iyon ay kung… makakatakas pa ako sa kanya pagkatapos ng kasal.
After he paid those, he kept the ring on a velvet box and slid it inside his coat's pocket. Pero ang engagement ring, hinayaan niya lang na suot ko.
“Let's go,” he said and held my hand, which honestly made me shocked.
“You're holding my hand,” puna ko habang naglalakad kami.
Nilingon niya ako bago siya sumulyap sa kamay kong hawak niya naman talaga. Parang hindi aware, ah?
Damn you, Chester Lancelot.
“Oh, sorry, nagkusa,” nagpipigil ng ngising aniya na inirapan ko naman kaagad.
Gago talaga.
Parang nagdududa na tuloy ako kung siya ba talaga si Chester. Damn, he's a ruthless businessman, and a damn rude person, pero ngayon ay para siyang bata.
“We're getting married. Is there something wrong kung hahawakan ko ang kamay mo in public?” he suddenly asked. “Besides, I want to give the paparazzi a great story.”
I rolled my eyes again at his response. Sabi ko na nga ba, eh. He's just doing this for something.
Bakit, ano bang ineexpect ko?
Damn it, Paris!
“Saka mo na hawakan ang kamay ko kapag kasal na tayo. Kanina ka pang kung makahawak, eh. We barely even know each other,” I whispered the last sentence and rolled my eyes.
Pero nagulat ako nang bigla siyang tumigil sa paglalakad at hinila ako para tumigil rin! Aba't talagang hindi nagpapatalo, ah?
Kapag ako ang nang-aasar, bawal? Tsk.
“Barely even know?” he smirked. “And we did more than just holding hands kaya tigilan mo ako, Paris.”
My jaw literally dropped at what he said. Wala akong pakialam kung may nakakakita man sa amin. I immediately pulled my hand away from him and was damn ready for a fight.
“Talagang binabalik balik mo pa rin iyon, ah? Again, Chester, nagpakilala kang si Chancellor!” gigil ko sa kanya.
However, he just smirked at me and winked. “Isipin mo na lang na… I am Chancellor,” he said.
‘I am Chancellor.’
‘I am Chancellor.’
‘I am… Chancellor.’
What the?
“Argh,” I groaned in pain nang parang may martilyong ilang beses na pumukpok sa ulo ko.
Shit, shit!
“What's wrong?” he asked in a panicking voice pero hindi ko siya masagot!
It felt like something… something's hitting my head nonstop. I can hear an annoying noise that brought headaches like there was no tomorrow. Napakasakit. Napakasakit na parang hindi ko kayang huminga…
“H-Hey?” Chester called when I lost balance. He held me and assisted me pero ni pagsasalita ay hindi ko magawa! It hurts that it’s killing me.
What’s happening? What the fuck is happening?
‘I am… Chancellor.’
‘I am Chancellor,’
“Paris… Paris!” Chester’s voice echoed in my ears before I completely lost track of everything.
“How can I know? Hindi ka naman nagkukwento.”“You don’t have to know. All you have to do is stare at me… and remember that I am Chancellor. Alright? I am the only Chancellor, Paris. I am Chancellor.”When I opened my eyes, I immediately gasped for air. Para akong tumakbo nang napakahaba dahil sa matinding tibok ng puso ko. What the fuck happened? Where the hell am I?!“Paris… Paris, are you okay?” Chester went inside the room and immediately attended to me.He pat my back as he called someone to attend to me pero hindi ko iyon kailangan ngayon. All I need is a damn space and time to think.Anong nangyari? Why was that so hard to swallow? At bakit may parang nagpapaulit ulit na panaginip sa akin. I couldn’t really picture it. All I can recall is that I had this conversation with someone. Was it Chancellor?Maybe. Paulit ulit niyang sinasabing siya si Chancellor. But I… I couldn’t recall why. I couldn’t recall when I had this conversation with him.After the nurse checked me, pumasok
I couldn’t get a hold of our conversation. Somehow, ang pag-alis ni Claire noong sumunod na araw ay nagpaisip sa akin. I don’t know, maybe it was just because of her reactions, and knowing that Chester is also in Singapore. Isa pa… she’s a designer as well. But it might be just a coincidence, right? After all, Claire never mentioned a boyfriend. At hindi ako sigurado kung kilala niya ba si Chester. Even though it’s possible, Claire would tell us if it’s true, right?There’s no reason for her to hide.As for Chester… there’s also no reason for him to contact me, but I felt stupid waiting for his message. How many days has it been? Three? That asshole. He said he’ll message me from time to time. Fuck, and why am I waiting?! Why am I waiting for it?“This one looks pretty on me. I’ll have it.” Napaangat ako ng tingin nang marinig ang nakakairitang boses ni Fiona. When I looked at her, my brows furrowed in annoyance. It was a sweetheart top kind of tube. It’s fitted and long, covered i
Para akong masasamid sa sariling laway dahil sa sinabi niya. While I was too damn tensed, he looked so fucking calm, amused of my reaction!How can he like me? I mean…“I’m in love with your brother…” I reminded him, yet he only laughed at me.“No you’re not,” he said with confidence. “I can prove it.” My brows furrowed at his sudden movement. He put down the sandwich and leaned toward me in a swift move. Almost telling me that he’s ready to kiss in a public place!“Anong g-ginagawa mo?” Nauutal-utal pang sabi ko at bahagya siyang tinulak pero hindi naman nagpatinag ang loko.“Nakatingin ang kabit mo,” he said in a husky tone while he was too close to me. I know he’s pertaining to Chancellor, yet I don’t know what to do. The way he looked at me put me in such a dilemma. In a dilemma that I… think I actually know how to respond.When I locked my eyes on him, it didn’t make me want to look at where he was gesturing. Instead, my eyes dropped to his lips. It was red and plump, it was ver
I can feel my throat getting dry at his remarks. Hindi ko alam pero ang mga simple niyang salita ay may kakaibang dulot sa akin. I could feel my heart pounding so loud that I could hear nothing but it. It's beating so hard that it feels like it's coming out of my ribcage.I've never felt such emotions. Kailanman, hindi ko pa naranasan ang ganitong klaseng sensasyon. Funny how he’s the only one who can make me feel that way. He’s the only one that could stir my mind and make me question my own emotions. Do I… like him?“Paris, Chester!” Napatalon ako sa gulat nang marinig ang tawag ni Daddy. Because of his call, nagising ako at nawala sa mga iniisip. Naputol din ang titigan namin ni Chester at ang mga kalokohang gumugulo sa akin. “Why don’t you socialize up there? May mga naghihintay pa naman sa inyong mga bisita,” Dad said.I cleared my throat and immediately nodded. I think it’s better for me to socialize a bit before I lose my mind and sanity at our conversation. Chester is stirri
“Mag-ingat kayo sa pag-uwi, ah? Lumalalim na rin ang gabi at siguradong pagod na pagod na kayo pareho. Ingat kayo,” Nanang said as she closed the car door for me.Nginitian ko siya at saka marahang tumango kahit aminado akong humupa man ang pag-aalala ay hindi pa rin iyon lubusang nawala.“Kayo po ang mag-ingat, ah? Tatawag ako palagi at bibisita,” asik ko. Hindi ko alam kung naexcite ba siya roon. Sa palagay ko ay hindi dahil nag-aalala lang siyang ngumiti sa akin. “Mauuna na po kami. Maraming salamat sa pagpapaunlak,” Chester said after he started the car's engine. Nilingon ko siya at nakita ang mabait na ngiting iginawad kay Nanang. Though he always looked dangerous and cunning, he smiled genuinely.“S-Salamat din. Oh, siya, sige na.”Wala na akong nagawa nang paandarin ni Chester ang sasakyan paalis ng bahay ni Nanang. Actually, I felt a bit relaxed knowing that she arrived safe and unharmed. That's all that I wanted.“Feeling relaxed now?” Chester asked as he continued driving.
Fuck. Damn it, shit!I groaned so much when I felt like something was pounding my head so badly. Nanunuyo ang lalamunan at parang anumang oras ay masusuka. God, I badly need some water or I might pass out kahit kagigising ko lang!I held my throbbing head, trying to figure out if the laugh I heard was from my damn imagination. “That’s what you get for drinking so much. Here, drink some.”With my eyes half-open, I tried to pull myself up para lang mailapat ang labi ko sa basong lumapit sa akin. Drinking the cold water felt like heaven! Gosh, kailan ba ang huling beses na uminom ako ng tubig at bakit ganito?“Wake up, sleepy head. I can almost see those perfect and round sights up from here. Care to hide them properly, please?”My brows furrowed when he started talking gibberish. Perfect and round–what?!Mabilis kong iminulat ang mata ko nang marealize ko kung anong sinabi ni Chester. And I almost cursed when I saw my chest almost popping out of the damn silk robe!“Damn it.” I quickly
It's been a week–no. Two maybe? No. It's less than two weeks, pero sa tingin ko mababaliw na ako rito! Although I had my phone, I never even got the chance to touch it or even look at it.Chester's been bugging my whole system, at pakiramdam ko kaunting kaunti na lang talaga ay sasabog na ang ulo ko sa dami ng nangyayari. More so, my mind will explode completely because Chester's been stirring it up.Pilit kong sinasaksak sa utak ko na kailan lang, patay na patay ako at halos ibigay ko na ang sarili ko sa kapatid niya. In fact, I was so into him for years! Pero bakit kay Chester… ilang araw lang…“Are you awake?”My heart pounds so wildly every time he knocks on the door and asks that softly. His voice was hoarse, probably because he has just woken up. At pagkakagising niya mula sa kabilang kwarto, he'll go straight to my door and knock to see if I woke up. It’s been kinda like his habit.Kaya hindi na ako nagulat nang pagbukas ko ng pinto, bumungad sa akin ang magulo niyang pigura. H
When a little ray of sunshine hit my face, I couldn’t help but groan a little as my brows furrowed as well. Gusto ko pa sanang matulog dahil sa pinaghalong puyat, pagod, at sakit ng katawan, but the light and heat from the sun slightly annoyed me.I opened my eyes to peek at the blinds, but there were all closed properly. May isa nga lang na hindi sumagad sa dulo. Hmm, maybe I’ll just go tuck into Chester or whatever. His body is huge enough to cover the sunlight. I’m damn sure of it.“Ches…” I tried to open my eyes again to look at him pero napakunot ang noo ko nang makitang wala na siya roon.Huh? Nasaan siya?Parang biglang nawala ang antok ko nang tuluyang maiproseso na wala nga talaga siya sa tabi ko. I used to read this in different novels, and I think it’s reasonable to feel a bit empty after waking up without him beside you after sharing a memorable night. And no matter how much I try to deny it, I know I’m about close to feel that way.I know I’m about to feel so worthless un
I was taken aback by the words he uttered. Like what I said, I understood why he did those back then. Pero ngayong humihingi siya ng tawad sa akin, hindi ko alam ang isasagot.“Dad…”He smiled weakly and tried to look at me. “I know what I did back then was unforgivable, but I was just protecting you, and…”“Dad, Dad…” kaagad ko siyang pinutol. I held his hand and smiled at him. I know that I hated him so much back then. I was stupid. I was reckless and damn stupid. Ngayon, kahit hindi ko pa rin maintindihan kung bakit niya pinakasalan si Tita Faureen, I don’t care anymore.He’s all that I have. He’s the only parent I have.And this grudge has been here too long already. Pagod na pagod na akong magalit.“I understand…” pagpapatuloy ko ngunit suno-sunod siyang umiling sa akin.“No, I didn’t give you a proper explanation back then,” aniya. “Your Tita Faureen, she and I have been good friends even before I met your mother. When your mom left, I… I didn’t know what to do. I wanted you to
What…Everything fell silent after he uttered those words. Pakiramdam ko, pinagsakluban ako ng langit at lupa at hindi ko alam kung anong paniniwalaan.I felt numb. I-I couldn’t even think properly or say something properly. Gusto kong tumakbo… gusto kong magwala… gusto kong….Oh God, what is this?“Chancellor pushed her causing her death. M-Magkasama kami noon at naglalaro nang makita niya ang Mommy mo. Back then, we… we really hated your Mom because we know what’s up between her and dad,” pagpapatuloy ni Chester sa mga bagay na hindi niya nasabi sa akin noon.“She approached us, and it was really an accident. My brother didn’t mean it… we were…” parang dinudurog ang puso ko sa bawat salitang binibigkas niya. His voice was hoarse and breaking. Parang paulit-ulit siyang sinasaksak sa bawat salitang binibitawan, and it breaks my heart hearing him that way. “... we were just children…”Nag-angat ako ng tingin sa kaniya at halos madurog ako nang makita siyang umiiyak. He was doing his b
Masama ang loob ko at walang imik hanggang makabalik kami sa resthouse nila Chester. Maging siya tuloy ay tahimik at hindi ako kinikibo kaya mas lalo lang akong naiinis.Well, I’m not totally mad at him. Naiinis ako sa nalaman ko! And the fact that they’re still friends made me dislike the idea even more. Dumagdag pang parang hindi niya napapansing masama ang loob ko.Eh ‘di do’n siya kay Claire!Wait, no. Ugh!“What’s wrong? Are you mad at me?” tanong niya nang hilahin ako para maupo sa lap niya sa couch dahil tataas na sana ako sa kuwarto.I rolled my eyes. “No,” I simply answered and was about to leave him pero siyempre, hindi niya ako hinayaan. Si Chester ‘yan, eh!“Sinungaling,” mahina at mapanuyang asik niya bago ako ginawaran ng halik sa pisngi. “Tell me, Love. What’s bothering you? Kakaunti lang ang napamili mo dahil kanina ka pang ganiyan.”I rolled my eyes. “Oo nga at kanina ka pa rin walang pake,” asik ko.He groaned as he buried his face on my neck. “I’ve been trying to ca
I saw my whole world fall apart right before my eyes when he uttered those words. How… how is that possible?“What are you saying? T-That can’t be… my father would’ve killed you–!”“He almost did. Remember?” he asked with a ghost of a smile, cutting me off and making me remember that he was right.Galit na galit sa kanya si Daddy noon, and I could vividly remember the night when he was almost killed by my Dad. Hindi ko magawang maintindihan noon ang aking ama, pero ngayong narinig ko ang mga salitang ‘yon mula kay Chester, parang naninikip ang dibdib ko.“Are you sure you want to talk about it already? Paris you seem unwell. I–!”“No,” I said. “Keep talking. But please… nagmamakaawa ako sa’yo. Do not lie this time.”My words were straight and blank. But his eyes tell me that to him, they were like bullets fired into his chest for a reason that I could not name.But after a few blinks, nawala iyon at matamis siyang ngumiti sa akin. “I promise.”Chester and I have been great the next fe
I couldn’t recall how much I cried for a few days because of that. Hindi ko alam kung anong nangyayari, or what triggered them back, but the memories kept flowing like a river that could not be stopped. And along that, I could feel surges of emotion that I could not name. Halo-halo ang nararamdaman ko, and I don’t know if I could even contain all of them. I don’t even know how many days it has been. I was only brought meals inside my room and was taken care of. Minsan binibisita ako nina Daddy at Tita Faureen sa kwarto, but I don’t have the energy to talk to them. When I look at my father, all I can do is cry. Kaya nang lumabas ako sa kwarto, they were all surprised.“Paris? How are you feeling? I should’ve just brought you some food for–!” Napatigil si Tita Faureen sa pagsalubong sa akin nang mapansin niya kung ano ang nakakuha ng atensyon ko pagbaba ko ng hagdan. My lips parted at the sight of tons of flowers in the living room. Some are withered, and some are being saved by Tita
“Don’t bother. I can manage,” I said and waved my phone to show him that I’d just book myself a cab. Wala rin naman akong planong makituloy sa bahay ng kung sino mang kaibigan o kamag-anak. I’ll just stay at a hotel for the next few days to relax and think.Wala rin naman akong choice kundi tanggapin ang pamilya nina Felix sa amin. I just need to calm the fuck down or else I’d add fuel to the damn fire. Hindi ko alam kung anong naging reaksyon niya. I feel dizzy and tired that I just want to lay on a bed. Isa pa masyado na akong napahiya sa lalaking nakaupo sa harap ko. I have to leave before things gets worse kaya minabuti kong talikuran na siya at lumabas ng club.His response to my offer makes me feel very damn awful. That is so fucking embarrassing!Pero nasabi ko na, eh. And as stupid as it may sound, I’m not regretting it. I do not regret it, because if he’d accept the offer, I’ll gladly be his girlfriend.Damn, I really am drunk.Sinikap kong panatilihing mulat ang mga mata ko
“My goodness, Paris! Where were you?! And why the hell did you do that?” I breathed heavily when Felix was the one who confronted me right when we got back home. I simply smirked at him and continued sipping on the hot coffee that was served by the maids. Hindi ko alam kung anong mararamdaman ko dahil sa totoo lang, siya lang ang naglakas loob na lumapit sa akin at komprontahin ako – something that I expected from my father, so that I could talk and rant to him.But I guess, they just didn’t care. Maybe they’re fed up with me.“Who cares?” I asked. “And you definitely know why I did what I did. Alam kong naiintindihan mo ‘ko, ‘cousin’.” I said, emphasizing the way I have addressed him.Felix only sighed and sat in front of me. Through the years, he has stood up as my older brother. He was the one who understood me and my whines – or that’s what I thought.He’s always been close to my Dad because he’s been close to me. Iyon naman pala… Dad wanted to marry his mother. Felix didn’t appr
My lips parted when I heard his confession. Never have I imagined him saying those in my face. Para akong paulit-ulit na sinasaksak sa dibdib habang patuloy kong hinihiling na sana mali ako ng pagkakarinig. I was hoping and praying so hard that my ears are only messing around with me dahil kung totoo ang naririnig ko ay hinding hindi ko sya mapapatawad!“You didn’t… what?” I repeated, hoping that I had heard the wrong thing.Pero para siyang tutang nag-iwas ng tingin sa akin. The pain in his eyes made me want to slap him so hard. Siya pa ang nasasaktan ngayon? Bakit?!“You didn’t… what now, Chester?” pag-uulit ko.He breathed heavily and mustered all his strength to face me. “I-I’m sorry–!”“You didn’t want me to remember? Who the fuck are you to decide?!” I shouted at him. Sinubukan niyang hawakan ang pareho kong kamay para pakalmahin ako pero hindi na uubra sa akin ang ginagawa niya! Every time we come across a problem like this, he always tries to tame me using his sweet words and
Chancellor left the room, and I almost fainted because of shortness of breath. Hindi ako makapaniwala sa sinasabi niya, at ayaw kong maniwala!How come he didn’t know? O baka naman itinatanggi niya lang din? But why the fuck would he deny such thing gayong magkaibigan kami!Or were my memories distorted? “Impossible,” I said. Parang sumasakit ang ulo ko sa frustration. There’s no fucking way I could be wrong, right?O baka naman pati sarili kong memorya ay hindi ko na rin kayang pagkatiwalaan gaya ng ibang tao sa paligid ko?!Tang ina!“Goddamn it! Damn!” I pulled my hair in frustration as my tears rolled down my cheeks. I don’t know what to fucking believe anymore! It has been a long time since I had flashbacks like this, at ganito pa?!“Argh!” I cried out of resentment and grief because I really didn’t know what to do anymore.“P-Paris–!”I sniffed and wiped my tears when I heard a familiar voice. Chester entered the room and attended me immediately, pero isa siya sa napakaraming t