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Chapter 11: So be it
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2022-08-23 10:52:28
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Say That You Love Me Chapter 12: Wholeheartedly
It's been a week–no. Two maybe? No. It's less than two weeks, pero sa tingin ko mababaliw na ako rito! Although I had my phone, I never even got the chance to touch it or even look at it.Chester's been bugging my whole system, at pakiramdam ko kaunting kaunti na lang talaga ay sasabog na ang ulo ko sa dami ng nangyayari. More so, my mind will explode completely because Chester's been stirring it up.Pilit kong sinasaksak sa utak ko na kailan lang, patay na patay ako at halos ibigay ko na ang sarili ko sa kapatid niya. In fact, I was so into him for years! Pero bakit kay Chester… ilang araw lang…“Are you awake?”My heart pounds so wildly every time he knocks on the door and asks that softly. His voice was hoarse, probably because he has just woken up. At pagkakagising niya mula sa kabilang kwarto, he'll go straight to my door and knock to see if I woke up. It’s been kinda like his habit.Kaya hindi na ako nagulat nang pagbukas ko ng pinto, bumungad sa akin ang magulo niyang pigura. H
Huling Na-update : 2022-08-27Say That You Love Me Chapter 13: Claire
When a little ray of sunshine hit my face, I couldn’t help but groan a little as my brows furrowed as well. Gusto ko pa sanang matulog dahil sa pinaghalong puyat, pagod, at sakit ng katawan, but the light and heat from the sun slightly annoyed me.I opened my eyes to peek at the blinds, but there were all closed properly. May isa nga lang na hindi sumagad sa dulo. Hmm, maybe I’ll just go tuck into Chester or whatever. His body is huge enough to cover the sunlight. I’m damn sure of it.“Ches…” I tried to open my eyes again to look at him pero napakunot ang noo ko nang makitang wala na siya roon.Huh? Nasaan siya?Parang biglang nawala ang antok ko nang tuluyang maiproseso na wala nga talaga siya sa tabi ko. I used to read this in different novels, and I think it’s reasonable to feel a bit empty after waking up without him beside you after sharing a memorable night. And no matter how much I try to deny it, I know I’m about close to feel that way.I know I’m about to feel so worthless un
Huling Na-update : 2022-08-30Say That You Love Me Chapter 14: I'm Married To Her Now
I breathed heavily and disregarded the disappointment when he took his phone and walked away to answer the call. Sa halip na sundan siya, I feel like I’m really not in the mood to do so. He’s allowed to have his secrets, right? That's his right.I sighed and simply took the wine bottle. This has been my way to cope. Every time I don’t have my answers with a clear and straight mind, maybe I could solve it with drunk thoughts? Well, it doesn’t really work every time. Sometimes, I just… pass out.A few minutes passed before I felt someone remove the bottle from my hand and held my head para idantay iyon sa kanyang dibdib. Damn, why am I wasted already?“You’ve drank so much. Continue this, and you’ll be the death of me,” he said. I just giggled when I realized that we have the same thoughts. Pakiramdam ko rin kasi, siya ang magiging dahilan ng maaga kong pagkamatay.“You’re frustrating me too, so don’t get me started,” I whispered, which I know made him frown. “I frustrate you? How so?”
Huling Na-update : 2022-09-03Say That You Love Me Chapter 15: Confession
“The sea looks absolutely stunning. Let's swim?” she suddenly said habang nasa may patio kami.My brows furrowed. “I thought your head hurts so badly that you just want to explode?”She continued sipping on her juice. “Hangovers can wait, the sea can't!” she said back na mas nagpakunot ng noo ko. “That doesn’t make any sense,” I whispered. It really doesn’t. Hindi naman mawawala ang dagat na iyan diyan. I’m more worried about her than any sea in the world. If she wants, we can stay here hanggang magsawa siya sa paglalangoy sa dagat. But for now, just please rest, Paris!“Neither do I.” What?My jaw dropped when she immediately stood up and removed the wayfarers I lent her. Kasunod noon ay ang akma niyang pagtatanggal sa suot na oversized white shirt in front of people! Oh goodness.“Paris!” I immediately stood up and pulled the hem of her shirt bago pa ako tuluyang atakihin sa puso. I saw how her eyes widened when I did that. Nang subukan niya pang hilahin ulit paitaas, I lost all c
Huling Na-update : 2022-09-05Say That You Love Me Chapter 16: On the Rebound
Like the other glimpse I had, that one isn’t very clear. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero ngayon lang naman ako nagkaroon ng ganitong flashbacks. I was thinking of consulting someone, or something like that, but I don’t think my emotions would handle it very well. Isa pa, Dad would surely know about it not long after.I’m not really that curious. Like I always say, I think I wouldn’t be able to handle the trauma if I had remembered anything painful. Pero sa totoo lang, I couldn’t help but wonder if… I had a boyfriend at that time. Do I love him very much?If so, where is he now? Hmm, siguro ay ipinalayo na rin sa akin ng Daddy. Like what he did to Reese. Isa pa, if I was a minor back then, then I don’t think that counts“So, how long are you planning to stay here?” Muli akong napabalik sa katinuan nang marinig ang tanong ni Felix matapos naming kumain ng dinner at magkayayaan ang dalawa na mag-inuman. “I hope you’re still in touch with our… Dad?”“Of course we are. Hindi ko naman itatak
Huling Na-update : 2022-09-13Say That You Love Me Chapter 17: Secrets and Lies
I can feel my heart pounding so wildly that it’s making my chest ache. Pakiramdam ko, kayang kaya ko silang sugurin at komprontahin, sampalin pareho at hindi magpatawad. What on earth are they doing there? Reconciling the past relationship they had?Why on earth would he cheat ngayon pang sinabi ko na sa kanyang gusto ko siya?! Is he fucking kidding me?And Claire… rebound my ass!“Paris? You’re still awake?” Napatigil ako sa paglalakad nang bumukas ang front door dahil sa pagpasok ni Chester. His eyes widen, and his lips parted. Gaya ko, natigil din siya sa paglalakad at napatitig kung totoo ba ang nakikita niya.He’s surprised, huh? Well, guess what? I am too! “Hindi rin nga ako makapaniwalang gising ka pa, eh,” I said. I looked behind him, and was about to walk towards him para mas masilip nang mabuti si Claire, but the brute shut the door!“W-Where are you going?” aligagang aniya,I raised my brows at him. “What about you? Saan ka galing?”I saw the way he gulped and even glanced
Huling Na-update : 2022-09-20Say That You Love Me Chapter 18: Felicia Rivera
Claire and Felix left the next day. Although Claire and I didn't talk about it well, the smile we exchanged was enough for now. Maybe when we have our privacy, we can discuss this thoroughly. Sa palagay ko, saka ko na siya kakausapin kapag mapapatunayan ko nang… hindi naman naging rebound si Chester para sa akin.It just… stresses me out, although it should've been at the very least of my problems. Wala akong panahon na problemahin iyon.I realized Chester was right. It'll be beneficial for what's happening between us to just stay with each other for a while and settle this out. Pero alam kong hindi naman pwedeng ganoon na lang iyon. “Yes, Honey, tell him that we'll be home by today, and I can attend the board meeting tomorrow. Leave all the paperwork on my desk. All right, thank you.”I pouted a bit when I heard her name. Bakit ba naman kasi ganoon ang pangalan ng sekretarya niya? Honeyclaire… well, it’s actually cute, but I don’t really appreciate it that way. Hindi ko tuloy alam.
Huling Na-update : 2022-09-26Say That You Love Me Chapter 19: Mysteries of the Past
“There you are! I've been looking for you everywhere!” I nearly jumped in surprise when I heard Chester’s voice come out of nowhere. Kasabay noon, I think Tito Christopher saw what I was looking at. He pulled the documents out of my sight as… Chester pulled me to look at him.“Chester! How's the meeting going?” Tito Chris asked kaya napunta sa kanya ang atensyon ni Chester. I gulped and tried to look at the table again, but it's not there anymore! Hindi ako sigurado pero pakiramdam ko, it was inside the folder underneath his hand! “Not yet. I've explained enough, though. And the board is now waiting for you,” Chester said before he looked at me. “What are you doing here?” tanong niya sa akin.“I… uh…” I looked at Tito Chris once again, trying to remember why I was here. But all that keeps playing in my mind is the fact that… I just saw a document about my mother! Inside his office! Hindi ko alam kung bakit. I don't even care why. All I want to know is if he knows her personally. May
Huling Na-update : 2022-10-02
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Say That You Love Me Chapter 44: Divorce
Three days. It has been three days since we got back from Tagaytay. Biglaan kasing nag-aya si Chester noong gabing iyon na umuwi na kami kaya wala na rin akong nagawa. At mula noong gabing iyon, hindi na kami nag-uusap.Well, we had dry conversations, but that’s about it. He’s dry when he talks to me. Kahit pa pilitin niyang magpanggap na walang problema, sana aware din siya na alam kong may problema.Pero kahit na…Hindi ko magawang kulitin siya tungkol doon. I sighed. Hay, hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko.“The Lorente’s are back in business,” Dad said out of nowhere habang nagbbrowse siya ng balita sa kanyang Ipad. “Do you know them?” he asked me.I pursed my lips and slowly nodded. Lorente. Apilyedo ngayon ng Mommy ni Chester.So they already settled things? She really got what she wanted.Kung ganoon, ano pang problema? Bakit ganoon si Chester?“You’re silent,” puna ni Dad. “Are you sure ayaw mong sumama kina Faureen sa Okada? You’d be bored here.”Nilaro ko ng tinidor ang s
Say That You Love Me Chapter 43: Overstepped
“Love,” I called him nang makarating kami sa bahay. Kanina pa siyang tahimik at walang kibo sa biyahe dahil sa nangyari. He look tensed, frustrated, angry in fact, dahil sa nangyari kanina. Hindi ko na tuloy naintindi ang maraming bulaklak sa likod ng pickup niya.Instead, I tried to follow him inside the bedroom kung saan alam kong didiretso siya.“Is that any way to greet your mother?” the woman asked.My lips parted. I was about to look at Chester gamit ang matang mapagtanong, nang bigla niya akong hilahin papunta sa kanyang likuran. And that alone answered my questions. She really is his motherPero bakit siya nandito?After all that Chester said kanina, hindi ko alam kung anong mararamdaman ko. Hindi ko rin alam kung anong dapat kong gawin dahil sa paraan pa lang ng paghawak niya sa akin ay ramdam ko na kung gaano niya kaayaw sa presensya ng kaniyang ina.Damn, why is she here? I mean, I don’t mean anything bad, pero gusto ko sanang mag-relax kaming mag-asawa ngayon. My husband’s
Say That You Love Me Chapter 42: Mother
“What’s wrong?” maagap kong tanong nang makitang i-decline niya ang call. “May problema na naman ba?”I parted my lips and wanted to ask more, pero kaagad niya naman akong pinigilan sa pamamagitan ng isang matamis na ngiti. “It’s just work. Sigurado ako roon. Huwag na lang nating sagutin–!”“Chester,” mahinang tawag ko dahil hindi ko talaga gusto ang nararamdaman. I know, I may just be being too paranoid, but can you blame me?I have to ask it.“You’re not hiding something from me again, are you?” I asked. It’s not that I don’t trust him pero… I don’t know… it’s just my gut.Kung may problema naman kasi ang company ay surely, naroon ang kaniyang ama at mga kapatid. I.. I don’t know, iba lang talaga ang pakiramdam ko. I feel like I’ve known him too much, and I know the way he acts when he’s hiding something.And I’m not mad… I’m just worried that maybe… he’s doing this again to protect me from something. Ayaw ko ng ganoon. Ayaw ko na poproblemahin niya lahat nang siya lang.He has me.
Say That You Love Me Chapter 41: Speechless
“Kanina mo pa akong hindi kinakausap,” he stated as a matter of factly nang maibaba ang mga gamit namin sa couch ng kanyang bahay. Yet again, we’re here at Tagaytay to stay for a couple of days, at umpisa pa lang ay hindi na ako agad nag-eenjoy!“Inaantok lang,” sagot ko at agad tinanggal ang jacket. Akma kong kukunin ang maleta ko at aakyat na papunta sa kwarto. Gusto kong magshower at umidlip muna bago siya kausapin. Pakiramdam ko wala na rin akong ganang kumain dahil sa pagod at sama ng loob. Maybe when I wake up in the middle of the night due to some sort of miracle, just maybe I will talk to him.Pero sino bang niloko ko? Hindi ko ‘yata matatakasan ang isang ‘to. “Hey,” kaagad niyang hinawakan ang maleta ko at pagod na tumayo mula sa couch. I glared at him at hinila pabalik ang maleta ko pero hindi niya naman iyon binitawan.“Bitaw. Inaantok na ko, Chester.” Pero sa halip na sumunod, tumayo lang siya at hinarap ako. Ako tuloy itong nanlilisik ang matang nakatingala sa kanya!“Wh
Say That You Love Me Chapter 40: Anak
I was taken aback by the words he uttered. Like what I said, I understood why he did those back then. Pero ngayong humihingi siya ng tawad sa akin, hindi ko alam ang isasagot.“Dad…”He smiled weakly and tried to look at me. “I know what I did back then was unforgivable, but I was just protecting you, and…”“Dad, Dad…” kaagad ko siyang pinutol. I held his hand and smiled at him. I know that I hated him so much back then. I was stupid. I was reckless and damn stupid. Ngayon, kahit hindi ko pa rin maintindihan kung bakit niya pinakasalan si Tita Faureen, I don’t care anymore.He’s all that I have. He’s the only parent I have.And this grudge has been here too long already. Pagod na pagod na akong magalit.“I understand…” pagpapatuloy ko ngunit suno-sunod siyang umiling sa akin.“No, I didn’t give you a proper explanation back then,” aniya. “Your Tita Faureen, she and I have been good friends even before I met your mother. When your mom left, I… I didn’t know what to do. I wanted you to
Say That You Love Me Chapter 39: Apology
What…Everything fell silent after he uttered those words. Pakiramdam ko, pinagsakluban ako ng langit at lupa at hindi ko alam kung anong paniniwalaan.I felt numb. I-I couldn’t even think properly or say something properly. Gusto kong tumakbo… gusto kong magwala… gusto kong….Oh God, what is this?“Chancellor pushed her causing her death. M-Magkasama kami noon at naglalaro nang makita niya ang Mommy mo. Back then, we… we really hated your Mom because we know what’s up between her and dad,” pagpapatuloy ni Chester sa mga bagay na hindi niya nasabi sa akin noon.“She approached us, and it was really an accident. My brother didn’t mean it… we were…” parang dinudurog ang puso ko sa bawat salitang binibigkas niya. His voice was hoarse and breaking. Parang paulit-ulit siyang sinasaksak sa bawat salitang binibitawan, and it breaks my heart hearing him that way. “... we were just children…”Nag-angat ako ng tingin sa kaniya at halos madurog ako nang makita siyang umiiyak. He was doing his b
Say That You Love Me Chapter 38: Reason
Masama ang loob ko at walang imik hanggang makabalik kami sa resthouse nila Chester. Maging siya tuloy ay tahimik at hindi ako kinikibo kaya mas lalo lang akong naiinis.Well, I’m not totally mad at him. Naiinis ako sa nalaman ko! And the fact that they’re still friends made me dislike the idea even more. Dumagdag pang parang hindi niya napapansing masama ang loob ko.Eh ‘di do’n siya kay Claire!Wait, no. Ugh!“What’s wrong? Are you mad at me?” tanong niya nang hilahin ako para maupo sa lap niya sa couch dahil tataas na sana ako sa kuwarto.I rolled my eyes. “No,” I simply answered and was about to leave him pero siyempre, hindi niya ako hinayaan. Si Chester ‘yan, eh!“Sinungaling,” mahina at mapanuyang asik niya bago ako ginawaran ng halik sa pisngi. “Tell me, Love. What’s bothering you? Kakaunti lang ang napamili mo dahil kanina ka pang ganiyan.”I rolled my eyes. “Oo nga at kanina ka pa rin walang pake,” asik ko.He groaned as he buried his face on my neck. “I’ve been trying to ca
Say That You Love Me Chapter 37: Aagawin
I saw my whole world fall apart right before my eyes when he uttered those words. How… how is that possible?“What are you saying? T-That can’t be… my father would’ve killed you–!”“He almost did. Remember?” he asked with a ghost of a smile, cutting me off and making me remember that he was right.Galit na galit sa kanya si Daddy noon, and I could vividly remember the night when he was almost killed by my Dad. Hindi ko magawang maintindihan noon ang aking ama, pero ngayong narinig ko ang mga salitang ‘yon mula kay Chester, parang naninikip ang dibdib ko.“Are you sure you want to talk about it already? Paris you seem unwell. I–!”“No,” I said. “Keep talking. But please… nagmamakaawa ako sa’yo. Do not lie this time.”My words were straight and blank. But his eyes tell me that to him, they were like bullets fired into his chest for a reason that I could not name.But after a few blinks, nawala iyon at matamis siyang ngumiti sa akin. “I promise.”Chester and I have been great the next fe
Say That You Love Me Chapter 36: Affait
I couldn’t recall how much I cried for a few days because of that. Hindi ko alam kung anong nangyayari, or what triggered them back, but the memories kept flowing like a river that could not be stopped. And along that, I could feel surges of emotion that I could not name. Halo-halo ang nararamdaman ko, and I don’t know if I could even contain all of them. I don’t even know how many days it has been. I was only brought meals inside my room and was taken care of. Minsan binibisita ako nina Daddy at Tita Faureen sa kwarto, but I don’t have the energy to talk to them. When I look at my father, all I can do is cry. Kaya nang lumabas ako sa kwarto, they were all surprised.“Paris? How are you feeling? I should’ve just brought you some food for–!” Napatigil si Tita Faureen sa pagsalubong sa akin nang mapansin niya kung ano ang nakakuha ng atensyon ko pagbaba ko ng hagdan. My lips parted at the sight of tons of flowers in the living room. Some are withered, and some are being saved by Tita
