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Chapter 12: Wholeheartedly
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Say That You Love Me Chapter 13: Claire
When a little ray of sunshine hit my face, I couldn’t help but groan a little as my brows furrowed as well. Gusto ko pa sanang matulog dahil sa pinaghalong puyat, pagod, at sakit ng katawan, but the light and heat from the sun slightly annoyed me.I opened my eyes to peek at the blinds, but there were all closed properly. May isa nga lang na hindi sumagad sa dulo. Hmm, maybe I’ll just go tuck into Chester or whatever. His body is huge enough to cover the sunlight. I’m damn sure of it.“Ches…” I tried to open my eyes again to look at him pero napakunot ang noo ko nang makitang wala na siya roon.Huh? Nasaan siya?Parang biglang nawala ang antok ko nang tuluyang maiproseso na wala nga talaga siya sa tabi ko. I used to read this in different novels, and I think it’s reasonable to feel a bit empty after waking up without him beside you after sharing a memorable night. And no matter how much I try to deny it, I know I’m about close to feel that way.I know I’m about to feel so worthless un
Huling Na-update : 2022-08-30Say That You Love Me Chapter 14: I'm Married To Her Now
I breathed heavily and disregarded the disappointment when he took his phone and walked away to answer the call. Sa halip na sundan siya, I feel like I’m really not in the mood to do so. He’s allowed to have his secrets, right? That's his right.I sighed and simply took the wine bottle. This has been my way to cope. Every time I don’t have my answers with a clear and straight mind, maybe I could solve it with drunk thoughts? Well, it doesn’t really work every time. Sometimes, I just… pass out.A few minutes passed before I felt someone remove the bottle from my hand and held my head para idantay iyon sa kanyang dibdib. Damn, why am I wasted already?“You’ve drank so much. Continue this, and you’ll be the death of me,” he said. I just giggled when I realized that we have the same thoughts. Pakiramdam ko rin kasi, siya ang magiging dahilan ng maaga kong pagkamatay.“You’re frustrating me too, so don’t get me started,” I whispered, which I know made him frown. “I frustrate you? How so?”
Huling Na-update : 2022-09-03Say That You Love Me Chapter 15: Confession
“The sea looks absolutely stunning. Let's swim?” she suddenly said habang nasa may patio kami.My brows furrowed. “I thought your head hurts so badly that you just want to explode?”She continued sipping on her juice. “Hangovers can wait, the sea can't!” she said back na mas nagpakunot ng noo ko. “That doesn’t make any sense,” I whispered. It really doesn’t. Hindi naman mawawala ang dagat na iyan diyan. I’m more worried about her than any sea in the world. If she wants, we can stay here hanggang magsawa siya sa paglalangoy sa dagat. But for now, just please rest, Paris!“Neither do I.” What?My jaw dropped when she immediately stood up and removed the wayfarers I lent her. Kasunod noon ay ang akma niyang pagtatanggal sa suot na oversized white shirt in front of people! Oh goodness.“Paris!” I immediately stood up and pulled the hem of her shirt bago pa ako tuluyang atakihin sa puso. I saw how her eyes widened when I did that. Nang subukan niya pang hilahin ulit paitaas, I lost all c
Huling Na-update : 2022-09-05Say That You Love Me Chapter 16: On the Rebound
Like the other glimpse I had, that one isn’t very clear. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero ngayon lang naman ako nagkaroon ng ganitong flashbacks. I was thinking of consulting someone, or something like that, but I don’t think my emotions would handle it very well. Isa pa, Dad would surely know about it not long after.I’m not really that curious. Like I always say, I think I wouldn’t be able to handle the trauma if I had remembered anything painful. Pero sa totoo lang, I couldn’t help but wonder if… I had a boyfriend at that time. Do I love him very much?If so, where is he now? Hmm, siguro ay ipinalayo na rin sa akin ng Daddy. Like what he did to Reese. Isa pa, if I was a minor back then, then I don’t think that counts“So, how long are you planning to stay here?” Muli akong napabalik sa katinuan nang marinig ang tanong ni Felix matapos naming kumain ng dinner at magkayayaan ang dalawa na mag-inuman. “I hope you’re still in touch with our… Dad?”“Of course we are. Hindi ko naman itatak
Huling Na-update : 2022-09-13Say That You Love Me Chapter 17: Secrets and Lies
I can feel my heart pounding so wildly that it’s making my chest ache. Pakiramdam ko, kayang kaya ko silang sugurin at komprontahin, sampalin pareho at hindi magpatawad. What on earth are they doing there? Reconciling the past relationship they had?Why on earth would he cheat ngayon pang sinabi ko na sa kanyang gusto ko siya?! Is he fucking kidding me?And Claire… rebound my ass!“Paris? You’re still awake?” Napatigil ako sa paglalakad nang bumukas ang front door dahil sa pagpasok ni Chester. His eyes widen, and his lips parted. Gaya ko, natigil din siya sa paglalakad at napatitig kung totoo ba ang nakikita niya.He’s surprised, huh? Well, guess what? I am too! “Hindi rin nga ako makapaniwalang gising ka pa, eh,” I said. I looked behind him, and was about to walk towards him para mas masilip nang mabuti si Claire, but the brute shut the door!“W-Where are you going?” aligagang aniya,I raised my brows at him. “What about you? Saan ka galing?”I saw the way he gulped and even glanced
Huling Na-update : 2022-09-20Say That You Love Me Chapter 18: Felicia Rivera
Claire and Felix left the next day. Although Claire and I didn't talk about it well, the smile we exchanged was enough for now. Maybe when we have our privacy, we can discuss this thoroughly. Sa palagay ko, saka ko na siya kakausapin kapag mapapatunayan ko nang… hindi naman naging rebound si Chester para sa akin.It just… stresses me out, although it should've been at the very least of my problems. Wala akong panahon na problemahin iyon.I realized Chester was right. It'll be beneficial for what's happening between us to just stay with each other for a while and settle this out. Pero alam kong hindi naman pwedeng ganoon na lang iyon. “Yes, Honey, tell him that we'll be home by today, and I can attend the board meeting tomorrow. Leave all the paperwork on my desk. All right, thank you.”I pouted a bit when I heard her name. Bakit ba naman kasi ganoon ang pangalan ng sekretarya niya? Honeyclaire… well, it’s actually cute, but I don’t really appreciate it that way. Hindi ko tuloy alam.
Huling Na-update : 2022-09-26Say That You Love Me Chapter 19: Mysteries of the Past
“There you are! I've been looking for you everywhere!” I nearly jumped in surprise when I heard Chester’s voice come out of nowhere. Kasabay noon, I think Tito Christopher saw what I was looking at. He pulled the documents out of my sight as… Chester pulled me to look at him.“Chester! How's the meeting going?” Tito Chris asked kaya napunta sa kanya ang atensyon ni Chester. I gulped and tried to look at the table again, but it's not there anymore! Hindi ako sigurado pero pakiramdam ko, it was inside the folder underneath his hand! “Not yet. I've explained enough, though. And the board is now waiting for you,” Chester said before he looked at me. “What are you doing here?” tanong niya sa akin.“I… uh…” I looked at Tito Chris once again, trying to remember why I was here. But all that keeps playing in my mind is the fact that… I just saw a document about my mother! Inside his office! Hindi ko alam kung bakit. I don't even care why. All I want to know is if he knows her personally. May
Huling Na-update : 2022-10-02Say That You Love Me Chapter 20: Lost
I trust him. Yes, I really do. More than anyone. Fuck, I even trust him more than I ever did trust my father, and I hope that he’ll never ruin it. I mean, he’s Chester. He’ll never do such things.Pero kahit ganoon, hindi ibig sabihin ay hindi na ako nagdududa kay Sir Christopher. Why does he have that information? At bakit ganoon kalalim na walang nagsasalita tungkol doon? What happened that my father never wanted anyone to talk about it? Pakiramdam ko, there was more to what I think I know. There are things deeper than this. And not knowing the truth prevents me from sleeping every night for the past week.It’s not that I don’t trust Chester, it’s just that… I can’t wait anymore.And there’s only one person that comes to my mind who can answer everything. But to my surprise, I… I cannot fucking find her anywhere.“Nanang?” I asked as I continued ringing the doorbell, but there was no fucking response. No one was answering the door, and the vehicles weren’t there. Gustohin ko mang is
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Say That You Love Me Chapter 33: Safe with A Stranger
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