Although Sane liked being a leader from time to time, and to feel responsible with things, there were times when Sane would want to be just an ordinary student who had no leadership responsibility in the university. Since he was young, he would often be nominated as the classroom’s president or as the representative of the batch. That was undoubtedly the reason why people would often refer to him as one of the most responsible persons that they knew in life, even when he would think at times that he was the other wise.
That was one of those moments when Sane was feeling the exact same. He was even just trying to hide the frustration that he was feeling slightly on his chest. He wasn’t complaining that he was needed as he knew his responsibility as the student council president, but even so, he still wanted to explore the different booths together with Seleen and Haniel.
His mother used to tell him that he had a way around people, and he was naturally an empathetic person. That was the reason why it was easy for him to get along with everyone, even when people literally had different personalities, and were taking different paths in life. He also remembered that she told him that his personality was in the middleline. That made him confused at first because he was still very young when he was told all of that.But now that years had passed and he was already older, everything that his mother said seemed to allow him to realize that maybe it was really the truth. Now, he was finally able to experience the circumstance where he was left to think about him as a whole because he had all the time to think about other people, but not so much about himself.He came to a realization that maybe, his per
It wasn’t like it was Sane’s first time to face that huge number of people as during his campaign period, they needed to talk in front of the whole school to convince people why they should vote for them with their different platforms. He wasn’t a stranger when it came to that. However, the nervousness that he was feeling in his chest was different from the nervousness that he felt back then. It might be because he came in front of the audience utterly prepared, compared to his current situation.Not to mention that he was also standing beside different popular and handsome guys who made him feel like he didn’t belong there. He couldn’t listen properly to what the host was saying as the hard beating of his chest was already ringing in his ears. He kept looking at his well-polished shoes that someone just allowed him to borrow. He couldn’t stare
He was too preoccupied for him to realize that someone just bid 450 for him, and that person also happened to be his highest bidder. He only realized that that was the case when the bidding was already concluded, and he was already walking his way back to change to his regular clothes.Sofia and the rest of his companions couldn’t contain their happiness as they approached him, the girl immediately hugged him in excitement. “My goodness, you did so well, Pres! I told you everything would turn out fine!” she exclaimed, shaking him although she was way smaller than he was.Sane, even when he was still preoccupied with the thought of Seleen who he could no longer see anywhere, couldn’t help but smile before shaking his head. “To tell you honestly, I wasn’t expecting it at all. Thank you for the
Even when he wanted the third day of the foundation week to be a little peaceful for him, it wasn’t what happened, but he had no choice but to just go on with it as he didn’t have the heart to even complain about things. Why would he do so? People just wanted to enjoy the foundation week by spending a few minutes with him. He couldn’t just say no to that.Sane woke up that morning, and saw that it was already six in the morning which meant that he was already late. The moment he opened his eyes, he was startled to see that he wasn’t in his room, but the memories of what happened the night prior allowed him to calm down immediately. He found himself lying down on the comforter still, but his head was already resting on a pillow, and there was already a blanket covering his body.He allowed himself to proc
Sane went home that night with his clouds still a little wet because of the rain. It was already two in the midnight when the rain finally settled. He still wanted them to try searching for Saturn, especially when the sky was finally clear from the thick clouds, but it was already way too late. He only had a few more hours to sleep in the first place, although he knew that he didn't have to go to the university as early as before as there weren’t any new activities for the day. Even when that was the case, he still didn’t want to go there super late as he was the student council president, and it would be bad of an example if he'd arrive there late. He needed to bid Seleen farewell because it was needed, but he chose to leave the telescope there under the care of the girl as he planned to go back so that they could try again. Hopefully, the heavens would be on their side at that time becaus
The stress that was showing in Haniel’s countenance was evident when he saw her that day. It was already the last day of the foundation week, and he knew that it wasn’t because they needed to do a lot of things, but because of the news that The Dotish would finally be there to perform. He wasn;t sure whether they’d arrive there earlier because maybe, they wanted to hangout, and explore the different booths that they prepared, but even when that wouldn’t be the case, Sane was still happy that they’d be there, especially when he was aware how busy they had been since they signed the contract. They had also announced that the performance of The Dotish was already confirmed to happen, making people immediately ecstatic after the news was announced all over the campus. It wasn’t long since they left, but they were already getting even more popular. It was no doubt that almost everyone in Penny L
Sane didn’t really think much about Jules, especially when he had already thought that he’d never see the guy ever again. He thought he’d never be back again as he already had a new and apparently better life there so what was the point of thinking about someone who abandoned him? Who abandoned the girl who he promised to love for eternity? The moment he dropped them like a hot potato, as if they didn’t share years together.He couldn’t imagine how hard it could’ve been for Haniel who took years for her to heal from the heartbreak and trauma that he caused, and now that she was finally ready to try again, he went back. And he just didn’t go back alone, he was with the guy that Haniel wanted to give a chance to. He wondered what the girl could’ve been thi
There were a lot of things that were going on inside Sane’s mind as he ran after Seleen. He couldn’t see her even when it wasn’t long until he followed her a while ago. Maybe she was a fast runner, he wasn’t sure. As he ran, he could feel the worry on his chest growing bigger and bigger the more minutes passed, and he still hadn’t seen her. The guilt that he felt on his chest was telling him to leave Seleen alone because he’d only cause trouble for her, trouble that she didn’t deserve, but his worry towards the girl was greater than the guilt that he was feeling. He was afraid that something bad would happen to her especially when she was prone to anxiety and panic attacks. Even before, he had already witnessed her in a state of a panic attack, and it was something that he never wanted her to experience again. Even the janitors who had been looking out for the girl's well being told him not
All of her life, Seleen believed that she was a mistake. Truth to be told, maybe it was really a mistake that she was even born in the world. Afterall, she was a product of an affair that shouldn’t have happened.She believed that idea as she grew up. That was why never did she ever thought of complaining about his stepfather’s behavior towards her. She thought that she deserved it, that she deserved to be hated because her existence was a mistake, and even when it had already affected her physically and mentally, she never opened her mouth to complain about it, to protect herself. The only reason why she didn’t give up even with her tragic childhood was because of her mother and sister who were so good to her that she even thought that they were angels themselves.As Seleen grew up, she didn’t have lots
Losing Seleen was almost as painful as losing Ride, maybe because it happened almost at the same time, the girl didn’t even allow him to breathe before she left without saying anything. That day when Sane went back to the rooftop, and saw that she had already left with no trace that she ever lived there, he felt as if he had grown insane. For a moment, he thought that she was just a figment of his own imagination. He thought that he had already grown insane, and for the past months, he had only imagined the girl, that she was just in his imagination all this time. But of course, that couldn’t be possible because he still had the photo that they took in the photo booth back then, and his friends, Haniel and Illiana, knew about the girl as well. He wasn’t insane. He gathered a deep breath.
What Sane really wanted at that time was to see his brother alive. He’d even kill to see him alive even for just ten seconds. He was willing to do anything just for him to be able to say his goodbye or to go to the past and watch his younger brother’s innocent face a little bit more. He wanted to stay by Seleen’s side, and cry on her shoulders, tell her everything that he felt, everything that was going on inside his mind. He wanted to tell her every regret that he felt, every wish, every hope that he had at that very moment. He regretted that he hadn’t spent more time with him, that he hadn’t asked him enough about the things that were troubling him, that he even felt ashamed to ask his brother every single thing that he should’ve asked him before. He couldn’t help but think whether doing all those things that he wasn’t ab
When Sane’s father was sent to jail, and he saw with his two eyes how the police aimed the guns that they were holding at his head, he thought that that was already the most painful thing that he would experience in his life. When he saw his brother and mother nearly on their deathbeds, sick and had nothing to eat as they were shivering under the cold of that winter night, he thought that that was already the most painful thing that he would ever feel. When he saw Seleen crying, and hearing her pondering over death from time to time, he thought that he would never experience something more painful that what he had experienced at that time. But he was wrong. And the universe had a very bad way to slap him across his face how wrong he was. His mind, the moment he w
Dreams about death were really unsettling, especially when it was the death of a loved one. Who would want to see someone dying in the first place? Even in dreams, it could still make people feel unsettled. Sane could no longer remember where he had heard that when people dreamt about other people dying, it didn’t literally symbolize actual death all of the time. Sometimes it meant other things such as the desire to close a chapter in life or problems that a person had about herself. There were literally a lot of interpretations that could be used to make sense of those dreams, and some would even argue that dreams didn’t really need to be interpreted because they didn’t mean anything. Even when that was the case, Sane couldn’t understand why what Seleen said made him feel utterly uncomfortable. It was like the idea of someone dying was creeping against his skin, making his hair stand. He d
Seleen had a blank expression on her face after she heard those people talking about that thing that Sane had been meaning to talk about, making the guy feel various emotions on his chest as he stared at her countenance. What a play of events the situation was because he was still planning for the perfect time to tell her as he didn’t want to ruin the night for her. Not when she was so happy about the concert of a band she didn’t even know about. He didn’t have the courage to tell her in that circumstance because he didn’t want to be the one who would erase the happiness in her face. But it looked like destiny was really doing things for the girl to know, for her happiness to be replaced with sadness just like that. It didn’t even wait for the day to end. It didn’t even let her happiness settle. Sane couldn’t help but curse fate, but he knew, deep inside him, that most often than not, thing
Sane knew that Seleen probably had no idea about what he just knew about her father coming back, and the more minutes passed together with the girl, the more he felt guilty because he felt like he was hiding something from her, although he was just finding the right time to tell her. He promised to himself that he would never keep something from her, unless it was very necessary. However, he knew that it still wasn’t the right time, the right circumstance to tell her, especially when she was very excited about the concert tickets that Illiana had just given them. It was even worse for him to spoil the happiness and excitement that she was feeling after he remembered that one of her bucket lists involved her singing her heart out in a concert, and that's finally happening. He didn’t have the heart to tell her now for it would certainly ruin her mood. So with the best of his abilities, he con
Sane wasn’t really fond of reading the news as he barely had enough time with his duties in life, especially now that his attention was already taken by the utterly alluring girl, Seleen Y. De Castro, and he wasn’t even complaining! In fact, he even liked it. He liked giving her attention, and he also liked being given attention by her. How great it was to be loved by her, to receive all of her little kisses now and there, to see her life, to feel her against his skin, everything about her was addicting for Sane. It seemed like the way he thought relationships had changed. Before, he thought that he’d never want to engage in a serious relationship unless he was already financially stable in life or when he had already done his responsibilities to his family. But when Seleen came into his life, everything changed. When he was given the chance to finally prove himself worthy of Seleen’s love,
Never did Sane think that a kiss would allow him to feel different kinds of emotions all at once. And it wasn’t even the kiss that he’d see in movies. It was just a peck on the lips that lasted less than a second, but he didn’t know why the single act, that simple peck on the lips was already enough for his week, his whole month, even his whole year to be complete. He could feel the hard thudding of his heart against his ribcage. Lub dub. Lub dub. He was just staring at her face that had now a bright shade of pink that could be seen even when the lighting wasn’t that great. And even when she was ashamed because of what she did, she still looked beautiful in the eyes of Sane. She was even more beautiful under the rain. It took Sane two min