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Chapter Thirty-Nine
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2024-10-29 19:42:56There were a lot of things that were going on inside Sane’s mind as he ran after Seleen. He couldn’t see her even when it wasn’t long until he followed her a while ago. Maybe she was a fast runner, he wasn’t sure. As he ran, he could feel the worry on his chest growing bigger and bigger the more minutes passed, and he still hadn’t seen her. The guilt that he felt on his chest was telling him to leave Seleen alone because he’d only cause trouble for her, trouble that she didn’t deserve, but his worry towards the girl was greater than the guilt that he was feeling. He was afraid that something bad would happen to her especially when she was prone to anxiety and panic attacks.
Even before, he had already witnessed her in a state of a panic attack, and it was something that he never wanted her to experience again. Even the janitors who had been looking out for the girl's well being told him not
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