Chapter 25: Hang on.

Chapter 25: Hang on.

[Rage]

I find Lexia is having trouble with her studying or just in the class of Mr. No but in the other subject she is good. So, I decided to make a tutorial session with just the two of us. I don’t think she's going to allow me to do that yet, probably not. That is why I ask her to come to the rooftop to start our tutoring session whether she likes it or not. I thought at first she’s not going to come to the rooftop of our university building but she did. I’m happy that she came, it means she wants to be with me. Kidding aside, I really wanted to help her. This is not my first time in college nakailang ulit na ata ako. But I always end up stopping from studying kasi nga hindi kaya ng showbiz career ko. Baka nga this year hindi ko matapos itong school year na ‘to.

Lexia didn’t know that I am actually an actor and showbiz personality. I am okay with that because with her I feel like a normal person. The acquaintance party is coming up and I still don’t have a date. Or should I choose Lexia to be my date? Was she going to accept me?

We had fun in our first tutoring session, yeah! That’s what I thought but suddenly she became cold again.

"Puro ka reklamo ei no." Inirapan ko naman siya. 

"Puro ka reklamo ei no." Did she just mock me? Nang iinis ba siya.I know that I still have accent everytime I speak Tagalog nadadala pa rin ang accent ko sa pag e-english. Until she ran away from me and it looked like she wanted to play. She stuck out her tongue while running away. It looks like she wanted me to chase her. 

I did chase her. Kahit ano pang gusto niyang laro okay lang sa akin.

 "Huli ka." I said when I was about to surprise her in her back and hugged her. When she turned on me her expression changed.

"Nung nakaraan lang hindi tayo ganito a." She said, because of that I have to free her from my hug. I feel embarrassed a bit since we started as tom and jerry look like.

I don’t know what to say at all or what I should reply. 

"Ahm... "  That’s the only word that came out to me while scratching on my nape after what she said. 

We both become silent after. 

Until!

"Bababa na ako." Yan ang nasabi niya after naming tumahimik dalawa. Kinuha niya lang ang mga gamit niya at agad nang umalis.

I have no choice too but to leave na rin. Wala na rin naman akong gagawin dito ei.

From that I texted her to become my date. I didn’t know that Kevin already asked her to be his date too. Buti na lang sa akin pa rin sumama si Lexia maybe that girl has a little crush on me? Did she?

Next day after that Me, Ash and Mace went to the shopping mall. Actually, I don’t have plans to come with them but Mace forced me.

We stopped at a store that was all about dresses and formal attire. We go there because Ash wants to buy a dress for her ‘Baby girl’ ei halata naman na sugar daddy siya. These two are just 5 years older than me. They were my childhood friends, the same as Jen. 

When Jen called us I saw Lexia with them. We looked at each other's eyes but Lexia avoided my gaze.

Another unexpected day came. When Lexia came out from the fitting room I think she was about to pay for her dress that she picked.

Lexia forgot to wear her bra again! Why the hell she took off her bra, she’s the only one who did that. Ako nga hindi talaga ako literal na naghuhubad sa fitting room, wait did she really got naked inside the fitting room? Gosh.

In other words her private chest is almost shown.

"I think Miss, you forgot to wear your bra." I whisper to her ear. I saw how embarrassed she was in front of me and to her friends.

I don’t know if I should laugh or not but I can’t help it. Besides, it makes me feel good to tease her.

Because of embarrassment at sa pangungulit ko she left. I know it’s my fault but I think it’s fine. Tsaka siya na kaya ang date ko sa event. For sure hindi na siya aangal no. And who the hell could say no to me.

After three days, it’s the day of the acquaintance party. I know that she’s already in Jen’s condo since Jen knows how to do make up and hair styling her.

Kanina pa ako naka ayos siya na lang ang hinihintay ko. I didn’t text her or something, it's just that, because of what happened in the shop.

We went to an event together, since she’s my partner we dance together. Marami pa rin kaming napag usapan minsan nga hindi ko gets bakit palagi siyang galit sa akin.

"Sino yun?" She asked after Lauren left.

"Lauren, one of my exes. Actually!"  I answered casually and acted normal. Besides pakiramdam ko nga hindi naman talaga naging kami nun. I just dated her because my Father was running for Mayor at that time and Lauren’s father is my father’s partner in the campaign.

"So are you guys close?" She asked. My eyebrows got furious. Why did she want to know that?

"Yup, but not that close like what happened. We just greet each other when we attend a certain event." I explained.

"Kala ko kasi ka-fubu mo?" she said, but when she realized what she have just said. She automatically covers her mouth with both hands, my god what the hell did she ask?

"What?" I laughed so hard, what is wrong with her?

"I am not like that, though my sex life is still active it actually beyond my limit." I added.

"So you guys, have sex already?" she literally asks that again. Why is she like that tonight? Pagkakaalam ko hindi pa naman siya lasing a.

"Only one time, dahil hindi ako umuulit Lexia." I say that for a clarification.

"Don't worry that's the last time you see that kind of encounter. Because I am showing you the best and worst side of Rage Suarez." I said smiling at her  and pinch her cheeks lightly. 

Two weeks after the acquaintance party we went back to normal. We’re still doing the tutoring session on the rooftop. It feels like this rooftop became the witness of our start.

Not until I figure out that I am actually falling for her. At first it’s hard to admit or say it.

Like I said she’s going to be the last person I want to spend who I am. 

But everything starts to unexplainable feelings I have for her. I become irritated every time I see her with Kevin. Thank God, I stopped Kevin from saying his feelings to Lexia. I don’t actually like the idea that he’s close to that guy. Though I feel bad for Kevin because I can’t stop her from liking Lexia ei ako nga ei nagkagusto bigla. Paano pa kaya siya diba?

From what I saw they are always together. I want her to be close with me too like what she has with Kevin but sadly I become busy since my movie with Jen is coming up too.

The time when my Father visited me to the university together with a brunch of media. I actually hate it, I hate the fact that he wants me to inherit his political deeds. Though all the things he did is to steal money from the citizens.

“Why the hell are you doing here?” I ask. We're in the Dean’s office. He borrowed this room for a while.

“Just visiting you son!” My acted-father-like said.

“Pinabugbog mo nga ako anak mo pa rin pala ako.” I sarcastically said. He just wants something from me and nothing else.

“Tell me.” I said.

“Tell you what?” He repeated.

“Tell me what do you want me to do?” I finally said it.

“Go to an event tonight to replace me. It’s a formal party together with the ‘associate party’ candidates. I am not in the mood to attend.”  He always likes that he really does everything to make me involved in politics which is why I am not interested at all.

“How many times do I have to tell you that I don’t like what you're doing, Dad?” I said angrily.

“Keep that attitude son, you’ll be there.” He said it then left. I can’t do anything to him because I still respect him as my father, my family.

I inhale a large amount of air and he keeps getting into my nerves.

I did what he said and went to that event. A lot of things have already happened to me, to my Dad. 

All I did there was to greet people, giving them a fake smile and nodding to their nonsense elite problems. They enjoy this kind of event while some people out there are having trouble finding what to eat in a day or just ignore their starvation and choose to sleep rather.

That freaking event ended. I went to Lexia’s house and stayed in front of their house while I’m on a car.

I just stare at Lexia’s room. I can see that she’s still not sleeping because the light inside her room is still on. I still saw her shadow in her room’s window. After a minute she turns off her room, maybe that’s the sign that she’s about to sleep.

Then I start my car to go home to my condo.

The next day I attended a meeting with Jen and my new leading lady for another movie. I saw Lexia with Kevin in a restaurant where we held our meeting mas nauna lang siguro kami sa kanila dumating. 

“So, how’s a day with Kevin?” I texted her after I saw her with him.

From afar I saw how her expression changed.

The jealous side of me strikes, I know there is nothing wrong going out with Kevin but I can’t help myself besides we’re not together yet.

Each day I keep thinking of Lexia without any reasons. Because of that my feelings for her started to have deep meaning deeply.

Until we started dating. Though I feel bad for Ali because of what happened it feels what happened to her became a bridge so Lexia and I become closer. She accepted my invitation to date her then after we became a couple in an instant. I know that our courting stage is not that long, but at least I have her now. 

I don’t know if I should feel guilty because I’m her first kiss or should I feel great. She’s still twenty and I think she still has a lot to learn. I hope she will learn a lot from me in a good way as her boyfriend. Because I don’t think I will fall in love again after we broke up if ever that happened, because I don’t want to allow that.

When we become official I try my best to give her my time even though I already confess to her what is actually my job and what type of field I’m into.

I’m glad that she is aware of that and she doesn't complain.

Not until a tragedy happened.

I’m in Baguio when I received news from Kevin that she’s in the hospital because of a car accident.

I’m still not yet finished with my scene and I still have a scene that hasn't tape yet. But I immediately hurried to leave.

“Rage saan ka pupunta?” Director Teng shouted while I’m running away from the shoot.

I Can't think straight right now. I feel like my trauma started to get back. This is my feelings after Mom's accident and it looks like it is happening again to Lexia. I don’t want anyone to leave me again like Mom does.

I try to speed fast as fast as I can. Nagmumukha na akong barumbado na nagda-drive sa kalsada but I don’t freaking care.

All I think is Lexia.

When I arrived at the hospital Kevin was there waiting in an ER.

“What happened?” I ask directly.

“Relax, they are still in the emergency room. The three of them. All we have to do is to wait.” He tries to make me calm, but I don’t think I can do that.

“Who’s driving?” I asked. Though I sense that it’s Jen I just wanted to make sure.

“Dude!” Kevin touched my shoulder.

“Who’s driving?” I yell.

“Jen, dude. It’s her car.” Kevin answered me.

I massage my head. I don’t know what Jen is up to. To drive like that. But I swear to God if something happens to Lexia I don’t know what to do with Jen.

Lexia's mom came, same as Ali's family but Jen’s family still has not arrived yet. 

They are all crying in front of us. I can’t even do anything about it. My hands are already trembling from nervousness and panicking.

I don't know what to do if something happens to her.

“Who is the Family of Ms. Santiago and Ms.Constantine.” Ali’s mother stands and Kevin is the one who stand for Jen because her family is still not here.

“The two of them are already stable. But Ms. Carmona, we have to bring her to the operating room.” That’s what the Doctor said.

“Yes, please do everything to make her stable.” I said since her Mom is still not responding.

“But we warn you to not expect anything from us. She is the one who’s really critical among the three. We want you to pray for her.” Then the Doctor left to assist the operation for Lexia.

Hang on Lexia. Hang on!