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Chapter 40.1: Alone
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2022-04-21 17:09:58[ Flashback ]
Saglit kong ipinikit ang mga mata ko. Flashes of memories from that night immediately flowed in my head. My heart was burning because of pain, disappointment, and above all... anger.
It had been a few days since what happened but it still felt like it happened just yesterday. Sobrang linaw pa rin sa isip ko kung paano sumabog ang eroplanong sinasakyan ng mga magulang ko at kung paano ‘yon bumagsak sa kung saan. Their bodies in the morgue stayed in my head.
But I didn’t cry. I knew I was supposed to cry to feel the pain more at least let go of the pain, but I couldn’t. I just felt empty and lifeless. Para akong isang manika na naka-display lang, walang buhay. I was breathing but not alive. I felt the everything, but it was also as if I felt nothing.
“Ms. Salazar, I will be asking you again. What happened that night?” tanong ng isang inspector sa akin pero nanatili akong tahimik na nakapikit sa aking upuan.
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Perfectly Fake Marriage Chapter 40.2: Time
[ Flashback continues ]I did what I wanted. Hindi ako pumunta sa funeral ng mga magulang ko. I just know that their bodies have been cremated already yesterday. Ngayon ang funeral nila pero hindi ko gustong pumunta. Not because I don’t want to mourn their death, but because I don’t want to see everyone.Katulad ng sabi ni Lolo, ayaw kong makita ang buong pamilya namin. I feel empty and miserable pero hindi ko iyon gustong ipakita sa kanila dahil ayaw makita nila ako na mahina. Because I’m not that kind of person. At ayaw kong panghinaan ng loob.I am still planning to avenge my parents or at least seek justice for their death. I know they were killed and covered it up as an accident. I refused to tel that to the authorities because I don’t trust anyone of them. I couldn’t even tell my family about it because I know how convinced they were that what happened was indeed an accident.Halos pagabi na nang dumating ako roon pero
Huling Na-update : 2022-04-22Perfectly Fake Marriage Chapter 41: Annulment
Pinalis ko ang luha ko at inayos ang sarili ko. Pagkatapos ay mga gamit ko naman ang inayos ko. Then I stand up and immediately go to the main door para umalis na dahil wala naman pala siyang balak pirmahan ang annulment papers na dala ko.There’s no reason for me to stay here. This is our house, yes. It’s safe here now, yes. Pero hindi na ako babalik pa rito kahit kailan para tumira ulit. I don’t want to be with him. And I’m still... terrified of what happened in here. So, no. I will not stay here. Sa condo ko na lang ako uuwi.“Where are you going?” I stop when I heard his voice again.Lumingon ako sa kaniya at nakitang nakaayos na siya. Mukhang papasok na sa trabaho. Night duty siya ngayon?I shake my head a little to erase the unnecessary thoughts residing in my head. Ano naman ngayon kung panggabi siya ngayon? Wala dapat akong pakialam doon. I shouldn’t get curious about his life anymore. Iyong naging buhay n
Huling Na-update : 2022-04-23Perfectly Fake Marriage Chapter 42: Choice
Umalis din naman siya agad matapos ang ilang minutong pananatili roon sa labas ng condo ko. I wasn’t sure what he meant by what he said. Gusto niya lang ako umuwi sa villa namin. He said that that house is my home... our home. And I told him that I never felt at home in that house, but I was lying. When I fell in love with him, that house instantly became home to me. I was at peace and I felt safe because I knew he’d be coming home to that house... to me. But that was before everything messed up. Someone broke into that house. It’s still my home, but I’m still scared. Kahit ang bahay ng parents ko ay hindi ako makapunta dahil sa takot na baka may nanonood ulit sa akin doon, nakabantay at kinukuhanan ako ng litrato. What I experienced and faced five months ago was alarming—traumatizing. I never felt secured and safe after such threatening events. And I’m still scared even though I already stopped investigating secretly. Because I feel like something is not yet
Huling Na-update : 2022-04-24Perfectly Fake Marriage Chapter 43: Selfish
“Dr. Ricaforte!” tawag ko sa kaniya pero hindi pa rin siya natitinag sa paghila sa akin. Nakalayo na kami sa dalawa at nakapasok na ng main building ng hospital pero hindi pa rin siya tumitigil sa paglalakad at paghila sa akin. I know that he’s mad... really mad. At hindi ko alam kung ano ang dapat kong maramdaman ngayon... dahil paniguradong ako naman ang pagbubuntungan niya ng galit niya. I’m scared and hurting at the same. I just can’t figure out what feeling is the dominating the other. Nang makarating kami sa parking lot ng hospital... sa tapat ng Sedan niya ay saka lang siya tumigil. Pero hindi niya binibitawan ang palapulsuhan ko. Binuksan niya ang sasakyan niya at pinapasok ako roon. He’s quiet. We are both quiet inside his car. Hindi ako makapagsalita dahil tinatantiya ko pa ang galit niya. Ayaw kong sumabay sa galit niya dahil baka maiyak lang ako sa harap niya. I don’t want to allow myself to be so vulnerable in front of him. Though, I fail
Huling Na-update : 2022-04-25Perfectly Fake Marriage Chapter 44: Want
I still can’t believe that Dr. Ricaforte is in love with me. It feels surreal. At kahit gumaan nang kaunti ang nararamdaman ko, hindi ko pa rin puwedeng basta na lang isantabi kung ano ang dapat kong gawin. I still need him to sign the papers. Yes, I am a bit happy that he’s in love with me. Pero dahil sa mga nagawa kong mali, hindi ko kayang tuluyang maging masaya. Hindi mababago ng pag-amin niyang ‘yon ang mga dapat kong gawin. That’s I can’t be truly happy. Because I know I don’t deserve this happiness. I don’t... deserve this love no matter how much I want it. I open the door my condo and I immediately saw Dr. Ricaforte. He was just about to ring the doorbell. Bumuntong hininga ako. “Hey...” bati niya. I don’t greet him back. It has been weeks since he confessed to me at walang mintis ang pagdalaw niya rito sa tinutuluyan ko. Almost everyday. He’s always making sure that he won’t be called for urgent emergencies every time he’d visit me.
Huling Na-update : 2022-04-26Perfectly Fake Marriage Chapter 45: Fool
He gently wipes my tears as he kisses me on my lips. “I love you, MJ,” he whispers again amidst our kisses. “I am in love with you...” ulit niya bago marahang kinagat ang pang-ibabang labi ko. I groan because I suddenly feel hot all over. Halos makalimutan ko na ang iniiyak ko kanina dahil sa mumunti at mararahan niyang halik sa labi ko. I feel safe and happy, even though I shouldn’t. Kahit ngayon lang. I want him all to myself kahit ngayon lang. Please. I urge him to remove his upper clothes and he willingly complies. Tinanggal niya ang kaniyang damit bago ako tinulak nang marahan pahiga sa aking kama. The lights are dim and they perfectly illuminate his handsome features. I caress his face as he leans closer to me again. And once again, he claims my lips like a little butterfly craving for roses’ nectar. His breathing is hot and it’s making me lose my mind. “MJ...” he calls my name like he’s worshipping me. “Zachary...” I moa
Huling Na-update : 2022-04-27Perfectly Fake Marriage Chapter 46: Price
“Are you sure you don’t want to go back to U.S. for now?” Lolo asks me in the middle of our meeting. Nasa unahan si Gil at nage-explain ng naisip niyang project para sa launch ng jewelry shop under my company. Lahat naman ay nakikinig maliban sa aking Lolo na puro tanong nang tanong sa akin tungkol sa pag-uwi ko sa States. “I still have things to do here, Lolo. Isa pa, nandoon naman si Hanz and he was already doing a great job kahit wala pa ako roon. I just helped him a little...” “If I must remind you, mija. Your help wasn’t just a little. The projects you came up with during your stay there were absolute perfection. I am thinking of giving you one of my company’s major branches and see if you can double and triple its profit...” I roll my eyes at him before I speak up. “Stop making me go back there, Lolo. You’re only going to use me anyway, might as well just stay here and continue to manage my own company...” sambit ko. Tumikhim si Lolo at
Huling Na-update : 2022-04-28Perfectly Fake Marriage Chapter 47: Sick
“Hey, baby. Look at me...” Zachary pulls me back, making me face him.His eyes widen when he sees me crying. I quickly wipe my tears away but he takes my hand and wipe my tears himself.I am so scared and terrified. Hindi ko alam... kung ano ang dapat kong gawin. Akala ko tapos na. I already stopped investigating. Umalis ako at bumalik lang para papirmahin si Zachary sa annulment papers.Hindi ko inaakala na hindi pa pala tapos lahat. Someone died again. My secretary... Karylle died because of me. Someone fucking died again because of me. Dahil bumalik ako rito.Patuloy sa pagbuhas ang mga luha ko. Nanginginig ako sa sobrang takot. Hindi ko na alam. But I also think that I need to leave this country again. Pero paano? I told Zachary that I am in love with him. Lalo siyang magtataka kung pipilitin ko siya ulit na pirmahan ang annulment papers after confessing that I am in love with him.“Z-Zachary...” Bumuntong hininga ako.
Huling Na-update : 2022-04-29
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Perfectly Fake Marriage Chapter 64: Watch
Pagkababa namin sa parking lot ay hila hila niya akong pinapasok sa kotse niya. “What do you mean by us, Gil?” I asked him as he put his seatbelt on. His jaw was clenched hard and he didn’t answer me so I called him again. “Gil, please. I can’t let anyone know more about this. They might kill Klaus. I don’t want people dying on me anymore.” “And I can’t have you dying on us, Jade!” he exclaimed. “We’re gonna figure this out, together.” I sighed and covered my face with my hands. I was still trembling but I was lucky enough that I wasn’t having a panic attack right now. I couldn’t have myself losing my sanity right now. I need to save Klaus. We arrived at the place. It wasn’t a restaurant, though. It was my grandfather’s private property. Agad akong lumabas ng sasakyan ni Gil pagka-park niya nito. He was behind me when I was about to call for him. “What are we doing here?” I asked him. Malalim ang kaniyang buntong hininga at mariing tumingin sa akin. “I told you, we’re going t
Perfectly Fake Marriage Chapter 63: Anonymous
I’m not sure what time Zachary left, but by the time I woke up. He was already gone. I felt him kiss the top of my head, though. And I felt him leaving the room but I was too tired and too sore to even get up or wake up. We had a rough night. We made love until we’re both exhausted.I sat down and stared at the door. After a while, I decided to get up already because I still need to work. I took a bath and did my morning routine. Then I went downstairs and ate the breakfast Zachary made for me before he left. I was smiling the whole time I was eating.Maaga akong nakarating sa office ko. I immediately started all the paper works left on my table. I also read a lot of proposals for a new project the company is planning. Not a single one fit my plans so I rejected all of it.“Jade, Lolo told me to invite your for dinner later sa bahay niya...” Gil appeared by the door of my office. Nakahilig siya roon habang nakatingin sa akin nang seryoso.“Hindi pa rin siya umuuwi ng States?” I asked
Perfectly Fake Marriage Chapter 62: Away
I cooked and prepared our dinner for tonight. Zachary messaged me that he’d be home by nine in the evening. Pagkauwi ko galing office kanina ay nagpahinga muna ako bago magluto ng hapunan. I was happy. I enjoyed cooking for us. For him. I hope he'll love the food. Iniwan ko ang nakahandang hapunan sa hapag at tinakluban iyon para hindi mapanis at masira agad. I went to my room and continued the preparation I’ve been doing since I decided to continue my investigation. But before I fully continue this, I wanted to find Klaus first. Wala pa rin akong balita galing kay Klaus and I still couldn’t find the right opportunity to ask Gil about him. I really want to find Klaus, but I don’t know where to start. I tried going back to the hotel where he was staying before but I found out that he already moved out. I don’t know where else to find him. If I ask Gil about Klaus, he might find out what we’ve been doing behind his back. Ayaw kong mag-isip ng kung ano ano, pero hindi ko mapigilan ang
Perfectly Fake Marriage Chapter 61: Years
“You can’t hear me?” Zachary said something again but I couldn’t understand it. Hindi ko iyon marinig. His lips were moving and I knew that he was speaking. Pero hindi ko iyon marinig. My ears are acting up again. It has been a while since something like this happened. I thought I would be okay but I was wrong. I forgot that I wasn’t fully healed yet. And now, it’s starting again. “What are you saying?” I asked despite not being able to hear what I said. “I’m sorry, my ears. I can’t hear...” I could feel my lips trembling. Hindi ko alam ang gagawin. I didn’t bring my hearing aids. Zachary came to me. Lumuhod siya sa harap ko. His eyes were worried and bloodshot. He looked like he’s pitying me. I suddenly felt awful. “I’ll rest now. I wanna be alone while I rest. You can sleep in the guestroom,” I told him. “MJ...” I read the movement of his lips. He was close to me which was why I was able to understand what he said. “I can’t leave you alone. Why are you asking me to leave you?
Perfectly Fake Marriage Chapter 60: Lost
[ Zachary’s Point of View; A Flashback ] I was there when my sister died. I failed to notice her struggle and pain because I was too busy studying so I could gain our father’s approval. My little sister, Zoe, was my comfort. The very reason why I wanted to become a doctor. I wanted to cure her illness. But before I could even do that, she died. And it was because of my own negligence. “I’ve had enough of your defiance, Zachary. For once, I need you to do as I say. Marry the woman I want for you and I will let you continue your career. Defy me, and I will do everything in my power so you can never set foot in the medical field again!” That was my father’s bargain when I first told him that I would still continue my residency and my research. I didn’t want that. All of my life, I tried everything to make him proud. Even if it’s not from the field he wanted for me. I thought that if I became the best in my field, he would finally acknowledge all
Perfectly Fake Marriage Chapter 59: Own
“We can stay here for a few minutes more if you want…” Zachary said as he held my hand with his.Pinagmamasdan niya lang ako ngayon habang nakatingin pa rin ako sa puntod ng mga magulang ako. Ngumiti ako at bumaling sa kaniya. Then I shook my head a little.“I already told them what I wanted to say. We can go now. I want to rest,” sabi ko.Tumango siya at mas hinigpitan ang hawak sa kamay ko.I feel so lucky to have him beside me. When he hugged me, I felt safe and comfortable, I never want to let go.When my parents died, I never experienced such a comforting love again. But with Zachary, I knew it was more than that. It was more than the love I felt when my family was still complete. Kahit ramdam ko ang kulang dahil sa pagkawala ng mga magulang ko, Zachary was able to easily fill its gaps with his gentleness.The day was over before we even knew it. Zachary and I rested the whole night and slept peacefully. I
Perfectly Fake Marriage Chapter 58: Protect
“Are you sure you’re okay now? We can visit them tomorrow instead,” Zachary said as he helped me get inside our car, his voice like a fire that calms my soul in the midst of a cold winter. It was enough to soothe my heart. More than enough. “I’m okay. Let’s just go.” I smiled to assure him that I’m really fine. Habang walang tigil ang pag-iyak at paghikbi ko kanina sa office ng Daddy ko, Zachary was just there embracing me. He was like a soft pair of large wings that protects me from pain. And I realized that I became more and more dependent of him. I really have no idea if it’s a good thing or bad one. For once, I wanted time to stop. I wanted to stay in that moment. To keep him close to me. Before closing the door on my side, Zachary leaned down to touch my cheek, caressing them. He was looking at me with so much affection in his eyes I couldn’t help but want to drown in them. Pinagmasdan niya lang ako at hinayaan ko siya. I held his gaze as
Perfectly Fake Marriage Chapter 57: Allowed
We arrived at the airport. Kinuha ni Zachary ang mga gamit namin bago kami lumabas. There was an SUV waiting for us outside and we immediately hopped in.Tahimik kaming dalawa sa byahe. It was probably because of what we discussed back in the plane. We talked about my parents and his family. I told him that there was something I still wasn’t telling him. He respects everything. Ang galit ko sa kaniyang ama. Ang gulo sa isip ko tungkol sa mga hindi ko sinasabi sa kaniya. He respects my pace. He respects me.I don’t really know if I should allow myself to be this dependent on him. He’s not asking anything in return. It was so natural to him. Ang pakisamahan ako. Ang intindihin ako. Our differences were mode defined this time. I felt like I’m taking him for granted. No… I really am taking him for granted.Simula pa noon lagi niya na akong iniintindi. He was so good at putting up with me and my shortcomings. I was so high-maintenance I
Perfectly Fake Marriage Chapter 56: Reason
We were both panting after doing a lot of make love rounds. My body was already exhausted even before we stopped but I just couldn’t get enough of him. I was lying on top of him, still panting. I also could feel his heavy breathing. Nakayakap siya sa akin habang marahang nilalaro ang dulo ng buhok ko. “Thank you…” he whispered. “For coming back to me.” I looked at him and kissed him again on his lips. I licked his lips and urged him to open up for my tongue. I kissed every corner of his mouth and he did the same. “We should shower and eat breakfast.” I chuckled after our kissing. Tumango siya at bumangon sa pagkakahiga, dala dala ako. Then he lifted me up and carried me all the way to my bathroom. Pagkatapos naming maligo ay dumiretso na kami sa baba para magluto at kumain ng breakfast. Zachary was busy cooking some fried rice with spam and egg. Nagluto rin siya na hiwalay naman ang spam at egg sa fried rice. After cooking, he placed t
