Chapter 42: Choice

Umalis din naman siya agad matapos ang ilang minutong pananatili roon sa labas ng condo ko. I wasn’t sure what he meant by what he said. Gusto niya lang ako umuwi sa villa namin. He said that that house is my home... our home.

And I told him that I never felt at home in that house, but I was lying. When I fell in love with him, that house instantly became home to me. I was at peace and I felt safe because I knew he’d be coming home to that house... to me. But that was before everything messed up.

Someone broke into that house. It’s still my home, but I’m still scared. Kahit ang bahay ng parents ko ay hindi ako makapunta dahil sa takot na baka may nanonood ulit sa akin doon, nakabantay at kinukuhanan ako ng litrato.

What I experienced and faced five months ago was alarming—traumatizing. I never felt secured and safe after such threatening events. And I’m still scared even though I already stopped investigating secretly. Because I feel like something is not yet