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Chapter 44: Want
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2022-04-26 22:50:14I still can’t believe that Dr. Ricaforte is in love with me. It feels surreal. At kahit gumaan nang kaunti ang nararamdaman ko, hindi ko pa rin puwedeng basta na lang isantabi kung ano ang dapat kong gawin.
I still need him to sign the papers. Yes, I am a bit happy that he’s in love with me. Pero dahil sa mga nagawa kong mali, hindi ko kayang tuluyang maging masaya. Hindi mababago ng pag-amin niyang ‘yon ang mga dapat kong gawin.
That’s I can’t be truly happy. Because I know I don’t deserve this happiness. I don’t... deserve this love no matter how much I want it.
I open the door my condo and I immediately saw Dr. Ricaforte. He was just about to ring the doorbell. Bumuntong hininga ako.
“Hey...” bati niya. I don’t greet him back.
It has been weeks since he confessed to me at walang mintis ang pagdalaw niya rito sa tinutuluyan ko. Almost everyday. He’s always making sure that he won’t be called for urgent emergencies every time he’d visit me.
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Perfectly Fake Marriage Chapter 45: Fool
He gently wipes my tears as he kisses me on my lips. “I love you, MJ,” he whispers again amidst our kisses. “I am in love with you...” ulit niya bago marahang kinagat ang pang-ibabang labi ko. I groan because I suddenly feel hot all over. Halos makalimutan ko na ang iniiyak ko kanina dahil sa mumunti at mararahan niyang halik sa labi ko. I feel safe and happy, even though I shouldn’t. Kahit ngayon lang. I want him all to myself kahit ngayon lang. Please. I urge him to remove his upper clothes and he willingly complies. Tinanggal niya ang kaniyang damit bago ako tinulak nang marahan pahiga sa aking kama. The lights are dim and they perfectly illuminate his handsome features. I caress his face as he leans closer to me again. And once again, he claims my lips like a little butterfly craving for roses’ nectar. His breathing is hot and it’s making me lose my mind. “MJ...” he calls my name like he’s worshipping me. “Zachary...” I moa
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“Are you sure you don’t want to go back to U.S. for now?” Lolo asks me in the middle of our meeting. Nasa unahan si Gil at nage-explain ng naisip niyang project para sa launch ng jewelry shop under my company. Lahat naman ay nakikinig maliban sa aking Lolo na puro tanong nang tanong sa akin tungkol sa pag-uwi ko sa States. “I still have things to do here, Lolo. Isa pa, nandoon naman si Hanz and he was already doing a great job kahit wala pa ako roon. I just helped him a little...” “If I must remind you, mija. Your help wasn’t just a little. The projects you came up with during your stay there were absolute perfection. I am thinking of giving you one of my company’s major branches and see if you can double and triple its profit...” I roll my eyes at him before I speak up. “Stop making me go back there, Lolo. You’re only going to use me anyway, might as well just stay here and continue to manage my own company...” sambit ko. Tumikhim si Lolo at
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“Hey, baby. Look at me...” Zachary pulls me back, making me face him.His eyes widen when he sees me crying. I quickly wipe my tears away but he takes my hand and wipe my tears himself.I am so scared and terrified. Hindi ko alam... kung ano ang dapat kong gawin. Akala ko tapos na. I already stopped investigating. Umalis ako at bumalik lang para papirmahin si Zachary sa annulment papers.Hindi ko inaakala na hindi pa pala tapos lahat. Someone died again. My secretary... Karylle died because of me. Someone fucking died again because of me. Dahil bumalik ako rito.Patuloy sa pagbuhas ang mga luha ko. Nanginginig ako sa sobrang takot. Hindi ko na alam. But I also think that I need to leave this country again. Pero paano? I told Zachary that I am in love with him. Lalo siyang magtataka kung pipilitin ko siya ulit na pirmahan ang annulment papers after confessing that I am in love with him.“Z-Zachary...” Bumuntong hininga ako.
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Mabilis akong umalis ng FUMC. Tumigil lang ako nang mapansin na nasa tapat ako ng gate ng villa namin ni Zachary at halos padilim na. I wasn’t even sure where I was driving to a while ago. At dito pa talaga... I am completely aware of how tight the security is within the premises now. The guards know my car’s model and plate number, so they didn’t bother checking. At may sensor na rin sa kalsada papasok ng premises. The sensor would know if someone suspicious enters the range and it would trigger the alarm. Bumuntong hininga ako. Nanatili ako sa loob ng kotse ko habang sinusubukang tawagan si Klaus sa dati niyang number. He immediately answered the call. “Klaus...” I call him. “Jade...” tugon niya pabalik. My lips form a thin line. “Can we meet?” I hear him sigh. “Look, Jade...” Muli siyang bumuntong hininga bago muling nagsalita. “I just informed you of what happened. I get that she’s close to you, but I suggest for you not to take pa
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“No,” mabilis kong sagot. “Hindi ako sasama sa ‘yo,” dagdag ko. Nanatili ang mga mata niyang nakatitig sa akin. Malamig pero malumanay. He seems really tired. But his eyes remain beautiful. I couldn’t help but be mesmerized by them. Umiling ako at iniiwas ang aking tingin dahil hindi ko gusto ang nararamdaman. I kept hurting him and lying to him. Ayaw kong… umulit na naman na pagbigyan ang nararamdaman ko dahil ilang beses na iyong nangyari at hindi ko na alam kung makakaya ko pa siyang pakawalan kung muli akong magpapaubaya at susuko sa kaniya. I told him how I despise him for being his father’s son. Things should stay just as they should. Like us in this situation. Filled with indifference and anger. At least for me. Kahit kasinungalingan lang naman.
Huling Na-update : 2022-09-05Perfectly Fake Marriage Chapter 50.1: Date
[ Flashback ] I still can't believe he suddenly agreed to marrying me! That Dr. Ricaforte! Ayaw ayaw pa siya noong una for some reason tapos biglang sasabihin niya sa akin na payag na siya? I was actually close to backing out from my proposal until he barged in my office and said, "Fine, I'll marry you." I never thought it would be this easy. Because he really seemed the type to marry for love, as cliche as it would seem. At mukha ring may gusto siyang iba... kaya naman bakit... bigla niyang naisipang pumayag sa proposal ko? "But we have to get to know each other first before we proceed to marry each other..." he said. Bumuntong hininga at binalingan siya mula sa pagkain ko. "Roon din naman ang punta natin bakit hindi na lang natin idiretso na sa kasal, Dr. Ricaforte? Mukhang iyon din naman ang gusto ng parents mo..." pag-angal ko. He looked at me with a stern look on his face. Na para bang gusto niya akong pangaralan pero bago pa siya makasagot ay inunahan ko na siya. "Fine
Huling Na-update : 2022-09-12Perfectly Fake Marriage Chapter 50.2: Lied
[ Flashback continues ] He was stunned for a moment. His lips were pursed and couldn't even utter a single word. I, however, remained looking at him... waiting for his answer. I assumed before that maybe he was really in love with someone. That's why he was so hesitant to agree to my proposal. I don’t know but I suddenly had the urge to ask him if there's really someone that he’s in love with. Kahit pansin kong, oo, tinanong ko pa rin. Who knows, I might stop this ridiculous idea of marrying him so he could be with the one he really— “No. I’m not.” Diretso ang pagkakasabi niya noon at hindi man lang siya nagdalawang isip kahit kitang kita ko sa mga mata niya ang gulat kanina. He’s not? Is he bluffing? “
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Why was it so easy for him to say that he’s in love with me? Bakit ang dali sa kaniya na iparamdam sa akin iyon kahit anong trato ko sa kaniya na hindi ko siya mahal? What exactly is wrong with this man? How can he be so…? I was too shocked that he’s in front of me right now that I didn’t notice his suitcase behind him. Don’t tell me… he’s planning to live here again… with me? I’m not going to allow him to. This is insane! “What’s with the suitcase behind you?” I asked anyway, kahit parang alam ko naman na ang sagot. He smiled a little before pulling his suitcase beside him. “I’m going to live here again… with you, MJ…” aniya, confirming my thoughts. Bumuntong hininga ako at napasapo ang kamay sa ulo. “How many times do I have to tell you that I’m not really in love with you? I was lying. I am mad at you, Dr. Ricaforte. I hate you…” walang emosyon kong sambit pagkatingin ko nang diretso sa mga mata niya. “Ang kulit mo!” singhal ko pa.
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Pagkababa namin sa parking lot ay hila hila niya akong pinapasok sa kotse niya. “What do you mean by us, Gil?” I asked him as he put his seatbelt on. His jaw was clenched hard and he didn’t answer me so I called him again. “Gil, please. I can’t let anyone know more about this. They might kill Klaus. I don’t want people dying on me anymore.” “And I can’t have you dying on us, Jade!” he exclaimed. “We’re gonna figure this out, together.” I sighed and covered my face with my hands. I was still trembling but I was lucky enough that I wasn’t having a panic attack right now. I couldn’t have myself losing my sanity right now. I need to save Klaus. We arrived at the place. It wasn’t a restaurant, though. It was my grandfather’s private property. Agad akong lumabas ng sasakyan ni Gil pagka-park niya nito. He was behind me when I was about to call for him. “What are we doing here?” I asked him. Malalim ang kaniyang buntong hininga at mariing tumingin sa akin. “I told you, we’re going t
Perfectly Fake Marriage Chapter 63: Anonymous
I’m not sure what time Zachary left, but by the time I woke up. He was already gone. I felt him kiss the top of my head, though. And I felt him leaving the room but I was too tired and too sore to even get up or wake up. We had a rough night. We made love until we’re both exhausted.I sat down and stared at the door. After a while, I decided to get up already because I still need to work. I took a bath and did my morning routine. Then I went downstairs and ate the breakfast Zachary made for me before he left. I was smiling the whole time I was eating.Maaga akong nakarating sa office ko. I immediately started all the paper works left on my table. I also read a lot of proposals for a new project the company is planning. Not a single one fit my plans so I rejected all of it.“Jade, Lolo told me to invite your for dinner later sa bahay niya...” Gil appeared by the door of my office. Nakahilig siya roon habang nakatingin sa akin nang seryoso.“Hindi pa rin siya umuuwi ng States?” I asked
Perfectly Fake Marriage Chapter 62: Away
I cooked and prepared our dinner for tonight. Zachary messaged me that he’d be home by nine in the evening. Pagkauwi ko galing office kanina ay nagpahinga muna ako bago magluto ng hapunan. I was happy. I enjoyed cooking for us. For him. I hope he'll love the food. Iniwan ko ang nakahandang hapunan sa hapag at tinakluban iyon para hindi mapanis at masira agad. I went to my room and continued the preparation I’ve been doing since I decided to continue my investigation. But before I fully continue this, I wanted to find Klaus first. Wala pa rin akong balita galing kay Klaus and I still couldn’t find the right opportunity to ask Gil about him. I really want to find Klaus, but I don’t know where to start. I tried going back to the hotel where he was staying before but I found out that he already moved out. I don’t know where else to find him. If I ask Gil about Klaus, he might find out what we’ve been doing behind his back. Ayaw kong mag-isip ng kung ano ano, pero hindi ko mapigilan ang
Perfectly Fake Marriage Chapter 61: Years
“You can’t hear me?” Zachary said something again but I couldn’t understand it. Hindi ko iyon marinig. His lips were moving and I knew that he was speaking. Pero hindi ko iyon marinig. My ears are acting up again. It has been a while since something like this happened. I thought I would be okay but I was wrong. I forgot that I wasn’t fully healed yet. And now, it’s starting again. “What are you saying?” I asked despite not being able to hear what I said. “I’m sorry, my ears. I can’t hear...” I could feel my lips trembling. Hindi ko alam ang gagawin. I didn’t bring my hearing aids. Zachary came to me. Lumuhod siya sa harap ko. His eyes were worried and bloodshot. He looked like he’s pitying me. I suddenly felt awful. “I’ll rest now. I wanna be alone while I rest. You can sleep in the guestroom,” I told him. “MJ...” I read the movement of his lips. He was close to me which was why I was able to understand what he said. “I can’t leave you alone. Why are you asking me to leave you?
Perfectly Fake Marriage Chapter 60: Lost
[ Zachary’s Point of View; A Flashback ] I was there when my sister died. I failed to notice her struggle and pain because I was too busy studying so I could gain our father’s approval. My little sister, Zoe, was my comfort. The very reason why I wanted to become a doctor. I wanted to cure her illness. But before I could even do that, she died. And it was because of my own negligence. “I’ve had enough of your defiance, Zachary. For once, I need you to do as I say. Marry the woman I want for you and I will let you continue your career. Defy me, and I will do everything in my power so you can never set foot in the medical field again!” That was my father’s bargain when I first told him that I would still continue my residency and my research. I didn’t want that. All of my life, I tried everything to make him proud. Even if it’s not from the field he wanted for me. I thought that if I became the best in my field, he would finally acknowledge all
Perfectly Fake Marriage Chapter 59: Own
“We can stay here for a few minutes more if you want…” Zachary said as he held my hand with his.Pinagmamasdan niya lang ako ngayon habang nakatingin pa rin ako sa puntod ng mga magulang ako. Ngumiti ako at bumaling sa kaniya. Then I shook my head a little.“I already told them what I wanted to say. We can go now. I want to rest,” sabi ko.Tumango siya at mas hinigpitan ang hawak sa kamay ko.I feel so lucky to have him beside me. When he hugged me, I felt safe and comfortable, I never want to let go.When my parents died, I never experienced such a comforting love again. But with Zachary, I knew it was more than that. It was more than the love I felt when my family was still complete. Kahit ramdam ko ang kulang dahil sa pagkawala ng mga magulang ko, Zachary was able to easily fill its gaps with his gentleness.The day was over before we even knew it. Zachary and I rested the whole night and slept peacefully. I
Perfectly Fake Marriage Chapter 58: Protect
“Are you sure you’re okay now? We can visit them tomorrow instead,” Zachary said as he helped me get inside our car, his voice like a fire that calms my soul in the midst of a cold winter. It was enough to soothe my heart. More than enough. “I’m okay. Let’s just go.” I smiled to assure him that I’m really fine. Habang walang tigil ang pag-iyak at paghikbi ko kanina sa office ng Daddy ko, Zachary was just there embracing me. He was like a soft pair of large wings that protects me from pain. And I realized that I became more and more dependent of him. I really have no idea if it’s a good thing or bad one. For once, I wanted time to stop. I wanted to stay in that moment. To keep him close to me. Before closing the door on my side, Zachary leaned down to touch my cheek, caressing them. He was looking at me with so much affection in his eyes I couldn’t help but want to drown in them. Pinagmasdan niya lang ako at hinayaan ko siya. I held his gaze as
Perfectly Fake Marriage Chapter 57: Allowed
We arrived at the airport. Kinuha ni Zachary ang mga gamit namin bago kami lumabas. There was an SUV waiting for us outside and we immediately hopped in.Tahimik kaming dalawa sa byahe. It was probably because of what we discussed back in the plane. We talked about my parents and his family. I told him that there was something I still wasn’t telling him. He respects everything. Ang galit ko sa kaniyang ama. Ang gulo sa isip ko tungkol sa mga hindi ko sinasabi sa kaniya. He respects my pace. He respects me.I don’t really know if I should allow myself to be this dependent on him. He’s not asking anything in return. It was so natural to him. Ang pakisamahan ako. Ang intindihin ako. Our differences were mode defined this time. I felt like I’m taking him for granted. No… I really am taking him for granted.Simula pa noon lagi niya na akong iniintindi. He was so good at putting up with me and my shortcomings. I was so high-maintenance I
Perfectly Fake Marriage Chapter 56: Reason
We were both panting after doing a lot of make love rounds. My body was already exhausted even before we stopped but I just couldn’t get enough of him. I was lying on top of him, still panting. I also could feel his heavy breathing. Nakayakap siya sa akin habang marahang nilalaro ang dulo ng buhok ko. “Thank you…” he whispered. “For coming back to me.” I looked at him and kissed him again on his lips. I licked his lips and urged him to open up for my tongue. I kissed every corner of his mouth and he did the same. “We should shower and eat breakfast.” I chuckled after our kissing. Tumango siya at bumangon sa pagkakahiga, dala dala ako. Then he lifted me up and carried me all the way to my bathroom. Pagkatapos naming maligo ay dumiretso na kami sa baba para magluto at kumain ng breakfast. Zachary was busy cooking some fried rice with spam and egg. Nagluto rin siya na hiwalay naman ang spam at egg sa fried rice. After cooking, he placed t
