Chapter 4

Once I got home I acted like I wasn’t. Ryan came knocking on the door but I didn’t answer. Arson had also stayed away from the club and I think the guilt finally swallowed him up and he returned back to his life with his mate. I avoided Ryan too but I promised him a date and I was feeling some type of way about it. Everything felt like it was about to change and maybe me accepting it was just to cover up the fact I had the Alpha’s dick in my mouth. A knock on the door had broken me from my thoughts and I was standing in front of my full body mirror. I wore a red dress that hugged my curves with black pumps to match. I walked over into the living room and opened the door and there he was. Ryan was wearing a nice V-neck shirt with some black slacks. I loved the way he always dressed. Sometimes to fancy was a little much.

“You look beautiful as always.”

He reached over and kissed my cheek and lingered for a few seconds. It didn’t sit right though.

“You ready to go?”

I nodded and proceeded out the door to which I swiftly locked my door and followed after him. He was the perfect man and I think that’s what scared me. Did I deserve someone good to me? I know I have a mate out there but I don’t think they’d ever respect me like Ryan. It should be exciting though right? He’s a great guy and I just have to stop overthinking everything. Ryan had opened the passenger side of the door and allowed me in before he closed it behind me. When he got in and started driving I felt uncomfortable. I think he noticed because he interlaced our fingers together and held on tightly until my nerves calmed down. We didn’t say a word until we got inside the restaurant and sat down.

“How is your mom?” He asked.

I had just finished taking a sip of my wine and that’s what he wants to talk about? My mom, who barely remembers me?

“She’s good. I saw her yesterday and well she thinks I was her old best friend from high school.”

I took a longer sip now. Things should be this way. I mean he is Ryan. He’s seen me naked more than a hundred times and has seen every hole on my body.

“I am sure you had a great conversation if that is the case.”

I nodded and just took a sip.

“Makayla, we don’t have to make this weird. We did this on a normal day to day. This doesn’t have to mean anything but it doesn’t hurt to try either.”

I think he had finally seen how awkward I was.

“You’re right. I’m sorry let's just take it to step by step.”

And things were normal. We talked and joked until our dinner came out. I think I really did need to stop overthinking things. I mean we are doing normal things but the only difference is we would maybe have a title. About halfway through our dinner, I noticed a pair of eyes looking at me. When I stared up I was shocked to see that it was Arson. It seemed like he was on a business meeting or something but his attention was on me. I couldn’t avoid him but I can act like he is not there. I reached for my glass and downed the rest of my wine before reaching over to the bucket with the bottle and pouring more into it. This was the hardest thing I had to do. Not forgetting what just happened a few days ago.

“I am going to head to the bathroom. I will be back.”

I got up from my chair and grabbed my purse to just freshen up my makeup in there. Maybe then I’d relax just a tad more not having to make eye contact with him. However, when I went to close the door it was stopped and Arson shut the door behind him before locking it.

“You’re avoiding me.”

I looked at him in shock not knowing how to act at this moment.

“This is the lady's room, get out now!” I demanded.

I tried reaching for the locked door but in a swift motion was now pinned against it with very little distance between us.

“What are you doing! Move!”

But he didn’t move away. If anything he moved closer to me.

“You’ve been on my mind nonstop since I saw you last.”

His minty breath hit my ear and I almost melted just for a moment.

“Go back to your mate. Go back to your life because there is no good that comes with getting involved with me. A moment of weakness could cost you everything.”

I once again tried to move from his hold but he stays still.

“What if I don’t want to go back? What if instead, I want to return the favor?”

I looked at him not understanding but also understanding at the same time. I jolted a bit when I felt his hand on my thigh.

“This can’t happen. Just forget it.”

However, I didn’t sound so convincing. He trailed his finger up my thigh until he got to the brim of my dress. I let out the breath I was holding as he used the same finger to slowly pull my dress up until it was above my hips. He bent down placing a kiss on my neck and at the moment I wanted all the consequences. His tongue trailed down to my collarbone leaving a wet kiss that burned desire throughout my body.

“Oh fuck it.” I said.

My hand reached for the back of his head while connecting our lips together. Arson snaked his arm around my waist before lifting me and carrying me over to the bathroom sink and placing himself in between my thighs but never disconnecting our lips. His hand reached my hips as he quickly pulled my laced thong off of me and placed it in his pocket.

“Something for me to keep.” He whispered.

At the moment I didn’t care if he sold it online. The warmth between my legs was all that was thinking for me. I reached for his belt but he stopped me. I looked at him curiously but didn’t have a chance to say anything before he pulled me down, turned me around, and then bent me over the sink. I was now less than a foot away from the mirror and he had a complete view of me. I heard the sound of his pants zipping down before he pulled them down a bit. His hand wrapped around the back of my neck before I felt him at my entrance leaving me completely lost in lust. When I felt him slowly enter me I gasped at the feel of him stretching my insides out. I forgot about us being in a restaurant for just a moment and the fact that Ryan was out there waiting for me. In seconds he reached for my straps leaving me waiting as he pulled down my top part and my dress was now squeezing me as it was bunched up on my stomach. His eyes were on the mirror as his pace went from slow to the bathroom counter stabbing at my ribs as he thrust inside and out of me.

I was getting fucked in the restaurant bathroom while my date was out there expecting me. But the way his hand was stuck on my throat just topped everything. As he inched closer and closer with each movement I found it hard for me to keep quiet... He pulled me up and lifted me up on the sink again before inserting in me again and the closeness causes more traction and moans just became louder and louder. He reached for my lips again and gave me a silent “sshh” but this was not just any type of sex. This is him releasing all his sadness and anger on me. I didn’t notice that my claws had extended as I left claw marks onto his back and the back of his neck. Blood was falling from his skin but his focus was on me. With the intensity in each of his thrusts, I felt myself getting to my peak as I moved my arms to hold onto the counter. His pace quickened while the climax started to unleash and a blissful orgasm came over and I didn’t care how loud I was but he did while his tongue invaded my mouth as my muffled screams caused his dick to throb inside me while he unloaded his load in me. We both were breathing heavily. I quickly pulled my straps up and pulled my dress down. There was no way I could finish this date knowing I smelled like sex. Ryan would smell it in seconds.

“I have to go.” I said.

He didn’t stop me before I walked out and made my way over to Ryan.

“Are you okay? You were gone for a bit.”

The guilt was heavy on me and knew I had to leave.

“I think the food didn’t sit well. I need to go run. I have to go.”

I walked out when he was getting up but before he could reach me I had already shifted and ran off. I tore my dress and that’s when I realized I didn’t have my underwear and forgot my purse in the bathroom. Fuck. I will get it tomorrow if anything. When I reached for my apartment I quickly locked myself in and walked over to the bathroom to turn on the shower. For the next hour, I sat in scrubbing myself of the sins I committed. He was mated and married for god sake! She is the pack's Luna for fuck sake.

When I got out I wrapped myself in my robe and decided I needed some more alcohol in my system. When I got to the kitchen there was something on the counter. My purse, keys, and a note.

“Your door was unlocked. Thought you’d need your purse. -Arson.”