158 - SKYLER

SKYLER

I didn't want them to know yet and even though Greta didn't agree; I made her promise not to tell Elijah, Nathan and Cole about the pregnancy as with being locked in this room, me handling this pregnancy on my own is part of my own punishment. Because I know if they know about the pregnancy, then they would forgive me for the wrong reasons and I don't know if I deserve their forgiveness.

I know that most of my feelings are coming from the guilt both Alice and I are feeling and the repercussions of what my father made me believe, that everything was my fault and that I need to suffer the consequences of them.

Both Alice and I were missing the comfort of the mate bond that we had grown so used to feeling, we were now feeling as empty and alone as I did when I was younger as all three of them had blocked their end, so no matter how much or often I tugged on our links, they wouldn’t answer. 

After throwing up my lunch, I rin