-Maybe love is your thing but not mine. Love for me is you-
***Raisa descended the stairs deftly to the kitchen. Looking at the memo in front of the refrigerator from his mother who accompanied my father to overseas meetings. Even though it's a holiday, they have a hard time getting together."Brother, where are you ?!" shouted Raisa looking all over the house. Usually, if not in the room, it must be in the backyard of the house, in the small field where Fairuz practiced his karate. Raisa opened the back door, walked unsteadily carrying lots of food.Raisa always teased Fairuz when he saw him practice. He was about to throw peanuts from the top of the tree house and now he was trying to get past the small fence Fairuz had deliberately made so that just not just anyone could enter."Ouch!" A long snort of bazz sounded in Raisa's ears when she had successfully stepped on the ground. A grimace sounded back slowly Raisa passed through the mango tree to see the owner of the voice, who of course didn't come from Fairuz because she really recognized her brother's hoarse voice."Yes-yes, bang, already ah!"Raisa gasped to see Fairuz twisting Yuda's hand back. He has not had time to think on what basis Yuda came to his house, considering that last night Fairuz had forbidden him to have anything to do with Raisa and now."Why, I'm up yet." Fairuz let go of Yuda when he saw Raisa who stood confused with snacks in a hug."Thanks, you know your brother is thirsty," said Fairuz, taking a drink bottle and then wiping his sweat."Hi!" Yuda greeted Raisa who was still silent with a face full of questions."Greeted by my girlfriend, why don't you just shut up. Okay, brother go in first. Be careful not to mess around!" said Fairuz to Yuda who nodded back.Raisa only realized when Fairuz had disappeared from them. She turned to face Yuda who was holding her face from the bruises last night."For me?" Yuda pointed to the drink in Raisa's hand which tightened the mineral bottle even more as if he was afraid someone would take hers."You are stingy," laughed Yuda, patting the big rock to sit down, "come on, sit down here!"Raisa ignored him, walked about to turn back into the house."Wait!" Yuda intercepted his hand and pulled slowly to sit next to Yuda."What are you doing?" Raisa let go of Yuda's grip by jerking, "what are you doing here?" he asked bitchy, laughter escaped from Yuda's mouth again."It's strange, yes, it's true that your brother said that you are shy but fierce," Yuda took it forcibly and then took a sip because he was very thirsty."Sorry, your brother didn't give me a drink. Thanks," Yuda handed back the remaining half bottle. "You can see that I'm fine now. Thanks for asking about me."Raisa frowned. "What do you mean? Asking you when?"Yuda's turn to l**k his eyebrows confused, "Ah, you are still shy. It's okay to short the SMS, but the point is you're worried," explained Yuda, making Raisa even more confused."Wait," Raisa stood up after putting down all the snacks, plans for breakfast just disappeared when her mood changed to find Yuda at her house unexpectedly. It was true last night he was worried about Yuda's condition but didn't send him a message."I didn't send anything to you." Raisa thought for a moment remembering where her cellphone was, which was apparently still not removed for charging."Ah, it must be brother last night. Brother!" Raisa immediately ran to her house, leaving Yuda who smiled amusedly seeing Raisa's childish behavior, in contrast to her honesty.Raisa pulled Fairuz's body who was looking for something in the ice cooler."Why bang, the cellphone is sounding?" Raisa asked putting a first aid kit beside Fairuz to treat it."No, it's already dead, press it first!" replied Fairuz. Raisa took her cellphone to be charged in the room then returned to the living room without knowing a smile etched on Fairuz's lips as he climbed the stairs."Brother, why are you sending messages to Yuda? Then why did he come here instead of telling me last night not to approach Raisa anymore? Are you not afraid of thugs like him entering the house? . Is not it?" Fairuz pulling a chair still chuckling with Raisa's attitude pacing back and forth at the dining table."Aww!" Raisa grimaced when her forehead hit someone's body. He looked up to find Yuda who was smiling at him."Handsome like a thug, evil you ah!" Yuda pinched Raisa's nose and then pulled a chair to receive the water from Fairuz."Why are you still here?""It's not good to expel a guest, my brother," said Fairus, stopping Raisa from pulling Yuda to his feet."Sorry," he said softly releasing his hand. "I didn't send it, you need to know," he continued looking at Fairuz."Yes-yes, brother admitted guilt. But he did not come here because of you, right?" Yuda nodded confirming Fairuz statement."Yes, it's better for you to chat first, I want to take a shower to pick up Ms. Clara, she said she had arrived at the airport. Indeed, your prospective sister-in-law is hard to guess. Be careful not to be heartbroken," Cerocos Fairuz left the kitchen leaving the two of them."You don't want to offer me anything, I'm so hungry. In the morning you come to your house, you know, I'm even invited to practice karate," said Yuda stroking his growling stomach."Answer me, don't change the conversation!" Raisa pulled a chair opposite Yuda."Why are you here?""I told you to meet you, so you don't worry about my condition.""Ouch, why now use me-you anyway. Quick answer!""We lovers deserve to call me-you, your age, there is no sweetness like that. Eh, if you want love you can also make it more romantic." Raisa ruffled her hair in frustration, who knows what prayers had been said so that a man like Yuda appeared."Answer me!" Raisa said, again making a chuckle from Yuda's mouth."I already answered.""Then why did you let you come in! Didn't you say— ''"Yes, as a brother who looks after his younger brother, I can understand that he does that. Luckily I am not up to the threat. I came here to fight for our love, and your brother finally agreed that I could still be your boyfriend." Raisa silently stared flatly at Yuda who had a happy face, it was obvious that it was made up."Where did you get my home address?""It's light, the map is there," said Yuda winking.Raisa snorted annoyed then got up to open the drawer to take bread to serve Yuda without saying anything even though Yuda tried to talk to him. Raisa took a pen and wrote on a yellow memo then handed it to Yuda.-Eat and don't have to say much. Just leave the dishes in the sink.Raisa came out of the kitchen to her room, ignoring Yuda's screams who told her to change clothes because they were going for a walk in a moment.-I can understand all foreign language translations but not your eye language which is difficult to translate-***"What are you doing in my room?" Raisa asked with a glare when she found Yuda standing in front of her room."Brother!" Raisa knocked on Fairuz's room which was located not far from his room."Brother Fairuz left an hour ago. You were really in the room for a long time. How come you haven't changed your clothes?""Why-you know why getting into da— ''Yuda covered Raisa's mouth, took her into the bathroom then locked her from the outside while telling Raisa to immediately take a shower and change clothes because they were going out for a walk."Don't be late!" shouted Yuda then sat on his bed Raisa waiting for the girl to wash herself while grumbling in there."You came out for a moment I can't change my clothes!" Raisa shouted from inside after fifteen minutes had passed, meaning that sh
-Sometimes when you wish that moment you have to be ready with all the answers-***"Why you? Don't have any more money? You don't have to invite to watch if you don't have capital," said Raisa when Yuda was busy checking something in his pocket. Raisa stomped her feet while on tiptoe to take jumbo popcorn then walked towards the exit."Sorry, Ma'am," said Yuda politely after Raisa who had come out to the parking lot."Wait," he intercepted, pulling Raisa's hand, "let's go inside!"Raisa looked at him fiercely. Glancing at the watch, it was nine o'clock in the evening. He was annoyed by Yuda's attitude who was still holding him back even though his friends had come home an hour ago from the game. Actually Raisa is reluctant to follow Yuda's invitation to the cinema because it's just the two of her, but considering there is a list of films with high ratings that she hasn't seen, Raisa can't refuse the invitation to watch.
-Do not cry for people who waste love because tears are expensive-***Yuda threw his bag at Rio who had just gotten off the motorbike. He walked ahead of Rio who didn't have time to curse. From the front, Ridho walked in a cool style that invites admiration from the women in the corridor."That's so bad," Ridho said, patting Yuda's shoulder and then turning to Rio."He complained, Raisa was the only girl who refused to be picked up to go to school together," Rio said holding back his laughter."Well, now I also say what. Raisa is indeed difficult to beat. You picked him up late, Raisa is already half an hour at school," said Ridho who accidentally passed Raisa's class and saw the woman talking with her best friend. Luckily, Bela didn't exist."Eeh, where are you going ?!" exclaimed Ridho when Yuda climbed the stairs deftly.Yuda waved his hand and walked without looking back. Rio said goodbye to Ridho to foll
-I have no right to hold you back. But when your feet take a step, my prayers are always with you-***Raisa breathed a sigh of relief, placing her buttocks on the corner chair of the library. The rest hour will be calm and free from Yuda's disturbances. The man looks rushed out of the classroom when the bell rings at the same time Rio. Even though Raisa was a little curious about what happened, Raisa tried to ignore it."Want to drink?"Raisa turned to the right side, saw Atha who was thrusting a water bottle towards her."No officers, just drink!" he said dismissing Raisa's doubts because of the prohibition on eating and drinking in the library. Finally Raisa took the mineral and drank it because she was very thirsty. Not forgetting he thanked him."There's no 'something, right?" he said not just afraid because there was poison or something but more than what men expect from women. You know what i mean."Yes
- Thinking you are hurt I feel guilty, what about the feelings based on this lie? -***Bela looked worried and kept trying to call Raisa's number which was out of reach. His orders were left idle. Meanwhile, Arifah and Kinta tried to think well while finishing a bowl of meatball noodles.It's been fifteen times Bela has called Raisa but the results are still the same. He glanced at the wrist watch, it's unusual for Raisa to not appear at all. Even though Raisa went to the library during a break but the last five minutes the bell changed, Raisa would definitely go to the canteen to buy a drink and now it's only two minutes before the bell will ring. Raisa is still not visible. Bela narrowed her eyes when she caught the figure of Yuda who entered the cafeteria with Rio and Ridho. Without thinking about her estrangement with Ridho, Bela got up and walked towards Yuda.Yuda still didn't realize that Bela had called him because he was too busy thinking about the
-Look into my eyes when you're scared and say my name in your heart-***Yuda honked his motorbike horn loudly without stopping until the brown warehouse door opened, showing Arkan and Nando. Yuda got off his motorbike and walked towards them with his bare hands while his opponent was equipped with battle gear."Looks like you are afraid to fight me empty-handed, let alone alone," Yuda sarcastically challenged Arkan to man to man.Arkan grinned and turned his head at Bobby to open the door wide. Yuda glared sharply, his jaw hard and his hands clenched to hold back his emotions when he saw Raisa tied to a chair with her mouth gagged with a rough cloth. Their eyes speak to each other."Yud, help me but don't get hurt.""I'll help you, Raisa, even if I get hurt later.""You want to be free— ''"Where is my sister ?!"Arkan's words were cut short when the roar of the motorbike along with a loud scream app
-I never doubt the choice, also applies when choosing you, as a false feeling of course-***"Yuda ..."Raisa tried to grab the door algae, forcing herself to stay awake in fear in the dark. His hoarse voice no longer shouted the names of those who were expected to get him out of here. Raisa only sighs when she calls Yuda's name, who knows how much longer she can endure with her trembling body. The blue light from his watch had faded two minutes ago as it only lasted half an hour."You know, if you think Yuda can save you, I think you are quite special to him. But, as far as I am, Yuda has never really thought of women as something special. And, maybe you are the same as them."Arkan's words to him were denied when Raisa saw Yuda's emotional face in front of him. There is a hint of happiness in him when he finds out that Yuda courageously came alone to the place of imprisonment. Raisa didn't care whether she was really special to Yuda or not, considerin
-Women's heart is easily touched by the slightest kindness, my heart is no exception-***"You go to sleep first."Raisa shook her head, staring one by one her friends who visited her. When Raisa realized she immediately asked to go home. And it has been a day since he was at home, not allowed to go to school by the mother."Why don't you guys change your clothes first? Tomorrow….""Check Gu, I'll advise us later. You can eat it first," cut Bela, feeding the apple."Ehkm, we go down first, OK? Aunty said, it's already been questioned, it's a shame if it's redundant. Lo Yud, is it okay to leave it?" said Rijal gesturing the others to leave Raisa's room."What do you do with Yuda, just scream, Raisa," said Kinta. Yuda closed the door to the room then walked over to Raisa. Asking if anything Raisa needed."Want to come down too?" Raisa nodded."Okay, I'm carrying it, okay?" Raisa patted Yuda's shoulder repeatedly."Already ah,
-If the twilight stays orange even when it's cloudy,if the moon is still dim even in the darkthen you're still my curved rainbowafter the rain on my veranda that I always hug-***Atha had just arrived at Raisa's house and was chatting with other friends, she was so worried when she heard the news of Raisa's loss. His mind was racing. Atha would rather not be with Raisa because the woman chose Yuda than she had to lose Raisa forever because of the kidnapper's evil deeds. For him, being able to see Raisa smiling even though he wasn't the reason behind the laughter that broke out on the girl's pink lips but he was grateful at least that he could still breathe the same air under the same sky. Atha is determined with her decision to continue studying abroad, at least that's the way Ampus let the two of them be together without having to endure a wound in the chest due to jealousy. Atha is sure she will find a piece of a warm heart, who knows w
-I'm not asking you to sacrifice, I just want you to be honest with your feelings. Can?-RAISA blinked to get used to her dim vision with the room light lit by yellow neon lights. Raisa's body was tied to a chair, exactly the same as what happened to her two weeks ago by Arkan et al. But the situation now is much different and very dangerous considering the abductors are international mafia."Are you awake?" A hoarse voice entered his ears along with the ticking of shoes followed by Doli's men. Raisa looked up at Doli's fierce face, still the same as before when they met. If only his hands were not tied Raisa wanted to destroy the sly smile on Doli's fierce face, as if mocking her weak.Doli told his men to put Raisa's front seat three steps away and then he sat on it. Raisa stared intently when Doli cupped her face face to face."The first rule is don't glare at me," said Doli, opening the cellphone screen."Two choices for you to be free. First,
-Because I was hurt I wanted to share the pain with you but in the end your sincere feelings made me really fall into regret-***Raisa spills all her feelings on the hamster. The innocent doll had received countless hammer blows nonstop as her head popped out of the hole randomly. It's not a gift that he wants to collect when the points are full but his way of releasing all the worries, sorrows and sorrows that can't be channeled through tears.Warning: Especially for children.For the first time Raisa doesn't regret being a citizen who disobeys the rules, it's not a criminal offense anyway. The supervising officer had wanted to reprimand Raisa but Bela and Arifah immediately took over by negotiating, they even bought a lot of special coins for him to play all kinds of rides."Make you!" Raisa put all her strength into lifting the hammer and then knocked on the hamster's head, as if the cute animal was someone she hated so much.How not to
-If erasing feelings is the same as erasing ink on a blackboard then my feelings are like being written with permanent marker ink but can never be erased-One week later …Yuda was transfixed when the figure of a woman who had adorned his heart for several years, felt lost for her departure now stood in front of him. Still the same small lips with round black eyes smiling at him."Yu, I'm not lying. I'm Angel, Yu, I'm sorry I just met you. I miss you, Yu." Angel held Yuda's hand. "You don't miss me?" Yuda gasped, deep down he missed Angel so much that for years the feeling had lodged in his heart. But somehow now it feels different. The warmth when their hands touched was not the same as it used to be. His hatred of betrayal still lingers."Sorry, Ngel, I'm just here to make sure it's you who's been chatting with me all this time or not." Angel's smile faded."What do you mean, Yu. You still love me, right, Yu? I know you're Yu, you can't mo
-If I could choose I want to sleep and have sweet dreams because my real life right now is the worst nightmare of the whole day, it's you-***Raisa looked in the mirror while cursing herself for being a crybaby so that her eye bags were so black even though they had been sprinkled with powder, they still didn't cover the dark marks from crying all night. He intended not to go to school, but a message from Bela last night informed him that the first and second hours of the try out meant that he had to attend. Raisa's problem of not studying is not so burdensome because the cross questions and the material is also a test of what they have learned. He was a little sure he could answer it easily.Not to mention the exact reason what he would say to Fairus later when he was suddenly absent. Finding him home in a sad state yesterday afternoon Fairus was almost angry, especially if he knew that he was crying because of Yuda, maybe his brother would immediately teach Y
"To be loved or to love? Anyone wants both. And I'm not lucky enough to just love."(The End, Secrets and Lies)***"Wow, you!" Fairuz threw a punch at Yuda's face who wasn't ready for a surprise attack. Fairuz pulled back Yuda's collar."I've warned you to stay away from my sister if you want your life to be safe."Yuda raised his hand when Ridho was about to approach. No one should interfere, this is his own business and he will sort it out."You make him cry, it means you're ready to—""Bang, okay, let's talk okay," said Rio, unable to bear to see Yuda's battered face. The man could have fought back but Yuda chose not to return every punch he received, letting Fairuz take all his emotions out on him."From now on you stay away from my sister!" Fairuz again punched Yuda in the face until he fell down and then left Yuda's big house."You're all right, right?" Ridho approached, helping Yuda up. The corner of Yuda's
-When someone is hurt, he prefers to cry than talk-***At four o'clock Raisa arrived at her house, she immediately got out of the car and went inside to her room on the second floor. Rio also turned his car to take Kinta home. Yes, Raisa did not go home together in a car with Yuda. The incident this morning made Raisa choose distance from the man without feelings.Raisa still clearly remembers how Yuda left her alone when she opened her eyes, only emptiness stretched out. With sluggish steps, he returned to the Villa and immediately packed up his things to fly to Jakarta. His friend scolded Yuda for the sadness Raisa received but Yuda chose to ignore it, accepting all the insults without rebuttal. Everyone has returned to Jakarta but a piece of Raisa's heart is left in Lombok. A piece of heart that is hurt for the irresponsibility of Yuda who has grown the seeds of love in his heart."Sister, are you asleep? Mother just cooked your favorite food. Come on
-I want to hold your hand but the cavities in your fingers refuse. I give up as long as you're happy-***Author POVRaisa feels guilty. Bela led him up the steps of the villa. Kinta was about to knock on the door but suddenly the maroon door opened showing Rio's face."Come on, he's already inside," Rio said telling them to come in. Raisa immediately broke through, calling Yuda's name.The man seemed to be playing the guitar. Raisa stopped her steps when she saw Yuda on the sofa, Ridho who was sitting opposite chose to get up, pulling Bela up. Rio did the same thing, taking Kinta out while Alif had already entered the kitchen with Arifah. Raisa tried to call Yuda but there was no answer, her fingers were still patiently playing the strings. Raisa chose to sit opposite him, listening to the melodious rhythm that he only knew this time that Yuda was good at playing the guitar."Yu, I want to talk," said Raisa when Yuda stopped his game.
Forgiving the past is my way to always be happy with you. Hope you're not just a part of the past that will be a memory-***Raisa POVI took a breath of fresh air, staring at Karen's brown irises. All these mistakes must be made up for immediately, I will do whatever it takes but I don't want to lie again, like I used to."Karen, I don't want us to be like we used to be. I'm sorry that I pretended to accept your feelings and became your temporary boyfriend while I didn't have any feelings, more than friends," I said.Karen was still waiting for the next sentence I would say to her, in response."And because of that mistake I got the karma according to your wishes," I continued, smiling sadly. Karen's eyebrows shot up, I don't know if she was happy to hear that."I've never forgotten that and I always hope that one day I'll see you again, I'm sorry. You can be my best friend again." Again, I sighed."If you ask if you're still