"To be loved or to love? Anyone wants both. And I'm not lucky enough to just love."
(The End, Secrets and Lies)
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"Wow, you!" Fairuz threw a punch at Yuda's face who wasn't ready for a surprise attack. Fairuz pulled back Yuda's collar.
"I've warned you to stay away from my sister if you want your life to be safe."
Yuda raised his hand when Ridho was about to approach. No one should interfere, this is his own business and he will sort it out.
"You make him cry, it means you're ready to—"
"Bang, okay, let's talk okay," said Rio, unable to bear to see Yuda's battered face. The man could have fought back but Yuda chose not to return every punch he received, letting Fairuz take all his emotions out on him.
"From now on you stay away from my sister!" Fairuz again punched Yuda in the face until he fell down and then left Yuda's big house.
"You're all right, right?" Ridho approached, helping Yuda up. The corner of Yuda's
-If I could choose I want to sleep and have sweet dreams because my real life right now is the worst nightmare of the whole day, it's you-***Raisa looked in the mirror while cursing herself for being a crybaby so that her eye bags were so black even though they had been sprinkled with powder, they still didn't cover the dark marks from crying all night. He intended not to go to school, but a message from Bela last night informed him that the first and second hours of the try out meant that he had to attend. Raisa's problem of not studying is not so burdensome because the cross questions and the material is also a test of what they have learned. He was a little sure he could answer it easily.Not to mention the exact reason what he would say to Fairus later when he was suddenly absent. Finding him home in a sad state yesterday afternoon Fairus was almost angry, especially if he knew that he was crying because of Yuda, maybe his brother would immediately teach Y
-If erasing feelings is the same as erasing ink on a blackboard then my feelings are like being written with permanent marker ink but can never be erased-One week later …Yuda was transfixed when the figure of a woman who had adorned his heart for several years, felt lost for her departure now stood in front of him. Still the same small lips with round black eyes smiling at him."Yu, I'm not lying. I'm Angel, Yu, I'm sorry I just met you. I miss you, Yu." Angel held Yuda's hand. "You don't miss me?" Yuda gasped, deep down he missed Angel so much that for years the feeling had lodged in his heart. But somehow now it feels different. The warmth when their hands touched was not the same as it used to be. His hatred of betrayal still lingers."Sorry, Ngel, I'm just here to make sure it's you who's been chatting with me all this time or not." Angel's smile faded."What do you mean, Yu. You still love me, right, Yu? I know you're Yu, you can't mo
-Because I was hurt I wanted to share the pain with you but in the end your sincere feelings made me really fall into regret-***Raisa spills all her feelings on the hamster. The innocent doll had received countless hammer blows nonstop as her head popped out of the hole randomly. It's not a gift that he wants to collect when the points are full but his way of releasing all the worries, sorrows and sorrows that can't be channeled through tears.Warning: Especially for children.For the first time Raisa doesn't regret being a citizen who disobeys the rules, it's not a criminal offense anyway. The supervising officer had wanted to reprimand Raisa but Bela and Arifah immediately took over by negotiating, they even bought a lot of special coins for him to play all kinds of rides."Make you!" Raisa put all her strength into lifting the hammer and then knocked on the hamster's head, as if the cute animal was someone she hated so much.How not to
-I'm not asking you to sacrifice, I just want you to be honest with your feelings. Can?-RAISA blinked to get used to her dim vision with the room light lit by yellow neon lights. Raisa's body was tied to a chair, exactly the same as what happened to her two weeks ago by Arkan et al. But the situation now is much different and very dangerous considering the abductors are international mafia."Are you awake?" A hoarse voice entered his ears along with the ticking of shoes followed by Doli's men. Raisa looked up at Doli's fierce face, still the same as before when they met. If only his hands were not tied Raisa wanted to destroy the sly smile on Doli's fierce face, as if mocking her weak.Doli told his men to put Raisa's front seat three steps away and then he sat on it. Raisa stared intently when Doli cupped her face face to face."The first rule is don't glare at me," said Doli, opening the cellphone screen."Two choices for you to be free. First,
-If the twilight stays orange even when it's cloudy,if the moon is still dim even in the darkthen you're still my curved rainbowafter the rain on my veranda that I always hug-***Atha had just arrived at Raisa's house and was chatting with other friends, she was so worried when she heard the news of Raisa's loss. His mind was racing. Atha would rather not be with Raisa because the woman chose Yuda than she had to lose Raisa forever because of the kidnapper's evil deeds. For him, being able to see Raisa smiling even though he wasn't the reason behind the laughter that broke out on the girl's pink lips but he was grateful at least that he could still breathe the same air under the same sky. Atha is determined with her decision to continue studying abroad, at least that's the way Ampus let the two of them be together without having to endure a wound in the chest due to jealousy. Atha is sure she will find a piece of a warm heart, who knows w
-Love at First Sight is not just a myth, but I try to think that it's not real-***"Raisa, wake up kid!"The knock on the door along with Mother's half screaming voice diverted the dream world of the girl in the green pajamas. He was surprised to open his eyes with his hand reflexively took the cellphone."O Allah, Mother why just wake up Raisa ?!"Raisa is confused to see that the clock is almost seven o'clock, which means that in twenty minutes the fence will be closed while the distance from her house is fifteen minutes at a speed of eighty kilometers per hour. Not to mention having to prepare all school needs because last night he didn't have time to put the rooster in his bag."Mother woke up an hour ago, it's a shame you didn't wake up. Who told you to sleep in the middle of the night, you girls actually like balls."Raisa just giggled at her mother's soft scolding when she en
-Love is just a play on words played by girls and hearts. And I, the man who played it-***'You come here or will I pick you up?'Raisa hung up her phone in a huff, she didn't like anyone managing it. Typical guys who are hated are those who are protective. Moreover, they have not been formally acquainted."Thanks for helping me earlier but sorry I don't like basketball."He got up to the library, but his steps were intercepted by Joey, a former Bela who is known as a land crocodile, a playboy, a kid snapper of IPS 2."Where are you going?" asked Joey, arching his eyebrows, his two friends grinning."What's your business?" Raisa brushed Pipin's hand that was blocking her. Raisa has always been asking Bela not to have a relationship with a guy like Joey, she feels negative energy whenever she is close to Joey."You heard from Bela that I am with her and I have ended, I want you to be my girlfriend!"
-Love doesn't need a reason. Like leaving without a goodbye for no reason-***"Already ah I'm going to the canteen, I'm thirsty.""Eh, wait Raisa!"Raisa waved her hand, getting out of the pressure from the crowd who were waiting for the final points of the match between Samudera and Antariosa schools. Bela and her two friends chased Raisa's fast steps towards the canteen with various questions."Mbak Mie Ayam each cold tea."After mentioning the order, Raisa chose the corner table that had been her place with the three best friends who had been sitting on their seats."Have the heart ... have the heart ... lo, Rais, hikz." Arifah started her drama."I did not think that all this time you lied, you cheated me ..." Kinta was no less dramaqueen.Only Bela showed a gloomy face without engineering. She was busy staring at the cellphone, waiting for someone's message and Raisa realized that. He wa
-If the twilight stays orange even when it's cloudy,if the moon is still dim even in the darkthen you're still my curved rainbowafter the rain on my veranda that I always hug-***Atha had just arrived at Raisa's house and was chatting with other friends, she was so worried when she heard the news of Raisa's loss. His mind was racing. Atha would rather not be with Raisa because the woman chose Yuda than she had to lose Raisa forever because of the kidnapper's evil deeds. For him, being able to see Raisa smiling even though he wasn't the reason behind the laughter that broke out on the girl's pink lips but he was grateful at least that he could still breathe the same air under the same sky. Atha is determined with her decision to continue studying abroad, at least that's the way Ampus let the two of them be together without having to endure a wound in the chest due to jealousy. Atha is sure she will find a piece of a warm heart, who knows w
-I'm not asking you to sacrifice, I just want you to be honest with your feelings. Can?-RAISA blinked to get used to her dim vision with the room light lit by yellow neon lights. Raisa's body was tied to a chair, exactly the same as what happened to her two weeks ago by Arkan et al. But the situation now is much different and very dangerous considering the abductors are international mafia."Are you awake?" A hoarse voice entered his ears along with the ticking of shoes followed by Doli's men. Raisa looked up at Doli's fierce face, still the same as before when they met. If only his hands were not tied Raisa wanted to destroy the sly smile on Doli's fierce face, as if mocking her weak.Doli told his men to put Raisa's front seat three steps away and then he sat on it. Raisa stared intently when Doli cupped her face face to face."The first rule is don't glare at me," said Doli, opening the cellphone screen."Two choices for you to be free. First,
-Because I was hurt I wanted to share the pain with you but in the end your sincere feelings made me really fall into regret-***Raisa spills all her feelings on the hamster. The innocent doll had received countless hammer blows nonstop as her head popped out of the hole randomly. It's not a gift that he wants to collect when the points are full but his way of releasing all the worries, sorrows and sorrows that can't be channeled through tears.Warning: Especially for children.For the first time Raisa doesn't regret being a citizen who disobeys the rules, it's not a criminal offense anyway. The supervising officer had wanted to reprimand Raisa but Bela and Arifah immediately took over by negotiating, they even bought a lot of special coins for him to play all kinds of rides."Make you!" Raisa put all her strength into lifting the hammer and then knocked on the hamster's head, as if the cute animal was someone she hated so much.How not to
-If erasing feelings is the same as erasing ink on a blackboard then my feelings are like being written with permanent marker ink but can never be erased-One week later …Yuda was transfixed when the figure of a woman who had adorned his heart for several years, felt lost for her departure now stood in front of him. Still the same small lips with round black eyes smiling at him."Yu, I'm not lying. I'm Angel, Yu, I'm sorry I just met you. I miss you, Yu." Angel held Yuda's hand. "You don't miss me?" Yuda gasped, deep down he missed Angel so much that for years the feeling had lodged in his heart. But somehow now it feels different. The warmth when their hands touched was not the same as it used to be. His hatred of betrayal still lingers."Sorry, Ngel, I'm just here to make sure it's you who's been chatting with me all this time or not." Angel's smile faded."What do you mean, Yu. You still love me, right, Yu? I know you're Yu, you can't mo
-If I could choose I want to sleep and have sweet dreams because my real life right now is the worst nightmare of the whole day, it's you-***Raisa looked in the mirror while cursing herself for being a crybaby so that her eye bags were so black even though they had been sprinkled with powder, they still didn't cover the dark marks from crying all night. He intended not to go to school, but a message from Bela last night informed him that the first and second hours of the try out meant that he had to attend. Raisa's problem of not studying is not so burdensome because the cross questions and the material is also a test of what they have learned. He was a little sure he could answer it easily.Not to mention the exact reason what he would say to Fairus later when he was suddenly absent. Finding him home in a sad state yesterday afternoon Fairus was almost angry, especially if he knew that he was crying because of Yuda, maybe his brother would immediately teach Y
"To be loved or to love? Anyone wants both. And I'm not lucky enough to just love."(The End, Secrets and Lies)***"Wow, you!" Fairuz threw a punch at Yuda's face who wasn't ready for a surprise attack. Fairuz pulled back Yuda's collar."I've warned you to stay away from my sister if you want your life to be safe."Yuda raised his hand when Ridho was about to approach. No one should interfere, this is his own business and he will sort it out."You make him cry, it means you're ready to—""Bang, okay, let's talk okay," said Rio, unable to bear to see Yuda's battered face. The man could have fought back but Yuda chose not to return every punch he received, letting Fairuz take all his emotions out on him."From now on you stay away from my sister!" Fairuz again punched Yuda in the face until he fell down and then left Yuda's big house."You're all right, right?" Ridho approached, helping Yuda up. The corner of Yuda's
-When someone is hurt, he prefers to cry than talk-***At four o'clock Raisa arrived at her house, she immediately got out of the car and went inside to her room on the second floor. Rio also turned his car to take Kinta home. Yes, Raisa did not go home together in a car with Yuda. The incident this morning made Raisa choose distance from the man without feelings.Raisa still clearly remembers how Yuda left her alone when she opened her eyes, only emptiness stretched out. With sluggish steps, he returned to the Villa and immediately packed up his things to fly to Jakarta. His friend scolded Yuda for the sadness Raisa received but Yuda chose to ignore it, accepting all the insults without rebuttal. Everyone has returned to Jakarta but a piece of Raisa's heart is left in Lombok. A piece of heart that is hurt for the irresponsibility of Yuda who has grown the seeds of love in his heart."Sister, are you asleep? Mother just cooked your favorite food. Come on
-I want to hold your hand but the cavities in your fingers refuse. I give up as long as you're happy-***Author POVRaisa feels guilty. Bela led him up the steps of the villa. Kinta was about to knock on the door but suddenly the maroon door opened showing Rio's face."Come on, he's already inside," Rio said telling them to come in. Raisa immediately broke through, calling Yuda's name.The man seemed to be playing the guitar. Raisa stopped her steps when she saw Yuda on the sofa, Ridho who was sitting opposite chose to get up, pulling Bela up. Rio did the same thing, taking Kinta out while Alif had already entered the kitchen with Arifah. Raisa tried to call Yuda but there was no answer, her fingers were still patiently playing the strings. Raisa chose to sit opposite him, listening to the melodious rhythm that he only knew this time that Yuda was good at playing the guitar."Yu, I want to talk," said Raisa when Yuda stopped his game.
Forgiving the past is my way to always be happy with you. Hope you're not just a part of the past that will be a memory-***Raisa POVI took a breath of fresh air, staring at Karen's brown irises. All these mistakes must be made up for immediately, I will do whatever it takes but I don't want to lie again, like I used to."Karen, I don't want us to be like we used to be. I'm sorry that I pretended to accept your feelings and became your temporary boyfriend while I didn't have any feelings, more than friends," I said.Karen was still waiting for the next sentence I would say to her, in response."And because of that mistake I got the karma according to your wishes," I continued, smiling sadly. Karen's eyebrows shot up, I don't know if she was happy to hear that."I've never forgotten that and I always hope that one day I'll see you again, I'm sorry. You can be my best friend again." Again, I sighed."If you ask if you're still