-Never hurt yourself if you really love me-
***Saturday night is a night of happiness for Raisa, where she can go to the cinema to watch films that are hard to find, both from the internet and VCD. Precisely because the film cannot be downloaded and does not exist in visual form yet.Two hours ago he had watched Flash's follow-up action match and was now waiting for his brother in the parking lot. If other girls her age are enjoying a Saturday night with their crush, it's different with Raisa, she is never shy about traveling with her older brother who is also okay every time she is invited. Since her fiancé is abroad, it is okay to accompany her only sister, especially since she also likes action fights."Want to eat first?"Raisa nodded quickly because she was already very hungry. They immediately left the cinema looking for a place to prop their stomach. The clock was half past ten, which meant that there were thirty minutes left from the deadline."Brother, you don't have to go speeding, you don't have to go speeding, it's cold at night. Take it slow," said Raisa who occasionally pinched Fairuz's stomach in a hug around the man's waist who smiled amusedly seeing Raisa behind the rearview mirror."Yes-yes, so tomorrow, tomorrow, take your girlfriend, so you can slowly continue to enjoy the road," teased Fairuz, "your guy is okay too, what's his name?" Fairuz turned toward a narrow street because he said it would be faster to reach a new restaurant that opened a week ago."Why are you silent? What's his name?" Fairuz slowed down."Who is it?" Raisa asked back pretending not to know the person in question."That's what was at the bus stop.""Iss, brother what the hell. He's not my guy," said Raisa hitting Fairuz's shoulder, "uh, bang, watch out!" shouted Raisa as someone's body slammed forward which Fairuz couldn't escape. Predictably, the front of the motorbike hit the person who was knocked on the ground.Fairuz immediately stopped his motorbike, then Raisa got off the motorcycle with anxious glances because they were in a narrow alley, which Fairuz said would arrive behind the new restaurant. Can save ten minutes if you go through the protocol road. But now Raisa regretted the choice of this route because they had not had time to see the person who fell on the road, three to four people appeared from the turn of the alley which was to the right of where they were standing."Stand up!" shouted the tall man who was still unaware of their existence."Die! Stand up!" Another man from behind immediately pulled the weak body to his feet.Fairuz held Raisa to see the five men struggling. Behind Fairuz's back, Raisa peeked and was surprised to recognize a bruised face that was wiping the red liquid at the corner of her mouth."Yu-da.""Hey, let him go!" shouted Fairuz hearing Raisa's muttering, he thought his sister knew the man, more and more convinced when the face of the man who was held by the two people turned towards them."Isn't it your guy, deck?" Fairuz still had time to ask that question with a small glance."Who are you? Why interfere?" snapped the man holding the blunt tool in his right hand, grinning."Four on one. It's not balanced," replied Fairuz, ignoring his opponent's question, who was already in an attacking position."What are you doing here? Bang, you guys just go," said Yuda who punched the man next to his right to get away but the two men in front of him immediately hit his stomach again which made him grimace."Oh, so you know each other?"Fairuz stared at the man fiercely, Raisa who was already trembling behind him pulled Fairuz's hand slowly. He knew his brother was good at karate but he still tried to hold back so there were no fights in sight."You go there first, huh ?!" said Fairuz gently holding Raisa's hand, leading her aside as she knows her sister has traumatic with the fights."You don't need to be afraid. Brother, help your boy first."Raisa nodded, "don't get hurt." Fairuz agreed and turned to face his small match."Bang, don't accept them, it's better for you to leave here with Raisa," said Yuda while being held hostage, trying not to attract Fairuz in his mistake."I can't let crime be in sight."A fight ensued when the man holding the knife pointed the sharp object at Fairuz who was knocked out by pulling the man's hand back.
"Shit!" The guy's friend immediately launched a move, three on one. Seeing that Yuda did not remain silent, he stepped on the feet of the man who was holding him."Oww," groaned the man out of his mouth when Yuda punched his face and helped Fairuz against the three men who surrounded Fairuz."Brother, watch out!" Raisa's scream was caught by Yuda who was holding the man's hand, who was throwing the beam behind Fairuz's head.Without taking long, Fairuz and Yuda beat up the four men who Raisa didn't recognize until they ran from a small alley without forgetting to threaten Yuda."Brother, it's okay, right?" Yuda asked, making sure that Fairuz was squatting on the street.Raisa had already fallen into the street because her legs were shaking violently. Even though she likes action fights, Raisa has a traumatic traumatic that will trigger fear syndrome when she sees a fight with her eyes. Fairuz immediately got up to his younger brother when he realized Raisa's existence. Yuda also walked towards Raisa who was looking at him with watery eyes."Are you okay?" Raisa nodded while submerging her body in Fairuz's field."Alright, I'm fine. Let's go home!" Fairuz demands Raisa to stand up."From now on, stay away from my sister!" said Fairuz sternly stopping in front of Yuda."You don't fit to be her boyfriend. Yes, I like people who are good at fighting but not those who like fights because she doesn't like guys like that," she continued walking towards the motorbike.
"Thanks!" said Yuda without taking his eyes off Raisa."Still hungry?"Raisa hit her brother's arm lightly, pointing at the wound on Fairuz's face."Better to go home, brother needs to be treated."Fairuz ruffled his younger brother's hair slowly, "count practicing Flash moves earlier, hahah." Fairuz starts the motor."Your guy can go home alone," said Fairuz when he noticed Raisa's worried gaze through the rearview mirror.Raisa just keeps quiet looking at the rear view mirror that shows Yuda in the same position as before. Fairuz told him to put his arms around his waist. Raisa looked back at the same time Yuda's gaze said thank you with his gesture."Yuda! It's okay, right?" The sound of intermittent breathing distracts Yuda's attention behind him. Rio ran followed by Alif who got out of the car with Rijal."Your face is bruised, is there anything broken?" asked Rijal checking Yuda's condition."No, I'm fine.""Sorry, I didn't know that you were ganged up on with them. It's because of you Lif that forced us to tease that girl," Rio said, getting a rebuttal from Alif who defended him."I don't know he's been taken, why are they just hitting Yuda anyway. Why did they also come out of the cafe earlier?""Already ah, you guys don't blame each other, it's better if we go home, don't see Yuda's face all bruised?" Rijal pulls Yuda to the car, confused by the behavior of Rio and Alif who can't be wiser in a precarious situation."You don't know what is stupid, right? It's a normal thing for Yuda to like individuals not to invite us to fight, so that he looks good. Right, Yud?" said Rijal sarcastically opening the rear car door."Already ah, you are very complicated. I'm used to it too.""Yey, fortunately your head doesn't leak and your face is still handsome, how can you invite Raisa to walk tomorrow if you're in this condition," Rio said in the steering wheel."Eh, where are you taking him?" Alif said cheerfully, "I can ask your help to ask for Raisa's friend's number, the cute one. Arifah."Rijak tapped Alif's head, who was still selfish."How have you progressed?" asked Rijal remembering how Yuda had told him about his failure to take Raisa home."Why are you smiling to yourself?" The three of them looked at Yuda who was leaning on the seat in surprise while looking at his cell phone."Can you text the car raffle?""Your material, Lif.""Yey lo, it's the same time Jal. Eh, the SMS from Raisa turned out to be, ciee." Alif could not resist the temptation when he saw the name of the successful sender of the message, which made Yuda smile without being manipulated.Rio peeked at Yuda who was silencing Alif's bio from behind the rearview mirror."Dho, I hope your plan works!"-Maybe love is your thing but not mine. Love for me is you-***Raisa descended the stairs deftly to the kitchen. Looking at the memo in front of the refrigerator from his mother who accompanied my father to overseas meetings. Even though it's a holiday, they have a hard time getting together."Brother, where are you ?!" shouted Raisa looking all over the house. Usually, if not in the room, it must be in the backyard of the house, in the small field where Fairuz practiced his karate. Raisa opened the back door, walked unsteadily carrying lots of food.Raisa always teased Fairuz when he saw him practice. He was about to throw peanuts from the top of the tree house and now he was trying to get past the small fence Fairuz had deliberately made so that just not just anyone could enter."Ouch!" A long snort of bazz sounded in Raisa's ears when she had successfully stepped on the ground. A grimace sounded back slowly Raisa passed through t
-I can understand all foreign language translations but not your eye language which is difficult to translate-***"What are you doing in my room?" Raisa asked with a glare when she found Yuda standing in front of her room."Brother!" Raisa knocked on Fairuz's room which was located not far from his room."Brother Fairuz left an hour ago. You were really in the room for a long time. How come you haven't changed your clothes?""Why-you know why getting into da— ''Yuda covered Raisa's mouth, took her into the bathroom then locked her from the outside while telling Raisa to immediately take a shower and change clothes because they were going out for a walk."Don't be late!" shouted Yuda then sat on his bed Raisa waiting for the girl to wash herself while grumbling in there."You came out for a moment I can't change my clothes!" Raisa shouted from inside after fifteen minutes had passed, meaning that sh
-Sometimes when you wish that moment you have to be ready with all the answers-***"Why you? Don't have any more money? You don't have to invite to watch if you don't have capital," said Raisa when Yuda was busy checking something in his pocket. Raisa stomped her feet while on tiptoe to take jumbo popcorn then walked towards the exit."Sorry, Ma'am," said Yuda politely after Raisa who had come out to the parking lot."Wait," he intercepted, pulling Raisa's hand, "let's go inside!"Raisa looked at him fiercely. Glancing at the watch, it was nine o'clock in the evening. He was annoyed by Yuda's attitude who was still holding him back even though his friends had come home an hour ago from the game. Actually Raisa is reluctant to follow Yuda's invitation to the cinema because it's just the two of her, but considering there is a list of films with high ratings that she hasn't seen, Raisa can't refuse the invitation to watch.
-Do not cry for people who waste love because tears are expensive-***Yuda threw his bag at Rio who had just gotten off the motorbike. He walked ahead of Rio who didn't have time to curse. From the front, Ridho walked in a cool style that invites admiration from the women in the corridor."That's so bad," Ridho said, patting Yuda's shoulder and then turning to Rio."He complained, Raisa was the only girl who refused to be picked up to go to school together," Rio said holding back his laughter."Well, now I also say what. Raisa is indeed difficult to beat. You picked him up late, Raisa is already half an hour at school," said Ridho who accidentally passed Raisa's class and saw the woman talking with her best friend. Luckily, Bela didn't exist."Eeh, where are you going ?!" exclaimed Ridho when Yuda climbed the stairs deftly.Yuda waved his hand and walked without looking back. Rio said goodbye to Ridho to foll
-I have no right to hold you back. But when your feet take a step, my prayers are always with you-***Raisa breathed a sigh of relief, placing her buttocks on the corner chair of the library. The rest hour will be calm and free from Yuda's disturbances. The man looks rushed out of the classroom when the bell rings at the same time Rio. Even though Raisa was a little curious about what happened, Raisa tried to ignore it."Want to drink?"Raisa turned to the right side, saw Atha who was thrusting a water bottle towards her."No officers, just drink!" he said dismissing Raisa's doubts because of the prohibition on eating and drinking in the library. Finally Raisa took the mineral and drank it because she was very thirsty. Not forgetting he thanked him."There's no 'something, right?" he said not just afraid because there was poison or something but more than what men expect from women. You know what i mean."Yes
- Thinking you are hurt I feel guilty, what about the feelings based on this lie? -***Bela looked worried and kept trying to call Raisa's number which was out of reach. His orders were left idle. Meanwhile, Arifah and Kinta tried to think well while finishing a bowl of meatball noodles.It's been fifteen times Bela has called Raisa but the results are still the same. He glanced at the wrist watch, it's unusual for Raisa to not appear at all. Even though Raisa went to the library during a break but the last five minutes the bell changed, Raisa would definitely go to the canteen to buy a drink and now it's only two minutes before the bell will ring. Raisa is still not visible. Bela narrowed her eyes when she caught the figure of Yuda who entered the cafeteria with Rio and Ridho. Without thinking about her estrangement with Ridho, Bela got up and walked towards Yuda.Yuda still didn't realize that Bela had called him because he was too busy thinking about the
-Look into my eyes when you're scared and say my name in your heart-***Yuda honked his motorbike horn loudly without stopping until the brown warehouse door opened, showing Arkan and Nando. Yuda got off his motorbike and walked towards them with his bare hands while his opponent was equipped with battle gear."Looks like you are afraid to fight me empty-handed, let alone alone," Yuda sarcastically challenged Arkan to man to man.Arkan grinned and turned his head at Bobby to open the door wide. Yuda glared sharply, his jaw hard and his hands clenched to hold back his emotions when he saw Raisa tied to a chair with her mouth gagged with a rough cloth. Their eyes speak to each other."Yud, help me but don't get hurt.""I'll help you, Raisa, even if I get hurt later.""You want to be free— ''"Where is my sister ?!"Arkan's words were cut short when the roar of the motorbike along with a loud scream app
-I never doubt the choice, also applies when choosing you, as a false feeling of course-***"Yuda ..."Raisa tried to grab the door algae, forcing herself to stay awake in fear in the dark. His hoarse voice no longer shouted the names of those who were expected to get him out of here. Raisa only sighs when she calls Yuda's name, who knows how much longer she can endure with her trembling body. The blue light from his watch had faded two minutes ago as it only lasted half an hour."You know, if you think Yuda can save you, I think you are quite special to him. But, as far as I am, Yuda has never really thought of women as something special. And, maybe you are the same as them."Arkan's words to him were denied when Raisa saw Yuda's emotional face in front of him. There is a hint of happiness in him when he finds out that Yuda courageously came alone to the place of imprisonment. Raisa didn't care whether she was really special to Yuda or not, considerin
-If the twilight stays orange even when it's cloudy,if the moon is still dim even in the darkthen you're still my curved rainbowafter the rain on my veranda that I always hug-***Atha had just arrived at Raisa's house and was chatting with other friends, she was so worried when she heard the news of Raisa's loss. His mind was racing. Atha would rather not be with Raisa because the woman chose Yuda than she had to lose Raisa forever because of the kidnapper's evil deeds. For him, being able to see Raisa smiling even though he wasn't the reason behind the laughter that broke out on the girl's pink lips but he was grateful at least that he could still breathe the same air under the same sky. Atha is determined with her decision to continue studying abroad, at least that's the way Ampus let the two of them be together without having to endure a wound in the chest due to jealousy. Atha is sure she will find a piece of a warm heart, who knows w
-I'm not asking you to sacrifice, I just want you to be honest with your feelings. Can?-RAISA blinked to get used to her dim vision with the room light lit by yellow neon lights. Raisa's body was tied to a chair, exactly the same as what happened to her two weeks ago by Arkan et al. But the situation now is much different and very dangerous considering the abductors are international mafia."Are you awake?" A hoarse voice entered his ears along with the ticking of shoes followed by Doli's men. Raisa looked up at Doli's fierce face, still the same as before when they met. If only his hands were not tied Raisa wanted to destroy the sly smile on Doli's fierce face, as if mocking her weak.Doli told his men to put Raisa's front seat three steps away and then he sat on it. Raisa stared intently when Doli cupped her face face to face."The first rule is don't glare at me," said Doli, opening the cellphone screen."Two choices for you to be free. First,
-Because I was hurt I wanted to share the pain with you but in the end your sincere feelings made me really fall into regret-***Raisa spills all her feelings on the hamster. The innocent doll had received countless hammer blows nonstop as her head popped out of the hole randomly. It's not a gift that he wants to collect when the points are full but his way of releasing all the worries, sorrows and sorrows that can't be channeled through tears.Warning: Especially for children.For the first time Raisa doesn't regret being a citizen who disobeys the rules, it's not a criminal offense anyway. The supervising officer had wanted to reprimand Raisa but Bela and Arifah immediately took over by negotiating, they even bought a lot of special coins for him to play all kinds of rides."Make you!" Raisa put all her strength into lifting the hammer and then knocked on the hamster's head, as if the cute animal was someone she hated so much.How not to
-If erasing feelings is the same as erasing ink on a blackboard then my feelings are like being written with permanent marker ink but can never be erased-One week later …Yuda was transfixed when the figure of a woman who had adorned his heart for several years, felt lost for her departure now stood in front of him. Still the same small lips with round black eyes smiling at him."Yu, I'm not lying. I'm Angel, Yu, I'm sorry I just met you. I miss you, Yu." Angel held Yuda's hand. "You don't miss me?" Yuda gasped, deep down he missed Angel so much that for years the feeling had lodged in his heart. But somehow now it feels different. The warmth when their hands touched was not the same as it used to be. His hatred of betrayal still lingers."Sorry, Ngel, I'm just here to make sure it's you who's been chatting with me all this time or not." Angel's smile faded."What do you mean, Yu. You still love me, right, Yu? I know you're Yu, you can't mo
-If I could choose I want to sleep and have sweet dreams because my real life right now is the worst nightmare of the whole day, it's you-***Raisa looked in the mirror while cursing herself for being a crybaby so that her eye bags were so black even though they had been sprinkled with powder, they still didn't cover the dark marks from crying all night. He intended not to go to school, but a message from Bela last night informed him that the first and second hours of the try out meant that he had to attend. Raisa's problem of not studying is not so burdensome because the cross questions and the material is also a test of what they have learned. He was a little sure he could answer it easily.Not to mention the exact reason what he would say to Fairus later when he was suddenly absent. Finding him home in a sad state yesterday afternoon Fairus was almost angry, especially if he knew that he was crying because of Yuda, maybe his brother would immediately teach Y
"To be loved or to love? Anyone wants both. And I'm not lucky enough to just love."(The End, Secrets and Lies)***"Wow, you!" Fairuz threw a punch at Yuda's face who wasn't ready for a surprise attack. Fairuz pulled back Yuda's collar."I've warned you to stay away from my sister if you want your life to be safe."Yuda raised his hand when Ridho was about to approach. No one should interfere, this is his own business and he will sort it out."You make him cry, it means you're ready to—""Bang, okay, let's talk okay," said Rio, unable to bear to see Yuda's battered face. The man could have fought back but Yuda chose not to return every punch he received, letting Fairuz take all his emotions out on him."From now on you stay away from my sister!" Fairuz again punched Yuda in the face until he fell down and then left Yuda's big house."You're all right, right?" Ridho approached, helping Yuda up. The corner of Yuda's
-When someone is hurt, he prefers to cry than talk-***At four o'clock Raisa arrived at her house, she immediately got out of the car and went inside to her room on the second floor. Rio also turned his car to take Kinta home. Yes, Raisa did not go home together in a car with Yuda. The incident this morning made Raisa choose distance from the man without feelings.Raisa still clearly remembers how Yuda left her alone when she opened her eyes, only emptiness stretched out. With sluggish steps, he returned to the Villa and immediately packed up his things to fly to Jakarta. His friend scolded Yuda for the sadness Raisa received but Yuda chose to ignore it, accepting all the insults without rebuttal. Everyone has returned to Jakarta but a piece of Raisa's heart is left in Lombok. A piece of heart that is hurt for the irresponsibility of Yuda who has grown the seeds of love in his heart."Sister, are you asleep? Mother just cooked your favorite food. Come on
-I want to hold your hand but the cavities in your fingers refuse. I give up as long as you're happy-***Author POVRaisa feels guilty. Bela led him up the steps of the villa. Kinta was about to knock on the door but suddenly the maroon door opened showing Rio's face."Come on, he's already inside," Rio said telling them to come in. Raisa immediately broke through, calling Yuda's name.The man seemed to be playing the guitar. Raisa stopped her steps when she saw Yuda on the sofa, Ridho who was sitting opposite chose to get up, pulling Bela up. Rio did the same thing, taking Kinta out while Alif had already entered the kitchen with Arifah. Raisa tried to call Yuda but there was no answer, her fingers were still patiently playing the strings. Raisa chose to sit opposite him, listening to the melodious rhythm that he only knew this time that Yuda was good at playing the guitar."Yu, I want to talk," said Raisa when Yuda stopped his game.
Forgiving the past is my way to always be happy with you. Hope you're not just a part of the past that will be a memory-***Raisa POVI took a breath of fresh air, staring at Karen's brown irises. All these mistakes must be made up for immediately, I will do whatever it takes but I don't want to lie again, like I used to."Karen, I don't want us to be like we used to be. I'm sorry that I pretended to accept your feelings and became your temporary boyfriend while I didn't have any feelings, more than friends," I said.Karen was still waiting for the next sentence I would say to her, in response."And because of that mistake I got the karma according to your wishes," I continued, smiling sadly. Karen's eyebrows shot up, I don't know if she was happy to hear that."I've never forgotten that and I always hope that one day I'll see you again, I'm sorry. You can be my best friend again." Again, I sighed."If you ask if you're still