Confused Desire Part 5

ALEX'S P. O. V

"Leo. I thought you and Jayden have a thing going. Why is he still chasing after Toby?"    -Lucas

"Jayden and I are just friends. Right now I do not know how to confess to my crush. Besides Xander I'm a beta, his well suited with a human than me mostly because they are so good at hiding. Tsk. It is fine man, give him the benefit of the doubt. Toby has a fragile innocence in him the alpha man see and want to possess, I don't blame them."     -Leo

"That a whole load of B/S."    

Lucas stormed of clearly affected by the fact Jayden seems to be in love with Toby. Toby is Lucas fated mate. Jayden likes Leo. Leo is clearly confused by the sexual perversions because he claims to love someone and that might have been true perhaps a two years ago but now it is just sad perversion. She honestly tried understanding this world and failed but the best she can do is not engage in topics that will make her sound like a self righteousness, condemning fool in their eyes.

"Relax Lucas. Stop the self- pity Leo. Okay, pretend I am your crush. How would you speak to me?"

"Uh. I don't think-"

"Trust me, do not think. Feel. It means nothing now but tomorrow your crush might fall head over heels for you."

"Okay. Fine. Here goes nothing. I really do not want to think of us as just friends but at times I am forced too. I love it when you laugh while watching horror movies, don't mind you hate thriller and cry when watching romance. You are weird like that and I do not know whether you notice your reactions but sometimes they the only thing I see. I do not know why I constantly need to be intoxicated when I am around you Ale-... Why I am constantly nervous around you and expecting you to see me. Is it a lot for me to ask for you to acknowledge, I am here? Look at me."

Silence lingered for them longer than was appreciated but when Alex heard those words she imagined them coming from someone else. Noah? Noah, who looks to be his junior but his aura screamed dominance. He had to stay away from the cryptic imagination, perhaps she's fallen to the sexual perversions on this world. She came to Moon University to be a doctor and to build her own practice off the ground. Priorities straightened her attention. In the beginning of her journey she met his friends who have a different prospective to life that although she disapproved of most practices that are considerds sexual sins. Those same friends never once took her stubborness to accept their general explination of the human constitution of insanity as an offense.

To be quite honest, some times her opinions do slip out but mostly she prefered to keep quiet opting to choose silence than violance. Eventually they did somewhat change her dark view of life by giving her hope, and a loving family that was not always acception on each others political view but the fact they are still good friends testified the solidity of their friendship. Alex applauded her friend as if she heard everything.

"Um. Sweet. That sounds good, I say make your approach more romantic and I promise you a booming success in your pursuit. Where is this fool? He called an emergency meeting, got pissy and disapeared?"

Speak of the devil, Lucas stepped in but there's something in his hand. Suspicious of his current antics they both slowly reached out to take the white envelops. 

"I booked the room, those are your key cards for the room. Do not lose it. Brother and sister we depart tomorrow, I have to get going I want to officially ask my omega out. So my dear friends I need to make sure today goes according to plan. Thank you guys again, bye."

"Does that mean we share a hotel room? Damn I hope Lucas knows what his doing."

"You both share an incredibly high IQ, I'm sure he thought everything out. I am going to meet up with Jayden, um see you tomorrow."

"Bye."

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LEO'S P. O. V

Leaving Alex's dorm, Leo made his way around the dark city and at the end of the road he made it in front of Jayden's dormitory. The man opened the door as if he sensed his arrival and perhaps he did. The moment he entered the dimmed room he switched his mind off. Jayden had one rule, once he crossed the line there would be no thinking until they are done. All of the days stresses were piped down by a powerful, demanding alpha wolf with strong connections to his body.

At least for tonight there would be no thinking required. The moment the door shut thoughts of school, His secret love for Alex, Toby and Lucas were left outside as per agreement. Okay. Let us go back to the beginning, when Lucas introduced the duo an icon of a bad boy model. Actually he was the first to notice the subtle glances. The way he was protective over the ignorant man. Jayden only wanted the best which included taking him to and from school that one week he had car troubles.

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One night they both went out for drinks and the observant man, made him confront his feelings. Those feelings confused him because he has never been attracted to man, he was taken aback by the alpha.... He has always been in love with 'the girl next door' that also happens to be on of his best friends. Literally from the day he made Lucas invite her to join our group, from the moment he subtle beauty caught his attention. After a lot of alcoholic drinks and begging from his side Jayden succumbed to his enticing plea.

He wanted to know how it feels to be with a man and the only man that would never laugh at his inexperience was with this man before him. He was of course domineering and demanding in bed as his aura suggested. Although at times he was also attentive, coarse and passionate in one go. Jayden is the first and only guy thus far, the only guy he has ever been with sexually.

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Their relationship was never publicized nor was it anything serious. They were just friends with benefits to simplify things. No strings, in fact Leo was the one to suggest they this relationship as casual as his style. Having a friends with benefits relationship with Jayden was not bad at all, Jayden took care of him as if there were a thing. Unlike when he is with girls, he did have do all the work which includes thinking.

Although his mind still resides on Alex which prevented anything more from happening between them. Until now. Now he cannot find it in himself to stop coming back. It is his dammed interest in that Toby made him somewhat jealous but not really. Hell that is the reason he came over sooner and more frequent than once or twice a month as per agreement. Toby belongs to Lucas, it is not that he is jealous. In fact he is just being a good friend by sacrificing his body. Okay fine sue him for wanting suitors away from the alpha and omega couple.

[Yeah right...]

(Shut up!) 

[His ours.] 

(Yeah! No wait what? No. I am sorry wolf but he cannot. We are both in love with different people.)

This was completely friends with benefits no catching feelings. Common Leo it is just primal pleasure, that is about all he needed. Jayden is an alpha and I his beta, those railways could never cross not even the idea. 

"Why are you here?"

"I- I just want."

He stammered not looking at his face refusing to succumb to his penetrating dark gaze. Grabbing his chin he forced him to look at him and just like that his defiance vanished.

"Say it."

"You."

They both benefit from this contract 'relationship', he gets the bliss of not thinking and the alpha gets to use his body. Win- win. But why is he not happy? He is not supposed to end up with Toby so is continuing doing this him being a good guy? He is doing nothing wrong but sleeping with him, is that so wrong?