I am already tired of trying to run away from my real feelings and masked it with the past promises.
"Uh-huh…" he said slowly, trying to organize his thoughts about me. Maybe… about us. "Why would you cry about us kissing?"
I gasped and looked up at him. Nagsimula na namang mangilid ang mga luha ko sa mata dahil sa sinabi niya. He did not deny that they indeed kissed! Tinawag nga niyang "my woman" kanina kaya bakit hindi sila puwedeng maghalikan!? Tang ina!
Bumitaw sa akin ang kamay niyang kanina pa pala nakahawak sa braso ko. He reached my face and wiped the tears that traced my cheek.
"Tell me, why are you crying about it…" he p
From: Ford When are you going to Kian's house? Nahinto ako sa ginagawa. We were still finishing a few touches on the freedom wall. Nalalapit na kasi ang exam kaya kailangan bago pa dumaan ang exam ay matapos na kami. I stood up from squatting and excused myself to someone nearby. Tinanguan lang ako nito habang hindi iniiwan ang ginagawa. I looked for Ford on F******k and sent him a message on Messenger instead. Wala akong load! Kapag hindi niya makita ang reply ko, hindi ko na iyon kasalanan. Sasabihin ko na lang na nag-reply naman ako, hindi nga lang niya binisita ang Messenger. At tsaka, halata namang wala akong load! Wala akong masyadong ka-text o katawag at may free naman kaya bakit ko pahihirapan ang sarili? Good thing he was able to figure out my character in a few seconds, even earlier than I
Kaya nang sumunod na araw habang hinahatid niya ako kila Kian, naghahanap ako ng magandang tiyempo kung kailan siya kokomprontahin.Huminto ang sasakyan sa labas ng malaking gate nila Kian. Nakasilip lang ako sa labas at hinahanda ang sarili ko. I was so determined to do it but now I am shaking in my bones! Dahil sigurado akong sa aming dalawa, mas malaki ang kumpyansa niya sa sariling tanggihan ang maaaring sabihin ko. While I would just succumb on my opinions because most of the times, he was right. Ngayon ay wala siya sa tama! I can't have him ruining all of his study schedule just because he messed up a little bit.Tinanggal ko ang seatbelt at humarap sa kaniya. He was just watching me, probably pondering on my silence. My mind was floating in the surface though. I was sauntering on the scruple I am feeling."What time will you
Bago pa dumating ang araw kung kailan gaganapin ang exam namin ay natapos na rin sa wakas ang Freedom Wall namin. It took a lot of time to finish small details. Although compared to when we have a lot of things to do, this was less tiring. Only that you have to be very careful not to mess up. Isa ako sa mga kailangang tumapos sa mga maliliit na detalye. That also includes the rest of the club officers. Ramdam ko ang pagsisisi na naging isa ako sa mga officers. Ganoon din siguro ang mga kasama ko. I know we only felt that way at this period of time though. We still carry the same pride of being the officers of our club. Pero gusto ko na lang humiga habang ginagawa ang natitirang gawain. Hindi naman na masyadong binibigyan ng pansin ng mga estudyante ang Freedom Wall! They were enthusiastic about it at first. They followed the proper curriculum about this gimmick but time passes and it was just forgotten. Just another display to the school. Kairo’s parents were very understanding kno
The fun started with the student council representatives hosting the event. They had games and all which I didn’t participate because I was wearing a dress. Si Athelia naman ay sumali pa rin kahit na nakapalda. She even dragged Ena along with her when she saw that Adamson was participating in one of the games. I remembered... it was called newspaper dance. Tahimik lang akong nakaupo at nanonood sa mga estudyante. “You don’t want to join in?” Ford asked. Umiling ako.Narito lang din siya at nagmamasid sa kasiyahan ng lahat. Kian and Ivan was watching with us from the next table as well. Ang tatlo lang ang umalis sa kinauupuan para makisali sa kung anong mga palaro. Athelia even removed her heels to win the games. Sa tuwing bumabalik siya ay may panibago na naman siyang dalang box na napalanunan. Ena was holding a bag of candies as a consolation price. “How about you? You might want to play the games.” “Do you want me to?” he asked. Bahagya niya akong niyuko. Our eyes met and my ch
Inayos ko ang tassel earrings sa tenga ko. I put on the last thing I haven't applied yet to put color on my pale face. Ang may kaputlaan kong labi ay nabigyan kahit papaano ng kulay pagkatapos kong lagyan ng pulang lipstick ang labi. I sprayed ounce of perfume on my neck, collar bone, wrist and at the back of my ears. Vanilla scent played inside the four-cornered room as I swayed gracefully in front of the mirror. Huling pasada, nang makuntento sa itsura ay lumabas ako ng kuwarto. Ngayon magaganap ang pinakahihintay kong grant art exhibit. This was so special for me because this was a special event only for myself after all the hardworks and efforts I'd spent to prepare. Matagal ko nang pinangarap mangyari ang lahat ng ito, ngayon ay narito na. Abala nang makarating sa venue ang mga tauhan. My assistant was instructing huge and tall guys where to put my art canvas. Lahat ay maingat na maingat sa ginagawa, natatakot na makasira ng mga ipininta ko. They were all sealed in a fragile fra
Usok ang una kong namataan pagkamulat ng dalawang mga mata. I coughed painfully when I smelled the toxic smoke from an engine. I felt a hot sticky fluid rolled down my cheeks and some coated a part of my forehead. Sumasakit ang katawan ko at tanging daing lamang ang naririnig sa sarili habang sinusubukang gumapang papalabas ng isang nakataob na sasakyan. "May bata sa ilalim!" Naghiyawan ang mga natatarantang mga tao na pumapalibot sa sasakyan. My head went dizzy and everyone around me seemed to be fading away. I only heard the faint sound of an ambulance and the sound of the panicking people before I felt a huge hand encircling my small fragile frame.Iyon ang paulit-ulit na tumatakbo sa aking isipan kahit pa noong inilagay na ako sa bahay ampuna
I took scholarship examination in Chua High School and Colleges that summer. I spent the Summer earning money by selling halo-halo to our place. Wala pa kasi ang result ng kinuha kong exam at lalabas pa sa katapusan ng May. If I may not be able to pass it, then I will just continue studying in my former school. Kapag nakapasa naman ay magkakaroon ako ng formal enrollment. I wanted so much to be in that school so I studied hard the day before the scholarship examination. Naghanap ako ng mga coverage na madalas ilabas nila sa examination. Kadalasan doon ay mga lesson na na-take na namin sa mga naunang year. May mga bago ring lesson at kumuha na lang ako ng mga PDF files and google drive para mapag-aralan.
The whole week of class was just all about the rules and the school. Second day, we had the usual routine where the teacher introduces themselves and we had to do the same thing.May subjects na rin na kaklase ko si Athelia at sa kasamaang palad, marami ring subjects na kaklase ko iyong si Ford. There were even subjects that Ena and his were in the same class! The horrified look on Ena's face were remnants in my mind. Si Athelia naman nang malaman iyon ay halos isumpa na ang buong angkan namin dahil hindi namin siya naging kaklase roon.During Friday, we only had one subject. It was PE day for the whole 9am up to 12pm. May kaunting break time naman daw gaya ng in-orient sa amin ng teacher namin pero thirty minutes lang, saktong pang-recess. Since we only have our first week then, it only happened to had orientation about the subjec