CHAPTER 1
I no longer know what is happening to me now. I just woke up in a familiar room that all I could see was color white.
Frantically, I slowly opened my eyes, which were now dazzled by the sunlight hitting my whole face. Especially since the window is open and even the curtain is not closed.
“You’re awake!” An angry tone that I looked at startled me was my mother.
“Fúck, Kara! If I didn’t order one of our housemaid to check on you at your condo? You may not be here now. What are you doing to yourself and getting too drunk?” I was about to speak when suddenly the door to this private room was suddenly open. Dad entered, looking at me now with concern.
“Kara…” he said, with a smile on his face.
Mom sighed loudly as she calmed herself, and then turned around to avoid looking at me. Dad approached me once kiss on my forehead which obviously worried me now.
“Are you okay?” I nodded at his question, which he also smiled at, and then he stroked my hair.
“Claire, I’m leaving first. You will take care of Kara here?” Mom turned to dad and nodded and then they kissed on the lips right in front of me.
Dad kissed me again on my forehead, and then he left my room. When I looked at mommy, her glowing eyes greeted me furiously.
“Your daddy doesn’t know. So get organized! All he knows is your stomach hurts…. He doesn’t know that the reason you are here is that you got too drunk!” Mommy glared at me, which scared me. I get scared when mom is angry.
That’s why dad seems to be so easy on me. He wasn’t so angry that I thought he would scold me. He didn’t know that too much alcohol was the reason I was here.
“When he found out this? My god! Kara. When will you be change?” with action that mommy says she wants to choke me ready to hurt. But I know she can’t strangle me.
There is only one meaning to why she is like this. I disappointed her as her daughter.
“You remember! You have a career to guard. What if other fans of your find out that they admire you so much? You will survive?!” I silently looking at my mom without answering about her saying.
Yeah, everything I do, my action depends on all my fans. Especially I am an actress and sometimes a model of beauty products. That pressuring me actually.
It’s difficult to be an actress. I’m not that perfect. There are some dislike me. Also, some that I look like a saint if they admire. Which is that I’m not happy about. But this is what I chose before. This is the job where I can make money and buy everything I want.
So, I don’t have to rely on my parents.
“I called Maxine. She will be here later. She said it would be up to her to talk to the director. Where, next month, is the movie you will shoot.” I don’t know. If I still have an appetite for my next project. I’m feeling lazy. I want a happy life and breathe first into acting.
Only in him do I rejoice. But is it hard for him to love me back and not hide it for life?
“Kara! What are you crying about?” I woke up to mommy’s loud voice.
I just realized that tears are wet on both my cheeks now. I’m hurting.
“Shssss…” she told me when he wrapped me in his arms. I just cried because of my excessive emotions now. Because of my failure in love. So I got drunk.
“M-mom, isn’t it… I love him so much?” sobbing, I harvested as I looked mommy in her face. Mommy brought her face a little closer to me and then she touched both my cheeks, wiping my dripping tears. She smiled sweetly at me. She understood me now.
“I-I admit… he is my first love. Mom, I love him…. I just can’t cope. He’s been fooling me for a long time! The pain, M-Mom….” I pointed to my heart at the same time.
“You just cried. Take out all your anger on him. You know? I can’t be mad at you. You’re my child. I know you, I raised you. I can’t give up.” My tears flowed without a word at what mommy told me.
I regret I am her daughter. She doesn’t deserve to be like me. I was not the perfect daughter to her. I’m just crying. My mother’s love for me, unconditionally.
“Stay home. No one will know it. Your dad shouldn’t know. He will reject you as his child,” she said. I was suddenly nervous. I know dad. He can reject me as his daughter. I’m scared.
“Sell your condo and come home to us,” I thought about what she said.
Two years. I lived as an independent for two years and moved away from my parents. For the sake of my work and I want to live alone. They supported me. Especially since I am an only child. But not a spoiled brat.
“Mom…”
“Kara. If you were there? What will happen to you will get worse. What’s next?” I was silent at what she said.
Mom took both my hands and then pressed one of her palms to my right cheek.
“You can forget him too… There are many more men out there who will love you because you are the only woman in their life,” I could feel mom saying as she caressed my cheek that brought me strange feelings.
“No, Mom!” I turned my head in the other direction so that mommy wouldn’t touch me and avoid her. I heard her exhale a deep breath.
I was in the hospital for two days before I went home to our house. At my parents’ house. I can’t do anything. Mommy sold my condo. It was as if I had nowhere to go home. The sadness of my life.
“Direct, didn’t take you to be the star of a drama they were going to do,” I’m shocked by Maxine’s statement to me, my personal assistant, manager, secretary once. Everything. She is also my best friend. We’re just the same age. So we get along once in everything.
“They are not a loss. What is this?” At once, I took the folder she gave me. She just frowned and then sat down in front of me. There is a dining table here. We are here on the terrace near my room.
“Mrs. Black gives. It looks like she will file a case against you and… she is really serious.” My gaze returned to her with astonishment.
“Case?”
“You allegedly slapped his daughter. Captured by CCTV. ”
“Hahaha ha, I’m still real, huh?” at the same time my two eyes turn around at what I said.
I was not the first. Her daughter was the first to call me a ‘Mistress’. To my annoyance, I told her she faked her face. Because she pantomiming surgery.
That’s why she got angry and slapped me. To my annoyance, I also slapped her back. That could have her head removed. Case, her cheek turned red. Fake face.
The mother was angry. I am ready to sue.
In the depths of my mind. It shocked me when someone grabbed the folder from my grasp.
“Mom!” I didn’t expect her presence now that she was reading what was in the folder. She even fanned the folder, and then she smiled at me.
“I’ll take care of it.” I just laughed at her and then she turned around and left my room.
“That’s really cool, Auntie. Geez!”
Silence prevailed between the two of us. Until I heard Maxine sneeze. I looked at her.
“I heard Atom left for Mexico?” It offended me when she mentioned the name of the man I was killing now in my mind.
“With his family?”
“I don’t care about him anymore, Maxine. He has already decided. Just don’t let him come back into my life,” I said, annoyed with a hint of anger.
“Are you so drunk? Why is that?” I fell silent at the question of her.
Just think of the pain. How he turned his back on me like a trash can.
I told Maxine everything. But just a little. It hurts me when I remember badly.
I was about to enter my room. When I saw mommy right outside the door of my room. Its looks are underneath. Until she looked up and went straight to me. So our eyes met.
“Mom,” I began. She just crossed her arms while she looked at me without emotion. I turned the doorknob to open and go inside. Mommy followed me as I entered. So I turned to her to ask why she was here. When she immediately spoke.
“Marry Spencer!” I frowned at what I didn’t expect she tell to tell me. I don’t know what my mother is saying.
Spencer Ean Teves, is the son of her friend. Tita Peni. Spencer’s daddy, Tito Jordan, used to be my dad’s business partner.
Even though they are always here at home having dinner and we are at their house. Our parents are close. Spencer just smiles at me when our eyes met. He is a busy man, as far as I know. Especially since he is an engineer.
“Mom…. Get married? To Spencer?” I’m really confused. She nodded as if in tears.
“This is the only solution. You will marry Spencer. You two be married. DONE! My eyes narrowed at the harvest, and then my forehead wrinkled. I don’t get mommy.
“What’s done, mom? I can’t understand you,” I smiled at the same time that no one really could understand.
Mommy blinked and then let out a sigh.
“I don’t want other people to know about you. That you have become a mistress. Kara, pleaseee… You’re old, Darling. That’s it! It’s time for you to get married. Your daddy and I are old. So we want you to settle down in a quiet life.”
“What a quiet life, Mom? Do you think I’ll be quiet when I get married? Tsk!” it was obviously stressful, as what she said. I don’t know what shall I do.
I will not be quiet when I get married. How can I be quiet? If I don’t love who I will marry.
“Fine! Be a MISTRESS for life!” it’s irritating cry as she stared at me and then turned her back on me. She also slammed the door of my room shut, which really resounded with the force of the roar.
I’m holding my head, dizzy now. The pain seemed to break. Mommy and I can’t understand each other. I know she will be ignore me tomorrow. That I don’t want to happen.
CHAPTER 2Mom didn't even pay attention to me when we saw her in the kitchen. We had breakfast quietly. Dad noticed about the treatment of mom toward on me. But dad is quiet, and he doesn't want to bother about of me and my mom had.My dad is a real estate broker. So, he met Tito Jordan before, because Tito was looking for land on which to build his business. For daddy he helped. They became even closer. Most likely, they were mommy's classmate, Tito Jordan and his wife Tita Peni in high school. So, it is easy for them to get along and become friends."Mom!" this is her again. She teases me again about that Spencer. Her lips just frowned when she entered the room I was looking at. Until she sat on top of my bed. I thought, we're not okay too."Won't daddy find you there?" curiously I said. Because I know daddy is with her tonight.“Your daddy left. He go to the Casino.” I nodded at her promise. That's why she's here.“Why didn't you come along? You will enjoy it there.” She just stare
CHAPTER 3I don’t know what dad and Spencer were talking about. As far as I know. Mom said that Spencer had already agreed for our wedding.I don't know. I feel sorry for him. He’s obviously forced. I can really refuse. I have a choice. But I can not. I have a split tail.Now the two of us are measuring what we will wear for our wedding. Uncle Jordan, Aunt Peni, mommy and daddy are already finished to fit their outfits for the wedding day. They have already gone home. Spencer is supposed to take care of me here."Ma'am, are you sure about the wedding gown you chose?" at the same time he showed me the wedding gown I was going to wear. She is also the designer of the wedding gown I will wear on my wedding day.I looked at Spencer, who was now sitting on the sofa, who suddenly averted his gaze. I'm already standing. He doesn't want to be next to me. So I adjusted."That's okay," I said. Because I've already tried and it's perfect fits me. It's a tube and a kind of v-neck that revealing
For two days and three nights. Spencer did not come home to his condo. It was only at seven o'clock in the evening that he came home. He is wearing different clothes. Because he said before when he left. He coming home to his parents’ house.He came. Where I'm already sitting here at his dining table. Hopefully, for my dinner. Then he came and sat in front of me. He looked at me. So I got up to get him his plate. Wife 'duties. Then I laid it on the table in front of him.He took rice and then grilled chicken that I ordered at a restaurant. It's recently delivered. Just before he arrived. I don't know how to cook. I simply know how to cook, just like the fried eggs, hotdogs and other frozen foods that simply fry."Did you order this?" he asked without looking at me."Yes." He just glanced at me and then resumed his meal. I remained silent here and did not move my food. Maybe I'll just wait for him to finish and then my turn to finish my meal."Your dad is cool too, right?" he asked, sm
"Hello, mommy. What's up?"It's been a month since I talked to my mom. It's only now that I'm here in Tagaytay. In our shooting area.[I just missed my Princess.] I’m offended by what she said. After my wedding, neither dad nor I saw them anymore.“Mom, we're shooting a movie here in Tagaytay. I hope you support me,” then I wink. Even she is not in front of me now.[Sure, Darling. Your dad and I have always supported you. Why is Tagaytay so far from Makati City?]"Don't tell me you're going to visit me here?" She laughed on what I said.[Your dad is still busy. By the way, we are going to Australia. Katrina has given birth.] My heart was pounding.Katrina is my adopted sister. She's adopted by my mom then. As far as I know, we are both relatives. Because mommy seems to be her daddy's cousin. Their family is poor. They are ten siblings. She fell ill in the hospital. To where my parents paid her hospital bills. In return, my parents will take her to be considered a child.It's not mommy
At Maxine's condo, I spent the night. I didn’t go home to Spencer’s condo. He hasn't come home yet. He said to have been in Sorsogon for a long time.I heard from mommy that she and dad had gone home. That’s why I’m going straight to my parent's house now. I already have my belongings that I brought when Maxine and I went to Tagaytay."MOM!" I shouted, entering the house. I missed my favorite air freshener that mommy herself chose. They greeted me when I set foot inside the house. Our house is something I miss.“Kara, my darling. You are already here.” I opened both my arms to greet my mommy. I kissed her with a hug. As I hugged her, I was still cold. I really missed her so much.“My god! My princess is married...” I frowned at what she said. She didn't know that until now. I still mad at her by forcing me to marry Spencer. That's not a good boy!"Why aren't you with your husband?" it was a long time before I could answer mommy's question.“He is in Sorsogon and... was there for a lon
Maxine and I will meet today at the Karamax’s restaurant. She is still busy helping to handle the orders of some customers here. So I patiently waited for her here where I was sitting while drinking the coffee she made with me.Some looking at me are already smiling. I smile them back too. I know some of them know me and watch me on TV and I'm used to it. Be the center of attraction of some people.“I'm sorry if I take too long. Quantity as an order. Because of you! Go further here. So maybe some of your fans know you're here and they eat.” Its frowning promise made me smile.I go slowly down my head to put on my shade that looks like a pussycat on my head."I hope you wore that before," she complained at the same time. I think she has a period. So the temper.“By the way, why did you come? The shorter you are wearing.” She even examined what I was wearing from head to toe. What's wrong with what I'm wearing?It's just a tube dress that reaches up to my navel and then a skirt that doe
"WHAT?!"The strength of Maxine's voice. I scolded her so that she would lower down her voice. Some were already looking at us when she shouted.“So, we thought he was in Mexico. I mean, he's still here in the Philippines. In Mexico, Pampanga?” the size of her two eyes that are about to fall into oversized."Wait! Is it true you really met last night? And you .... You didn't tell me? I'm not watching you. I am your personal assistant. When am I there? I can beat that man.” Her voice dazzled me.“That's why I didn't take you. You are still brutal,” sadly I said to her while my two eyes are closing."What else did he tell you?" Something already excited her hurried question at the answer.“I was the one who threatened him. I just told him not to show me. My blood heats, and I said tha
WARNING: RATED SPG!READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!"Are you here again...” She started when I was here again at the Karamax’s restaurant.I’m dazed at once with my eyes closed.“It was boring there at Spencer’s condo! Do I have a next project?” she shook with nothing.“I have a friend who will open her new business that is all skin care products. It's up to me to suggest you to her? I'm sure. I'll take you to be the endorser of her products. ”"Are her products FDA approved?" she just snapped at my question. I'm just curious. I don't want to end up being blamed for the poor quality of products I endorse.“Gágá! My friends are dermatologists. So she is professional and experts to her beauty products she makes.” I gasped
“Babe..." I woke him up. He came home late last night and I don't know where he went. Every night he goes somewhere I don't know where."Hey! Wake up!" His eyes blinked as he realized when I threw a pillow at him.I'm on a bad trip now. My head is getting hot in the morning."Daddy has brought the children. Go ahead and sleep there! You sleep very well... Tsk!” Sarcastically I said, then I turned my back on him and left the room. I'm seething with rage now that I'm obsessed with this ownership. Maybe out of time I will give birth again in my temper.I'm pregnant. I have been pregnant for four months. And hoping... I hope it's a girl. It's like I have a daughter that I've wanted for a long time. The achievement for me is different when the Lord gives me a baby girl.Spencer and I have four boys. In the past four years. Kier and Sky added more. Tyler is the third and our youngest now, Ice, who just turned one-year-old.“Spencer!” My anger and annoyance with him has really reached the sk
SPENCER'S POVMy whole face's wrinkled because of my irritation now.Mommy wakes me to go to her friend's house and we'll have dinner here right now“Spencer, where is Sen?”"Mom!" Sen, who just got off the car now.Then she came closer to us and we walked together inside the house now. While daddy followed behind."Peni! Hello Spencer! Hello Sen…” I ignored the greeting of Aunt Claire, who is a friend of mom and dad and we entered their house now.Mom looked at me, when our eyes met, as if she was telling me to smile. But I will be the one to follow. I didn't follow her. My whole face’s still wrinkled now with my facial expressions.Because their daughters are not yet. They made us sit at their dining table. Just the two of us of Sen. Because Aunt Claire pulled mommy and I didn't know where they were going.
There are events in life, one must be lose.Why is there such a thing?Can't we just have nothing to lose and just live here forever?Why is it necessary to lose something more...Sadness engulfed me after that happened. Even if it's hard... Even if it hurts my heart. I tried to attend the burial now.I was with mommy, who supported me and never left me. I am really saddened by its loss.I'm looking forward to the memories, happiness that we can create. But no more... The person I mean is gone."Kara, let's go home." Mommy hugged me, causing me to close my eyes. I'm wearing shades now. Because my eyes are puffy and big.She supporting me to leave where I was standing just before.The people who were looking at us as we passed said that I just want to end up in... I don't know... I ju
My world stopped even my breathing now.Spencer, with his two eyes wide. I'm nervous about him now. His mouth was agape, stiff and unable to close.“S-Spencer— Spencer ...” I called him sobbing while he was getting heavier now that my two arms were now stuck in both of his armpits. That's why I can feel his weight that he is gradually decreasing.I can't take this. I'm sobbing that my eyes are closed from crying now. My husband...“Spencer... Don't make fun of me now. Please...” I sobbed, begging him. This can't be. He has been away from us for a long time. He won't leave us like this again.I was going to call Sen, when she’s not here. Even Rago and Jacob are no longer here. So I cried out what to do. Then I turned to Kendra, who was now sprawled on the floor. Every breath I take now is heavy.I can’t take it a
I'm just here on the sidelines watching them in their drama.I did not help with the weaning. Spencer is actually the referee between Rago and Jacob, who doesn't want to stop now, full energy and full charge.Sen is currently still crying now on her knees. I was about to approach her when Rago suddenly grabbed her hand to make her stand up.Jacob didn't enjoy that Rago go to Sen. He run toward Rago and punch it. Until they exchanged fists again that they would dare now."Stop it! You're like children!" Spencer loudly told them to stop. Until they moved away from each other, catching their breaths now. Sen's wail is the one that dominates here now that we all looked at her. Silence prevailed, with none of us speaking now that we were all silent."What am I to you, Sen?" Jacob asked his wife. We are all looking at Sen now, waiting for her answer."I'm you
Maxine was at home every day, and I knew she was worried about me.She couldn't accept why I hid from her. That happened to me before.She said she noticed that I had a problem. Why didn't I report to her. She couldn't get over feeling guilty. I love her... Her pure heart towards me. I'm the only one trying to hide what I don't want them to know, and I should be the only one who gets caught.I'm sorry too. I did that wrong.I don't know who to tell because my mind confused at that time.It was my mistake that I hid it and didn't tell the people who really cared about me.Spencer still hasn't come home now, busy looking for his sister. Sen never came home and none of us knew where she was. Her parents are worried about her and even her husband where she is."Where are you going again?" He looked at me with a threat. I know he will not take me with him whe
I want to see Mrs. Rosales now. Because I know she knows something.Maybe she got bored with me going back and forth to her house. So she ordered her bodyguard to treat me like that... So that I would stop.Why?That's why the man used to look at me like he was undressing me. Then we met at a TV station where I was fell. I don't even know why he was there.I also learned that Rustin is Rago's older brother. They are brothers on the father's side.Security was tight here at home. Mommy has released from the hospital. But she's at daddy's house now and Lindsey will take care of her. The situation here at home is difficult as we are already dangerous here.Me and Spencer also decided that we will go to Italy first. One of his uncles is there. We will leave the country first and we will come back later when the jerk Rustin is in jail. The nerve of that bastard.
KARA'S POVI'm alone in the bed I'm lying on now with tears streaming down my face.This pain in my chest. I don't know where this is going—I'm hurting.My heart is still okay. Honestly, I really can't do it anymore. I want to give up.My husband has left me and doesn't care about me...I can't take it anymore... I give up."Mom!" I exclaimed when I entered her room today. I have mommy's eyes with joy and a smile on her lips now.Daddy intended to come and pick me up at home. To tell me that mommy is awake, and he sent me over here to see my mom that I missed."Mom..." My words were hard, and then I approached her and hugged her. Then my tears abundant flowed continuously and could not be stop.I felt mom rub my back.Finally! She is awake. This
KARA'S POVWhy is it that all the things that I did not expect to happen in my life, still happened?Life is unfair. I have so many questions about why this is... Because honestly, I'm not happy anymore. That I really want to leave the life I have now. I hope so... it's just a dream. That I will wake up even if I am sleeping.“Spencer left. He said goodbye to me." Mom's welcome words when I arrived in the kitchen today.Both of my shoulders slumped to sit in a chair now here. My husband and I don't talk anymore. Since I confessed to him what happened to me.Then he didn't come home either. He didn't come home for three days. He came home just last night, but he left immediately this morning before I woke up.I don't even know where he slept. Because he didn't sleep next to me in our room.It hurts&h