I feel so bad, I felt like all of my omissions are slowly taking advantage of me. I can't do things like before, I drink but I don't get drunk and I hate it. Suddenly there's a knock from my door."Come in,” mahinahon kong sabi, ngunit si Luke ito."Kent Axel is not showing any responses, but I noticed that he's really affected. We don't know what to do anymore," ipinapaalam ni Luke, nasapo ko ang mukha sa sobrang konsensya."What did I do..""Let's not just blame ourselves, it happened and it was destined to happen." Umiling iling ako."If only I tried harder,” bulong ko."Tanga, you can't undo what you did. Just accept it and make a move for it,” inis niyang sermon kaya bumuntong hininga ako."He's killing himself from not eating, nor drinking. He looks dehydrated." Umiling ako sa narinig."Even Saji, galit sa'yo gago ka kasi,” dismayadong sabi ni Luke kaya ngumiwi ako at nahiga sa kama."I'll talk to her.""Asa ka tanga,” singhal ni Luke.Isang linggo ang lumipas na hindi ko kinaus
It took me three days to meet her again, It was on the bus stop. Isn't she using a car? She's not even using a cap it's already afternoon. Mahahamugan siya, napabuntong hininga ako at bumaba ng sasakyan tapos ay inalis ang suot kong cap.After that lumapit ako sa kaniya at hindi niya inaasahan ang presensya ko dahilan para masuot ko sa kaniya ang cap, her height is just 5'4 unlike Saji na 5'8 ang height kung kaya't hindi na kakailanganing yumuko,"W-Why are you here?" nagtatakang sabi niya kaya ngumiti ako."I saw you. Next time wear something to cover your head. Just text or call me if you need a ride, it's not safe for our baby you know." Lumunok siya at iniiwas ang tingin."Dad can't pick me up—""Does he know that you're pregnant?" Natigilan siya at umiling kaya naman hinawakan ko ang kamay niya at marahan siyang hinila papunta sa sasakyan ko."Let's talk,” mahinahon kong sabi at pinasakay na siya, punong puno siguro siya ng pagtataka pero dinala ko siya sa bahay nila at sakto ay
Zai’s Point Of View.She stayed where I stayed, I fixed and feed her healthy foods she needs. Minsan ay nakikita ko siyang nakatulala lang sa veranda knowing that she's really affected by this, and by Kent the one she really loves.Ngayon ay katatapos ko lang magluto ng simpleng dish, it was steak with asparagus. Huminga ako ng malalim bago siya lapitan. "You want to join me?" I started and put a smile on my lips, she glanced and take a look at the food."Is that tasty?" mahinahon niyang tanong kaya naupo ako sa harap niya at ibinaba ang tray sa center table at tsaka ko hinati ang steak at inihipan 'yon bago itapat sa bibig niya."Taste," wika ko. Tinanggap niya 'yon kaya naman ng mapatango tango siya ay napangiti ako."Let me have it," pinanood ko siyang kunin 'yon at ipatong sa throw pillow na nasa lap niya at kumain ng mag-isa.Medyo tumataba na siya at mabuti 'yon para sa kanila ng baby. "Masarap?""Hindi,” sagot niya habang punong puno ang bibig kaya natawa ako at napailing na la
Zai’s Point Of View.Nang makarating sa isang grocery store na ang laman ay mga meat, seafoods, vegetable ay tuwang tuwa siyang kumuha ng push cart kaya naman kinuha ko 'yon sa kaniya.She's being different, mood swings siguro, minsan seryoso, playful, bully pero minsan galit parati. "They're so expensive," bulong niya kaya naman tinitignan ko ang mga 'yon."Look Zai, ang mahal nila pero ang liliit nila." Nakangiti niyang sabi at tinuturo ang masa aquarium."Oh my goodness!" I hysterically glanced at her pero okay naman siya kaya mabilis akong lumapit."Why?""OMG Zai, aren't we too cruel? This baby is so cute!" Umawang ang labi ko ng makita long itinuturo niya ang sobrang liit na baby octopus yung hindi mo talaga mapapansin."And you are so unbelievable Lauren, you are the one who wanted to eat them." Hindi makapaniwalang sabi ko, ngumuso siya at kinuha na ang plastic na clear at may laman na tubig. Kinuha niya ang pang-kuha sa mga 'yon at yung malalaki na baby na ang kinuha niya.It
Lauren's Point of View.FEW YEARS LATER…Sinapo ko ang noo ng makita ko kung gaano kakalat ang bibig ng anak ko dahil sa chocolate ice cream na kinain niya, anim na taon na ang lumipas at mag-aanim na taon na rin si Sierah."Anak, ano ba naman—" inawat ko ang sarili at kumuha ng wipes sa bag ko na dala-dala, ngumiti siya ngunit napabuntong hininga ako dahil pati ang ngiti niya ay nakuha niya sa ama.Mahirap itago, kamukha ng ama eh.."Mommy you told me that we'll meet daddy, we already traveled far yet I didn't meet him,” nakangusong sabi ni Sierah kaya naman huminga ako ng malalim at inayos muli ang amos sa mukha niya."Dito na okay? Nasa hospital na tayo, pero lilinisin muna natin yung face mo,” mahinahon na sabi ko, excited siyang makilala ang daddy niya. It's our deal, nangako ako sa kaniya na before she gets six years old I'll make her meet his dad and It's Zai."He's a doctor mommy, he saves a lot of people everyday but why did we left him?" nakangusong tanong ng anak ko, yung m
"Yes mommy? Did daddy change his mind and can't accept me?" Umiling-iling ako kaagad sa tanong niya, she also got Zai's mausisang ugali."Why would daddy not accept you baby? You're lovely,” nakangiting sabi ko at marahan na pinisil ang pisngi niya."I'm sure he'll love you, you're adorable." Napatingin ako kay Zai sa sinabi niya kaya naman nahihiya akong nag-iwas tingin. Tumayo ako ng tuwid, I can even feel his blank stare, it's like questioning what the hell happened.The truth is I only told him that I'll abort our child for him to hate me, that's the only way he'll escape those feelings he felt. "Mommy we're here na,” Sierah told me that made me smile but then Zai followed that made me swallow the lump on my throat.As we settle, Zai sat in front of us. Eyes on Sierah, he's like studying a body part or a case for a new patient case. "Do you know my daddy, doctor?" nakangiting tanong ni Sierah that made me stare at him, talking about Zai."Maybe, I do,” he calmly answers."I have a
After that, may dinner kami mamayang gabi. Ate Mia insisted on inviting me, so I couldn’t say no. But I didn't expect to meet everyone there, Saji Argelia the woman I really hate. I can't deny that she looks like she doesn't care about me anymore but I can't admit the fact that she still intimidates me.But before that, before the party begins I explained Sierah that we'll meet his dad and it's family. Kaya naman mas natuwa siya, isinama ko na siya sa party ngunit ganoon na lang ang pagtataka ko ng makita si Saji na humalik sa pisngi ni Zai tapos ay nagtatawanan sila.Really? They ended up together huh?At the table my gaze were on Kent who's peacefully eating and he looks okay now, should I still care? Matagal na rin pero hindi ako sigurado sa nararamdaman ko sa kaniya. Meron pa ba?"How have you been Lauren? Ang laki na ng apo ko sa'yo. How old is she?" Nakangiting sabi ng mommy ko, she's not my biological mother but I grew up with her."She's turning six mom, next few months." I an
Lauren's Point of View.After that night, hinayaan ko si Zai na patulugin si Sierah habang ako ay nasa sala at umiinom ng kape. Maaring maayos na sila, sana sapat na 'yon sa anak ko, sana masaya na siya sa ganitong set.12 AM came and Zai showed up in front of me. Naupo siya sa kaharap na upuan kaya naman nangunot ang noo ko at tinitigan siya. "Why?" "Don't think about running again, let her settle here." He stated, he looks tired yet the serious vibe won't come out."Yeah." Ngiwing sagot ko."She can study here with Laze and Jami." He added that made me nod."Where are you planning to sleep? It's already late." Mahinahon kong sabi at inabot ang cup ko kaya naman ng mainom ay pinanood ko siyang luminga sa buong paligid."I have my own room, babalik na lang ako bukas ng umaga." Tumango ako at hindi na siya tinignan, ng tumayo siya ay tumikhim ako at dahil doon ay tumigil siya."I'm going." He stated and didn't wait for my response, edi magalit siya. Okay lang naman, as if I'm bothered