ESTHER POVWhen Vannie appears at my door and wanting to talk to me, I know it is serious and important.Amber left us alone so we can talk."What is it?""Hmm, they replaced you with me, I am sorry""The Hokins case""Yes, Mr. Hokins found out the issue about you before, the Millars family is so influential, you know how much I cared for you Esth, this kind of life is ruining you, I dont mean bad you being a lesbian and having a relationship with same sex but this is breaking your career!""I already broke up with Amber eight months ago, and I have a boyfriend now! What else they want me to do?""Amber is still here, you are so close with her, why dont you focus on your boyfriend, bring him here, choose him, let the people see you arent the same anymore"I am silenced with all the words that Vannie is giving me, I feel like my head is going to explode anytime!I know she just cared for me but...I cant take those words anymore!"Please Vannie, Please just stop, I know what I supposed
AMBER POVHappines is what I am feeling right now, it feels perfect having Esther with me again,We both get up early and go to work, I know it is too early for her so when I got to the kitchen, I quickly made a beef porridge for breakfast to be serve and bring some for Esther,When I got there commotion is what you can hear at the lobby so I take a sneak, My eyes were widened seeing Ms. Amanda dragged away by those men which they seem to be police, Esther on the otherhand suddenly let go of the guards, so I take the chance of walking towards her.She has a lot going on since yesterday, this is too much for morning greetings, Thank goodness I make her smile by the porridge I brought her but when we are about to go to her office, we were stop hearing that voice...its Caleb,Esther face him, and I guess it is really the time they need to fix thing, Even I want to just pull away Esth from him I have no power to do that so I smiled at her when she look at me, I am gripping my hand tr
ESTHER POVI dont know what kind of act should I express in the middle of Amber and Caleb, but my eyes were shock seeing Amber walk away, The emotion in me is arising seeing her leavin...I didnt know that my feet is now creating a step to follow her but suddenly Caleb hold my hand that stop me...I look at him and reality hits me...damn...what the fuck am I doing now! The silent I am right now makes my mind shouts and cries for no reason...I dont know what should I feel now!"Here, I am sorry for acting shit last night.."I slowly just accept the flowers, I didnt seem to form any words for him, "Can you please wait here, I just need a washroom"I run towards the washroom near by, as I enter the cubicle, I try to calm myself, I am start shaking for no reason, I always felt this when I am being stuck in a situation that I dont like.I start breathing fast thinking of Amber walking away again from me...now my tears is formed in the corner of my eyes..."Oh Esther, calm yourself...thin
AMBER POVAs I open my eyes and try to find the woman beside me but I didnt see any, Esther did it again, I try to call her but she is not answering it, I dont know what is going on but I dont feel good about it, I quickly prepare and head to the hospital, I cant just go to her office since I have lots of things to do, The days passed and I keep calling her but still she is not answering my call until I saw her with Caleb, I guess I dont have the chance today to talk to her, maybe I can do that tomorrow, I let the day passed on and take my chance tomorrow, I keep messaging her but she is not answering,I woke up early as I could just to get a right time to corner Esther, at least a little explanation why she suddenly avoid me, I dont know what did I do, what I did wrong!At exact 7am I am already at the hospital and waiting for Esther until she arrives with Caleb, they both enter her office seems to eat their breakfast, I stay and keep waiting, I cannot let go of this chance to
ESTHER POVMy eyes were stucked seeing Monica and Amber together, I know I should be okay and this is actualy what I want to happen.Amber should be happy with someone else, she deserved someone who can love her and not a coward like me.I head my way back to my office, silenced surrounds me, I feel like my whole world is crashing down on me, I should be happy that she will be in safe hands of Monica, But...within me, I am feeling weak that I dont know why...I just get all my reports and charts that I need to check and start focusing myself on that, I can see here that Mrs. Albert is not yet waking up, so I head my way to her room and check on her."How is she now?""She is not waking up doc, is there something wrong with her?"I start checking her vitals and her heart rate and everything seems to be normal even her wound, I am not sure what is going on so I dial Mark's number and ask him to go here to check Agie's cognitive state,Minutes pass and he came, he quickly check on Agi
Continuation..."You are right; I hate you, but I can't hate you every day; we both have enough reason why we end up like this; I hate when you suddenly avoid me and stop talking to me; still, I am here on my position which my heart is still trying to understand you, you see even we want to do things because it may or might hurt us, but we can't bring ourself into, even you want to be at the hospital and save him you won't be because things happen no matter how we stop making it happen."Amber said that made me stare at her, and I didn't know should I respond to her.I stay quiet and remain myself staring at the ceiling, "There are still a lot of people who need your help, and you can't just stop right now; David is brave and fight for what he thinks is right, and abandoning your work is not appropriate, he won't want that, Esth."I know what she is trying to say, and I am thankful for how much she tries to comfort me.I didn't say any words after that and remained silent until I fel
Continuation ...When Amber came out I almost fainted because of what she said, I hope three days is enough to think,I was hurt by the way she looked at me, she was full of hope while I was unsure of things,If only I could run away from everyone now with Amber but I can't,I fell down on the bed and just rested for a while, I didn't realize that I had fallen asleep.I woke up to a loud knock, looking at the time it was time to have dinner,As I open the door, it is Caleb,"I'm sorry did I wake you up? I'm worried you might be hungry, lets have dinner"When he invited me and I accepted his invites, so I just put on a cloak and head out with him,There is a restaurant near our hotel and I guess it is also part of this resort,When we entered, I immediately saw their group already sitting and Amber with Monica both looking at us.Caleb ordered for me and I didnt notice what he ordered when Amber stopped Caleb from giving me the plate with food,"What is wrong with you?"Caleb asked cu
ESTHER POVTwo years passed and I resigned from the hospital, even I want to ask for information about Amber I couldn't, until now, I am still blaming myself, I hurt her too much though...my heart filled with regret, I should have chosen her, I should have agreed with her, my heart beats only for her, even time and day have gone too fast, nothing changes with what I feel.I turn my back in surgery, in all medical related work, I need to avoid Caleb as well, I know I hurt him, I left him before because I cant lie to myself forever, I am no longer in love with him, every admiration I have is just plainly childish crush for him and so I had to make a decision, I need to let him go and have the person she deserves."Esth, have you finish all the documents that needs to filed?""Three remaining and I am good""Okay better!"It is Sheena my supervisor though she prefers to be called by her first name and throws the formality but sometimes I cant help myself but to call her Maam which she u
No secrets can be hidden forever, truth is meant to be discovered, and that reality is what I am prepared for, I said I am willing to take Amber's hate towards me for not telling everything...but I am...I am scared...looking around me, I feel like I am at the deep of the ocean...I can't breathe and Amber is reaching my hand but I can't move my arm to hold her hand...and then I woke up..."Esther...! Thank god you are awake now!!!"Mom said and I roamed my eyes around and I can see that I am in the ICU.My head hurts so much and I feel like I have slept for how many years!Mom is in tears now until Vannie and Felisa came to me."Esth!!! Oh god!!! Hmmm sob*sob*hmmm oh my, I just can't believe this! Hmmm, you made it hon!!!"Vannie said with tears in her eyes, I have never seen her like this, she is crying so hard and hon? Are they seriously together? But...I am just, wait...Amber...where is Amber?"W-Where is...where is Amber?"I ask and I can see how they stop after asking where she is
After a sort of chaos and rumbling in our life, do we still know how to restart? Does anyone have able to have another chance? Looking at George and Hellen having a good time now, Hellen seems to be a piece of wonderful music in George's ear, right now, I just couldn't believe either that Esther can handle that very dangerous procedure with just Chloe on her side.For that, I have planned something great for her, about our deal, well originally she should fulfill it but I can't just let her do the thing, I need to give her what she deserves as well so I want to surprise her by going on a vacation.She is so busy at the ER right now so I call her mom to bring some of Esther's clothes and bag.I have already talked to Vannie and Felisa as well to take over everything here while we are away.Later Doctor Rupert arrives and handed me Esther's bag and then leaves, I quickly go to the ER to look for Esther and there she is, having a cool moment with the nursing staff."Hey love""Hey""Mhmm
How much can you do for love? Can you kill? Hurt others? Can you be a bad person? Almost everyone knows all that can be done by any person who is crazy about love but there is something even more strange than all, you change your personality as well as your gender just for the one you love.I can't believe what Amber share with me about George Victor who is one of the best plastic surgeons in the US, but he came back to the country for Hellen who was his childhood friend and dearest, he almost ran out of money for Hellen's treatment and had an offer a one million dollar from a gay mad patient that challenged him to something he could do and that changed his gender and he did it for money and treatment for Hellen.Seriously, I also can't believe that he would do that so even though he is a woman now and only a few people know, they just decided to keep it a secret that Georgie was a man then, her parents and Hellen accepted it, it's just too strong and unbelievable he did it for love,
I am really not a fan of being happy literally! I mean it always comes to my mind that once you are happy then sadness comes next but after releasing myself from the hatred that I have been with for a decade, I guess having a peaceful mind can also be called happiness for real.And with that being said, damn! Chief Gilbert is now returning and that means, gosh! We need to face him! I am not sure how to explain things to him but this is Amber's idea so how can I say no!The good thing is that Mom is already fine and I let her go home though her best friend aunt Aida who is a psychiatrist as well finally reaches mom so she will help her with the store and stuff if I am not around, I mean isn't full well to do the heavy stuff.A few minutes and we are now here at the hospital, and I am so nervous about how he is going to react, I mean we had a deal after all!We both head to the chief's office even though I am feeling nervous so much!"Hey relax!""I am scared! What if he won't understan
They say that when you study well, your understanding will expand, and you will be able to understand things and situations more easily, but what if the situation itself is the one that drives you not to be understandable?When I finished crying so hard in Amber's car, I could hardly forgive myself when I saw the tragedy that befell mama's store, the neatest and most beautiful convenience store you'll ever find. here in our area.I just can't believe that's what happened because of those bad people, the Sandoval family, even though I wanted to strike them too I restrained myself, mom was the only one who faced all their allegations and all the shits they did to the store."Everything is my fault, if only I follow her instruction, dad would still be alive today""No one wants that to happen, things happen for a reason, but all that Sandoval's rage to your family isn't right! They should be punished, ask. your mom to file a case and I will support you""That is what I plan to do, I will
When things got broken, we fix it, when a torn paper we buy a new one, when it already cannot be used, we replace it, we can all do something for everything, all our mess can always do something about it, but in reality, in people's lives, not all broken can be repaired over a night, especially if it is a broken soul...a damage heart and mind.Looking at Millie talking to mom, I know she needs it, after all, she has been through, she needs comfort, and she needs a very good psychiatrist that can somehow fix her traumatic experience, though it comes to my mind, is there someone can fix a broken heart and mind? How about a broken soul?"--love! Are you okay?"Amber suddenly asks while I am in my thoughts."Yeah! Of course! Ahem, why?"You are zoning out, I am telling you something but you don't seem to listen""I am sorry, maybe I am just tired, it is just almost one hour left before the end of the shift""Yeah and that is exactly what I am trying to say, I need to go back to the office
They say anything sharp, heavy or fast things can kill you aside from having an illness or being sick. but what if you don't have all the description but rather the feelings you have...Trauma, depression and anxiety that when it will mix all means creating a poison that will easily kill you within.I am looking right now at these couples with sadness on their faces and tears in their eyes. I can feel the mother's pain while explaining what happen to Millie."W-What are we doing here Ma'am?"Mr. Dollan asks which cuts me from my thoughts."Right! Ahem okay, I just want to ask you if you really know or not about what is going on with Millie, because the way we see it, Millie is suffering more than an illness""What do you mean?""This might be very hard to hear and to accept but we think that your daughter is a victim of a bully in the school, this is an act of violence especially if it comes to a point that they will seriously injure her""Bully? Hmmm, I guess you are right, the way th
Determination and pain, they say once you aim for something you need to be determined in doing it but be aware of pain along the way, because not everything we want we'll get...and for that idea, I am now in the middle of deep thought so I seek my girlfriend's advice!"You mean her husband knows that every time they do it, she is in great pain yet he doesn't bother about it?"Amber said."Kind of like that, all this time Kelly believes that her husband doesn't know about it yet she is willing to bear all the pain for him""And once she knew, it may hurt her more""Yes, this isn't about being hurt or what, her life is like a ticking bomb right now, anytime it will explode and that is the end!""I get that part Love but, you can't just tell her he knows without proof that he knows! Medically and physically proof as much as possible!""Should we go investigate first?!""You are being sarcastic! I am just trying to be fair here and to save you from impending patient complaints!""I am not
"I miss this!""I am fucking miss this too!"Amber whisper while pressing me on the wall and kissing me hard on my neck down to the collar bone, she is sucking my skin that made me moan and ask for more!Slowly taking off my shirt and bra and both my mounts are now showing, Amber squeezes it hard and I love it!Sucking and licking my nipples is what I really miss, now she is totally making me naked and lifting me as I hugged my legs on her waist, she starts moving to go to her room and gently put me down on the bed."Faster love...I do miss it when you make me cum!"I said in a very seductive voice looking at her while stripping in front of me, she quickly make a move especially when I open wide my legs."Damn you, woman! You really love doing this to me huh?"She whispers while crawling herself going to me kissing my skin going up and then stopping between my legs.Before doing what she wants to do she gives a spare second to look at me first."It going to be wet"She whispered."I p