"Tititiiittt...tiiiiitttt"Damn that beeper! I just had my two hours sleeping after the my ER shift last night, yes, it has been one month now after Sheena's case, as of now she is still doing good and her baby.I still remember when Mr. Gilbert talk to me being the new resident here."See, you didnt even get to sleep yet you are here""Well, I guess I am still a doctor after all""That is one thing you can never unlearn once you become one, doctors are not just curing and healing patients, we do it in total package, so mentally, emotionally, and physically you need to be fit, are you?""I just had done a surgery to one of my closes friend and actually boss for two years""So you think that is enough to say you are already fit?""But how can I say it? what should I say to prove it?"Looking straight at me from his sit and then speak."Just say yes Esther"From that point on, his words left me something within...He is right, I guess too much words to elevate myself from a challenging
I am frozen on my position ... she is, she is here but why? my mind suddenly rumbling with my thoughts, I want to walk towards to at least ask her.I am trying hard not to move a step, I might going to regret if I will talk to her but damn if I do, damn if I dont ... shit, every second is running and she is now moving away towards the elevator.This cant be, I need to talk to her!I walk fast to her and hold her hand that seems to startle her.I am now looking straight to her eyes when she stare at me with undistinguish emotion within her.It took a little minute of staring between us before I get the guts to start a simple talk but ..."May I help you ... doctor?"I am stiffined when I hear that, how come she seem to not recognizing me."E-Esther ... doctor Esther""Oh, do we somehow know each other?"At that point I was stunned, she really dont remember me, I was trying to imagine what had already happened to her when I decided to walk away.She was still in the hospital when I left
They say a mother knows best, but what if at some point, you failed on that part, looking at this woman who keeps looking for her daughter, I am not sure how can we help her, she keeps on nagging us about her child but don't want to do the examination."The only way we can check if you are okay if you cooperate with us, we needed you to be scan""No, I don't need to be cure all I need is to see my daughter!"After saying that we just all look at each other and they seems to get tired of convincing the patient so I have no choice but to just sit beside her and tries to listen to her."Fine, we won't force you to have scan, well I guess mother always know what to do right?"After I said that she stops from looking around and just look at me."That is not true, we don't, we are more than just a like our child, we are supposed to look after our children but me, my children looks after me until something wrong happen, when my daughter has been taken away from me, I don't know what happen t
Sweets, it is what everyone needs after a stressful event or job you had to take, pouring some liquid sugar in my cup while sitting here in the cafeteria, I nailed my eyes at the food counter, and suddenly my mind travels again to the past... those moments when I used to see Amber cooking all the food we eat, I always find a good spot so I can see her doing her stuff inside the kitchen and then after she sits beside me, those moments...is it gone?I deeply let out a sigh and then look outside the window, I am not sure if I should be happy or be okay that she forgot when I hurt her or still find a way to talk to her even though I knew she is already a different person now.After a little minute of spending time with myself, I receive a message from the ER, same drill, same routine, another set of a story from a different patient.I stand up and start to walk going to the ER, about Ms Perkins, somehow it has already been four days passed when I did surgery on her and Ellaine is now gett
Traffic is what people hate most, at the busy city and busy people, life moves fast, fast like you don't know anymore how fascinating the surroundings are, and at this moment, I am not sure if this traffic is to be hated or somehow creating a good chapter in me."I didn't know that this route would be like this""I am not sure either, I just ride a cab and that's it"I said and she gives me that glimpse again, those eyes that I used to stare at, those look that are only for me and now it is the same but it change.Silence surrounds us again, honestly, it never comes to my mind to be with her like this again, I mean I am teaching myself somehow the reality of everything, she is no longer the Amber I knew."Are you always like this?""like what?""Silent""There is nothing wrong with that""I didn't say it is wrong""Hmmm""But it is kind of boring you know"She said then look at me again and then smile, shit, my heart, I feel like it is jumping crazy the moment she do that, oh god, wh
Still thinking about my sandwich, after that moment with Amber I feel like I want to eat something that I am craving and that is that egg and ham sandwich!Since a lot of stuff going on in the ER, I was assigned again for the graveyard shift so probably I will go home again with the sunshine on my face and feeling exhausted again.Going back to the ER, they are all looking at me, of course, who would have forgotten that scene when a great doctor does the rants at the patient! Like what Amber says, not everyone is in favour of what I did, well I don't care, right now, I know my mistakes but I certainly know what I am fighting for!I walk to the station and this bitchy face of Alice approaches me."I hope you at least learn your lesson, it is obvious that the child doesn't know that so you should not have a rant to his parents which is patient, now our job gets more complicated this time!""Complicated?""Ms Holist ordered everyone to be at their modest attitude with the patient even th
Mistakes are what makes you stronger in life but what if you dont know your mistakes, what if all along you are living in a lie, you think you are doing good but you are already creating the biggest regret of your life, considering Mr. Barris decision and mysterious Sarah's sudden death makes my think of a lot of things.I am not sure about Amber's plan though standing here at the ER station with others that are involved in Sarah's case, I can see the trouble in their faces.Sitting with the chief and the owner of the hospital while asking you a lot of question is not a joke, I feel like being swallowed by the ground that no one wants to help.One by one, are summoned to go to that specific room that Amber provide for this special investigation and interview.They are all frozen to their position when emergency patient comes one after another but no one wants to move and check on them so I gave them all a death glare but it seems not to work so I pick up my stethoscope and head to th
"Coming through!!!""What happen?""Another car accident""Give me details!, let us place him at the bed one, in three, two, one!""A 37 years old Keven Moris was found in his car unconsious, the car hits the big tree at besides 24th Solen road""Okay, I am opening his..."And then I am stopped with what I am seeing right now, his chest is having a huge hematoma, but I have never seen anything like this before."Did he somehow hit his chest of is there any possible way he will hit his chest this hard?""I dont think so, he is already unconscious while sitting at the emergency balloon at the steer wheel"I am stunned right now, I dont think this thing is caused by the accident."Alright let's move him to CT-scan!"On that part, one of the hardest being a doctor is that you have no choice but to involved yourself in a much serious situation than just treating an illness or wounds, are we going to be a hero or just a plain doctor but most of the time we unconsiously do both even it risk
No secrets can be hidden forever, truth is meant to be discovered, and that reality is what I am prepared for, I said I am willing to take Amber's hate towards me for not telling everything...but I am...I am scared...looking around me, I feel like I am at the deep of the ocean...I can't breathe and Amber is reaching my hand but I can't move my arm to hold her hand...and then I woke up..."Esther...! Thank god you are awake now!!!"Mom said and I roamed my eyes around and I can see that I am in the ICU.My head hurts so much and I feel like I have slept for how many years!Mom is in tears now until Vannie and Felisa came to me."Esth!!! Oh god!!! Hmmm sob*sob*hmmm oh my, I just can't believe this! Hmmm, you made it hon!!!"Vannie said with tears in her eyes, I have never seen her like this, she is crying so hard and hon? Are they seriously together? But...I am just, wait...Amber...where is Amber?"W-Where is...where is Amber?"I ask and I can see how they stop after asking where she is
After a sort of chaos and rumbling in our life, do we still know how to restart? Does anyone have able to have another chance? Looking at George and Hellen having a good time now, Hellen seems to be a piece of wonderful music in George's ear, right now, I just couldn't believe either that Esther can handle that very dangerous procedure with just Chloe on her side.For that, I have planned something great for her, about our deal, well originally she should fulfill it but I can't just let her do the thing, I need to give her what she deserves as well so I want to surprise her by going on a vacation.She is so busy at the ER right now so I call her mom to bring some of Esther's clothes and bag.I have already talked to Vannie and Felisa as well to take over everything here while we are away.Later Doctor Rupert arrives and handed me Esther's bag and then leaves, I quickly go to the ER to look for Esther and there she is, having a cool moment with the nursing staff."Hey love""Hey""Mhmm
How much can you do for love? Can you kill? Hurt others? Can you be a bad person? Almost everyone knows all that can be done by any person who is crazy about love but there is something even more strange than all, you change your personality as well as your gender just for the one you love.I can't believe what Amber share with me about George Victor who is one of the best plastic surgeons in the US, but he came back to the country for Hellen who was his childhood friend and dearest, he almost ran out of money for Hellen's treatment and had an offer a one million dollar from a gay mad patient that challenged him to something he could do and that changed his gender and he did it for money and treatment for Hellen.Seriously, I also can't believe that he would do that so even though he is a woman now and only a few people know, they just decided to keep it a secret that Georgie was a man then, her parents and Hellen accepted it, it's just too strong and unbelievable he did it for love,
I am really not a fan of being happy literally! I mean it always comes to my mind that once you are happy then sadness comes next but after releasing myself from the hatred that I have been with for a decade, I guess having a peaceful mind can also be called happiness for real.And with that being said, damn! Chief Gilbert is now returning and that means, gosh! We need to face him! I am not sure how to explain things to him but this is Amber's idea so how can I say no!The good thing is that Mom is already fine and I let her go home though her best friend aunt Aida who is a psychiatrist as well finally reaches mom so she will help her with the store and stuff if I am not around, I mean isn't full well to do the heavy stuff.A few minutes and we are now here at the hospital, and I am so nervous about how he is going to react, I mean we had a deal after all!We both head to the chief's office even though I am feeling nervous so much!"Hey relax!""I am scared! What if he won't understan
They say that when you study well, your understanding will expand, and you will be able to understand things and situations more easily, but what if the situation itself is the one that drives you not to be understandable?When I finished crying so hard in Amber's car, I could hardly forgive myself when I saw the tragedy that befell mama's store, the neatest and most beautiful convenience store you'll ever find. here in our area.I just can't believe that's what happened because of those bad people, the Sandoval family, even though I wanted to strike them too I restrained myself, mom was the only one who faced all their allegations and all the shits they did to the store."Everything is my fault, if only I follow her instruction, dad would still be alive today""No one wants that to happen, things happen for a reason, but all that Sandoval's rage to your family isn't right! They should be punished, ask. your mom to file a case and I will support you""That is what I plan to do, I will
When things got broken, we fix it, when a torn paper we buy a new one, when it already cannot be used, we replace it, we can all do something for everything, all our mess can always do something about it, but in reality, in people's lives, not all broken can be repaired over a night, especially if it is a broken soul...a damage heart and mind.Looking at Millie talking to mom, I know she needs it, after all, she has been through, she needs comfort, and she needs a very good psychiatrist that can somehow fix her traumatic experience, though it comes to my mind, is there someone can fix a broken heart and mind? How about a broken soul?"--love! Are you okay?"Amber suddenly asks while I am in my thoughts."Yeah! Of course! Ahem, why?"You are zoning out, I am telling you something but you don't seem to listen""I am sorry, maybe I am just tired, it is just almost one hour left before the end of the shift""Yeah and that is exactly what I am trying to say, I need to go back to the office
They say anything sharp, heavy or fast things can kill you aside from having an illness or being sick. but what if you don't have all the description but rather the feelings you have...Trauma, depression and anxiety that when it will mix all means creating a poison that will easily kill you within.I am looking right now at these couples with sadness on their faces and tears in their eyes. I can feel the mother's pain while explaining what happen to Millie."W-What are we doing here Ma'am?"Mr. Dollan asks which cuts me from my thoughts."Right! Ahem okay, I just want to ask you if you really know or not about what is going on with Millie, because the way we see it, Millie is suffering more than an illness""What do you mean?""This might be very hard to hear and to accept but we think that your daughter is a victim of a bully in the school, this is an act of violence especially if it comes to a point that they will seriously injure her""Bully? Hmmm, I guess you are right, the way th
Determination and pain, they say once you aim for something you need to be determined in doing it but be aware of pain along the way, because not everything we want we'll get...and for that idea, I am now in the middle of deep thought so I seek my girlfriend's advice!"You mean her husband knows that every time they do it, she is in great pain yet he doesn't bother about it?"Amber said."Kind of like that, all this time Kelly believes that her husband doesn't know about it yet she is willing to bear all the pain for him""And once she knew, it may hurt her more""Yes, this isn't about being hurt or what, her life is like a ticking bomb right now, anytime it will explode and that is the end!""I get that part Love but, you can't just tell her he knows without proof that he knows! Medically and physically proof as much as possible!""Should we go investigate first?!""You are being sarcastic! I am just trying to be fair here and to save you from impending patient complaints!""I am not
"I miss this!""I am fucking miss this too!"Amber whisper while pressing me on the wall and kissing me hard on my neck down to the collar bone, she is sucking my skin that made me moan and ask for more!Slowly taking off my shirt and bra and both my mounts are now showing, Amber squeezes it hard and I love it!Sucking and licking my nipples is what I really miss, now she is totally making me naked and lifting me as I hugged my legs on her waist, she starts moving to go to her room and gently put me down on the bed."Faster love...I do miss it when you make me cum!"I said in a very seductive voice looking at her while stripping in front of me, she quickly make a move especially when I open wide my legs."Damn you, woman! You really love doing this to me huh?"She whispers while crawling herself going to me kissing my skin going up and then stopping between my legs.Before doing what she wants to do she gives a spare second to look at me first."It going to be wet"She whispered."I p