They say a mother knows best, but what if at some point, you failed on that part, looking at this woman who keeps looking for her daughter, I am not sure how can we help her, she keeps on nagging us about her child but don't want to do the examination."The only way we can check if you are okay if you cooperate with us, we needed you to be scan""No, I don't need to be cure all I need is to see my daughter!"After saying that we just all look at each other and they seems to get tired of convincing the patient so I have no choice but to just sit beside her and tries to listen to her."Fine, we won't force you to have scan, well I guess mother always know what to do right?"After I said that she stops from looking around and just look at me."That is not true, we don't, we are more than just a like our child, we are supposed to look after our children but me, my children looks after me until something wrong happen, when my daughter has been taken away from me, I don't know what happen t
Sweets, it is what everyone needs after a stressful event or job you had to take, pouring some liquid sugar in my cup while sitting here in the cafeteria, I nailed my eyes at the food counter, and suddenly my mind travels again to the past... those moments when I used to see Amber cooking all the food we eat, I always find a good spot so I can see her doing her stuff inside the kitchen and then after she sits beside me, those moments...is it gone?I deeply let out a sigh and then look outside the window, I am not sure if I should be happy or be okay that she forgot when I hurt her or still find a way to talk to her even though I knew she is already a different person now.After a little minute of spending time with myself, I receive a message from the ER, same drill, same routine, another set of a story from a different patient.I stand up and start to walk going to the ER, about Ms Perkins, somehow it has already been four days passed when I did surgery on her and Ellaine is now gett
Traffic is what people hate most, at the busy city and busy people, life moves fast, fast like you don't know anymore how fascinating the surroundings are, and at this moment, I am not sure if this traffic is to be hated or somehow creating a good chapter in me."I didn't know that this route would be like this""I am not sure either, I just ride a cab and that's it"I said and she gives me that glimpse again, those eyes that I used to stare at, those look that are only for me and now it is the same but it change.Silence surrounds us again, honestly, it never comes to my mind to be with her like this again, I mean I am teaching myself somehow the reality of everything, she is no longer the Amber I knew."Are you always like this?""like what?""Silent""There is nothing wrong with that""I didn't say it is wrong""Hmmm""But it is kind of boring you know"She said then look at me again and then smile, shit, my heart, I feel like it is jumping crazy the moment she do that, oh god, wh
Still thinking about my sandwich, after that moment with Amber I feel like I want to eat something that I am craving and that is that egg and ham sandwich!Since a lot of stuff going on in the ER, I was assigned again for the graveyard shift so probably I will go home again with the sunshine on my face and feeling exhausted again.Going back to the ER, they are all looking at me, of course, who would have forgotten that scene when a great doctor does the rants at the patient! Like what Amber says, not everyone is in favour of what I did, well I don't care, right now, I know my mistakes but I certainly know what I am fighting for!I walk to the station and this bitchy face of Alice approaches me."I hope you at least learn your lesson, it is obvious that the child doesn't know that so you should not have a rant to his parents which is patient, now our job gets more complicated this time!""Complicated?""Ms Holist ordered everyone to be at their modest attitude with the patient even th
Mistakes are what makes you stronger in life but what if you dont know your mistakes, what if all along you are living in a lie, you think you are doing good but you are already creating the biggest regret of your life, considering Mr. Barris decision and mysterious Sarah's sudden death makes my think of a lot of things.I am not sure about Amber's plan though standing here at the ER station with others that are involved in Sarah's case, I can see the trouble in their faces.Sitting with the chief and the owner of the hospital while asking you a lot of question is not a joke, I feel like being swallowed by the ground that no one wants to help.One by one, are summoned to go to that specific room that Amber provide for this special investigation and interview.They are all frozen to their position when emergency patient comes one after another but no one wants to move and check on them so I gave them all a death glare but it seems not to work so I pick up my stethoscope and head to th
"Coming through!!!""What happen?""Another car accident""Give me details!, let us place him at the bed one, in three, two, one!""A 37 years old Keven Moris was found in his car unconsious, the car hits the big tree at besides 24th Solen road""Okay, I am opening his..."And then I am stopped with what I am seeing right now, his chest is having a huge hematoma, but I have never seen anything like this before."Did he somehow hit his chest of is there any possible way he will hit his chest this hard?""I dont think so, he is already unconscious while sitting at the emergency balloon at the steer wheel"I am stunned right now, I dont think this thing is caused by the accident."Alright let's move him to CT-scan!"On that part, one of the hardest being a doctor is that you have no choice but to involved yourself in a much serious situation than just treating an illness or wounds, are we going to be a hero or just a plain doctor but most of the time we unconsiously do both even it risk
12 years of being a doctor, I am out of the house for those years, I never get to ask my mother about things, even those hard time of my life I never seek any help or advice from her, I am not sure why I didnt but I am sure that I am avoiding her right after dad die, but after staying here for two years somehow we did has small talk sometime only but...just sometimes.I am back in day shift, so far I kind of liking the night though it is still depends on what is needed and of course Vannie rant on me so much, I just left her at night, I guess I will just treat her something next time.Waking up in the morning means to see my mother before she goes to her store."I am not sure but something change in you"She said and then pinch my cheeks and my arm."What?"I ask but she didnt say anything and just get out of the house after giving me that reaction like she seems to figure it out already but dont want to say it!I just hated that reaction she used to do with me and even with dad befor
"Really Amber? you will treat me like that just because of that!?"I dont care if I am now shouting my ass here but I am certain that I did not violate any rules this time!I walk straight to her office and her secretary didnt do something about it, I just saw this woman actingh weird on me and then sit in her chair in cross arms and cross legs."I didnt do anything wrong that is why I dont deserved that treatment!"She slowly look at me wearing those eyes, seriously I dont like her looking at me like this, damn, I miss the old Amber!"You seem to miss my point Esther, like I told you, I saw both of you, what makes you think no one others saw that?"And now I lost for words...alright, fine! she win this time!"Alright, my fault, but you can talk to me properly Amber, you even say it out loud there, you almost embarrased me as well, I am not where that angst of you come from! you could at least talk to me like a friend! right?"I said and then rolled my eyes on her going out of her off