1 - Hopeless

Nivi's pov

This was the perfect time because I might won't get another golden opportunity like this. I grabbed the bag which I already packed and hide it safely beforehand. I know I won't get much time to pack them later.

All together there is only one bag because I don't have much stuff. Clothes are countable in hands same goes for inner wears. Note the sarcasm.. Huh..I am the wife of great Siddarth Singh Khurana who is a top notch business tycoon and a filthy rich man that me who doesn't even have any proper dress to wear. Whatever I have is I brought it from my home when I came here after my marriage. I am using them till now altering by time to time. Everything was worn out still I can't throw them because if I do then I have to live without a dress. For one thing I am happy I never put weight so it won't become tight. But when I loose weight it used to slip out from my shoulders.

I tip toed from the walk in closet with my bag and passed by my husband who was sleeping on his bed . He was dead asleep and I am sure he won't wake up at least for 12 hours which will be enough for me to run away from this house. I gave him enough pills to put him on sleep.

I was still super cautious when I kept each and every foot step because even if a pin dropped down its sound can echoed in this whole room. That much extravagant room was his.

Of course sKhurana likes to show off their money very much.

I was planning for this escape from this living hell about a month. It took a lot of courage for me to think about escaping from this monster's hands. Today there isn't anyone at home other than Siddarth and few gaurds. Rest workers were on leave due to dussehra festival. Still I don't wanted to take risk so I went to back yard and opened the back gate. There is a small gate for maids to enter and leave from mansion after their work.

When I closed the gate slowly I felt tears rolling down on my cheeks due to happiness. Finally, finally I got out from this prison after my six months of torture life. I take a look at the huge Khurana mansion for one last time. I will never ever come back to this hell. Hugging my bag close to me I ran from there with all my energy.

Complete silence on road , under the street light I walked hurriedly. I think I almost forgotten about the routes because after my marriage I was never allowed to step out from that mansion. My world was restricted inside kitchen and my bedroom. No I can't say it like that , it was his room. My husband monster's room. For me that was a cell , torture cell where I get punished for each and everything. Where I was beaten up with my so called husband's hands and fist. Also where I was get raped by my husband when he wants to full fill his crazy sexual pleasures on me. It was pleasure for him but for me it was torture where other than pain I never felt anything.

Any girl would have given up on her life after all torture and humiliation but I endured everything. A suicide wasn't even an option for me because I had to survive at least till I full fill my duty to someone. A promise which I given to someone. After that if Khurana's wants to kill me then I will die with happiness because other than that one promise I don't have any dreams in my life.

When I entered the main road I got a rickshaw and asked him to go to Mumbai bus terminal. I looked for the bus to Shimla after taking the ticket. Thankfully there was one which will be taken after ten minutes. I went inside and grabbed a seat at middle. Now I am at rest a little. It will only take ten minutes to say goodbye from this filthy city and those filthy Khuranas.

I closed my eyes for a second to relax myself and after few minutes I heard bus starting sound. There wasn't anyone beside me. Literally I was hiding so I don't know if anyone is sitting ahead or behind my seat also the bus was a semi sleeper. I doubted if there is anyone behind those closed curtains.

Sleep was taking me due to tiredness so automatically I slipped into sleep. I opened my eyes when I felt the bus wasn't moving. Rubbing my eyes I slowly raised my head to check what is happening and soon I saw few people entering into bus my fear turned to reality. All those were Siddarth's men. Reality hit me I don't have any other way to escape now.

I slowly stood from the seat and tried walk out from bus. I saw bus was stopped in front of Khurana mansion. once again I am back to hell. I should have sensed this danger before, I should have little more cautious when I already know who is Siddarth Singh Khurana.

This man got connections everywhere, his family is influential so for them finding out a small creature like me from this city is not that difficult. Whole Delhi is under their power. Politicians, police, law everything can change for Khuranas.

I heard a thud sound behind my back when I entered into the mansion. All his men left after leaving me in the house now I don't have any other option left other than walking towards that monster's room. My legs were already shaking thinking about facing Siddarth. He might kill me for breaking the rule.

I already began to cry just about thinking how painful it would be after all his punishment and I don't know this time what he is going to do with me. I held my bag so close to my chest in fear other than this bag now I don't have anyone to rely on.

When I stepped into his room first thing I saw was a huge figure facing his back under those dim lights. Siddarth was looking out through the window after pulling curtain to a side slightly. He was only in his track pants. His board shoulders and that well built body already began to give me all kinds of fear. One smack with those hand only I know how much it will hurt and for some minutes I can't even think properly.

" Close the door" I flinched when I heard that deep husky voice. It's better to obey him other than saying anything because if he hear my sound then it will cause more problems.

I slowly closed the door and locked it. I don't have anything to say my act wasn't reasonable infront of him. I clearly broke the rule. Siddarth turned towards me and I saw his face under dim lights. He was damn angry.

" Stand there " he eye signed towards a place which was at middle of the room from where I usually get all punishments. I looked at him with my tears flowing eyes to have some mercy on me.

" I said go and stand there " he roared and I flinched. I quickly went and stood there with my head down.

" You filthy bitch .....how dare you to escape from me? How can you even think about drugging me ? " He made a fist of my back hair and dragged me towards him.

" I am sorry ..... I made a mistake PL..... please forgive me I won't repeat it again" I cried and winced in pain.

" Forgive ? No there is no forgiveness for you. For each and every mistake I will punish you. I still don't understand what made you think that you can escape from me so easily? " He pushed me towards the floor and I ended upon the small glass table hitting my head. I know it will bleed soon.

"On your knees " he ordered and with much difficulty I sat on my knees on that cold marble floor.

" You ugly piece of shit. Even your existence never made your family happy then why are you still alive for destroying others life? " He knelt down and squeezed my cheeks with his hands .

" I just want to kill you now but I won't. Do you know why? If I did that it will be too easy for you. I want you to endure each and every pain until you beg me to take your life. " I tried to say something with those squeezed cheeks but his grip got more tightened. He pushed me with a force and stood from the floor.

" I don't know what I ever did to you and your family. Whatever it is just tell me I will punish myself if I really did anything wrong. But without knowing my mistake why I have to endure all....." I yelled while crying and turned to see Siddarth but I stopped suddenly when I saw him taking his stick which he uses to beat me when I do big mistakes.

" No ...... No Siddarth..... I mean sir ...... Not with that it hurts like hell. I am sorry for my mistake I won't repeat it. Please don't beat me with that" I know there is no use but still there was a slight hope inside me he might change his mind after seeing my face but nothing happened. First beating fell in my back shoulders with a thud sound which made me fell on the floor winching in immense pain and my sound doesn't even came out from mouth.

I just closed my eyes don't want see him raising that stick for next beating. But I can't avoid the pain. Next fell right on my legs for which I crawled my both legs close to my tummy. I was now laying on floor like a ball but his beating never end until he let out his whole anger on me. He grabbed me from floor holding on my hand and made me face him. I cried in pain when he touched my already bruised body.

" Your mistake?... What you did to my family? You won't get answers for those questions until I feel you repay for everything. That is also one of your punishment. Taking all torture and humiliation from my family without knowing the reason. Don't dare to repeat this mistake again " he threw me to the floor like I am some kind of rag.

" Don't even try to make a sound when I am sleeping. If I hear any.... you will be under me on this bed until you bleed with that good for nothing body" he roared before getting back to his king size bed. I quickly covered my mouth with my both hands and laid on that cold floor shaking in fear. Once this killing pain went down a little I will some how crawl towards closet and do something.

How Nivi? How Nivedita become like this ? From when I became so pathetic like this ? How I forget to fight back for my right ? .Where is that old Nivi?

I asked to myself and looked at my husband who already slept after beating shit out of me. I remembered that worst day in my life when I agreed to marry this monster.