3 - Clueless

Nivi's pov

" Never do anything properly. Moves like a snail. Girl what's your job here? There isn't much to do still you didn't finished any of work I give. Move fast you stupid girl where is all that energy went after eating a plate full " that was my mother in law, Siddarth's mom Nandita Indrajit Singh Khurana. A witch who comes here only to make my life more difficult.

" girl after cleaning here put my cloths for laundry and some are kept on my bed for ironing. I need them by evening. " Divya my sister in law. Siddarth's second brother's wife  who stays here at another portion of this mansion. Other than ordering around me and gossiping with her mother in law there is no other job for her.

I was not even able to wake up from floor when I opened my eyes at morning. No matter how my day starts I have to wake up before 4 o clock at morning. By that time not even other maids will be here but before my mother in law wakes up she wants to see the living room and kitchen to be neat tidy.

This is second time I cleaning living room for nothing. Even though I clean it again and again that witch will find some mistakes maybe a negligible one.

I found mom and Divya going inside discussing something so by that time I soon sat on floor to take some rest. I mourned when I tried to stretch my back I hope no bones are broken by all these time. I don't know how is my body working even after all tortures. It really makes me wonder and I feel like my body is a magic.

Even if I am fell ill or unable to move because of injuries and bruises no one took care of me. My husband not even give me a fuck or get me some medical help. Once I was cleaning I found a pain relief medicine and tried to use but that witch caught me red handed.   I got a handful from Siddarth for that.

Thanks to Siddarth's Grandma she suggested me try to apply some natural things from kitchen like turmeric or salt to bruises. She is not much help due to her age but still in this house only that old woman has some concern for me. She is bedridden now rarely come outside from her room and I am not allowed to visit her.

I swiped my tears which was flowing for nothing from my eyes. Other than crying I don't have a way to put my pain down.

" Ohhh queen already began to take rest? Other than this few job what is there for you do in this house ?" I flinched and came back to my position when I heard mom's sound.

" It's already 8 , Siddarth ....... I mean sir he might be back to his room from gym " I mumbled without looking at her.

" Sita......." Sighing at me  she called a servant from kitchen and within seconds she appeared infront of her.

" Clean the rest and you go to his room" she ordered. I quickly ran towards his room nervously because I was two minutes late. But thank God I went inside first before him and prepared a glass of water for him which comes under his routine after coming from gym. I corrected my worn out dress. I know I am not presentable still I have to look good at least in this.

As soon as he entered without even looking at me he grabbed the water glass and gulped it in a go. He was shouting at someone through phone and today also his mood is off. I quickly went inside the closet and prepared his suit and rest of the things. He came behind me when I was taking out his white shirt.

" Today some of my business friends are coming here. Prepare everything according to it's need and I don't want to see your shadow anywhere down. Without making sound be here like a dead body understood " he pressed me towards the wardrobe with his well builded body muscles and said. Sweat after working out was still on his body and that aroma, for others it might be a bad odour but for me it was something which makes weak.

I hate him but deep inside I can't do that. My mind always wanted to kill him but my heart races infront of him. He beats me, he tortures me, humiliate me infront of other family members but still when he is near I lose. I am that fool who fell for his eyes and voice at first time. That attraction and emotion were still inside me somewhere without getting old.

We never ever made love after our marriage. He never touched me with love not even once or never allowed me to touch him unless I was told. No caressing, no touches, no kiss or anything he will just order me around if he needs me to satisfy him whenever he wants and get satisfied alone. How I am enduring, how I am feeling, whether I am hurt he is not bothered at all . Initially I tried to resist him many times with all my strength but that only made him more furious and cruel. So later I just give up and became a toy for him. Those time he calls me a whore, a slut , a filthy girl who does anything for money. I don't know why he is saying that because after our marriage I never met anyone or go outside then why he is saying that I am a whore and gold digger.

I worked and made my my own money even though my dad was rich.always lived a legible life without anyone's help then .........

I don't know when he went to bath because I wake up from my sorrowful Dreamworld when I heard him opening the bathroom door. I scoffed looking at him.

A man who has everything but don't have a heart. Don't know how to love others, don't know how to preserve relationship.

This is when I hate myself. I was starting at his body who stood there only with a towels wrapped around on his low waist. Perfectly sculptured body and he can show of his envious body infront of any one proudly. That much perfect was it.

He has seen me naked many times , even I saw him like that many times but still I am not comfortable to show my body infront of him. Shyness was a reason at starting but later it became an inferiority complex. My body wasn't perfect anymore. It was filled with bruises, marks and I don't know. I stopped looking myself at mirror because of fear.

I never put makeup or anything like that stuff in this past six months. Hair was combed when I get time to de tangle and tied up with a rubber band which usually I collect from kitchen waste. Girl who don't have to go out then why she needs such things.

I once thought to cut my whole hair for an easy job but I need permission for that too. Siddarth don't allow me to do it. I don't understand it's logic behind that at first because he never want to see me beautiful so if my hair is cut short I will definitely look ugly then why he is not allowing me to do it ? Later I found its reason it was because he can't grab my hair when is drag me for torturing

My dressing table will be empty all the time. Other than a moisturizer and a comb there is nothing much. Even this moisturizer is a privilege. Not only moisturizer but  shampoo, soap, toothbrush and even sanitary napkin were privileges which I will get like ration.

Other than sanitary napkin rest of the things will not get easily. So I have to use them carefully without even wasting a drop.

I also write my monthly shopping list but nothing got in my hands never ever. Before grandma used to go out she buys something for me but now that also ended.

I heard a snap sound and I quickly diverted my attention to Siddarth. He hand signed at his neck tie indicating to tie it for him because he was talking to someone through phone.

Sometimes I feel just strangle him with this tie but with my strength it will only take few seconds to break my hands forever. I don't have anyone to help me even if I have I can't contact them in any ways

This mansion doesn't have a land phone. Everyone uses their own cell phone which will definitely not gives to me. Then there are intercoms within every room. Once I tried to use one of our maid's cellphone to call my friend asking for help but before it get connect I was caught by Divya. I don't even want to mention what happened that day. I received a double punishment which was for that maid. Of course it wasn't her fault then why she has to suffer.  Siddarth fired her soon after that incident and everyone got strict order not to provide a phone for me.

Sometimes I feel like  just run straight to terrace and scream asking for help but that is also not possible. This mansion itself spread over  hectares and hectares of land with garden, tree, plants etc etc... So my sound will only reach a small range.

After putting his finely stitched coat Siddarth walked out from closet shoving his phone inside the coat. He sat on his usual single seater sofa and waited for me to put his shoes on. This is also my job put his shoes and socks on his legs when he goes out and also take them out once he come back.

I smiled sarcastically hiding my face from Siddarth. I dreamt this scene before helping my husband when he goes to office, a morning kiss when he wakes up from bed and a good bye kiss when he goes for work. But my present condition is like each and every second I am cautious about when I will get hit by my husband for any minute mistake.

Down at dining table everyone was present for breakfast. Serving duty is for me and  one maid. I was only allowed to eat after everyone finishes even if it breakfast or lunch or dinner. Till then I have to wait with my growling stomach. I never get food like other family members. Special food is made for servants and I have to eat them.

During my initial days I was starved because servants don't know that I am not allowed to eat their food so they will only make for them . I also felt really ashamed to tell this so I starved. But when a human being is hungry there won't be any shame or anything. I needed energy to withstand all torture from my husband so whatever it is I eat it without wasting a morsel.

" Today I am going to Vikram's house. Kind of feeling to visit there " Siddarth's mom said. I felt a sudden tension on everyone's face. This is always like that whenever this Vikram's house put forward everyone's face will be filled with same tension.

Vikram Singh Khurana, Siddarth's third brother who don't live in this mansion. He stays somewhere else with his wife whose name is jhanvi.

I have met them few times. Vikram is not like other two brothers he is bit soft at least he never mocked me like Viren or Siddarth or any other family members. His wife Jhanvi is also same she never poke her nose in unwanted places like Divya.

Only daughter in law who is not a puppet of this witch. I am not considered as a daughter in law of this house so I am not included.

" Today some of my business friends are coming " Siddarth said.

" Sid I told you try to avoid such meetings inside this house. You know that it can ...." His mom said irritatingly looking at me.

" What can I do they wanted to come here. Don't worry nothing will go wrong. Actually Indira aunty is coming so ...." Siddarth stopped for a second and looked at me. Which was a clear signal that they don't want  me to hear what they are discussing. I went to kitchen taking baby steps.

If this is a normal house then I could have eavesdropped their conversation. But here kitchen is far away from dining area and I can't hide at any open places.

What are they hiding from me ?