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Let me in tears Work- 05
WorkWearing my white slide slit maxi dress, I looked at the brown envelope that I holding on. I took a deep breath, Abot ata sa korea ang kaba na nararamdaman ko. Every steps, Napapapikit ako. I pulled the glass door. This is the first time I'm going to apply and I don't know if how I can handle this. I hope Magen will go easy with me.When I already entered, the smell of coffee immediately attacked my nose. It smell so good! Parang hinihila ako sa counter para umorder. I examined the place, it was vintage theme. There is a high chair and table that looks like used by a wooden materials. Damang-dama ko ang pagiging makaluma pero mayroong dating. This cafeteria looks cool! Magen have a good taste huh?Some customers parted their lips when they saw me. Of course they will. I knew they already notice my tiny waist. Actually, Some of my friends saying that I looked like a model and a very stunning women. I have a thick and strong eyebrows that makes me look fiercer. My color gray eyes sho
Huling Na-update : 2023-02-21Let me in tears Waitress- 06
WaitressWe ended up here at the Robinson manila and I'm still thankful because my designer is free. I don't know what she's up to.. but yeah. She's not a famous designer but her designs are goods. I want her to be my designer everytime I want something new, she's a good friend of mine. I remembered when we're at the highschool. Parehas ata kaming nagkamuscle because of our research groupmates! The guts that my groupmates have! I will never forget that.I immediately looked at her when she sat down on the side of Chave. She's beautiful and I admit it. Well, I'm beautiful too but in my own way. We all beautiful in our own way and our own uniqueness. The only one who makes us ugly is the judgemental society and the only person who can pull us down is ourselves. No one else.It's all started with ourselves not with anyone. If you love yourself then anyone can accept you because in the first place you already accept yourself. How can others love you if you itself can't accept who you are?
Huling Na-update : 2023-02-22Let me in tears left- 07
LeftThe way he held his hand tightened to my hand I knew he was angry but why? did I do something bad? did I do anything ? last time I check i'm doing my job well! Kinagat ko ang labi ko ng huminto siya sa paglalakad. Ngayon ko lang napansin na he's wearing a plain white longsleeve and black slacks. Nandito kami kung saan ang locker area ng mga employee. Ang iilan ay nagulat pa dahil sa pagsulpot namin na agad rin na nagsilabasan.My heart is pounding so fast. I played my fingers because of the nervous that I felt. I swallowed hard and hoping to swallow all the nervous that I have inside my chest.Nakatalikod siya sa'kin but I still can felt the fire of madness. Kulang na lang ay umusok siya dahil sa sobrang galit at inis.Tinupi niya pa ng maayos ang longsleeve niya hanggang siko bago tuluyan na humarap sa'kin. Halos mapaatras ako ng makita ang mata niya. He staring at me darkly. He licked his lower lip and combed his hair using his hand.He sighed "W-why? I mean what the hell? Ba't
Huling Na-update : 2023-02-22Let me in tears again-08
AgainI lifted my head and stare to the white ceiling. I blinked, I blinked twice... thrice before letting a heavy sighed while closing my eyes. I was about to take a nap when I heard my phone beeped.Even I closed my eyes the image of Magen and his girl still popping up in my mind. Wow, his girl? It's sound good sana kung ako 'yon but nah. I don't know why I'm really affected about it. Like I liked someone too back then but hindi naman gan'to na umaabot sa point na pinanghihinaan ako kumilos.Is she his girlfriend? I thought he said it's not his thing. I shook my head because it's driving me crazy. I immediately answered the call without looking at it."Where are you?" Nagmamadaling tanong ni Lami.I looked at I.d caller and yeah, I'm right. I sighed bago ibalik sa tapat ng tainga ang cellphone.I licked my lips "Just here at my unit doing some weird things like staring at the white ceiling and letting a heavy sigh escaped. Why? Do you have any probs?" Umayos ako ng upo bago mag-indi
Huling Na-update : 2023-02-22Let me in tears wave-09
WaveLiking him is like reaching a stars. So hard, so impossible and difficult. I don't know what's wrong with me? He let me saw his flaws but still... siya parin. I cleared my throat so I can go back to zero where I'm not feeling like this... but it's impossible too.I want to reset myself so I can prevent hurting myself. Ayaw ko ng gan'to because I know kapag mas lalo pang tumagal ay mas titindi pa 'tong nararamdaman ko sa kaniya. I don't want to take the risk but I think... I born to take this risk, again and again.I stood up and find Lami. I don't have enough strength to walk properly. A guy who called Magen help me to stood up properly. I just gave him a small smile as a thank you. Hindi naman ako nakainom masyado at ang pag-iwan ata sa 'kin ni Magen ang nakapagpahina sa 'kin. I can't help it.I took a deep breath and stare at my cousin who's busy laughing and talking to her friend. I tried my best to approach and convince her to drive me to go home in my unit. At first she didn
Huling Na-update : 2023-02-22Let me in tears beg-10
"It's Lonch's birthday, Wave. I'm bored to go upstairs with my cousins so I decided to stay at the pool area. Lonch told me something while he's beside Magen. Hindi ko alam, his charisma want me to worship him! Ang gwapo at ang linis tingnan even the way he looked at me feels like I'm in danger. Nakakatakot siya tumingin but still... you know ewan," Kwento ko kay Wave habang pinupunasan ang screen ng laptop ko.Nagvivideo call kami at nakapwesto ako sa veranda. Prenteng nakapatong ang laptop ko sa marmol na lamesa dito. We always like this if we have some free time. I saw how his brows furrowed while playing his lips. He looks expensive too! Tumayo ako saglit ang kinuha ang hair brush ko na nakapatong sa side table ng kama ko."He's not your type..." agad akong natigilan dahil sa mahinahon ngunit may pagtataka niyang boses. "Most of your exes are funny when you meet them." He added.I sat again on my chair and brush my long hair. "Yes, that's why I can't understand too! You know I mos
Huling Na-update : 2023-02-22Let me in tears smile-11
@iHeartHello babe, your beautiful girlfriend is now awake.When I hit the send button I immediately bit my lower lips as if I'm stepping on my own grave. I can't help it! Nanlaki ang mata ko, he just seen my message! He's active on instagram but he just seenzone me without saying hello too?! It's 10 o'clock in the morning and the first thing I did was to send him a direct message on instagram but he just ignored me?@iHeartAre you busy? Okay, I got it! Ingat ka mwuah!Ngumuso na lang ako ng biglang mag-active 1 minute ago ang active status niya. I just pouted when I put my cellphone on side table of my bed. I cover my body using a white blanket. I'm just wearing my simple night pajama as I stare at my phone screen and waiting for his reply even I know that he didn't."Heart!" I rolled my eyes when the door of my room opened and my cousin Hailey appeared.Where is my privacy?! They keep on going here without asking for my permission!"What?!" I hissed and closed my eyes.He just real
Huling Na-update : 2023-02-22Let me in tears trying-12
"Bakit ka nandito?"Agad akong napatingin kay Anica na nakataas ang kilay sa 'kin. I fixed some of the strands of her hair that covered her face. I rolled my eyes when she raised her brows again waiting for my answer. She gave me my order, It was a oreo frappucino without espresso."I'm craving for this.." I lied when I looked at my order.She didn't buy my answer and just raised her brows again "Bakit gan'yan outfit mo? Miracle? Ang pagbabago?" She sarcastically asked.I'm wearing a simple maroon t-shirt and a levis jeans partnered with my chunky boots. I held my small bag strap before giving her a playful smile. I was wearing a simple makeup too... just a red liptint and cheek tint also a powder."I just want.." I simply said and turned my back."Mama mo want..." she mocked.Actually, I was here because of Magen. I know that he's here. I sat at the vacant chair and table. I put my elbow on the top of table as I stare at Magen's office. Simula ng lumabas siya ng unit niya at iwan ak
Huling Na-update : 2023-02-22
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Dawn Magen's POV"Just sign the annulment paper! I want our marriage to be void!" malakas na sigaw ni Papa.Hindi ko alam kung saan ako pupunta. Mukha kasing nag-aaway na naman sila. I don't know what is the reason behind this. Ilang beses kona naririnig kay Papa ang pare-parehong sigaw na 'yon t'wing uuwi ako galing school. Mabuti nalang at maaga akong umuuwi kaysa kay Mint. Ayaw kong makita niyang ganito sila Mama.I'm still in Grade 5 and Mint is grade 1. Mas matanda ako sa kaniya ng limang taon. Masyado pa siyang bata para maguluhan sa nangyayari.Umatras ako palayo at bumalik sa gate. Ilang beses pa akong bumuntonghininga para makakuha ng lakas para makapagsalita."Mama!" malakas kong sigaw at pilit na ngumiti. "Sunduin na raw si Mint maya-maya sabi nung teacher niya! Nagugutom na po ako!" I added.Napalunok ako at malakas na kumatok sa pintuan ng kwarto nila. Nakuyom ko ang aking palad nang makita si Papa na ngumiti sa'kin. He is trying to end our family? Why?"Pa! Sunduin mo nga
Let me in tears final tears- 35
They said was let the windblown you in any direction because love is like a wind. Ang pagmahahal ay mararamdaman natin pero kadalasan ay hindi natin nakikita because we are all blinded with all buts and what-ifs. Like, you love someone but... Someone loves you but.... and also You love someone, what if... Someone loves you, what if...We all chose to take a grip on the buts and what-ifs in our mind because of one reason. Iyon ay dahil natatakot tayong masaktan at umiyak. We are scared to experience strife, struggles, and failures so we kept on looking for possible preventive thoughts. Kasi gano'n naman talaga... gano'n naman talaga dapat.Sino ba ang hindi takot na masaktan at umiyak ng paulit-ulit because of someone? Who want to have a sleepless night? Who want to have a miserable life?The stiff breeze of salty air from the facade of the ocean kept on sweeping. Madilim na ang paligid kaya ang iilan na ilaw galing sa mga cottage ay nakabukas. The sunset is waving, beautifully.L
Let me in tears lipstick-34
Time flies so fast, It's been a week since the video got viral. It's no big deal for me and my parents anymore. Maybe, we know if when we make that big deal that means we will be defeated by them.Well, I received many death threats from Tamara's fanbase. They ship Magen to Tamara easily! Ang daming kumakalat sa mga social media na mga edited pictures nila. Hanggang edit lang naman!They attacked me too, they message me on every social media account that I have! Kung ano-ano ang mga pinagsasabi nila and I just seen their messages. Minsan naiinis ako at gusto ko sila replyan but I don't want to join their clan. The keyboard warriors clan. So, it funny how I pissed them because they know that I didn't care at all. Go on... do whatever you want. The level of this issue is only on the lower part and it will puff nothing away from my previous experiences."Stop accepting that death threats," mahinahon na sabi ni Magen.I lifted my head when he entered my condo. Well, we want to catch up. Hin
Let me in tears tear catcher-33
"Miya, umuwi ka muna," napahilamos ako sa aking mukha.Nandito kami ngayon sa dining area. Nakaupo sa aking tapat si Hanz na katabi ni Miya. They offered a glass of water but I refused."Dito lang muna ako..." pilit niya na kinatango ko nalang.Napahilot ako sa sintido ko bago ipatong sa lamesa ang aking siko. I don't know what to do next and I don't want to do anything because I'm exhausted."Hayaan mo hanggang ngayong month nalang din ang contract ni Tamara sa Cole clothing. I'll never renew it. Lagi niya rin kasi inaaway si Chacha," Hanz uttered, softly.Hindi ko nalang pinansin ang sinabi niya. I don't want to hear even her name. I'm pissed because of her childish act. Wala naman akong gagawin na masama kung talagang sila ni Magen. I'm not that desperate anymore to beg for his love. Kung kami ay kami! Kung sila ay sila! I don't need to sugarcoat anything just to ease this feeling. I'm dissappointed and I admit it. Magen dissappoint me again."Bakit ka nandito?" mahinahon kong tano
Let me in tears done-32
Umiwas ako ng tingin at bumuntong hininga. I heard my cousins' giggles like they want what they heard. Tinutukso nila ako gamit ang tingin nila sa akin kaya mas lalo akong namula. Hindi na ako umimik kasi ayaw ko na patulan ang mga pang-aasar nila. I know that this time I can't win. They're good at teasing me to Magen at kahit baliktarin kopa ang lamesa na ito ay hindi ako mananalo."Gan'to, paunahan na makarating sa dulo ta's kailangan makuha 'yung red na ribbon na nakapatong sa dulo pero..." pagbitin ni Lami. "Kailangan na by partner then yung isa ay siya ang lalangoy ta's 'yung isa naman ay pabigat lang gano'n. So, papasan or kakapit 'yung isa sa likuran nung lalangoy.I don't want that idea since they're looking at me and Magen. They look like a push over."I don't want to---""Ang kj!" sabay sabay nilang sigaw.Narinig ko ang tawanan ng mga magulang namin. I just take a deep breath and nodded. Alam ko kung sino ang ipapartner nila sa akin dahil humawak na agad sila sa mga kapatid
Let me in tears resort-31
He is wearing his usual black tshirt and cargo short partnered with his loafers. Hindi ako makagalaw habang pinapakatitigan ang maamo niyang mukha. Wala halos nagbago sa kaniya at kung mayroon man ay mas lalo lang siyang naging perpekto. I can't find any words. Ang malalim at maganda niyang mata ay pinapalambot ang expression niya. He formed his lips into a thin line before smiling like everything is alright. I avoided his lovable gaze and started to take a step. Palayo sa kaniya... dahil doon naman ako magaling. Ang lumayo kapag alam kong delikado na.It's been a years but still.. he is the one. No one can blame me about this, like.. what the hell?! It's been a years! Matagal na 'yon at impossibleng siya at siya parin ang gusto ko dahil.... walang impossible sa taong nagmamahal.Katulad ng isang maliwanag na buwan sa madilim na kalangitan... bumabalik at bumabalik parin."Heart!" my Mom called me as I got near them. Napatingin din sa gawi ko si Dad at sila Tito at Tita. I can't help
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Napatingin ako sa mga alon na naghahampasan at gumagawa ng ingay. Ang malamig na hangin ay dinama ko nang dumampi ang mga 'to sa aking balat. Napangiti ako na umupo sa buhangin at pinagmasdan ang paligid. The smiles on the lips of everyone didn't fade they look happier while laughing and playing with their friends and families. I can't help but smile too before hugging myself. Sitting here feels good."Layuan niyo ako!"My eyes swelled before looking around. My heart pounds so fast while looking at the girl. She stepped back and the waves were already splashing his foot. There are two men around her. The first one is on her right side wearing a white T-shirt and jersey short while the other one is on the left side that is topless and wearing red basketball shorts. Suddenly my eyes landed on the woman wearing a silk dress and holding the hem of her dress so as not to be blown away by the wind. She is wearing her eyeglasses reason why I can't see her eyes and the length of her hair is s
Let me in tears the scrunchie-29
Over the past few weeks my life has become quiet and some days I can hear the laughter of demons in my ears again. It's so hard because I don't know how long they will keep hunting me. Wala rin akong masyadong kinakausap kahit na umaakto silang lahat dito sa bahay na masigla. Halos lahat ng pinsan ko ay nandito pwera lang kay Hailey. Mom and Dad always peek at me in the bedroom every hour.I promised them one thing. that I don't even have to think about ending my life because I know it's all happening because there's a reason. My life matters in a different way. Ayaw kong tapusin 'yon ng dahil sa mga masasamang nangyari.I don't fancy ending my life. This world is chock-full of failure, strifes, and defeats but this is also a paradise and utopia. I'm exhausted of everything and I don't aspire to unite more suicidal and lethal solicitudes to my mind and soul. I must fight because I knew I was in the cryptic part of my journey and I was sure that there was a light waiting for me at the
Let me in tears feelings-28
---Napasabunot ako sa buhok ko at malakas na napasigaw. Umiling-iling na baka sakaling sa pag-iling ko ay maglaho ang mga tawanan na naririnig ko. I cried while running somewhere. Hindi ko na rin maintindihan ang malakas na pagkalabog ng dibdib ko. Hinihingal at namamawis na ako pero hindi ko parin alam kung paano tatakas ang mga tinig."Happy birthday!" Pumalakpak pa si Mom when my Dad exploded confetti on the air. I just shook my head and ignored them. I saw that they were next to Magen and my cousins but not Hailey. Tama lang! Dahil ayaw ko muna siya makita! Nagtama ang mga mata namin ni Magen na agad kong iniwasan. I restrained myself from approaching him and asking if he had treated the bruises on his face. Gusto ko siyang lapitan at yakapin. Gusto ko siyang kausapin pero pinipigilan ko hanggang sa makaya ko.Ngayon ko lang nakita ang hawak niyang cake na three layers. May mga bitbit din na mga refalo para sa akin. Alam kong naghanda sila para ngayon at nagbabakasali na magiging
