Don't assume!
Bumuntong hininga ako bago tuluyan na sumakay sa sasakyan niya. I closed my eyes because of the smell of his car. It seemed like his smell embraced my heart. Nobody wants to talk, I'm afraid that if I say something he going to be mad at me. Maybe ganito siya kapag nakainom?
I just focused my attention on the road. I could only hear the vibration of my chest and the fluttering of my heart. I swallowed hard, I can't open my mouth. Para bang 'yung presence niya ay isang rugby na nilagay sa lips ko. I couldn't be able to look at him because I was afraid my heart would swing!
He sighed "Are you hungry?" he asked like he's not mad.
I blinked twice, Nanaginip ba ako? Do I imagining some things? I shook my head. Nanatili ang tingin ko sa daan. I bit my lower lips. Oh! Stop it, Heart. Your heart will be rotten as hell if you assumes some things.
I let a heavy sighed escape, I played my lips. I even played my fingers. Sana bumilis na 'yung oras at makapunta na ako sa unit ni Chave. Mukhang mas mababaliw ata ako ngayon. His smell!
I heard nothing else. I guess it was just my imagination. Nearby, I saw the hotel where Chave's unit was. Kapag ano talaga magpapabili ako kay Daddy ng unit dito! Ang alam ko Chave friend is the owner of this. Kung magtrabaho kaya ako? I smiled, Maybe I'll try?
"Thanks, " I said before getting out of his car.
I didn't let him speak. Siguro bukas ko na lang siya kausapin kapag hindi na siya lasing. Maybe he can talk to me nicely tomorrow right?
I fixed my hair, I walked while my lip was bitten. I felt that he had followed me. My heart! Malamang magkatabi sila ng unit ni Chave! Idiot!
"Hi Heart, It's nice to see you again. Halos ilang buwan rin nung huli kita nakita dito," Vent said while smiling when we get to the elevator.
I looked at him, He's my ex-boyfriend friend. Napangiwi ako sa sinabi niya. Yeah, My ex is staying here. He's a fucking cheater. I crossed my arm and raised my brows. Pakiramdam ko kumukulo ang dugo ko. They knew that I was being fooled but tolerated their friend! Hindi naman sa bitter ako pero kahit saan tingnan ay mali sila!
"Oh whatever, Vent." I rolled my eyes.
His eyes drifted at the guy beside me. Ayos lang ba na ipakilala ko si Magen? Kasi masyado naman sigurong harsh if i'm not? I looked at Magen who pressed the correct number. I chuckled and put some of my hair at the back of my ear.
Vent chuckled "Hiwalay na kayo diba? So.." tukoy niya sa'min ng kaibigan niya, he come closer "then can I court you?" he winked.
Wow, It's disgusting! His piercing looks good at him but NO! Such a jerk like his friend.
I stepped backward, Nakaramdam agad ako ng mainit na kamay sa braso ko. I immediately avoided seeing the serious face of Magen.
"Sorry," I said and stood up properly
I looked at Vent, He shrugged and raised his brows like he's waiting for my answer. I rolled my eyes and tapped his shoulder. A guy like didn't deserve a chance for sure.. he gonna break my heart so damn big time!
I shook my head "No thanks, Vent. I don't like you and I hate you. So back off," I irritated said and crossed my arm.
I turned to Magen, Nakapasok ang dalawang kamay niya sa kaniyang magkabilang bulsa. Walang emosyon siyang nakatingin sa akin. But I feel a couple of field butterflies fluttered inside my stomach.
"Okay, Kung ayaw mo then fine but alam mo naman ang number ko," he smirked. "If your mind change then call me," he winked before getting out.
I was watching him waving his hands like an idiot. I rolled my eyes, Umusog ako sa kabilang gilid ng mapagtanto na kaming dalawa na lang pala ang nandito.
I was just going to bend my head because I might not be able to stop my mouth. I would ask what his number is? I would ask if he has girlfriend? I would ask what type he has for a girl. Pinikit ko na lang ang mata ko.
"Inaantok ka na?" He asked using his powerful voice.
I gulped and slowly lifted my head. Parang nakakaputaina lang 'yung boses niya. 'Yung puso ko nalaglag!
"Y-yes.." ilag kong sagot "Ah no.." bawi ko.
I slapped my forehead.Hey self, are you all right? Don't be a fool! I saw him smirked, I closed my mouth while watching him shook his head.
"Are you often in the unit of Chave?" he asked and looked at me.
Totoo ba 'to? He himself started, what would we talk about? I even looked at him to be sure. He awaits my answer! Oh My Ghad! Did he realize that he would have liked me too?
I sighed "Sometimes," I simply said.
Wala akong mahanap na salita na pwedeng isagot sa kaniya. Naramdaman ko ang pangangatog ng labi ko, What's wrong?!
"Oh my ghad!" I said when we got out of the elevator.
Napatalon ako sa inis. Shit! I closed my eyes and pulled my hair. You idiot! How can I forgot my small bag! Pinasabay ko 'yon kay Lami dalhin! OMG, nakalimutan ko na nga nung papunta pati ba naman ngayong pauwi?!
Magen popped up infront of me "Hey.. what's wrong?" He panicked asked.
I shook my head, hindi ko siya maintindihan. Kanina halos sumuka na siya kapag tinitingnan ako at kapag kinakausap ako. Ngayon naman salita siya ng salita. Is he alright?
His jaw clenched when he noticed that I didn't want to explain at him. I just walked and entered Chave's unit.
I looked at the whole body mirror. I'm not drunk pero pakiramdam ko nalasing ako sa titig ni Magen. I about to walked and entered the bathroom when the door opened. My eyes widened when I saw Magen.
Hindi siya pumasok, nanatili lang siya sa labas at nakasilip sa awang na pinto. He groaned and combed his hair. His dark eyes looks like he want to tell something but theirs a line who's stopping him.
"Hmmm. What is it Magen?"
I tried to not stutter my words because he might know that he have a big effect to me. I closed my fist to avoid the shaking of my hands. Ano ba 'tong nangyayari sa'kin?!
He sniffed "Do you have a problem? Like.. uhmm did you forgot something? Maybe a purse? cellphone? wallet?" He curious asked while looking directly in my eyes.
My eyes widened, How did he know?! Sinuri ko ang itsura niya. He raised his brows when he noticed that I already shut my mouth. His eyes are dark.. I need a flashlight! Pero kaya ko naman atang paliwanagin ang paligid basta akin siya? Omg, what the hell!
"Ah, How did you know?" I bit my lower lip.
I walked towards the door even though my knee was softened. I smiled.. but he didn't.
He chuckled "Babae ka... Hindi kayo nabubuhay ng walang purse or what kung saan nakalagay ang mga pangpaganda n'yo, tsk," he rolled his eyes.
I swallowed hard, His charisma is so powerful. Parang pinag-aralang maigi ang genes niya. Napakaperfect! His mysterious eyes that I know can shine. The bridge of his nose na mas mataas pa ata sa pride ko. His kissable lips! Ang gwapo! Magpalahi na kaya ako?
I nervously laughed "Yes. I forgot something, my sling bag in my cousin," I bit my lower lips "Pasok ka.." aya ko.
He raised his brows, Napalunok ako. Oo gwapo ka.. gusto kong magpalahi pero hindi naman agad ngayon! Duh, Tsaka na kapag may relasyon na tayo! Oh my ghad, Heart! What the hell are you damn thinking?!
I chuckled "I like you but I know the limit for both of us.." umiwas ako ng tingin "Tangina.. bakit ako ang nagsasabi nento he's the guy.." mahinang bulong ko.
I lifted my head, He trick his reddish lips, I still can't read a expression in his face. It's really looks a book translated to a latin words or whatever is it. Its so hard to read!
"Gusto mo ba balikan ko 'yung gamit mo? Or do you want to borrow my phone for a minutes? So.. you can contact your cousin," he offered.
Bakit niya naman babalikan? Did he realize to give me a chance to enter his goddamn heart? Did he give a permission to let me know him so well? My heart started to fluttered.. my cheeks, It feels like it's burning. I immediately nodded, Pakiramdam ko kasal ang inoffer niya dahilan ng pagsang-ayon ko agad-agad.
"Pahiram na lang nung phone mo.." I handed my hand, he nodded and put his iphone "Get in fisrt.. wala akong gagawing masama sa'yo. You can sit on the couch." I laughed but he didn't.
I sighed, He step forward. He nodded and walked towards the couch. His hand are inside his pocket. He looks like a model!
I squeezed my lip. I walked to the couch he was in the front. He just watched my move as if when I did something bad he was ready to kill me. I avoid his intense gaze and swallowed hard. His phone didn't have a phone lock so I immediately dialed Hailey's phone number.
"Hello, Hailey. This is Heart.." I started.
I heard her sighed "Oh! Heart? What happen? Are you alright? Omg! Bakit unknown number? Nakidnap ka ba?" she panicked.
Naiimagine ko na tuloy ang mukha niya na puno ng pag-aalala, I rolled my eyes, When Magen look at me using his blank expression I force myself to calm.
"No, I just want to say that can you bring my sling bag tomorrow morning? I forgot it, Ask Sele or Lami where is it. I'm not sure,"
I heard her chuckled as a relief "Alright.. kanino 'tong number?"
I can felt her curiousity, Tumagilid ako saglit 'yung tipong hindi maririnig ni Magen ang isasagot ko.
"By the way, Save this number at my phone. This number own the guy who already own my heart. So please Hailey do it properly," I giggled.
"Omg! 'yung sinasabi mong lalaki kanina? I thought he doesn't like you? Oh shit can you please enlighten me up?" natatawang usisa niya.
I rolled my eyes again and looked at my red nail polish.
I chuckled "Bukas na lang, Alright I need to hang up," I smiled at Magen.
His looks want me to spread my legs! Omg! I hate it, I need to stop.
"Argh! Okay!" and then she hang up.
I sighed, I returned to Magen gaze, he was seriously watching his phone with me. His brow was rise.
I returned to him his phone wearing a smile "Thanks, " I gratefully said.
He nodded, he stood up so I also stood up. He was surprised by what I did.
"I'm going to my unit. Anything else?" he bit his lower lips "May kailangan ka pa ba?" he seriously repeat.
I shook my head "Do you want to uhmm.. drink coffee?" I offered. "Don't worry we will drink coffee lang.." I shyly said.
He chuckled "Hindi ako naniniwalang iinom lang ng coffee.." He whispered but I heard!
Hindi ako naniniwalang iinom lang ng coffee (2)
He stood up properly, He put his phone inside his pocket and crossed his arm. Tamad siyang tumingin sa'kin. I just offered a coffee! His blank expression gaves me a goosebumps. It's scary.. It's amazing tho. His long eyelashes and deep eyes!
I shrugged "May girlfriend ka na ba?" I curiously asked.
His brows furrowed like he doesn't like the way I asked. I shut my mouth off. It looks like there was a great barrier between us that I could not destroy because it was dangerous.
He chuckled "I don't do girlfriend thing.." he seriously said and looked at my eyes directly.
Parang isang yelo ang titig niya sa sobrang lamig... I felt like my whole damn body frozed!
I sighed bravely "Then what's your type?" because I can change.. just for you, only you.
He licked his lower lips and his jaw clenched "I don't like the girl who loves to drink alcohol." he huskily said "I don't want the girl to dress like it, " turo niya sa dress. "I don't want the girl who goes often to the club to party, " he continued "In short I don't like a girl like you. Masyadong risky.. Hindi ko alam kung dapat ba akong magsugal ng nararamdaman para sa babae na katulad mo. I don't want to waste my time for you..." He said with no mercy.
I licked my lower lips, My chest feels so heavy. I can't breath properly. Parang isang malaking bagay ang sinabi niya na nagpabara sa lalamunan ko. Parang kinukurot ang puso ko. Masakit na ha.
"Heart.." he called me, his voice is still like a music in my ears! "I just offered my help for you. I don't want to go deeper. Kung may kailangan ka pa.. as a friend of your cousin you can call me. Nasa tabi lang ako nitong unit ni Chave. No need to assume something, I still don't want you.." and then he turned his back leaving me with a parted lips.
My chest was overcrowded, I held on my tremble knees because I felt that I was really helpless. Will he ever be very painful to speak? It was it really heartbreaking to speak? Maybe I ask Chave? I felt the watering of my eyes. Throughout my life I have not received harsh words.
Yes. Sometimes other women have insecure about me but the man I want?
This is the first.
Wala naman akong iba pang ginagawang masama sa kaniya? Gan'to ba siya sa mga babaeng nagkakagusto sa kaniya?
Ang akala ko pwede na.. I thought he already give me a chance to prove myself. Maybe I really need to not assume? Don't assume..To don't get hurt...
MovedI blinked twice and swallowed hard. I felt like there's a big rocks inside my throat. He's too much na ha?I pouted and sat on the couch. Hindi ko alam bakit gan'yan na lang niya ako tratuhin. Yes, He can say it.. na tinutulungan niya ako but is it hard for him to be careful to say those words? Like I have feelings too! I'm not numb.How can I fell for that guy?!How can I fell to the guy like him?!He's too handsome and charismatic!He's too mean and so now I'm problematic!How I can hook his heart if in the first place bawal? He didn't let me in into his barrier...If he can't give me a chance for him to know more about me and even get to know him.Gano'n ba talaga? That there is time that you will be rejected. You understand that rejection but you don't want to believe it because... it's so painful.Kala ko pwede na.. maybe love does not provide pain, expectation can.I just stood up and went into Chave's room. Maybe I must first take a rest?I hope tomorrow pwede na.Hindi ko
WorkWearing my white slide slit maxi dress, I looked at the brown envelope that I holding on. I took a deep breath, Abot ata sa korea ang kaba na nararamdaman ko. Every steps, Napapapikit ako. I pulled the glass door. This is the first time I'm going to apply and I don't know if how I can handle this. I hope Magen will go easy with me.When I already entered, the smell of coffee immediately attacked my nose. It smell so good! Parang hinihila ako sa counter para umorder. I examined the place, it was vintage theme. There is a high chair and table that looks like used by a wooden materials. Damang-dama ko ang pagiging makaluma pero mayroong dating. This cafeteria looks cool! Magen have a good taste huh?Some customers parted their lips when they saw me. Of course they will. I knew they already notice my tiny waist. Actually, Some of my friends saying that I looked like a model and a very stunning women. I have a thick and strong eyebrows that makes me look fiercer. My color gray eyes sho
WaitressWe ended up here at the Robinson manila and I'm still thankful because my designer is free. I don't know what she's up to.. but yeah. She's not a famous designer but her designs are goods. I want her to be my designer everytime I want something new, she's a good friend of mine. I remembered when we're at the highschool. Parehas ata kaming nagkamuscle because of our research groupmates! The guts that my groupmates have! I will never forget that.I immediately looked at her when she sat down on the side of Chave. She's beautiful and I admit it. Well, I'm beautiful too but in my own way. We all beautiful in our own way and our own uniqueness. The only one who makes us ugly is the judgemental society and the only person who can pull us down is ourselves. No one else.It's all started with ourselves not with anyone. If you love yourself then anyone can accept you because in the first place you already accept yourself. How can others love you if you itself can't accept who you are?
LeftThe way he held his hand tightened to my hand I knew he was angry but why? did I do something bad? did I do anything ? last time I check i'm doing my job well! Kinagat ko ang labi ko ng huminto siya sa paglalakad. Ngayon ko lang napansin na he's wearing a plain white longsleeve and black slacks. Nandito kami kung saan ang locker area ng mga employee. Ang iilan ay nagulat pa dahil sa pagsulpot namin na agad rin na nagsilabasan.My heart is pounding so fast. I played my fingers because of the nervous that I felt. I swallowed hard and hoping to swallow all the nervous that I have inside my chest.Nakatalikod siya sa'kin but I still can felt the fire of madness. Kulang na lang ay umusok siya dahil sa sobrang galit at inis.Tinupi niya pa ng maayos ang longsleeve niya hanggang siko bago tuluyan na humarap sa'kin. Halos mapaatras ako ng makita ang mata niya. He staring at me darkly. He licked his lower lip and combed his hair using his hand.He sighed "W-why? I mean what the hell? Ba't
AgainI lifted my head and stare to the white ceiling. I blinked, I blinked twice... thrice before letting a heavy sighed while closing my eyes. I was about to take a nap when I heard my phone beeped.Even I closed my eyes the image of Magen and his girl still popping up in my mind. Wow, his girl? It's sound good sana kung ako 'yon but nah. I don't know why I'm really affected about it. Like I liked someone too back then but hindi naman gan'to na umaabot sa point na pinanghihinaan ako kumilos.Is she his girlfriend? I thought he said it's not his thing. I shook my head because it's driving me crazy. I immediately answered the call without looking at it."Where are you?" Nagmamadaling tanong ni Lami.I looked at I.d caller and yeah, I'm right. I sighed bago ibalik sa tapat ng tainga ang cellphone.I licked my lips "Just here at my unit doing some weird things like staring at the white ceiling and letting a heavy sigh escaped. Why? Do you have any probs?" Umayos ako ng upo bago mag-indi
WaveLiking him is like reaching a stars. So hard, so impossible and difficult. I don't know what's wrong with me? He let me saw his flaws but still... siya parin. I cleared my throat so I can go back to zero where I'm not feeling like this... but it's impossible too.I want to reset myself so I can prevent hurting myself. Ayaw ko ng gan'to because I know kapag mas lalo pang tumagal ay mas titindi pa 'tong nararamdaman ko sa kaniya. I don't want to take the risk but I think... I born to take this risk, again and again.I stood up and find Lami. I don't have enough strength to walk properly. A guy who called Magen help me to stood up properly. I just gave him a small smile as a thank you. Hindi naman ako nakainom masyado at ang pag-iwan ata sa 'kin ni Magen ang nakapagpahina sa 'kin. I can't help it.I took a deep breath and stare at my cousin who's busy laughing and talking to her friend. I tried my best to approach and convince her to drive me to go home in my unit. At first she didn
"It's Lonch's birthday, Wave. I'm bored to go upstairs with my cousins so I decided to stay at the pool area. Lonch told me something while he's beside Magen. Hindi ko alam, his charisma want me to worship him! Ang gwapo at ang linis tingnan even the way he looked at me feels like I'm in danger. Nakakatakot siya tumingin but still... you know ewan," Kwento ko kay Wave habang pinupunasan ang screen ng laptop ko.Nagvivideo call kami at nakapwesto ako sa veranda. Prenteng nakapatong ang laptop ko sa marmol na lamesa dito. We always like this if we have some free time. I saw how his brows furrowed while playing his lips. He looks expensive too! Tumayo ako saglit ang kinuha ang hair brush ko na nakapatong sa side table ng kama ko."He's not your type..." agad akong natigilan dahil sa mahinahon ngunit may pagtataka niyang boses. "Most of your exes are funny when you meet them." He added.I sat again on my chair and brush my long hair. "Yes, that's why I can't understand too! You know I mos
@iHeartHello babe, your beautiful girlfriend is now awake.When I hit the send button I immediately bit my lower lips as if I'm stepping on my own grave. I can't help it! Nanlaki ang mata ko, he just seen my message! He's active on instagram but he just seenzone me without saying hello too?! It's 10 o'clock in the morning and the first thing I did was to send him a direct message on instagram but he just ignored me?@iHeartAre you busy? Okay, I got it! Ingat ka mwuah!Ngumuso na lang ako ng biglang mag-active 1 minute ago ang active status niya. I just pouted when I put my cellphone on side table of my bed. I cover my body using a white blanket. I'm just wearing my simple night pajama as I stare at my phone screen and waiting for his reply even I know that he didn't."Heart!" I rolled my eyes when the door of my room opened and my cousin Hailey appeared.Where is my privacy?! They keep on going here without asking for my permission!"What?!" I hissed and closed my eyes.He just real
Dawn Magen's POV"Just sign the annulment paper! I want our marriage to be void!" malakas na sigaw ni Papa.Hindi ko alam kung saan ako pupunta. Mukha kasing nag-aaway na naman sila. I don't know what is the reason behind this. Ilang beses kona naririnig kay Papa ang pare-parehong sigaw na 'yon t'wing uuwi ako galing school. Mabuti nalang at maaga akong umuuwi kaysa kay Mint. Ayaw kong makita niyang ganito sila Mama.I'm still in Grade 5 and Mint is grade 1. Mas matanda ako sa kaniya ng limang taon. Masyado pa siyang bata para maguluhan sa nangyayari.Umatras ako palayo at bumalik sa gate. Ilang beses pa akong bumuntonghininga para makakuha ng lakas para makapagsalita."Mama!" malakas kong sigaw at pilit na ngumiti. "Sunduin na raw si Mint maya-maya sabi nung teacher niya! Nagugutom na po ako!" I added.Napalunok ako at malakas na kumatok sa pintuan ng kwarto nila. Nakuyom ko ang aking palad nang makita si Papa na ngumiti sa'kin. He is trying to end our family? Why?"Pa! Sunduin mo nga
They said was let the windblown you in any direction because love is like a wind. Ang pagmahahal ay mararamdaman natin pero kadalasan ay hindi natin nakikita because we are all blinded with all buts and what-ifs. Like, you love someone but... Someone loves you but.... and also You love someone, what if... Someone loves you, what if...We all chose to take a grip on the buts and what-ifs in our mind because of one reason. Iyon ay dahil natatakot tayong masaktan at umiyak. We are scared to experience strife, struggles, and failures so we kept on looking for possible preventive thoughts. Kasi gano'n naman talaga... gano'n naman talaga dapat.Sino ba ang hindi takot na masaktan at umiyak ng paulit-ulit because of someone? Who want to have a sleepless night? Who want to have a miserable life?The stiff breeze of salty air from the facade of the ocean kept on sweeping. Madilim na ang paligid kaya ang iilan na ilaw galing sa mga cottage ay nakabukas. The sunset is waving, beautifully.L
Time flies so fast, It's been a week since the video got viral. It's no big deal for me and my parents anymore. Maybe, we know if when we make that big deal that means we will be defeated by them.Well, I received many death threats from Tamara's fanbase. They ship Magen to Tamara easily! Ang daming kumakalat sa mga social media na mga edited pictures nila. Hanggang edit lang naman!They attacked me too, they message me on every social media account that I have! Kung ano-ano ang mga pinagsasabi nila and I just seen their messages. Minsan naiinis ako at gusto ko sila replyan but I don't want to join their clan. The keyboard warriors clan. So, it funny how I pissed them because they know that I didn't care at all. Go on... do whatever you want. The level of this issue is only on the lower part and it will puff nothing away from my previous experiences."Stop accepting that death threats," mahinahon na sabi ni Magen.I lifted my head when he entered my condo. Well, we want to catch up. Hin
"Miya, umuwi ka muna," napahilamos ako sa aking mukha.Nandito kami ngayon sa dining area. Nakaupo sa aking tapat si Hanz na katabi ni Miya. They offered a glass of water but I refused."Dito lang muna ako..." pilit niya na kinatango ko nalang.Napahilot ako sa sintido ko bago ipatong sa lamesa ang aking siko. I don't know what to do next and I don't want to do anything because I'm exhausted."Hayaan mo hanggang ngayong month nalang din ang contract ni Tamara sa Cole clothing. I'll never renew it. Lagi niya rin kasi inaaway si Chacha," Hanz uttered, softly.Hindi ko nalang pinansin ang sinabi niya. I don't want to hear even her name. I'm pissed because of her childish act. Wala naman akong gagawin na masama kung talagang sila ni Magen. I'm not that desperate anymore to beg for his love. Kung kami ay kami! Kung sila ay sila! I don't need to sugarcoat anything just to ease this feeling. I'm dissappointed and I admit it. Magen dissappoint me again."Bakit ka nandito?" mahinahon kong tano
Umiwas ako ng tingin at bumuntong hininga. I heard my cousins' giggles like they want what they heard. Tinutukso nila ako gamit ang tingin nila sa akin kaya mas lalo akong namula. Hindi na ako umimik kasi ayaw ko na patulan ang mga pang-aasar nila. I know that this time I can't win. They're good at teasing me to Magen at kahit baliktarin kopa ang lamesa na ito ay hindi ako mananalo."Gan'to, paunahan na makarating sa dulo ta's kailangan makuha 'yung red na ribbon na nakapatong sa dulo pero..." pagbitin ni Lami. "Kailangan na by partner then yung isa ay siya ang lalangoy ta's 'yung isa naman ay pabigat lang gano'n. So, papasan or kakapit 'yung isa sa likuran nung lalangoy.I don't want that idea since they're looking at me and Magen. They look like a push over."I don't want to---""Ang kj!" sabay sabay nilang sigaw.Narinig ko ang tawanan ng mga magulang namin. I just take a deep breath and nodded. Alam ko kung sino ang ipapartner nila sa akin dahil humawak na agad sila sa mga kapatid
He is wearing his usual black tshirt and cargo short partnered with his loafers. Hindi ako makagalaw habang pinapakatitigan ang maamo niyang mukha. Wala halos nagbago sa kaniya at kung mayroon man ay mas lalo lang siyang naging perpekto. I can't find any words. Ang malalim at maganda niyang mata ay pinapalambot ang expression niya. He formed his lips into a thin line before smiling like everything is alright. I avoided his lovable gaze and started to take a step. Palayo sa kaniya... dahil doon naman ako magaling. Ang lumayo kapag alam kong delikado na.It's been a years but still.. he is the one. No one can blame me about this, like.. what the hell?! It's been a years! Matagal na 'yon at impossibleng siya at siya parin ang gusto ko dahil.... walang impossible sa taong nagmamahal.Katulad ng isang maliwanag na buwan sa madilim na kalangitan... bumabalik at bumabalik parin."Heart!" my Mom called me as I got near them. Napatingin din sa gawi ko si Dad at sila Tito at Tita. I can't help
Napatingin ako sa mga alon na naghahampasan at gumagawa ng ingay. Ang malamig na hangin ay dinama ko nang dumampi ang mga 'to sa aking balat. Napangiti ako na umupo sa buhangin at pinagmasdan ang paligid. The smiles on the lips of everyone didn't fade they look happier while laughing and playing with their friends and families. I can't help but smile too before hugging myself. Sitting here feels good."Layuan niyo ako!"My eyes swelled before looking around. My heart pounds so fast while looking at the girl. She stepped back and the waves were already splashing his foot. There are two men around her. The first one is on her right side wearing a white T-shirt and jersey short while the other one is on the left side that is topless and wearing red basketball shorts. Suddenly my eyes landed on the woman wearing a silk dress and holding the hem of her dress so as not to be blown away by the wind. She is wearing her eyeglasses reason why I can't see her eyes and the length of her hair is s
Over the past few weeks my life has become quiet and some days I can hear the laughter of demons in my ears again. It's so hard because I don't know how long they will keep hunting me. Wala rin akong masyadong kinakausap kahit na umaakto silang lahat dito sa bahay na masigla. Halos lahat ng pinsan ko ay nandito pwera lang kay Hailey. Mom and Dad always peek at me in the bedroom every hour.I promised them one thing. that I don't even have to think about ending my life because I know it's all happening because there's a reason. My life matters in a different way. Ayaw kong tapusin 'yon ng dahil sa mga masasamang nangyari.I don't fancy ending my life. This world is chock-full of failure, strifes, and defeats but this is also a paradise and utopia. I'm exhausted of everything and I don't aspire to unite more suicidal and lethal solicitudes to my mind and soul. I must fight because I knew I was in the cryptic part of my journey and I was sure that there was a light waiting for me at the
---Napasabunot ako sa buhok ko at malakas na napasigaw. Umiling-iling na baka sakaling sa pag-iling ko ay maglaho ang mga tawanan na naririnig ko. I cried while running somewhere. Hindi ko na rin maintindihan ang malakas na pagkalabog ng dibdib ko. Hinihingal at namamawis na ako pero hindi ko parin alam kung paano tatakas ang mga tinig."Happy birthday!" Pumalakpak pa si Mom when my Dad exploded confetti on the air. I just shook my head and ignored them. I saw that they were next to Magen and my cousins but not Hailey. Tama lang! Dahil ayaw ko muna siya makita! Nagtama ang mga mata namin ni Magen na agad kong iniwasan. I restrained myself from approaching him and asking if he had treated the bruises on his face. Gusto ko siyang lapitan at yakapin. Gusto ko siyang kausapin pero pinipigilan ko hanggang sa makaya ko.Ngayon ko lang nakita ang hawak niyang cake na three layers. May mga bitbit din na mga refalo para sa akin. Alam kong naghanda sila para ngayon at nagbabakasali na magiging