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Have you experienced getting head over heels for someone?, getting knocked off of your feet?, for someone na hindi nagpakita ng kahit anumang interes sa iyo. For someone who never reciprocated your feelings.
FALL
Have you experienced falling for someone? ang kaso, hindi ka sigurado. Sa taong walang kasiguraduhan kung mananatili ba o iiwan ka nalang sa huli. Sa taong hindi sigurado kung masasalo ka ba o hahayaan kang mahulog mag-isa.
LOVE
Have you experienced that word?, Love. What a big word, right? everyone definitely experienced loving and being loved, but have you experienced loving someone who doesn't love you back? Even platonically.
CARE
Have you experienced caring about someone? too much, no less. Giving a damn about someone who doesn't even care whether you still exist or not.
CRY
And have you experienced crying over someone you think is totally worth all the tears, but really isn't?. Shedding tears over someone because he doesn't care about you.
PAIN
And pain. Have you experienced getting hurt? Pained expression. Pained body. Pained heart. Everything is hurting and it is all because of love.
INVISIBLE
Have you experienced being invisible?. You're here, but it is as if you weren't. The type of invisibility wherein you're the one who was there for him, but you're still not the apple of his eye?
BETRAYAL
Have you ever experienced trusting someone only for them to ruin your being, wreck your walls, and build trust issues inside you? how about trusting someone to the point wherein you cannot imagine that they'd break it sooner or later?, Because you trust them too much?.
GIVING UP
And have you ever experienced raising the white flag, a sign that you're giving up because of the constant heartbreaks? Because you know deep inside you, that you have no chance to win the fight.
REALIZATION
And one day you'd realize that you don't deserve any of this. Heartaches, headaches, anxiety, trust issues, and every sufferings he gave you. You'd realize that you deserve better. That you deserve the best.
And one last step---------
FORGIVE AND FORGET
Mahirap turuan ang puso. They say you are free to love anyone. Pero paano kapag nahulog ka sa taong hindi ka kayang saluhin — hindi ka gugustuhing saluhin?. Can we even dictate our hearts on who to choose and who to love?,
Ang puso ang pinaka-mahirap na turuan. Dahil imbis na makinig ito sa atin, kusa itong tumitibok para sa isang tao. Tamang tao man o hindi. Sa karapat-dapat man o hindi. Madalas tayong mahulog sa maling tao dahil akala natin sila na yung tama para sa atin, pero hindi.
Ang pagmamahal ay kahit kailan ay hindi naging mali. Love equates to pain. You can't say you love someone if you were never happy, and you can't say you love someone if you never get hurt. Love is pain; love is happiness.
Siguro mali dahil nahulog ka sa isang tao, sa maling oras, sa mahaling panahon at higit sa lahat, sa maling pagkakataon; there's no perfect time for love.
Kung mahal mo, ipaglaban mo. Pero dapat alam mo ang limitasyon. Kung hanggang saan ka lang talaga, kung anong lugar mo sa puso niya. Dahil kung wala talaga, dapat nang sukuan.
But, what if you wake up one day realizing everything isn't real? That you trusted the wrong person? Kakayanin mo bang magtiwala at maniwalang may rason ang lahat ng bagay?.
As Calissa Marie Phobee Hermosa once said, "Love is unpredictable."
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LIFE FULL OF LIES CHAPTER ONE
| Two years ago |"Calissa!, Come back!" Her mom, Carla, screamed yet to no avail. Calissa continued her quick pace, hopping unto her car afterwards driving on high speed. She parked her car, somewhere dark. She doesn't know where, yet her emotions are too overwhelming to even give a damn about her location. "I hate you! I hate you! I hate you!" She screamed at the top of her lungs, tears streaming down her face. "How... how could you do this to me?! To our family?!" She sobbed, voice barely coming out. "Why, why?! All my life... I believed in you... I trusted you..." She cried."Yet you lied! And that's not it... you ruined everything! You ruined my relationship! You cost me my relationship!" Pinaghahampas niya ang steering wheel. Frustration written all over her face. "Ralph, please come back..." Halos wala na siyang boses dahil sa kasisigaw niya. Kahit malabo pa ang paningin, pinagpatuloy niya ang pagmamaneho. Madilim. Malabo. Maski ang mga salamin. Hindi niya alam kung dahil b
Huling Na-update : 2020-08-13LIFE FULL OF LIES CHAPTER TWO
CALLY's POV"Whooooo! im thirsty !,"- Hinihingal na saad ni Alonica, paano ba naman tinakbo namin magmula sa floor namin, which is nasa 5th floor pa hanggang dito sa School Cafe ."Omyghod my poise!, Ate give me two bottled water!,"- Para na siyang naghihingalong ipis sa itsura niya ."Here,"- inabot niya sakin yung tubig, at deretso niyang nilaklak yung kanya, natatawa nalang ako sa itsura namin."That was tiring!, jusko pursanto, hindi ko alam na si Markus Nivera na pala ang nasa harap natin! how come, i didn't notice my beloved crushhhh!,"- irit pa nito, siya namang nagpalingon sa ibang tao na nasa cafe."What are you looking at!? back to your bussinesses!,"- parang boss na bulyaw nito ."Hoy! Halika na nga dito, pati mga nananahimik tinatakot mo!,"- tumatawang saad ko habang hinihila siya sa isang bakanteng mesa."Sino ba yung lalaking yun?,"- pagtatanong ko sa lalaking nakausap namin ."Dimo kilala ? taga bundok ka nga!HAHAHA !,"Bipolar-Flashback-"Asawa?, si Mariano?"Alonica a
Huling Na-update : 2020-08-13LIFE FULL OF LIES CHAPTER THREE
Calissa's PovKabadong-kabado ako habang nakatingin sa kaniya, no one can know about the wedding thingy or else klent might gonna kill me, bakit ba napaka Careless ko ! Whaaaaaaaaa! Alonica asan kana ba?."Its yours,"- sabi nito, sa tunong siguradong siguradong akin nga yun!"Ahh ehh --- How--- where--- when-- haysst where did you get this ?,"- Di makapaniwalang tanong ko."You drop it inside my car yesterday,"- deretso lang ang tingin nito, na para bang hinuhuli ang mga reaction sa mukha ko."Ahh t-thanks . Can i hand it na?,"- nahihiyang saad ko, kasi hanggang ngayon hawak niya parin yung wallet."Mhmmm,"- Tinitigan niya ang wallet, na para bang pinang iisipan niya kung ibabalik ba niya o hindi.Kinakabahan naku . Mukhan nakung dagang di maihi !"You can get this, in one condition,"- nang tumingin ako sa kaniya, nakangisi na ito sakin .Whaaaaa did he know something already? did he saw what's inside that wallet ?"C-condition? w-what is it?,"- kinakabahang tanong ko, kasi kinakabahan
Huling Na-update : 2020-08-13LIFE FULL OF LIES CHAPTER FOUR
"That you're Mariano's wife,"Expect kuna na ito ang sasabihin, at itatanong niya, pero bakit kinakabahan pa din ako?. Magrereact na sana ako when his continue talking."Am i right Mrs. Calissa Marie Phobee Hermosa- Mariano"Nanlaki literally ang mga mata ko, and i almost drop my jaw, how would he knew my full name?. I didn't even mentioned my real name."H-how would you know my full name?,"- parang tangang tanong ko, tumingin naman ito sakin, napa bang yun na yung pinaka hindi pinag-isipang tanong na narinig niya."I saw your I.D, inside your wallet,"Tsk i almost forgot, nakapaloob din pala sa wallet nayun yung mga I.D's ko before."Tama ba ako?, Phobee?,"P-phobee? bakit parang pamilyar sakin ang way ng pagtawag niya sa third name ko?."Your right, in what?,"- Ano bang malay ko, kung sa pangalan ba o sa tanong niyang asawa ako ni Klent, na mukha namang hindi tanong kundi confirmation na ."Klent Mariano's wife,""C-can i a-ask y-you a f-favor?,"- halos lunukin ko na lahat ng laway k
Huling Na-update : 2020-08-14LIFE FULL OF LIES CHAPTER FIVE
"My queen"- Napaangat ang tingin ko, ng bigkasin niya ang mga salitang yan, napakurap pa ako ng tatlong beses. At gustong manlambot ng tuhod ko ng ngumiti siya .Kyhaaaaaaaa!, ang pogiii ng hubby ko. Huuuuuu, kung ganitong ngiti ba naman ang makikita ko after ng bangayan namin, naku araw-araw nakung magpapasaway para lagi siyang magbunganga, at after ng catfight ganyang ngiti ang ibibigay niya."My what?"- Tanong ko dito, kasi baka iba naman pala yung dinig ko, masabihan na naman ako ng assuming!."My King"- Sabay ngisi nito,My king?, hindi ba't queen yung sinabi niya?."I told you to stop imagining things !"- saad nito, sabay pitik sa noo ko."Hey, you said My queen""Your acting stupid again. Do you even know how to read?"- he said, What does he mean."Ofcourse ! "- confident na sagot ko."Nakita mo na ba 'yang suot mo?"- nagtatakang napatingin ako lalo sa kaniya."Anong kunek ng suot ko?"- kunot noong tanong ko."Read it""Ang alin?"- lumapit siya sakin, at hinawakan ang ulo ko at
Huling Na-update : 2020-08-14LIFE FULL OF LIES CHAPTER SIX
Inantay kung bumaba ito ng kotse. Napangiti ako, lalo dahil katindig ito ni Klent, but it turns out that it wasn't him, instead it's MARKUS !.Disappointed?, hayst ba't kasi umaasa kang hahanapin ka nun?."Are you alright?,"- Tanong nito, tiyaka naglakad papalapit sakin ."Ahh, ee kasi ano -- nasiraan ako ng kotse,"- nahihiyang saad ko."Oh is that so? ,"-Sumakay ito sa kotse ko, at tinry i start ang kotse pero ayaw talaga."Ahm pauwe kana ba?,"- tanong nito."Yeah, nanggaling kasi ako sa japanese garden,""I'll drive you home,"- saad nito."huh?, how about my car?,""Kung okay lang sayo, iwan muna natin to sa malapit na talyer . May kilala akung malapit dito ipapahila nalang natin,"- tumango naman ako, mas okay na yun kesa gabihin sa daan. Pagdating namin sa talyer, pinakiusapan niya yung may ari tiyaka pinahila ang kotse."So tara na?, gabi na ano ba kasing ginawa mo sa garden?, nag sight seeing?"- sambit nito."Sort of!"- pinaandar niya na ang kotse, at nagmaneho papalayo."Alam ba
Huling Na-update : 2020-08-14LIFE FULL OF LIES CHAPTER SEVEN
Bago paman ako tuluyang bumagsak, alam kung may mga kamay na sumalo sakin. There's one person came up in my mind.Klent!------------->> ClinicThird Person's Pov"Nurse, how is she?, how's my bestfriend?"- Nag-aalalang tanong ni Alonica sa kalagayan ng kaibigan."She's just over fatigue, i think she didn't eat anything yet. She need a rest to gain her strength"- Sagot ng nurse sa kaniya, napatango-tango naman ito."How about her fever?, bumaba na ba?"- Markus Ask."Yes . Kelan pa siya nilalagnat?"- balik tanong ng Nurse, at sabay namang napalingon si Markus at Alonica kay klent na nakatayo lang sa gilid . Napalingon na din ang Nurse dito, marahil nagtataka ito kung bakit napalingon ang dalawa sa binata."Ah-ah kahapon okay pa naman po siya"- Si Alonica na ang sumagot, dahil baka maghinala ang nurse kapag si klent ang sumagot
Huling Na-update : 2020-09-07LIFE FULL OF LIES CHAPTER EIGHT
Alonica's PovHaysst! what on earth is going on, ang gulo ng lovelife ng bestfriend ko . Kaya nga ba ayuko magkajowa eeAs if Alonica, may nangahas maging jowa mo ! haysstPagbukas ko ng pinto ng clinic, tumambad sa harapan ko si Markus na nakataas pa ang kamay na sa hula ko, bubuksan niya sana ang pinto, but unfortunately nauna ang lola niyo, HAHAHAHA! (evil me)."Oh Markus, ba't ngayon ka lang?"- tanong ko dito, dahil anong oras na ngayon pa ata dadalaw kay Cally. Isa pa ito mukhang may gusto kay Cally girl ."Huh?"- nagtatakang anas nito."Kanina pa kita inaantay"- saad ko, mas lalo namang nagtaka yung itsura niya.Napaka inosente ng lalaking to."I mean, kanina pa gising si Cally hindi mo ba nareceived ang text ko?, tiyaka tapos na ang 15mins break ahh"- Napakunot lalo ang noo niya."Text?, Al
Huling Na-update : 2020-09-08
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LIFE FULL OF LIES EPILOGUE
Five years later"Its been along time, how are you?"Its been five years, since the day he left. Ang araw kung saan, sobrang sakit at pait nang lahat. Akala ko, pagkatapos nang lahat nang iyon ay magiging maayos na kami. But he left me, alone. Sobrang sakit at hirap, para sa aking mag adjust nang mag isa. Namuhay ako sa sarili naming tahanan, nang wala siya.I finished my studies. I graduated in collage without him, by myside. I lived my life, full of pain and regrets. Yung sakit na kahit sino man ay hindi kayang ibsan. Pagsisisi na mahirap nang maibalik. I love him, until now.And i'd waited for him, to came back."Yes, its been five years. And still, i can't forget you"
LIFE FULL OF LIES CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
"You must be my wife's, bastarda"Bastarda?, hindi naman ako putok sa buho, o anak sa labas. Unless fake ang kasal nila daddy."Nakuha mo ang pagmumukha nang ama mo. Akalain mo nga naman, hanggang ngayon humihinga ka padin, pagkatapos nang lahat nang aksedenteng nangyari sayo"- Sarkastikong sambit nito.He knew everything, i guess."Pero mukhang wala sayo ang swerte ngayon, ija"- sinundan pa nito nang pagtawa niya. Tawang nakakakilabot.Mag ama nga sila, parehong mga takas sa mental.Nagulat na lamang ako, nang pahablot niyang hinawakan ang panga ko. At, i swear to god. Ang sakit, halos maluha na ako sa higpit n
LIFE FULL OF LIES CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
Im totally lost. Until now, hindi pa din madigest nang sistema ko, lahat nang nalaman ko. From being felt betrayed, to broken family, until being loved by someone i couldn't chose before.*Bzzt, bzzt, bzzt*I look at my phone, and took it.1 message received, from unknown|Hi sissy, lets meet up. I'll text to you the address, aryt?. See you, lil'sis|I know, it was Margareth. Ano namang kelangan nito nang ganitong kaaga?. The heck.|1 hour later|What's with this girl?. She asked me to go to the abandoned building?. Ano namang gagawen ko doon?. Magkukwentuhan daw kami?. Hindi k
LIFE FULL OF LIES CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
"BECAUSE I STILL CARED FOR HER, AND I CAN'T STAND SEEING HER IN PAIN BECAUSE OF YOU AGAIN, ASSHOLE"Ano na bang nangyayari sa mga tao ngayon?."Do you think matatanggap ka uli niya after what you did?"- klent"I just did that because i don't have a choice, you know that. Of all people, ikaw dapat ang isa sa nakakaalam niyan, Mariano. You know, what we've been through.""But she's fine know, she totally forget about you, forget about everything.""Stop acting as if, you treated her so well. As far as i remember, you never been nice to her, since the day she chose me over you. You know what?, you just see me as a threat, kaya ka nakipag ayos sa kaniya hindi ba?. Your worried that she might like
LIFE FULL OF LIES CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
Calissa's Pov2 weeks. Its been two weeks had passed, simula nang mangyari ang insidente sa parking lot, and its been effin' 2 weeks, magmula nang kumalat ang isuue tungkol sa 'rumored' girlfriend ni Markus, and caught of being with klent. Hanggang ngayon, hindi padin matukoy kung ano ba ang dahilan nang nangyaring pamamaril, at nababahala na ang karamihan pumapasok sa school dahil doon."Let's go?"- aya ni klent. Palagi na talaga kaming sabay ni klent, pero sinasakto talaga naming wala nang masyadong tao sa parking lot, para iwas na din sa issue. Lalo pa't nababalitang ako yung rumored girlfriend ni Markus."Mhmm, tara na"- nakangiting ani ko, naglakad na kami papalabas nang bahay, sumunod naman si Manang para sana pagbuksan kami nang gate, pero napatigil si klent sa paglalakad nang tumunog ang cellphone niy
LIFE FULL OF LIES CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
Alonica's PovRinig na rinig kung nag announce na may kakanta daw muna, for introduction bluh bluh bluh."Asan si Cally?"- i asked Markus,and Steven, but they're both shrugged. Asan na yun?. Hinanap siya ng mga mata ko, and my eyes almost come out, when i found her standing at the center of the stage.What is she going to do there. Even Markus and Steven are both shocked. Naalala ko, inanounce na may kakanta. Don't tell me, its her. What the heck, hindi ito pwede. Tatabko na sana ako papunta doon para pigilan siya. But someone pulled my arm."Let me go ano ba?. She needs help"- pagpupumiglas ko."The help is already there"- napatingin ako sa stage at napatigil, when i saw C
LIFE FULL OF LIES CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
Calissa's PovThe next day morning, nanatili pa kami doon until 3PM, sinubukan naming mag jetski together, snorkling, and also diving. Naglibot libot din kami sa pamilihan to buy some pasalubong. This is the happiest memories that we shared together. Yung dating hinihiling ko lang, ngayon isa na sa pinaka magandang alaalang meron ako."Nag enjoy ka ba?"- He asked, nang makasakay na kami pareho sa kotse, babyahe na kami pabalik sa manila."Sobra pa, sa sobra"- nakangiting sagot ko sa kaniya, pero mas napangiti ako nang masilayan ko muli ang magaganda niyang ngiti, na kita pati ang kaniyang mapuputing ngipin."That's good to hear"- He said."Thank you for this day, thank you for making this day
LIFE FULL OF LIES CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
Calissa's Pov"Im sorry, and i mean it. I want to start a new one, with you. And this is the right time to do that"Paulit ulit yang nag eecho sa pandinig ko, hindi ko alam kung bakit pakiramdam ko, para itong musika sa aking tenga, ang sarap sa feelings.Andito ako ngayon sa veranda nang hotel room na pinareserved ni klent, meron itong dalawang bedroom. Dito din mismo sa resort, syempre tig isa kami ng kwarto. Kasalukuyan ako ditong nakatayo habang dinadama ang ihip nang malamig na hangin na dumadampi sa aking balat, habang tinatanaw ang napakalinaw na tubig nang dagat, nagtatayugang puno nang niyog, at may mangilan ngilan ding pool area na matatanaw, meron din itong cottage malapit sa mismong dagat. Makikita rin mula dito, ang iba't ibang nagtitinda nang kung ano ano, i think they're called it 'Changge/Tiya
LIFE FULL OF LIES CHAPTER THIRTY
Calissa's PovAng sakit, sobrang sakit nang ulo ko. Hindi ko din maidilat ang mga mata ko. Pakiramdam ko sobrang bigat nito.Haysst!, heto na naman ako, naaalala na naman ang kahapon.|Flash back|"Im going to leave you for awhile, for you to have space to breath and think. I know you need space for your self"- nilingon ko si Markus, nang sambitin niya ang mga katagang ito.Im very lucky, having a friend like him. Yung tipong wala ka pa mang sinasabe, pero nararamdaman ka niya?. I smiled to him."Thank you"- sambit ko, bago ito tumayo at umalis ay ginulo niya pa muna ang buhok ko.
