Amari Vann
I was awakened by the loud banging on my door, nagdadalawang isip pa akong bumangon pero nasisiguro kong kapag hindi ko hinarap ito ay sisirain nito ang pintuan ng tinutuluyan ko.I stood up and fix myself kahit papano bago naglakad papalapit sa pinto, habang papalapit ay rinig na rinig ko ang ingay ng mga kapitbahay ko na nagbi videoke.Napatingin ako sa orasan at nakitang mag aala-sais na pala ng gabi."Vann! Magbukas ka ng pinto!"Napasimangot ako bago binuksan ang pinto, mabilis na bumungad sakin ang malaking mama na halos araw-arawin ang pagpunta dito."Sir Alex, good evening po" sinubukan ko pa ding maging magalang."Kaunti na lang iisipin ko na pinagtataguan mo ako para di makabayad ng utang""Hindi po! Late na po kasi ako nakapag out sa trabaho kaya ngayon lang ako nagising-"Nasaan na ang bayad?" tanong nito sakin.I sighed bago ako naglakad papasok ulit at abutin ang pinaghirapan kong sahod para ibayad sa kanya."Ganyan nga" sabi nito bago inabot sa mga kasama nyang alipores ang sobre ng pera. "Babalik ulit ako next week-"Bakit ang aga naman po?""Baka inaakala mo ay malaki ang nababawas nito? Ni hindi mo pa nga nakakalahati ang interes ng utang ng magulang mo"I just bit my lip dahil ayokong pag usapan pa namin ang magulang ko dahil paniguradong kukutyain nya na naman ito."Gagawan ko na lang po ng paraan"Tiningnan nito ang kabuuan ko bago ngumisi."Ayaw mo pa kasing pumayag, kung papayag ka lang, isang gabi kasama ko at kakalimutan ko ang utang nyo, ako pa ang magbabayad sayo"Nag iwas ako ng tingin dahil parang hinuhubaran nya ako sa titig nya."Gagawan ko po ng bayad sa susunod na linggo"Humalakhak ito ng malakas."Kaya gustong gusto kita Vann! My offer is always open and available" sabi pa nito bago kumindat sakin at naglakad papalayo.Dahan-dahan akong napaupo sa sofa ko rito sa apartment.Isinubsob ko ang mukha ko sa palad ko dahil sa frustration.I am Amari Vann Reyes, mas madalas akong tinatawag na Vann or Vanny ng mga kaibigan at kakilala ko. I am 24 and I currently work as a Casino Dealer.My parents died in a car accident, leaving me with a huge pile of debt with that greedy Alex! I have a brother, his name is Lorenzo Gale, he just turned 17 yesterday and he is in coma.My poor little brother was with my parents, he was just 15 back then pero hindi na sya gumising. I know I should have given up already pero he is the only family left to me.Gagawin ko ang lahat para mai survive ang hospitalization at medication nya. Naniniwala ako na isang araw, gigising sya at magiging maayos ang lahat para sa aming magkapatid.Mabilis kong pinunasan ang mga luha ko na kusang pumatak, I really feel emotional kapag tungkol sa pamilya ko.Rest day ko ngayon, gusto ko nga sana mag RDOT pero walang available at isa pa birthday ng kaibigan kong si Hanna.Nung napakalma ko ang sarili ko ay inasikaso ko na ang susuotin ko para sa birthday party ni Hanna sa kilalang bar dito.I am going to drink tonight. I will not go home sober.Naghihintay ako ng pwedeng masakyan ng makita ko ang bulto ng mga tao na naglalakad papunta sa covered court dito.Hindi ko alam pero dahil mukhang wala pang available na masakyan ay sumunod ako.Maliwanag ang court ng mapunta ako, mukhang may bigayan ng libreng ayuda like bigas and food sa mga mahihirap na tulad namin.Ang hindi ko lang magets ay ang mga kababaihan at kabaklaan na posturang postura na akala mo ay may pupuntahang event."Grabe, hindi talaga nasayang ang boto ng mama ko, ang gwapo ni Congressman!" tili nung isang babae."Bawat parte at anggulo ay masarap" sabi pa nung isang babae bago nag lip bite."Theo, my baby""When kaya ako naman ang iboboto para sa kanya""Asa ka pa ghorl! Sa sobrang gwapo nyan, mga bigatin din ang idi date"I shook my head, bakit ba ako pumunta dito? Makaalis na nga lang at baka may sasakyan na sa labasan.I was about to turn around pero laking gulat ko nung may masalubong akong malaking lalaki na may buhat na sako-sakong bigas.His built is so strong kaya nung bumangga ako ay sigurado akong tatalsik ako pero laking gulat ko ng may isang kamay na mabilis na humawak sa braso ko, pulling me to stop me from falling."Awwwwwww!" halos mabingi ako sa tilian ng mga tao."Dumating na si Congressman Art!""Congressman, my loves!""Kagalang-galang naming kongresista, handa akong magpalapastangan sayo"Mabilis akong kinabahan and when I finally got enough courage ay dahan-dahan akong nag angat ng tingin, mula sa braso ko patungo sa kamay na nakahawak doon hanggang magtama ang paningin naming dalawa.Tila nanlambot ang tuhod ko.Ang gwapo, jusko!Matangkad, perfect body built, not too small and not too big, hair jet black hair is adding more to his appeal. Matangos na ilong, mapulang labi and his black eyes can already speak authority kahit pa nakangiti ito sakin.I've heard na gwapo daw ang congressman namin dito pero wala naman akong pakielam sa politika kaya I didn't pay attention, ni hindi nga ako bumoto.If this guy is our congressman, bakit sya nag congressman?! Sa gwapo nyang ito, mas bagay na nag artista or model sya."Miss? Are you alright?"Lord, pati boses ang gwapo."Huh?""Nasaktan ka ba?" mabilis pero marahan nya akong nailipat sa harapan nya, he is checking to see if I am alright pero ang tanging naririnig ko ay ang bulungan ng mga tao at ang mahihinang impit na kilig ng kababaihan sa paligid namin."Ang swerte ni ate girl""Ang lapit nya sa soon to be husband ko""Sana all ate!""Ang gwapo talaga ni Art!""Pasensya na talaga Congressman Art and miss" nakalapit na sa amin yung lalaking bumangga sakin."Ayos ka lang din ba?" mabilis naman na tumango yung lalaki. "Mabuti naman, next time mas mag iingat ka na lang""Yes sir""You? Ayos ka na ba?" he looked at me again, his smiles are making my heart flutter, ang weird!"A-ayos lang ako" sa wakas nakapagsalita din ako!He chuckled dahil kabang-kaba ako, binitiwan nya na ako pero I can still feel his touch.Ano Vann? Love at first sight yan?"Here" nagulat ako ng i lift nya ang isang bigas, I think this is 5 kilos.Nag-aalangan man ay inabot ko yung kabilang dulo, he is holding the other end."But I am not here for the rice" bulong ko dahil wala akong balak magbitbit ng bigas."Then why are you here then?"I bit my lip and looked at him, narinig nya ako."I was bored"Mahina lang ang usapan namin kaya sigurado ko na hindi kami rinig pero ramdam ko na ang masasamang titig ng tao sakin.Crush sya ng bayan, baka nga ng mundo pa! Ano pa ba ang ie expect ko?"Not to see me, I hope"He smiled at me.Ang weird! Both of us looking at each other, while we are holding a goddamn small pack of uncooked rice."Ano?""Nothing, you look beautiful when you blush"He added before he gave me a playful smile.Why do I feel like I am in danger?Why do I feel like my heart is in danger?Amari VannPlayboy.That is what that guy or that Congressman is.Umiling ako ng bahagya habang lulan ng taxi.When he smiled at me, ay mabilis kong binitiwan ang end ng hawak naming bigas, akala ko ay mababagsakan sya but he is strong enough to hold it.Mabilis ko syang tinalikuran, ignoring all the stares and side remarks of the people around us."Dito na lang po kuya" sabi ko sa driver kaya mabilis naman syang nag park sa harap ng bar.Almost 9PM na din ng gabi.May mga guards sa harap ng bar at alam mo agad na hindi basta-basta ang bar na ito, pang mayayamang tao lamang. Hindi naman na nakakagulat dahil Hanna's parents are rich, naging magkakilala kami dahil madalas ay kasama sya ng mom nya pag nagkaka casino. Mabait ang pamilya nila, they helped me on several occassion na din lalo na pagdating kay Enzo. "Good evening ma'am, pangalan ho?" tanong sakin ng guard."Amari Vann Reyes" Mabilis itong bumaling sa hawak nyang listahan ng guests and he browse through it nung mukhang nakit
Amari Vann"Enzo, gumising ka na ha? Kailangan ka pa ni ate" I bit my lip and stopped myself from crying while I am holding my brother's hands.Bumisita ako sa kanya today, halos every other day naman ay nandito ako to check him.He is so thin, almost lifeless pero alam kong lumalaban sya, lumalaban sya para sakin, para makasama ako."Ms. Reyes" napalingon ako sa tumawag sakin at nakita ko si Dr. Toledo na main doctor in charge kay Enzo."Doc, good morning po""Wala ka bang pasok sa work today?""Mamaya pa hong gabi ulit, kaka out ko lang po, marami pong customers ang casino kagabi""I see, dumaan ako para makausap ka""Kung pipilitin nyo ako to give up on my brother, I won't do that, hindi ko po gagawin iyon" I firmly said to him.He smiled. He is around 40 I guess."You're a good sister, a tough woman" he commended me. "I am here for the opposite reason, I am not sure pero merong sikat na method from US, marami ang nagigising from coma, it is a therapy and I already spoke with the d
Amari Vann"Vann, you look pale, ayos ka lang ba?" tanong sakin nung isang katrabaho ko rito sa casino.Kasalukuyan kong nilalagay ang gamit ko sa locker room namin. I am wearing a sexy black dress na isa sa mga uniform namin. We have 7 uniforms para sa 7 days na araw.Kakapasok ko pa lang pero gusto ko na mag out dahil nanghihina ako, hindi ako makakain ng maayos dahil lahat ay isinusuka ko.Hindi ko pa alam kung anong gagawin ko sa batang nasa sinapupunan ko, ni hindi ko nga siguro kung may sapat na nutrients akong naibibigay sa kanya dahil I barely eat at stress na stress ako."Kulang lang sa tulog" pagdadahilan ko."Okay, sa VIP table ka ulit ano? Madalas kang i request nung mga bigatin nating kliyente, baka may mag offer na sayong asawahin ka nyan"I just laugh and shook my head.To be honest, I get that kind of offer a lot. Sex in exchange for money pero dahil naniniwala akong kaya ko ang expenses ng kapatid ko at I way back then ay virgin ako kung kaya naman ang dali kong tangg
Amari Vann"Enzo, you have to be tough for ate, okay? I will figure something out, just hang on, okay?" I told my brother as I brush his hair using my hands.Bumisita na naman ako dito sa ospital dahil when I talk to my brother even if he is in deep sleep, I feel the comfort dahil alam kong nakikinig sya sakin, alam kong humahanap din sya ng paraan how to get back to me.I have to help my brother, ako na lang ang meron sya at sa estado ng buhay na meron ako ngayon, I cannot bring another life here in the world as of the moment.That's why,That's why I decided for I believe one of the hardest decision in my life.That is to abort my unborn my child.I know it's wrong at walang kinalaman ang dinadala ko but I cannot afford to bring another person in this world, knowing that I cannot even take care of myself, my life is miserable. How am I supposed to make a good life for my child lalo na ngayon.Just by thinking that I will do this, makes me sick about myself so much pero mas ihi hate
Amari Vann"What makes you think that this is yours?""You are indeed pregnant""You are not the father""Stop lying to me, Amari!"Natakot ako sa pagtaas ng boses nya pero ayokong magpatalo, alam ko ang papasukin ko kapag sinabi ko sa kanyang anak nya ito. I will ruin a relationship at mas lalo lang akong hahamakin ng lahat."I slept with several man after you kaya posible ang sinasabi ko, can't you just accept that, Congressman Art?""Amari" he called me in a calmer tone now. "Uulitin ko, ayoko sa lahat ng taong niloloko at pinapaikot ako""Does it matter kung sino ang tatay ng dinadala ko?""Of course! Dahil kung anak ko ang dinadala mo, I have every right to know!""Anak mo man o hindi, it wouldn't change anything, alam mo ba ang gagawing gulo kapag nalaman ito? Kaya mo bang iwan ang girlfriend mo para sa batang to?""So, that is what you want, huh?""Hindi! I am just letting you know of the consequences if you continue to ask your question. Tahimik na ang buhay natin, wag na natin
Amari Vann"Why did you agree?" may bahid ng inis ang tono ni Hanna."Why not? It is for the best" sagot ko sa kanya. I sat down para itiklop yung iba ko pang damit. "Tama si Art, dapat lumayo ako dito dahil malamang pag-usapan ako ng mga kapitbahay ko""It doesn't have to be that way, may karapatan ka kay Art""Ano bang sinasabi mo, Hanna? May girlfriend yung pinsan mo""But he got you pregnant, you are carrying one of the Dela Cuesta. Alam mo ba ang ibig sabihin nun sa pamilya namin? We don't allow bastardos or bastardas in the family and to avoid that, for sure the family would want you both to get married""Hanna, baliw ka na ba? Fine, you have that family paniniwala pero ayoko ng makagulo pa, nagkasundo na din kami ni Art""Hays! Kung hindi lang talaga kita bestfriend, hindi ako papayag sa ganito" nag pout ito bago nagpatuloy sa pagtulong sakin mag empake ng gamit.We were interrupted by a loud knock.Mabilis na tumayo si Hanna to open it at sumalubong sa kanya si Sir Alex."Oh b
Amari Vann"Enzo is all settled now, pwede mo ng ipahinga ang isip mo, Vann" Hanna told me kaya napatingin ako sa kanya."Mas lalo lang magagalit sakin si Art kapag nalaman nyang tinulungan ng parents nya ang kapatid ko, I won't be able to clear my name to him""Pero you can't keep working, Vann! Crucial ang first stage ng pagbubuntis, do you think mas mapapatawad ka ni Art kapag may nangyari sa baby nyo?"Huminga ako ng malalim. Isang linggo na ang nakalipas and I was forced to stay in the Dela Cuesta's mansion while they all prepared the papers for our marriage.I deactivated my social media dahil sa dami ng mga taong nangba bash sa akin. I didn't know kung paano nila napapayag si Art sa ganitong agreement pero nagulat pa rin ako ng sya mismo ang humarap sa mga tao to let them know he is getting married to me.Pinalabas nila sa lahat na matagal na kaming magkarelasyon at dahil nasa tamang edad naman na kami, we both want to settle down na. All is good sa side ni Art, a lot of people
Amari Vann"Amari, good afternoon" nakangiting bati sakin ni Nana Belen."Good afternoon ma'am" bati naman sa akin ni Ate Susan, sya yung mid 30s na katulong sa bahay."Magandang hapon ho" bati ko sa kanilang dalawa, parehas silang abala sa pag aayos ng salas.Isang linggo ang mabilis na lumipas, hindi naman na ako kinukulong sa kwarto pero hindi lang ako lumalabas kapag nandyan si Art. Halos kumaripas ako ng takbo kapag narinig ko ng nagbukas ang gate na hudyat na paparating na si Art."May gusto ka bang kainin ma'am?" tanong sa akin ni Ate Susan."Wag ng ma'am, Ate Susan, parang hindi mo naman alam na asawa lang ako sa papel" sabi ko at pekeng ngumiti, may sasabihin pa sana ako kaso parang hinahalukay ang sikmura ko at kusa akong napatakbo sa sink para sumuka."Mukhang pinapahirapan ka ng pagbubuntis mo, Ate Amira" mabilis na nag abot ng tissue sakin si Lena. Mas bata ito sa akin ng dalawang taon, pamangkin ito ni Ate Susan, dito sya naninirahan sa bahay ni Art at tumutulong tulong
Art Theodore"Life is what happens when you’re busy making other plans, the famous John Lennon said. I used to think otherwise dahil just like what everybody used to know about me, I like everything to be planned out, I do not like when things go the opposite way" I told everyone.It was just one regular day for me. I was just visiting one barangay to give some rice and groceries sa mga mamamayan.I was greeted by a lot of people except for one person who seemed to be lost in the crowd.I was simply trying to flirt with her but I guess it didn't work dahil nilayasan nya ako. That was the first time that somebody did that to me.I even asked myself kung bakit sobrang interested ako sa babaeng yun, but maybe it is because I am lonely, I just got out of a long term relationship with Mira.I don't know what made me attracted to her so bad. I thought we won't see each other again, but fate have its own way to play with people like me.I was so selfish to blame her and made it difficult for
Amari Vann"Mrs. Dela Cuesta, do you want to drop by anywhere before we head home?" one of Art's security asked me."Uh yeah, I want to go to this dessert cafe, may gusto si Tatiana na cheesecake" I told him and then I showed my phone.May kinausap sya gamit ang communication system nila, telling them that we will reroute dahil dadaan nga sa cafe.I was surprised by Art's announcement, hindi ko alam kung anong pumasok sa isip ng lalaking iyon pero hindi ko ipagkakailang natuwa talaga ako. He finally told everyone who am I to him. Dati, iniisip ko lang kung darating ba yung araw na magiging proud sya sakin at hindi na ako itatago sa publiko.I used to think that meeting him was a mistake, na ikinagulo lang ng buhay namin parehas ang pagkakamaling iyon but it turned out na, it was our fate. It is our destiny to be together, ang bumuo ng isang pamilyang parehas namin poprotektahan.I was lost in my thoughts and a loud sound made me deaf for a couple of seconds. I just felt the car makin
Amari Vann"I am delayed"That's what I told myself while staring at the mirror in the bathroom.What am I thinking? Sunod-sunod na kasi ang naging pangyayari that I literally ignored all of the symptoms.Just thinking about the possibility na buntis ako ay may matinding kabang bumabalot sakin.Art and I just got back and I don't know if it would be alright to surprise him with the news, if ever that I am.Naghilamos ako at nag decide ng bumaba para mag breakfast. I want to eat strawberry taho pero I know magiging hassle lang at kwestyonable kapag naghanap ako."Good morning mama!" masiglang bati sakin ni Tatiana.Mabilis naman na nagsilingunan ang mga taong kasama nitong nag aagahan. I smiled at them.Mabilis na tumayo si Art para salubungin ako, he immediately kissed the side of my head."Good morning Adi" he greeted me as he intertwined our hands guiding me to the dining table."Good morning po" I greeted everybody."Good morning hija, we are very thankful, you allowed us to visit
Amari VannMabilis kong pinahid ang takas kong luha. Ang emotional ko naman grabe.Art kneeled in one knee to level himself to Tatiana's height."Happy birthday, my princess""B-but are you really my papa?" That's the first word that came out of Tatiana's mouth. "Why didn't you tell me right away the moment that we met?"Art chuckled probably amazed by how witty my daughter is."Because I have to see first if you've been a good girl""And you still came even though I'm not a good girl" Tatiana's face is about to cry pero mabilis itong yumakap kay Art.The people around us started clapping as if they are on a show right now pero their claps slowly faded away as I focused on the two of them. Art was looking intently at Tatiana's face, memorizing every inch of it. He then turned his gaze to me and looked at me with a look that warmed my heart, he looked at me as if he is really proud how I raised Tatiana."Have you met Daddy Equinox? I think you and him will get along very well" Tatiana
Amari VannParang tinakasan ako ng lahat ng tapang at lakas ng loob ko ng marinig ko ang sinabi nya."She-she's not-"Please don't do that, Amari- we both know that she is mine, I don't know how this possible pero nararamdaman ko, the moment I saw her, ramdam kong akin sya so please just don't lie"I looked at Art and I can see confusion and frustration in his eyes."Art""Just please, I am begging you" he clasped both of his hands as if praying to me. "Anak ko yun diba?"Huminga ako ng malalim."Yes, Art. Tatiana is your daughter"Mabilis nyang naihilamos mula sa mukha nya papunta sa buhok nya ang mga palad nya and then he breathed in and out slowly as if calming himself."Aren't you going to ask how did I conceived Tatiana?"Tumingin sya sakin bago isinenyas ang kamay na magpatuloy ako."We stole your sperm donation for Mira years ago. Hanna was the one who brought it to me in Russia"His jaw literally dropped when I told him that na parang lahat iyon ay naging kasagutan sa mga tano
Nanatili ang paningin ko sa batang nasa harapan ko.Itinabingi pa nito ang ulo nya na parang nag-iisip din kagaya ko."I- I'm sorry, sir, baka nakukulitan ka na rito sa alaga ko" biglang sumingit yung nanny."No, it's fine" umayos ako ng tayo to get a better look.Ang imposible, napaka imposible ng nasa utak ko. Hindi ko napapansinb napapailing na ako."What did you say your name again?""I already said it mister, my name is as expensive as I am""Tati, let's go na hmm? Pasok na tayo ha tapos diba isusukat natin yung damit mo para sa birthday mo" her nanny told her.Nabigla ako ng magpapadyak ang bata."I told you nanny, I don't want to celebrate my birthday, I just want to go back to Russia!" pagkasabi nito ay mabilis nitong tinakbuhan iyong katulong.Mabilis naman itong sinundan ng huli and I remained on my position.Trying to erase the odd and impossible thought in my head.Maybe Amari just used some part of my name dahil lagi naman syang vocal how much she loves my name.I breath
Amari Vann"It's alright, Hazel" I told Art's sister while hugging her. "Tell Mommy Maureen that I forgive them, things happened and the only thing I or we can do is move forward""Ate Amari, sorry sa nagawa ni Kuya Art""Don't apologize on behalf of him, if I know your kuya don't feel sorry about what happened""Hindi ko talaga alam ang nangyari ate kasi alam naman namin that he only followed that woman to protect us, we can't believe as well na mabubuntis nya pala"Just hearing the last word send pain throughout my whole system."I can only wish your kuya happiness now, and give his freedom for their baby""Ate" halos maluha na ito. I hugged her one more time."Pursue your passion, hmm? Sige na, ipapahatid na kita" I told her and then she nodded.Nung maiwan ako ni Hazel ay syang pagpasok naman ni Equinox, looking so handsome dahil bago ang haircut nito."Ang gwapo mo naman senator""As always" mayabang nitong sagot kaya parehas kaming natawa."That's right, spend your time going on
Art TheodoreI was awakened by a soft knock in our door. A part of myself don't want to wake up but I know that I have to at some point.I pulled her closer to hug her tighter, gumalaw ang ulo nya kaya akala ko ay magigising sya pero hindi, she looks so tired and yet having her here brings peace sa panandaliang panahon.A knock interrupted my thoughts again kaya wala na akong nagawa kung hindi mag t-shirt para pagbuksan kung sino man ito. I covered Amari with the comforter dahil malamig pa rin sa kwarto.I opened the door to see Nana Belen, Ate Susan, and Lena at the door, all smiling brightly at me."Uhm g-good morning?" I gave them a confused eyes."Ay-ay good morning Kuya Art" Lena greeted me first."Good morning Art hehe" Ate Susan gave me an awkward smile."Magandang umaga hijo" Nana Belen greeted me. I nodded kaya naman tila natauhan ulit sila. "Anong gusto mong agahan?"Mas kumunot ang noo ko dahil sa tanong ni Nana dahil madalas naman alam nya na kung anong ihahain para sa alm
Amari Vann"I like the weather in here, mama"Nilagay ko ang cellphone ko sa bulsa ng coat ko pagkatapos kong magsend ng text message kay Art."I thought you prefer the winter in Russia" I asked Tatiana."Yes but the weather here in the Philippines is perfect for beaches and I want to go to the beach on my birthday" Tatiana jumped out of excitement."We'll go to the beach, anak""Will my papa come this time mama?"Parang kusang may kumurot sa puso ko dahil sa tanong nya.I knelt down to level myself so I can see her better."A-akala ko ba galit ka kay papa, you always say that-kaya akala ko""I am mad at him because he missed four birthdays already, he didn't bring me to school on my first day, I have no father on family day and even if I have Tito Rozen, Tito Raegan, Tito Enzo, and, Daddy Equinox,I feel like it would be better if I have my dad""Tati" mabilis kong niyakap ang anak ko."Can you tell him mama to stop flying airplanes for other people and just fly our private plane? I'l