Watching the gooey slimy things slowly,dripping down my books , I hardly suppressed a groan . I couldn't believe it , fine , I can but it was starting of our final year. You might think that after tormenting me for continuous two years these people would finally get bored, find a new target and move on.
While I wasn't supportive of bullying , I didn't want to be alone in this shit .The black sheep in the hoarde of white ones . Suppressing the shudder that was running through my body with the prospect of taking my book outta that lube covered locker , I simply thrust in my hand and ughh...
Just disgusting .
Thankfully; with my last fiasco of finding my locker in used condom ,atleast I learned my lesson to cover my books with something before leaving my school . You can never be sure of what people were goinf to slip in your locker when you are on their hit list you know .
I squashed my urge to puke that was building in and thrusted my book in my bag ; with an audible bang to let whoever pushed that lube in my locker ; that I wasn't happy with this 'prank' of his/her and they successfully pissed me off , I turned around to walk down the corridor .
People parted ; some even turned around to run in the opposite direction when they saw me approach , oh they weren't afraid of me not at all. They were only afraid to be seen together with me , to be associated with me in any fucking way , Like everything that was happening to me was my fault.
It wasn't , I did nothing to deserve this , it was them who should be avoiding my eyes, to walk away the opposite direction when I approach them but they weren't instead it was me who was turned into a complete outcast . If you want to ask me what was going on , I have to explain from the beginning .
You see my mum divorced my dad or more like it was my dad who had an affair with my mum's best friend and had a daughter with her . With that it was impossible for my parents to stay together , or maybe it was since my mother was all set to keep their marriage together ; only if my father sent his mistress away .
He didn't though ; who in their right mind would keep a woman who had long losr her youth in taking care of you , having three kids for your sake instead of the woman who still looked well kinda maintained ,no one, okay?
My dad didn't either instead he divorced my mum the fastest way possible and moved here in Austin . However; my mom never forgave my dad for it and thus after years of saving money ; we moved from Wimberley to Austin .
Major stalker alert , I know .
But my mum wasn't the clingy ex , oh no . She was a typical woman who wanted to show my dad that he made the wrong decision , that the children she gave birth to were better in every sense than his lover's daughter , In short she was simply obsessed with making my dad green with regret.
It wasn't easy if you ask me if not for my nanna having a home here, we would still be in a tough spot .I wanted nothing more then to go back to where we were instead of living here in a place full of strangers.
While my dad moved here when my half sister was still young ; I came here just two years ago ; meaning I was the outsider , the one people keep at bay . No matter how hard I try I will always be the stranger that they want no association with ; something my mum simply doesn't understand. Maybe things might have gone okay, if not for me being the stuck bitch people think I am .
In my defence; after seeing my parents marriage falling apart , I took refuge in those romantic stories ; which screamed about true love. With those books as my only companion and my regular visits to church, I became your neighbourhood's goody two shoes .
All I ever wanted was to find myself a good ; responsible man who will fall for me just the way I'm , let me feel the amazing feeling that we all call love before I walk down the aisle sharing our first kiss together and ending my walk through the virgin road .
However, things went out of control when Jacob Knight pulled me in his strong muscular arm and kissed me right in front of the entire student body in the school grounds
. I should have been blessed , I should have thanked the Lord for letting Jacob knight kiss those awful lips of mine but instead I slapped him .
Yes, I slapped the QB of the Longhorn team and boy , they weren't much happy about it . Well ofcourse who cares that the said asshole forcefully kissed me in front of the entire school? Jacob Knight with his Gorgeous stormy gray eyes and black tousled hair was given a free chit while I was turned into the school infamous 'Bella ; the Wadding' ton' .
I wasn't waddington , My name is Bella , Bella Hamilton and I don't weigh tons not at all ,I was simply curvy with a shorter and stockier body but no where curvy. But these assholes weren't the brightest bulb in the box , one will set the tone around and the others will simply follow along .
Stupid jerks.
Turning around the corner , I made my towards English class but my body reacted faster before my mind could as it stopped right before entering .
With gorgeous smiles, handsome face and a lot more money to burn , the four kings all together were sitting in the middle of the room .
The four and I
Author's note : I do not support bullying or any form of bullies .
My breathe hitched, My body screamed at me to turn the fuck around and never ever come in the vicinity of these four asshole ever again, since the last time didn't go oh too well .But my pride ; my stupid fucking pride didn't agree ; I was the victim here , it was him that stupid asshole who was laughing at whatever shit his friend Conan Salvador told him the cause of all this shit that was happening to me . I m not going to run away , my body screamed in protest but I willed it to move inside the class , the moment I took those small baby steps , the laughter stopped , cue my nervous sweaty hands .They should have continued on but instead I felt four glares aimed at my direction especially one of them seemed to be much more dangerous than the others .Instinctively, I wanted to run away but all the same time I didn't want to let them know that they were getting to me .Thus, I straightened my back a little and kept walking only to
Once Mr .Hussain is done with his lecture , I didn't even wait for him to end the class .Grabbing my backpack ;shoving everything in just a single go .I make my way out of the class, no , let me corect myself I don't make my way , I run clearly afraid of the infamous QB to set his eyes on me once again .Twice was enough , I tell my heart .With just these two encounters with Jacob Knight , I feel as if I have just stepped out of a freaking whirlpool ;my emotions were a mess , my pride was humiliated and I was feeling real low and God forbid , I never felt this low never in my life not since my father abandoned us in that small town without once looking back .I trudged my way to the parking lot , I knew that if I leave now I will be missing on half of my classes and I wasn't someone who cut their classes but I believed I deserved to cut some slack after being groped and touched against mywill , Jacob Knight never intended to go over the f
What are you doing here" once I'm sure that my mum is out of earshot , I confront Jacob once again ."Told you ; I wanted to return your book" shrugging with an innocent expression that might have fooled half of Austin's population he answers me ."I call that bullshit ; Knight and you know it , forget about the book we don't have chemistry together ! "The only period that I have with this asshole is Maths we don't share classes for chemistry and I would be lying if I say that I wasn't Thank ful for it ."Ah ; knew something was off , didn't pay attention while I was grabbing it " he murmurs"You broke in my locker!"I screech in complete disbelief .He simply rolls his eyes at me as if my reaction to him breaking into my locker and messing around with my things was over the top ."Is this fun to you ?"I demand ;wanting to know whatever reason this creep has followe
Nothing could have been daunting then me standing in front of my locker watching a huge ass poster sticking to it , it wasn't a poster ofcourse ; it was a photo taken from a rather misleading angle .People were crowding around me ; laughing ; giggling and not giving a fuck about the truth and why will they ? People don't care about what the truth is , they only care about what they believe it to be." Hey ; teacher's whore !" someone , maybe a Knight ass licker calls out to me but I ignore him ; instead I rip off the poster sticking on my locker ; crumpling and throwing it in dustbin .More laughter .My agony fuels their laughter ;I knew that much but never did I thought that they will go so low one-day .Maybe I should have known , people like Knight have no such thing as sense of propriety. I turn around wanting to find Jacob and give him another taste of my slap but before I could someone grab my hand and pull m
"Are you alright ?" Selina who has followed me to the girls bathroom asks worriedly ." Do I look alright to you ?" after the whole fiasco of apologising to Jacob, I wasn't surprised at finding myself feeling terribly sick .Wiping my mouth on my sleeves,I growl at her " apologise to him and everything will be fine ? Yeah right !"" Look at least he will be off your back now " she informs me .I simply rolled my eyes at her .Off my back or not , I had a feeling that the saga of Jacob Knight wasn't going to end in my life just like this , I didn't know why I felt this way but I just did .Thankfully; Selina was understanding enough that I wasn't willing to talk it out with her and decided to give me my personal space ; which I decided to use up by spending my time in the library , part of the reason was I wanted to finish my assignment , part of it was Because I wanted to avoid the school population
I'm feeling stronger than ever ; ever since everything started . I don't know how , I got through my high school without Ron, I love Selina and yes I will take a bullet for her if possible but Ron was different , with Ron there was much more laughter and a lot more fun .If my mother knew the company I was keeping she would have screamed ; yelled and bellowed at me , about how she expected better from me and my company , especially when Ron was always high on his shit.Selina too disapproved of him at beginning but with time she slowly opened up and accepted this new addition in our already really small friend circle .Today, I was feeling a little more proud of myself , I knew that Jacob Knight had knocked me down but I didn't stay there for long , I picked myself and walked away but what I didn't know that today was the day my doom begins ." What's going on? " I asked to no one in particular. After finishing my h
" What's was that all about ?" asked Selina who fell a step behind me , her tone inquisitive ." Maybe he is so upset that its messing with his brains " I could only offer her this , Because I knew that there was a trap in laid there , Jacob Knight won't ask me on a date for no reason because I wasn't the girl who will get the guy .The guy I deserved was most probably someone who will work a 24 *7 job in some stupid boring company not the one who rattles my entire body senses with his gorgeous smile .And Jacob Knight most certainly falls into the latter category , with his razor sharp jawline sharp enough to cut glass and stormy gray eyes in which a person can practically lose himself .Selina looked at me ,as if she knew what was going on my mind but thankfully she doesn't say anything to me , good , I don't need her pity .But down deep down , I couldn't help be disappointed at the giddiness that was enveloping
In the morning I woke up refreshed, my heart a bit at ease .Even though I kept recalling yesterday for the entire night and finally came to conclusion of ' Let's just forget whatever happened ' because I had no other choice , not against who shall not be called by his anymore .After a very serious pep talk with myself , I decided that no one - including ,-The one will break me .My father abandoning us didn't and neither will Jacob . I had enough and I wasn't going to play along with him not now , not ever .I drove to my school , nerves jangling but still stride inside the school with my head held high .The cat calls of ' Bella the Waddington ' starts but I ignore them , they were no
EpilogueOne year later“What I’m trying to say is you can’t blame me for this !” exclaimed Jason , almost lunging at his girlfriend ‘s throat “ you are trying to argue with me with your so called theory but I’m telling you its not gonna work . If you gonna counter my theory you better prove it with real facts not ideologies “I grinned as Alicia gripped her head and groaned , like her head was going to explode any moment because of all the stress and frustration her boyfriend was giving her . Their debate session are always intense despite how loving they are out of the debate club , once inside - oh boy , they would be ready to lunge at each others throat and if I didn’t knew better I would have taken them as mortal enemies .They have never met a topic where the two of them would be able to cordially agree with each other . At first everyone was alarmed and worried when we firs
Bella“ Holy sizzles “ gasped Selina “ you look so beautiful ““ I know right “ said Adriana as she swiped her fake tears with her forefinger “ this is my master piece ,simply flaw-fucking -less amazing “To add to the effect she even sniffed” are you ready ?”Of course I was , this morning Adriana had stormed inside the room that I was sharing with Selina . I have told her in passing that I was going to do my makeup on my own - and believe me the girl squawked so loudly she was one pitch lower than the seagulls .If I wasn’t ready after all that , then I would never be ready . I nodded and once I did , Selina and Adriana grabbed my shoulders before turning me around to face the mirror .And I only had one word in my mind - Gorgeous .The solid champagne slit dress indeed flattered my curves , somehow it made me feel beautiful yet sexy at the same time . A
Bella“ It was the wedding dammit ! “ shrieked my mother “ I wanted you to be beautiful , I wanted you to feel beautiful ! Have you seen Lily ? She looks beautiful , she is healthy and active . The second she appeared in the wedding hall everyone’s gaze was locked upon her and she wasn’t even the bridesmaid ! What about you where were you ? I will tell you “ pointing her fore finger right at my face , my mother snarled “ you were being ignored , everyone was ignoring you despite Jennifer standing next to you because you are not what this society calls beautiful and healthy . You are average Bella , just average ! Do you want to be average ? Because I don’t ! I want my daughter to be beautiful and healthy , the centre of attention ! Even now the doctor can blame it all on the medicine but if you ask me , I say that it was all because you were so heavy . It wasn’t the side effect of the medicine that I gave you , No matter how much those doctor insist it is until they turn bl
Jacob“ Okay first question , exactly how much ICD one needs to overdose and die ? “ I asked but then furrowed my brows “ guess what that’s a stupid question isn’t it ? You can’t answer anyway . So “ I shrugged casually “Let’s see what exactly is the level of ICD overdose ,I can find it myself no need to trouble you “Wilkins ‘s eyes got as wide as saucers as he started to moan continuously , his eyes darting to the door and back to me .“ Ah , you better stop doing that - Grampy “ I told him with a warning note in my voice “ if something happened to you right now , you don’t even have someone to plan your funeral tonight “His eyes widened but he stopped struggling . His body went slack , and his chest rose and fell with uneven breaths . His eyes locked at the needles in my hand .“ that’s a good grampy “ I cooed soft
Bella" I think I will - umm , go ?" said Anna as she walked past Ron without waiting for an answer from me . I wanted to ask Ron , what was that about but the expression on his face made it clear that he didn't want to talk abut what happened just now .So , I swallowed my questions back . Instead I smiled at him " Hey , how are you doing ?"Ron who was still looking over his shoulder , turned his head back at me and smiled back " come on short stacks , is this question something you should be asking ? Instead it should be me asking , how do you feel after beating the death 's ass ?"I sit up a little more comfortably and flash him a victory sign " It feels awesome , I was -"I couldn't even get the words out because he already has his arms wrapped around me so tightly , that it was becoming a struggle to breathe ." I was so scared ,Bella .. just so scared " he said , his shoulders shaking as he rested his head on m
Bella" when I almost lost you , I realised how much I needed you " he said resting his forehead against mine " I didn't think about it while you were right by my side , but when I thought I was going to lose you , I realised that I never told you how much I need you "" I know , that already Jake "" Throughout my life I was scared about needing someone , scared that someday someone would want me and I would want her too "" I know that too "" No , you don't get it " he said nuzzling his head to my neck as he let his head drop down " You have no concept of how much I need you , if you knew you wouldn't be so calm , it would scare the hell out of you . It scares me too "" well , if it makes you feel better . I feel the same " All my life I have fought my battles alone , I have been disappointed so much by my family that I grew resistant even at the thought of needing someone . But Jacob was essential for me ." Glad
Jacob“ Hey , I’m back mum “ standing in front of the white headstone without Dante was awkward enough . But I knew I had to be here because she had always been there for me , I placed the bouquet of roses on her grave . My chest was rippling with so much relief and gratitude than ever before “ just so you know , I’m going to fulfil that promise the one that I made to you . I will study hard and inherit Dante -no Dad ‘s company and be a better man and son , a son you can be proud of ““What I want to say - oh to hell with this “ I wasn’t the emotional type and with all the errs and momentary pauses I was certain that my mum must be laughing at me if she was watching me right now “ What I want to say , is thank you . “ I looked at her grave before looking up at the blue sky “ Thank you so much mum , I know you came through for me …I know you did “Because she had
JacobI knew that this was real selfish on my part but you know what fuck it , because if I don’t put a stop on my pain right now , it will keep brewing until I was on the verge of dying with it . So better just end it before it becomes too much for me to handle .“ Mom , you don’t owe me a damn thing . But if you really have a pull up there I need you to string it up for me -please bring her back to me because I need her “ still leaning against the cold marble tomb , I uttered my final plea “ if you bring her back I will try my best to be a son that you can be proud of , so please tell that guy to return her back , I will do anything -please mum “Nothing , not even a flicker of grass or any soft caress of wind flew next to me . And I knew she didn’t hear it , And honestly I didn’t blame her because if I was in her place where my own kid loved my murderer instead , I wouldn’t listen to his damn ple
Jacob"I know you will be really pissed off about this but honestly I don't care because I have been pissed at you all my life and couldn't do a thing to you so yeah - that account is settled . Now we are going to talk about the new one -Bella , she is really a good person , she is loving , compassionate and caring - something I can't say about myself " I stopped breathing hard as emotions clogged my throat , I cleared it before continuing on with my speech that I have prepared after thoughtful consideration " and she is mine , you hear me mine not yours and you have no right to take her because -" my vision went hazy and something warm and wet trickled down my cheeks . I inhaled sharply staring down at the wooden flooring away from the altar " because she is my everything . I know people shit around the word ' love ' a lot now a days but this different . I have already promised her a future together and I can't fulfil that one promise if she is not by my side . " my voic