Nothing could have been daunting then me standing in front of my locker watching a huge ass poster sticking to it , it wasn't a poster ofcourse ; it was a photo taken from a rather misleading angle .
People were crowding around me ; laughing ; giggling and not giving a fuck about the truth and why will they ? People don't care about what the truth is , they only care about what they believe it to be.
" Hey ; teacher's whore !" someone , maybe a Knight ass licker calls out to me but I ignore him ; instead I rip off the poster sticking on my locker ; crumpling and throwing it in dustbin .
More laughter .
My agony fuels their laughter ;I knew that much but never did I thought that they will go so low one-day .Maybe I should have known , people like Knight have no such thing as sense of propriety. I turn around wanting to find Jacob and give him another taste of my slap but before I could someone grab my hand and pull me out of the school entrance .
" Selina!" I cry out for my best friend to stop dragging me away from them but she doesn't stop instead she increases her force.
" What were you going to do ?" she demands at once we reach the parking lot out of earshot from people .
" To teach Knight a lesson ! what else !"
" Bella, listen you can't fight them , listen to me I know, you will hate me for this but do whatever Knight asked you to "
" No; no , no , after everything he has put me through ? you want me to apologise to him? of all people ???" I look at Selina , as if seeing her for the first time . She looks the same with her caramel hair and brown eyes, but something tells me she wasn't the same, the Selina I know will never back down without a fight , not when she did nothing wrong.
" I know but just think about it ; this entire things has been spread over the school forum ; Bella use your brains; you're off to California, unlike them you've worked your ass off for this shot , and this - this will certainly harm your chances to get in yoyr dream college" rubbing her face with her hands Selina wheedled .
" You want me to back down ?" I knew where she was from coming from and she was correct but bowing my head down to knight and apologising to him , didn't sit all to well with me .
" Bella, your future or your pride , what matters you the most ? " steeling herself as if she was getting ready to do something really desperate Selina asked me .
" My future !" I answer without much thought
" Exactly ! so what if you have to apologise to him ? as long as he stops , let me tell you something Bella ; you don't want to make an enemy out of those four assholes, you - they can be much worse then this and if you think they did their worse to you, you're wrong they haven't, not yet . Until now it was only their minions but they can seriously make your life hell if they themselves walked in, whatever is going on between you and knight " said Selina quite belligerently .
" You talk as if you know everything about them !" I love my best friend, I really do but from a couple of days I just can no longer comprehend her anymore ; she was acting scared as if something or someone was out for her blood .
Selina opened her mouth violently as if she wished to throw a hurl of diatribe at me but maybe she thought better of it and stopped.
" Look" she holds up her hand in an attempt to explain " I was with then in junior high and I can assure this is not their worst, truthfully, They are just playing around with you right now , Bella - i - I won't hurt you , will I ? Please just please end this "
I open my mouth once then twice but I wasn't able to think of anything to counter what Selina has said, she was right , rather than getting involved in this childish games with Knight, it was better for me to focus on what lays ahead of me . Knight didn't had to work his ass off for a scholarship in California , I had to and I knew that my seat will be at stake if this rumour were to drag on .
" Alright, I get it " It kills me ; I haven't done a damn thing wrong but for the better good , I had to bow down .
For the millionth time in my life , I realised how unfair life was . People with either power or money can do whatever they wanted to and in my case; My bully had both of these and Me? I was a nobody .
The next thing I knew , it was half past ten and the bell to lunch has rang , I couldn't understand where did my entire morning go? The thought of apologising to Jacob knight was dreadful enough but to make things worse my anxiety was high on rollercoaster . Hands shaking , legs trembling and my entire body was quivering .
I hated when it happened but there was no other choice , Knight only gave me time till lunch was over and I was damn near sure that , That bastard will revoke the deal even if I was a second late , if possible, he might be thinking of what to do tomorrow, so he can make my life even more hellish than it already was .
Finding Jacob wasn't difficult even without my lack of arrival at the cafeteria for the past two years , their table was right at the centre, where all the popular jocks belonged.
" Go on" Selina pushed me from behind in a fail attempt to boast my morale but I ignore her ,I love her but I was feeling a little more resentful towards her for stating the fact as off they were and pushing me to my apparent doom . I trudge towards their table a rather too reluctantly .
And he caught my eye , before anyone else , was it only my imagination or his stormy gray eyes just turned a shade darker ? cocking an eyebrow he smirks, dipping down he locks his lips with the school queen bee and my half sister Anna Parsons .
small world ? Nah .My mother deliberately put me in this school knowing my father new daughter went in this school . She wished me to put this girl down with my academic performance but what my mother didn't know that ; Anna cares about her studies as much as Jacob knight cares about his visit to church , which means none .
I wanted to turn around and leave but I speed up instead ; the sooner i get this done with the better .
Surprisingly ; none of the members of football team cat calls my new found name, instead they totally ignore me , which was completely fine by me . I stood in front of Jacob but apparently the latter was too busy sucking my half sister's face off that he missed my arrival, standing there I felt my face burning not because of anger but shame., never have I ever seen two people kissing like that .
Not wanting to enjoy the 'show ' Jacob was putting on , I let my eyes wander to Conan Salvador, the only person in the team, I considered as a little sane . Conan must have felt my gaze but he didn't look up from the book he was currently reading . I let my mind wander as I take in his brown hair, chiseled jaw line and dark chocolate eyes .
" Ahem " I jump at the loud cough only to notice a tad belatedly that Jacob was done putting on the PDA and was glaring at me .
" You want anything ; Waddington ?"
'Yeah ; I want you dead ' knowing I couldn't speak out my inner thoughts , I take a deep breath and force out the apology that I have practised as a monologue , for the rest of the morning .
" I want to apologise to you , what happened two years ago was my fault; It was only a dare I shouldn't have reacted in such an over ' exaggerated 'manner ; I hope you will be the bigger person and forgive the lowly me " The apology wasn't sincere at all , It was barely forced out through the gap between my teeth and I was damn near certain that my expression was none other than my poker face .
" Hey Waddington ; that apology is a bit insincere , why don't you get down on your knees just like you did for professor Brown , maybe we can make do with it ?" a member of the football team shrieks in delight and I ignore him , my focus is on my tormentor who looks a little too pleased with himself .
Which only proves my theory of him being a sadist .
" Shut up , Shutton . Jake doesn't need a teacher's whore to suck him off ; do you honey?" batting her eyelid Anna speaks in a soft simpering voice .
Now I have nothing against blonde , My elder sister is blonde , my brother is one too but I totally do not understand why , just why , a pretty blonde is always titled as Queen bee .
" Am I forgiven ?" I ask again . Jacob flashes me a smile ; the one he uses to charm everyone but I wasn't fooled . I know who he was and my thoughts weren't going to change .
" You know what Waddington , I agree with Shutton, your apology is a tab bit insincere " still grinning he says .
My grip on the strap of my bag tighten a bit , I was afraid that I will end up throwing it on his face .
" I sincerely apologise to you , Knight" this time I spoke a lot more clearly , I wasn't stupid and I wasn't going to answer with 'what do you want ' , it will only make me get entangled with him and I did not want that .
" Fine " shrugging a bit he agrees " but i hope you keep away from my sight , its a big turn off for me "
" Sure " I knew it , he wouldn't agree to it without putting my self respect down , without letting his team mates laugh at my expense but I wasn't hurt , not anymore .
I hate Jacob Knight and he can go to hell for all I care .
"Are you alright ?" Selina who has followed me to the girls bathroom asks worriedly ." Do I look alright to you ?" after the whole fiasco of apologising to Jacob, I wasn't surprised at finding myself feeling terribly sick .Wiping my mouth on my sleeves,I growl at her " apologise to him and everything will be fine ? Yeah right !"" Look at least he will be off your back now " she informs me .I simply rolled my eyes at her .Off my back or not , I had a feeling that the saga of Jacob Knight wasn't going to end in my life just like this , I didn't know why I felt this way but I just did .Thankfully; Selina was understanding enough that I wasn't willing to talk it out with her and decided to give me my personal space ; which I decided to use up by spending my time in the library , part of the reason was I wanted to finish my assignment , part of it was Because I wanted to avoid the school population
I'm feeling stronger than ever ; ever since everything started . I don't know how , I got through my high school without Ron, I love Selina and yes I will take a bullet for her if possible but Ron was different , with Ron there was much more laughter and a lot more fun .If my mother knew the company I was keeping she would have screamed ; yelled and bellowed at me , about how she expected better from me and my company , especially when Ron was always high on his shit.Selina too disapproved of him at beginning but with time she slowly opened up and accepted this new addition in our already really small friend circle .Today, I was feeling a little more proud of myself , I knew that Jacob Knight had knocked me down but I didn't stay there for long , I picked myself and walked away but what I didn't know that today was the day my doom begins ." What's going on? " I asked to no one in particular. After finishing my h
" What's was that all about ?" asked Selina who fell a step behind me , her tone inquisitive ." Maybe he is so upset that its messing with his brains " I could only offer her this , Because I knew that there was a trap in laid there , Jacob Knight won't ask me on a date for no reason because I wasn't the girl who will get the guy .The guy I deserved was most probably someone who will work a 24 *7 job in some stupid boring company not the one who rattles my entire body senses with his gorgeous smile .And Jacob Knight most certainly falls into the latter category , with his razor sharp jawline sharp enough to cut glass and stormy gray eyes in which a person can practically lose himself .Selina looked at me ,as if she knew what was going on my mind but thankfully she doesn't say anything to me , good , I don't need her pity .But down deep down , I couldn't help be disappointed at the giddiness that was enveloping
In the morning I woke up refreshed, my heart a bit at ease .Even though I kept recalling yesterday for the entire night and finally came to conclusion of ' Let's just forget whatever happened ' because I had no other choice , not against who shall not be called by his anymore .After a very serious pep talk with myself , I decided that no one - including ,-The one will break me .My father abandoning us didn't and neither will Jacob . I had enough and I wasn't going to play along with him not now , not ever .I drove to my school , nerves jangling but still stride inside the school with my head held high .The cat calls of ' Bella the Waddington ' starts but I ignore them , they were no
By the time I'm out of class and down the corridor,far away from Jacob and his sadism , the adrenalin washes away , and my smile slowly dims as I just realised what in the frickity frick I just did .I kicked Jacob Knight .I kicked Jacob fucking Knight in his fucking balls .I groan . I crouch down hiding my face in my hands and groan out , what was wrong with me , that guy was a fucking psycho and I had a first class experience of it , when he set me against the odds and it was when I only slapped him , now what will happen to me , with me kicking him in his balls ?My hands are sweaty , I can feel that much against my face .I'm still busy with the aftermaths of my adrenalin rush but then I hear voices coming out from not too far away and from the sound of it , It looks like a lovers quarrel .Not wanting to trespass on something so private , I rise bu
Jacob starts to walk in our direction but Conan grips his wrist, and with a shake of his head stops Jacob from coming at us .I'm thankful to him even though he made my best friend cry . I had enough on my plate with Ron throwing me together with him down the bus , And wasn't sure if I wanted to have Jacob thrown into the loop as well . It was funny how , I was so scared of him when considering how I once stood my grounds against him .People cat calls behind me as I help Ron into one of the desk , right in front of me . But thankfully, the sweet lord above me has finally gotten bored of putting me up for this shit , as Mr .Hussain walks right into class silencing everyone with his glare .I take the seat behind Ron's and hope for this period to pass as peacefully as it can but then , a shadow very much like the devil looms over my head , I didn't even need to raise my head to know who it was as Jacob's citrusy scen
Jacob brings me to the boys locker room .I know I shouldn't be there , all alone with him but considering how he had ignored all my calls about talking right out in the football field .I knew I had no choice ." Inside, Princess " he opens the door to the locker room and motions with his hands for me to enter it first, I shouldn't have , instead I should have taken a turn and ran away from him . But the stupid moron , I was , I walk right into the tiger's den .The locker room smell exactly as I imagined it will , the overpowering smell of sweat and musk with a twinge of something odd invades my nostrils the second I enter the locker room.Jacob follows after me and I hear a familiar click of as in ' door clicking shut ' click . I don't think he will shut the door , Jacob, himself had once said that there was no way he will be interested in chubby chicks like me , if that was the case I don't
BellaHave you ever been whacked by a baseball bat ? Because that's how I was feeling right now . It was as if someone has just sledgedhammered me.My mind was blank , my heart was dancing conga and my legs ? They were just numb . Clutching Jacob's shirt , I slid down the floor of the locker room , considering my slight mysophobia , my arms should have broken down with goosebumps but right now I was much too entangled with the shit that just went down with Jacob .The indecipherable look Jacob just threw my way had my breath go shaky , my hands were trembling and I was barely holding on to my rationality .When I walked inside the locker room letting Jacob have the leverage to corner me like he just did , I wanted freaking answers to my questions . I wanted to know why he made me the school's punching bag and why was he being so difficult to understand , what was wit
EpilogueOne year later“What I’m trying to say is you can’t blame me for this !” exclaimed Jason , almost lunging at his girlfriend ‘s throat “ you are trying to argue with me with your so called theory but I’m telling you its not gonna work . If you gonna counter my theory you better prove it with real facts not ideologies “I grinned as Alicia gripped her head and groaned , like her head was going to explode any moment because of all the stress and frustration her boyfriend was giving her . Their debate session are always intense despite how loving they are out of the debate club , once inside - oh boy , they would be ready to lunge at each others throat and if I didn’t knew better I would have taken them as mortal enemies .They have never met a topic where the two of them would be able to cordially agree with each other . At first everyone was alarmed and worried when we firs
Bella“ Holy sizzles “ gasped Selina “ you look so beautiful ““ I know right “ said Adriana as she swiped her fake tears with her forefinger “ this is my master piece ,simply flaw-fucking -less amazing “To add to the effect she even sniffed” are you ready ?”Of course I was , this morning Adriana had stormed inside the room that I was sharing with Selina . I have told her in passing that I was going to do my makeup on my own - and believe me the girl squawked so loudly she was one pitch lower than the seagulls .If I wasn’t ready after all that , then I would never be ready . I nodded and once I did , Selina and Adriana grabbed my shoulders before turning me around to face the mirror .And I only had one word in my mind - Gorgeous .The solid champagne slit dress indeed flattered my curves , somehow it made me feel beautiful yet sexy at the same time . A
Bella“ It was the wedding dammit ! “ shrieked my mother “ I wanted you to be beautiful , I wanted you to feel beautiful ! Have you seen Lily ? She looks beautiful , she is healthy and active . The second she appeared in the wedding hall everyone’s gaze was locked upon her and she wasn’t even the bridesmaid ! What about you where were you ? I will tell you “ pointing her fore finger right at my face , my mother snarled “ you were being ignored , everyone was ignoring you despite Jennifer standing next to you because you are not what this society calls beautiful and healthy . You are average Bella , just average ! Do you want to be average ? Because I don’t ! I want my daughter to be beautiful and healthy , the centre of attention ! Even now the doctor can blame it all on the medicine but if you ask me , I say that it was all because you were so heavy . It wasn’t the side effect of the medicine that I gave you , No matter how much those doctor insist it is until they turn bl
Jacob“ Okay first question , exactly how much ICD one needs to overdose and die ? “ I asked but then furrowed my brows “ guess what that’s a stupid question isn’t it ? You can’t answer anyway . So “ I shrugged casually “Let’s see what exactly is the level of ICD overdose ,I can find it myself no need to trouble you “Wilkins ‘s eyes got as wide as saucers as he started to moan continuously , his eyes darting to the door and back to me .“ Ah , you better stop doing that - Grampy “ I told him with a warning note in my voice “ if something happened to you right now , you don’t even have someone to plan your funeral tonight “His eyes widened but he stopped struggling . His body went slack , and his chest rose and fell with uneven breaths . His eyes locked at the needles in my hand .“ that’s a good grampy “ I cooed soft
Bella" I think I will - umm , go ?" said Anna as she walked past Ron without waiting for an answer from me . I wanted to ask Ron , what was that about but the expression on his face made it clear that he didn't want to talk abut what happened just now .So , I swallowed my questions back . Instead I smiled at him " Hey , how are you doing ?"Ron who was still looking over his shoulder , turned his head back at me and smiled back " come on short stacks , is this question something you should be asking ? Instead it should be me asking , how do you feel after beating the death 's ass ?"I sit up a little more comfortably and flash him a victory sign " It feels awesome , I was -"I couldn't even get the words out because he already has his arms wrapped around me so tightly , that it was becoming a struggle to breathe ." I was so scared ,Bella .. just so scared " he said , his shoulders shaking as he rested his head on m
Bella" when I almost lost you , I realised how much I needed you " he said resting his forehead against mine " I didn't think about it while you were right by my side , but when I thought I was going to lose you , I realised that I never told you how much I need you "" I know , that already Jake "" Throughout my life I was scared about needing someone , scared that someday someone would want me and I would want her too "" I know that too "" No , you don't get it " he said nuzzling his head to my neck as he let his head drop down " You have no concept of how much I need you , if you knew you wouldn't be so calm , it would scare the hell out of you . It scares me too "" well , if it makes you feel better . I feel the same " All my life I have fought my battles alone , I have been disappointed so much by my family that I grew resistant even at the thought of needing someone . But Jacob was essential for me ." Glad
Jacob“ Hey , I’m back mum “ standing in front of the white headstone without Dante was awkward enough . But I knew I had to be here because she had always been there for me , I placed the bouquet of roses on her grave . My chest was rippling with so much relief and gratitude than ever before “ just so you know , I’m going to fulfil that promise the one that I made to you . I will study hard and inherit Dante -no Dad ‘s company and be a better man and son , a son you can be proud of ““What I want to say - oh to hell with this “ I wasn’t the emotional type and with all the errs and momentary pauses I was certain that my mum must be laughing at me if she was watching me right now “ What I want to say , is thank you . “ I looked at her grave before looking up at the blue sky “ Thank you so much mum , I know you came through for me …I know you did “Because she had
JacobI knew that this was real selfish on my part but you know what fuck it , because if I don’t put a stop on my pain right now , it will keep brewing until I was on the verge of dying with it . So better just end it before it becomes too much for me to handle .“ Mom , you don’t owe me a damn thing . But if you really have a pull up there I need you to string it up for me -please bring her back to me because I need her “ still leaning against the cold marble tomb , I uttered my final plea “ if you bring her back I will try my best to be a son that you can be proud of , so please tell that guy to return her back , I will do anything -please mum “Nothing , not even a flicker of grass or any soft caress of wind flew next to me . And I knew she didn’t hear it , And honestly I didn’t blame her because if I was in her place where my own kid loved my murderer instead , I wouldn’t listen to his damn ple
Jacob"I know you will be really pissed off about this but honestly I don't care because I have been pissed at you all my life and couldn't do a thing to you so yeah - that account is settled . Now we are going to talk about the new one -Bella , she is really a good person , she is loving , compassionate and caring - something I can't say about myself " I stopped breathing hard as emotions clogged my throat , I cleared it before continuing on with my speech that I have prepared after thoughtful consideration " and she is mine , you hear me mine not yours and you have no right to take her because -" my vision went hazy and something warm and wet trickled down my cheeks . I inhaled sharply staring down at the wooden flooring away from the altar " because she is my everything . I know people shit around the word ' love ' a lot now a days but this different . I have already promised her a future together and I can't fulfil that one promise if she is not by my side . " my voic